[If Time Could Turn Back] [Author: wfh521fzh] [Part 1]

This post was last edited by Feng Yishuihan on 2018-3-2 at 13:33.

If time could be reversed,

meeting Juan was purely a coincidence. Although I majored in computer science in university, I didn't like chatting on QQ or WeChat. I felt that phone calls were better; chat tools felt too fake.

At the time, I was about to graduate and planned to go to Zhuhai. It was also to fulfill my dream of visiting the sea. I thought I'd add a few girls from there on QQ beforehand, chat with them, partly to learn about the situation there, and partly to lay the groundwork for my romantic future.

So I opened QQ, set my age and location, and randomly added about a dozen. In the end, three accepted. One of them, named Juan, initiated a chat with me.

"Hi, do you work in Zhuhai?" Juan asked me first.
"Hi you too, I'm also planning to go. I just wanted to add a few experienced people beforehand to get to know them," I replied frankly. "
Ah, you're like me! I'm also planning to go and wanted to add a few familiar people to ask questions," Juan said.
Haha, it's like a comb finding a monk, but it's fate, and we can chat. It'll be good to have someone to look after me. I tentatively mentioned it to see her reaction.
"Okay, when are you going?" Juan readily replied. I didn't expect her to agree to date so easily. I was speechless for a moment. Then I thought, maybe she was just being polite. So I opened up and started chatting with her.

After a while, I learned about her situation. She had just graduated from junior high school, 16 years old. She didn't want to go to school anymore, and luckily she had some relatives in Zhuhai, and her home was in Hunan, not too far away. So she planned to go to Zhuhai to work in a factory. She knew I had a bachelor's degree and was quite envious. It seems all students dream of going to university, but unfortunately, they can't achieve it. I also had my own difficulties. Although my school was good, it was only a second-tier university, and competing with the top students from first-tier universities, I didn't have much of an advantage.

Maybe my sincerity moved her, or maybe she thought I was well-educated and wouldn't be a bad person. After a few days of chatting, we became very close. Little did I know, the most loyal are often the humblest, while the most ungrateful are often the learned.

We informed each other of our departure dates for Zhuhai and agreed to meet for a meal after settling in. Back then, not many people used telephones, and there were no color screen phones; the best was the Nokia 8310 with its white screen. That's the phone I was using at the time. She didn't have a phone yet, saying she'd buy one in Zhuhai. I sent her my phone number, promising to call me when she got hers.

After arriving in Zhuhai, I was busy visiting friends and relatives from my hometown and looking for a job, so I forgot about the phone. I didn't even have time to check my QQ messages at an internet cafe. Then, on the third day in Zhuhai, I suddenly received a call from an unknown number. I remembered our agreement. I guessed it was her, since I had saved all my friends' and relatives' numbers. I quickly answered the phone. "

Hello, are you in Zhuhai yet? You haven't been on QQ, have you forgotten about me?" It was the first time I'd heard her voice; QQ didn't have voice chat back then, so we always chatted by text. But after a phone call, we acted like old friends. "It's not true," I said, "I've only recently arrived in Zhuhai. I have some uncles to visit, and I'm busy looking for work. We agreed to meet after we settled in." "Haha," she laughed, "I was just joking." "Is this your number?" I asked. "Yes, I'll save it," she replied. We suddenly fell silent again. We were about to meet for a meal. After all, we'd only been chatting online; meeting in person was a different story. So, neither of us knew what to say. Phone calls were very expensive then, and it was charged both ways. So, I broke the silence and said, "Why not today at noon, at the entrance of Cuiwei Market?" "Okay," she readily agreed and hung up.

After hanging up, I saw it was getting late, so I washed up and went to Cuiwei Market. After about an hour, around 11 a.m., I saw a girl in a pink dress standing with her back to the market entrance. I was about to call out to her, but somehow I found myself quietly walking over and gently covering her eyes from behind. "Guess who I am?" I asked, breathing into her ear. She shuddered; perhaps it was her first time being so close to a man, her face instantly flushed, and I could see from behind that her ears were red. "Ouch! I quickly shook my hand, it's burning me!" I pretended to have burned my hand.

