I think I didn't love you enough.

In the quiet of the night, I flipped through my old journal entries. Five years have passed in a flash, and the memory of that night I had a heart-to-heart talk with my wife is now blurry. I only remember finally bringing up the idea of a threesome, and my wife didn't get angry but calmly talked to me, which relieved me.

However, nothing progressed after that, because another person joined the family, so the topic was never mentioned again. Until recently, when the topic resurfaced, my wife's reaction was much more indifferent than a few years ago. Before, she would at least try to engage verbally during our threesome, but now she mostly just smiles or ignores me. Once, she even got angry. That time, she was riding on top of me, moving back and forth, and I said, "Do you want to find a strong man to have sex with you?" My wife angrily retorted, "Do you still want to do it?" I was speechless with embarrassment, and that threesome ended abruptly.

A few years ago, when I discussed the threesome with my wife, after I gave her a long explanation, she asked me, "Are you trying to convince me, or are you trying to convince yourself?" Actually, that is indeed a question. For a long time, my thoughts have been wavering. Sometimes, when I'm in a rage, I crave to see my wife writhing and responding to another man, imagining a single man sending her to ecstasy in various positions. But other times, I feel it's just satisfying my own selfish desires, and subjecting my wife to such abuse is unfair and harmful. Sometimes when I watch threesome videos, I imagine my wife as the female lead, but other times I have no such thoughts at all, completely indifferent to threesomes.

Several years have passed, and we've both aged five. Changes in my career and family life have put me under immense pressure these past few years, making things incredibly difficult. Reaching middle age, and with a particularly unlucky year, I haven't had the energy to think about threesomes. The affair that began at the beginning of the year only exacerbated the situation. Only in the last two or three months, after finding a new business direction, has there been a slight rebound and signs of stabilization.

Without job and family stability, threesomes are a complete mirage. But that doesn't mean that stable income and a stable family guarantee a threesome. Having the idea alone isn't enough to make it happen. Over the years, through conversations with many single men and couples, I've gradually gained some insights.

I must say, through the 69park community, I've actually made several friends, not just casual buddies. One of them added me five years ago when I first considered threesomes. In the past five years, nothing has actually progressed, but we still chat frequently. They constantly encourage me, which is truly invaluable. We can be friends, respecting and trusting each other, chatting easily and enjoyably.

Many of their suggestions and perspectives may not ultimately convince my wife to accept or participate in threesomes, but they have inspired reflection on our marital relationship. One guy who likes fitness told me that his wife doesn't accept my ideas because she lacks security, which stems from a lack of trust in me, and this lack of trust stems from not making her feel loved enough. He even offered advice and taught me some heartwarming actions. This is completely different from the suggestions some single men give, like introducing their wives to other people in the community.

I felt the fitness guy's words struck a nerve, something I'd intentionally or unintentionally neglected for years. Leaving aside the issue of threesomes, even in everyday life, persuading your wife to make an unprecedented decision is incredibly difficult, isn't it? You can give a long list of reasons and logic, but if she doesn't believe you, what can you do? Like in everyday arguments, men often say women are unreasonable—this is a rational way of thinking, considering whether something is reasonable and right. Women, on the other hand, think entirely on emotion, not logic, focusing on feelings, whether they like it or not.

So, no matter how many reasons a husband gives, such as providing a better sexual experience or that two men serving one woman will make her more satisfied, the wife might only feel that her husband doesn't love her anymore, wants to abandon her, or has ulterior motives. Why would she think this way? Because the wife doesn't believe her husband's reasons; she'll base her feelings on them and think they're unreliable. Ultimately, it's a lack of trust in her husband. If she did believe him, why wouldn't she try what he says is good for her? The reason she refuses to try is fear of destroying the family, hurting herself, and other unpredictable and unbearable catastrophic consequences.

I'm reminded of an old Andy Lau song, "I Don't Love You Enough"—I never forgot myself, I wasn't fully committed, so I failed miserably.

A wife's lack of trust stems from a husband's lack of love for his wife, nothing more. Saying you love someone, believing you love them, is one thing. Feeling love, feeling loved, is quite another. The distance between these needs action and time to bridge, not simply through wishful thinking, seduction, or persuasion.

Thinking about this, all these years of struggle and conversations haven't been in vain. Through conversations with some netizens, I've realized what's missing in my marital relationship. Perhaps my dream of a threesome will never come true, but at least I will try to express love and let my wife feel loved, even if it originates from the idea of a threesome. If we can be happier, then having a threesome is certainly desirable, but what's there to regret if we don't?

Life always has regrets, like not having experienced passion. Things can't always go as planned, but we should strive to have a clear conscience. Do your best and leave the rest to fate, that's all.

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