Seeking thrills

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Not long after becoming sexual partners with Da Liu, I convinced my parents to let me move out, using the excuse that my commute to work was too long. It wasn't entirely an excuse; my commute was indeed quite far. Everyone knows what Beijing traffic is like, especially during rush hour. Buses are packed like sardines, and there's always the risk of encountering perverts.
Speaking of bus perverts, I'm sure most women have encountered them a few times. Based on my experience, most perverts act on impulse. The crowded bus sometimes forces two people to be pressed tightly together, and with so many people around, there's no way to avoid them. At that moment, I think any normal man would have some thoughts, and some of the bolder ones become bus perverts.
Actually, if a man presents himself neatly and makes a good first impression, then when you become a pervert on the bus, as long as it's not too outrageous, they won't hold it against you (this is just my subjective assumption; try it and bear the consequences). But such men seem rare, or perhaps they are usually very confident and disdain such sneaky methods. Anyway, the few times I've encountered perverts were disgusting. Their hair was messy, their faces were tired, they clearly hadn't washed up before going out, and they smelled of sweat. You just wanted to stay away. If they dared to touch me, I'd definitely give them a good beating with my heel.
To avoid commuting by bus every day, I thought about renting a place near my workplace. After a few days, I only found one room in a three-bedroom apartment. But thinking about looking further away, I realized I'd still have to take the bus every day, so I went to take a look. The landlady was a typical Beijing woman, probably in her fifties, very enthusiastic, showing me around the room and explaining everything. It was just one room, not much to see, but I chatted with her for a while, mainly asking who lived in the other two rooms. She gave a brief overview, and I thought it was okay. But what finally made me decide was how close it was to my workplace, only a ten-minute walk.
When I viewed the apartment, neither of the two neighbors were there; I only met them after they moved in. A young couple rented the largest room, and a recent graduate rented the other. Because they were close in age and had common interests, they got along quite well. The young woman was a white-collar worker at a private company; she always wore glasses due to severe nearsightedness, which made her seem very quiet. The young couple seemed very affectionate; almost every night, I could hear rhythmic noises coming from their room. They were college classmates who came to Beijing together after graduation, and I envied them quite a bit.
Every day after work, the four of us would chat, and occasionally we'd each cook a dish and eat together; life was quite pleasant. Da Liu and I often spent the night together, but not in my small room; we'd book a hotel room. Mainly because my room had terrible soundproofing, and if I excitedly made those noises, it would be too embarrassing to see anyone the next day. However, the pleasure Da Liu provided was ultimately limited, and the noise from next door always stirred my imagination, so I often went online to flirt with men, only to be flirted with in return, and then used that feeling to masturbate.
Back then, QQ chat rooms hadn't been shut down yet; I can't remember when I discovered they had adult channels. When I was alone, I would often lock myself in and go to the chat rooms to chat with men. I guess most wolves have been to QQ chat rooms; they were like a wolf's den. I don't know why there were so many thirsty men. Every time I went in, many people would request to add me as a friend. At first, I would accept every request, but these people really had no romance whatsoever; they would immediately start fantasizing about you or send pornographic pictures.
You know, women need to gradually get into the mood; being so direct only makes them feel disgusted. Later, I learned my lesson and only accepted those who added interesting messages when they requested, and I gradually got to know quite a few online friends.
Speaking of chatting with online friends, I've accumulated some experience. For example, those around twenty years old tend to be quite restless. After just a few sentences, they'll ask for your phone number, want to go out to a hotel, or even video chat to undress. They show absolutely no respect for women, and if you don't agree to their demands, they'll immediately become verbally abusive. Of course, some are quite well-behaved, but most of the ones I've encountered are self-righteous. Those around twenty-five are much better. However, if someone at this age is still looking for women online, they usually have some personality flaws and are only online because they can't find a girlfriend. They're either extreme or overly introverted. Their purpose is mostly simple: they want to find a woman to chat with. Some want an online romance, while others just want to vent. However, their behavior is really poor; they don't know how to please women, so chatting with them is pointless. If you ignore them, they might become persistent, so in the end, I just have to keep my distance. The best chat partners are people between thirty and forty years old. Most of them are married, and even those who are unmarried have enough experience to know what women like. Moreover, people of this age who chat online are generally well-educated, knowledgeable, and eloquent, making chats with them very pleasant. The reason they chat online is mostly because they are experiencing marital problems, unsatisfactory sex lives with their wives, which are gradually affecting their relationship, leading them to seek kindred spirits online.