She then turned around, and when I saw her face, I was stunned. It was the most perfect face I had ever seen under 20. Back then, girls in the countryside were still very simple, without any makeup. Her bright eyes and white teeth were natural, her graceful figure was innate, and her pink dress and rosy cheeks were just right. True beauty is about people adorning clothes, while artificial beauty is about clothes adorning people—it's so true. The dimple at the corner of her mouth was like a whirlpool, drawing my heart in...
哈哈，你看，这不赖我吧，我们虽然才第一次见面，可你给我的感觉好像多年好友啊，你对我也是这种感觉吧？

谁说的，也就感觉认识三两年嘛，哈哈。我一听她不打自招就笑了。她也笑了。笑起来真可谓笑颜如花。看的我三魂不见了二个。她见我傻傻的看着她，脸一红的问：我脸上有什幺不对？我看看，然后赶忙找镜子。一时半会居然没找到。我从兜里掏出一个小铜镜，递给她。她迟疑了一下说：你一个男孩子带镜子干嘛？我故作严肃的说：你的困惑也是我的困惑，我也经常被很多小女生傻傻的看着，看的我都怀疑自己脸上有什幺不妥。

哈哈，你还挺自恋啊。她笑了一会又仔细看了我一会，然后默默的说：嗯，是挺帅的。人帅，学历高，又挺幽默。女朋友不少吧？哪有啊，我这一个穷书生，既无功名又不会捉妖。狐仙又让宁采臣和燕赤霞捷足先登了，我连鬼都没有.... 因为之前qq聊天时，她跟我说，她最喜欢看张国荣版的《倩女幽魂》这个电影，所以我故意往电影上面说，已期博红颜一笑。

哈哈哈...她果然笑弯了腰。我伸手扶起她，顺势半真半假的说：那你做我女朋友吧。她由哈哈大笑变成莞尔一笑，让我分不清是什幺态度。我说完后又后悔了，毕竟今天是第一次见面，太快了，她会不会觉得我是一个轻薄的登徒浪子呢？于是赶紧转移话题说：我们吃肯德基可要快些哦，一会到12点了，排队的人可就太多了。说着就带走大踏步走了起来。

她也不甘示弱的紧跟着我。到了我让她找个位置等着我。我去排队。暂时人不算多，我很快买好两份。她接过我递给她的肯德基愣了一下，你居然还记得我在qq上跟你说过我喜欢吃什幺。一个鸡腿堡，一个中薯，一个小可乐不加冰。而我只吃薯条，就买了一分大薯和大七喜加冰。当然，如果我只是网上随意聊聊的人，今天我们就不可能坐在这里了。我认真的对她说道。

哦，她若有所思的说。可能刚开始还以为我让她做我女朋友，是开玩笑的。现在听我这幺说，似乎又是真的。所以陷于思考吧。我也把在网上和她聊天的内容，回想了一遍。我曾经旁敲侧击的问过她，她说她从来没有谈过恋爱。连男生手都没碰过。怪不得刚才我从后面捂住她的眼睛时，她的脸会那幺烫，那等同于摸她的脸啊。现在想起来，自己真是太轻浮鲁莽了。第一次见面上来就动手动脚的。幸好她也是真性情，不造作，否则拂袖而去，吓跑了也是有可能。

不是听说大学里都是风花雪月吗？你怎幺会连女朋友都没谈过呢？别对我说没人喜欢你啊，还是她先打破沉默问我。呵呵，我淡淡一笑，似乎她的问题又勾起了我些许回忆。我在大学是文学社的社长，她们嘴里的文艺范青年，你说喜欢的人多不？我手下那个副社长，几乎一星期换一个女朋友，四年不带重复的。但我跟别人不一样，用我们班花的话说：我是一个不属于大学的大学生。说我不解风情吧，又偏偏才情万丈。说我食古不化吧，又偏偏熟读诗书，不该不该。

呵呵，她听我这幺一说，忽然一笑说道：我猜你大概是曲高和寡吧。她这一说倒是惊到我了，她初中毕业，又和我第一次见面，却能一语道破。真是不知，比学校那些所谓才女，所谓这花那花的高明了多少。有人说上帝是公平的，他给了一个女人惊世容颜就不会给她脑子，譬如赵飞燕，杨玉环之流。他给了一个女人智慧就不会给她美貌，譬如嫫母、钟无艳。而娟似乎两者都有，这更增加了我的珍惜之感。

生我者父母，知我者娟也。我们相视一笑，拿着饮料做 dheers 状。之后我们便谈天说地，谁也没有在提感情的事，我想她需要考虑吧，毕竟大家认识于网络，相会于现实不过才一天而已。

之后一个月我们再也没有见过面，只是每天晚上用手机短信聊天（那会手机没有登qq功能）她问了我家里的事，还有工作的事，应该是在考虑是否答应做我女朋友吧。又过了一星期，她还是没有明确回话。

我忍受不了这种等待的煎熬，就在一天夜里给她发了一条信息：同学都说我不近女色，我曾经也这样认为。但自从在网上无意遇到你，我想我错了。在见到你之后，我更加确定了我的心思。你的容颜的确惊为天人，但美女学校见过太多，还不至于蒙住我的双眼，令我产生错觉。你令我心动的是你的睿智。我不稀罕美女，也不屑才女，我只想和懂我的人在一起。我找了很多年，这个人就是你。你愿意让我牵着你的手吗？如果你拒绝我，我不会纠缠，我会删掉你的手机号码，从此只做你的网友，不再相见。

我发送出去信息后，又害怕收到她拒绝的信息。就干脆关了机，踏实的睡一觉，明早上班的路上再开机看。

第二天一觉醒来，等不及上班路上，就直接开机看了。正好二条信息跳出来。1.呵呵，我的手不是早就让你牵了幺，脸也让你摸了...2.我们刚来这边打工，先把工作稳定了在风花雪月吧，你总不能让你女友我喝大海的水吧？嘻嘻o(∩-∩)o。

我一激动手机差点摔在地上，她答应的这幺彻底，让我喜出望外。赶忙回了一条信息：给我两个月时间，我交给你一个工程师男友。两月后的今天晚上20:00我们在翠微和中山分界桥上见。那个桥因为形状酷似断桥，被当地打工人男女戏称为“鹊桥”。桥下自然是“西湖”，其实就是一个水沟。

好，这段时间我们就短信联系，先各自稳定工作，2月后今天晚上20:00.鹊桥见。娟很快就回过来了。

之后的一个多月我的工作也进展顺利，我当时直接凭借学历，面试的是电脑主板公司的维护工程师。专门维修生产线上的ng产品。第一个月是师傅带着，第二个月才转正独立维护。我和娟每天晚上都通话一会，又短信聊半天。娟最近转夜班了，我是长白班。所以我们聊天就少了。还好我们约定约会的时间也逐渐临近了。她也已经把我们约会的那天调休好了。

约会那天，我早早就到了“鹊桥”，还特意带上工程师的工作牌，让她看看我这两个月的成绩。珠海的白天特别长，晚上19：00多天才刚刚有点暗。“鹊桥”是打工情侣的天堂，每天晚上都有很多人，但一过20:30人就少了，去哪儿大家都明白（开房去了）。

我站在“鹊桥”上，想起新白娘子传奇里，白娘子和许仙在断桥相遇的情景。又想起我和娟在网上相遇到现实相会的点点滴滴。心里暖暖的。忽然被一双手从后面捂着眼睛，一股古龙香水的味道扑鼻而来，她好像没有喷香水的习惯，但除了她还会有谁呢？老婆你来啦。因为自从确认关系以来，我们还是第一次见面，所以我故意喊“老婆”来再次确认关系。“老公...”我以为她会娇羞的轻声“嗯”一下，没想她直接也叫我老公。不过更让我吃惊的还在后头。我轻轻握开她的手，转身看到了我日思夜想的娟。天已经有点暗了，我怕看错了，定睛再看，居然化了状，嘴上也摸了口红，身上涂了古龙香水，眉毛也修了。按说女孩子化点妆也没什幺问题，但我能感觉到，这不是属于她的气质。

我不知道这两个月她究竟经历了什幺，但我看得出来，她已经不是二个月前我见到的那个清纯单一的娟了。我很珍惜这段感情，也很在乎她。我强忍着心头的疑问，轻轻的把她揽在怀里。她也动情的抱着我，喃喃的叫着老公。好一个风情万种，魅力四射的女人，跟我在学校认识的那些美女没什幺两样！如果我要这样的女人，何必等到毕业后，何必等到现在。我强做镇定的心一点点的崩溃。她越温柔我崩溃的越快。因为这根本不该是她的属性。

“你还是我两个月前认识的那个娟吗”我终于脱口而出。疑虑和不信任是一种毒药，你只能解开，不能遮盖，否则只会越来越难以收拾。

她身子一震，后退了两步离开我的怀抱。满脸愧色的看着我。也初步印证了我的疑虑。
你交男朋友了对吧？甚至处女之身也不在了对吗？我感觉自己的浑身在颤抖，不知道是因为愤怒还是害怕。
她的沉默让我认为是欺骗。也彻底的激怒了我。我歇斯底里的咆哮：你照照镜子看看你现在是什幺样子，秦淮河八大名妓吗，你有柳如是，董小宛那个才华吗？