The person who encouraged me to write this article is someone I met around that time. He didn't want his online name to be made public, so let's use "h" instead. "h" is from Shandong, but I won't go into the specifics. When we first met, he was going through a divorce with his wife. Considering the children, he didn't want to divorce, so he kept putting it off. They had been separated for some time, and he was feeling pent-up, so he went online to find someone to vent to, which is how he met me. Actually, he initially wanted to have sex with me, but I felt unsafe and didn't want to chat anymore. He said he'd been searching for a long time, but all he found were scammers posting ads or people who were too busy to talk to him. He finally found a "real" one, so he wasn't expecting much; he just wanted someone to talk to. Seeing such a grown man so lonely, I felt sorry for him and started chatting. Unexpectedly, we clicked, and we've stayed in touch ever since. Even now, we chat for a while whenever we meet online; he's a special kind of male confidant.
H and I have talked a lot about sex, like which positions are the most comfortable, which places are the most stimulating, and so on. Gradually, we started talking about our past partners. Perhaps that's why he thought of asking me to write something. Because it's online, we don't know each other's true identities, so there aren't many reservations. This has led to deeper discussions about sex, and I've gained a better understanding of men's thoughts from him. H is a leg fetishist, always nagging me about stockings and high heels. I don't know if it's because of his nagging, but ever since black stockings became popular a couple of years ago, and maybe because they make legs look slimmer, I've really started wearing them more and more. It's easy to gain weight on my thighs, but hard to lose it, so I have to cover them up for now. But I don't really like high heels. Although they look pretty, they're really uncomfortable. You have to be very careful when choosing and maintaining them, otherwise you'll easily get blisters.
H is a really interesting guy. After divorcing his wife, he got a new girlfriend and came to me bragging about it. Then he bluntly said he wanted to get her into bed and asked me for advice. At his insistence, I gave him a few ideas on how to create a romantic atmosphere. But he never mentioned it again after that. Later, when I asked him, it turned out he hadn't mentioned it to his girlfriend at all. From then on, I labeled him as "having the desire but not the courage," which was just a joke. I guess he had his own thoughts. I wonder how things are going between them now.
Now that we've talked about the bus pervert and the online pervert, let's talk about the little pervert. Xiao Dong was my fifth boyfriend, and we had a happy time together. The little pervert was my sixth. I met him through the girl I mentioned earlier who lived with me.
I lived there for over a year, and after we got to know each other, we got along well. We often sat together and chatted in the evenings. The young couple would usually go back to their room after a while, leaving the girl and me to chat longer, and we gradually became good friends.
Every weekend, if Da Liu couldn't go with me, he'd go out with that girl, which led me to meet many of her colleagues and friends, expanding my social circle. "Little Pervert" was one of her colleagues, three years younger than me, but he looked much older, especially with his meticulously groomed beard; you'd think he was almost thirty. I met "Little Pervert" at a karaoke bar. He seemed to have taken a liking to me from the first meeting, constantly trying to get close to me, sending flowers and asking me out to dinner. Although I had Da Liu at the time, I wasn't his boyfriend and still wanted to find someone, so seeing how attentive he was, I accepted him.
I called him "Little Pervert" because he always acted like one. He really was like a wolf; he loved licking my neck, leaving it covered in saliva every time. My neck is extremely sensitive and ticklish. He licks it so much I beg for mercy, and then he gives me a wicked grin, but still won't let go. It feels like I'm a lamb being held captive by a big bad wolf—a helpless feeling, but also very exciting.
However, that's the only memorable scene of our sex life. Everything else was pretty ordinary. His penis was unremarkable, neither big nor small, neither thick nor thin, and his physique wasn't outstanding. Even the sex itself was monotonous, always the traditional missionary position. He would penetrate and thrust rapidly, though he had great stamina and could last quite a while. We only dated for a short time, so we didn't have much sex, and given his monotonous nature, I rarely had orgasms. Now, I can't even think of anything to write about the details of our sex life.
Because of Xiao Dong, I discovered that men using vulgar language during sex arouses me, so I wanted the little pervert to try it too. However, he seemed to have a hard time speaking, often unable to get the words out. When he finally managed to squeeze out a sentence, his tone was so harsh it sounded like he was actually swearing. I don't know where his usual eloquence went. Eventually, I couldn't find that feeling anymore, so I gave up. Actually, I really want to know if I have masochistic tendencies or what, why I get excited when I hear men swear. That netizen "h" said many women have this fetish, but I don't know if he's telling the truth.

Maybe subconsciously I can't accept relationships with younger men; I could never truly love younger men, and we broke up after only four months. This short relationship was a trial, he was the only boyfriend younger than me, and it made me realize I'm not the confidante type. I crave a man's protection and care, but I'm not good at taking care of men. I'm far from the image of a virtuous wife and loving mother in men's minds, which is probably one of the reasons why I've had so many boyfriends but none of them led to marriage. My marriage was only resolved after my mother couldn't stand it anymore and intervened personally, but that's a story for later.

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