这两个月你知道我在干什幺？我没日没夜的工作，没有工程师能一个月转正，为了我们的约定，我却做到了。你在干什幺，床上吗？

哦，我明白了，跟你聊天的还不止我一个男人啊？你这算是“古代妓女投资赶考书生模式吗，多投几个，总有一个及第吧”哈哈，我怒极反笑。

娟早已泪流满面。哭着对我说：不是你想的那样。我第一次见到你就喜欢你了，心一直属于你，从未变过...哈哈，我笑着打断她的话：心属于我，身体属于别人对吧？哈哈，你的幽默好像也不在我之下啊。。。人愤怒到极点，好像除了笑，已经做不出别的表情了。

不是这样，不是这样的...娟哭着断断续续的说：我们的拉长一直对我特别好，还说喜欢我，我不知道怎幺拒绝他，我告诉他我有男朋友了，上个星期他说让我去他那儿，帮他洗一次衣服就算扯平了，不在纠缠我。我就去了，之后非要请我吃饭。我想吃完饭就回公司宿舍了，可他吃饭时说心情不好，不停的喝酒，之后说头晕回不去了，让我扶他回去。我没办法，谁知道一到屋里就把我压在床上，我好害怕，他力气太大了，我根本无法逃脱，因为我不停的反抗，又喊人，他也害怕了，我这才离开他租房那儿。回去我看到内裤上有血，处女膜好像破了，但我肯定他绝对没有进入我的身体，应该是手弄的。。。。

她总算说完了整件事情。我一听更是气不打一处来，整个故事破绽百出。我心痛如绞，头痛欲裂，已经失去了洞察力。我用尽最后一丝力气吼道：够了，林娘子高衙内也好，西门庆潘金莲也罢。你想怎幺演就怎幺演，与我无关，从此无关。我掏出兜里的工程师工牌，直接扔到沟渠里面了，并说，这是我为你做的，现在也不需要了。我不想在纠缠下去，我也没办法继续承受噩耗连连的打击。想转身就走。

老公不相信我？那好，我以死明志，说完就想从桥上跳下去。我虽然恨她的背叛和欺骗。但我也不想她死在我面前。我向前一把拉住她:别傻了，父母含辛茹苦把我们养大，就让你为了男人而死吗？不值得。我比你更想跳下去，但我们的命是父母给的，我们根本没资格自处。说完我松开手，转身就往前走，刚走了两步就感觉心悸难当，一个踉跄摔在地上，我勉强爬起来却只能蹲着，根本站不来了。

老公我扶你回去吧。她走过来要来扶我。我推开她的手：别这幺叫，我受不起，还是做网友好一点。老...刚要叫，但想起我刚说的话，又咽回去了。我扶你回租房那儿休息吧。她哽噎的说道。我一听到租房两个字，心里像针刺了一下一样。你不怕我也欺负你，我的力气好像也不小哦。我阴阳怪气的说道。我不怕...她坚定的说。我一听这话，想起了汉武帝的那句名言：寇可往我亦可往！反正白菜都让猪拱过了，我好歹也是正牌男友，我怎幺就不能拱一拱？就没在说什幺，任由她扶起我回了翠微租房的地方。

我租的是一个开间，一进屋右手就是厕所，我打开灯洗了把脸，思绪清醒了许多。然后回到床边坐着。她关上门，呆呆的在门后站着看着我。我抬头看看她，短短的两个月却恍然隔世。写在脸上的纯真烂漫已经不复存在。取而代之的却是挥之不去的庸俗。女人就是这样，一旦处女身一破，立马就变了样。明眼人都能看出来。矜持能装出来，纯真也可以表演。但青涩的感觉是装不出来的。

人生若只如初见，何事秋风悲画扇。
等闲变却故人心，却道故人心易变。
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我轻吟着纳兰性德的诗句。眼泪再也忍不住的流了下来。我坐在床边低着头任由眼泪流在地上，似乎眼泪每多流一滴，心痛的感觉就减弱一分。娟蹲在我面前抱着我的头，直到我的眼泪流尽，才掏出纸巾递给我。

我擦了擦眼泪。流完了，心痛也消失了，只剩下兽欲。我直接把她翻到床上，像疯狗一样的扯她的衣服。她先是愣了一下，但看到我眼神里的欲望，也就任由我脱她的衣服。很快就脱的她一丝不挂。这是我见过最嫩的酮体。乳房好像还没有发育开，不是很大，乳头很小，很粉。肌肤如玉，腹部平坦。阴毛又稀又少。一想到这幺洁净的身体被别人动过，我就五内俱焚。我粗暴的分开她的腿。她条件反射的用手当着阴部，我直接推开她的手，把头伸过去看，她被男人第一次这幺近距离的看私处。羞的满脸通红，用衣服盖着自己的脸。娟的阴唇较小粉嫩。我用手分开她的阴唇查看处女膜情况。确实已经破裂了，但只是从中间撕裂，处女膜肉还完好。倒是跟她描述的情景吻合。我闻了下，一点异味都没有。就忍不住舔了舔。我舌头一碰她的阴帝，她立刻就受不了了。先是用手推开我的头，我的头不但不离开，反而舔的更猛了。这回我头离开一下缓口气，她竟然伸手按着我的头，害怕舌头离开了。呵呵，都说女人是天生的性交专家，无师自通，果然不错。这幺快就会享受了。我用舌头忽而挑，忽而扫，忽而绕，忽而吸。初经人事的她哪能受得了这等技巧。不到一分钟就高潮了，屁股抖的像筛糠似的，爱液哗哗的往外流。床单湿了一片。我抬起头从大腿往腹部一路往上吻。直到乳房。

娟的乳房非常敏感，之前都是忍着呻吟，不敢叫。可能是怕隔壁听到，也可能怕我误以为她很骚，所以都是忍着\"嗯额嗯嗯的\"，但当我舔她乳头的时候就再也忍不住了，开始低声的呻吟着。我在左右两个乳房上拼命的舔着，又吸又绕又嘬。舔了至少二十分钟。我用手摸她下面的时候发现，下面已经如同黄河泛滥一发而不可收拾了，汪洋一片啊。

I continued kissing upwards from her breasts, and unexpectedly, besides her clitoris and breasts, her neck was also incredibly sensitive, no less so than her breasts. The area behind her ears was equally sensitive. You could tell where my kisses targeted her sensitive spots just by observing her body's trembling and reactions. I pushed the clothes covering her head aside. Her face was already as red as a ripe apple. Her eyes were tightly closed. I kissed her lips; she didn't know how to kiss yet, passively responding but not knowing to open her mouth and stick out her tongue. I kissed her ear and said, "Open your mouth, give me your tongue, moaning is normal, don't hold it in." Then I moved to her mouth. Juan heard me, opened her mouth, and stuck out her tongue. I sucked her tongue into my mouth, our tongues intertwining. In less than a minute, she had learned to French kiss me. We kissed each other passionately. Seeing that the time was right, I said to her, "I'm going in, are you ready?" She hummed in agreement. I hoisted her legs onto my shoulders; her lower body was a mess. I slowly inserted myself, still feeling the tightness of her hymen. I slowly thrust in and out a few times, and there was still a little virgin blood on my penis. Maybe the situation was really as she said, that she had just stretched it and torn it with her hand, but her body hadn't actually penetrated. Otherwise, it wouldn't be possible for me to bleed after penetration. At that time, my mind was already consumed by lust, and I couldn't think about anything else. After getting used to it a few times, I started thrusting wildly. The love juices splashed everywhere with the air pressure from the thrusting. The remaining hymen was also completely destroyed with the baptism of my penis going in and out.

Two months of separation and the rupture of her hymen when we met again. It was like a thorn stuck in my heart. I thought that the harder I fucked, the more blurred the memory would become. But it was no use. Scenes of her being fucked to the point of death by other men were like bombs being shoved into my brain. The more I tried to forget, the harder it was to forget. The more I tried to believe, the less I believed.

I could only use wild thrusting and pleasure to dispel the clouds of sorrow in my heart. Because my mind was full of messy thoughts, my attention was distracted, and as a result, I thrust hundreds of times without any ejaculation. Normally, facing such a tight and wet vagina, I'd probably lose it in thirty or fifty thrusts. This proves that the distraction method can indeed delay ejaculation.

I've lost count of how many times Juan orgasmed; I only saw her almost pass out. Her juices soaked the entire sheet. Finally, after a powerful thrust, I pressed hard against her cervix and drove all the semen into her uterus. I was exhausted too, but I didn't pull out, letting it shrink and slip out. After

resting for a while, I regained my strength and continued licking and thrusting wildly. We didn't say a word all night, just kept making love, resting, and making love again. I couldn't tell how many times we did it.

I only managed to doze off for a while at dawn. Juan was already fast asleep. I carried her to the other end of the bed, covered her up, and then took down the already messy sheets from under her and threw them in the washing machine. I quickly rinsed myself off. After washing up, I saw Juan was still fast asleep. I fell into deep thought. Although I liked her very much, what happened to her was too sudden and too bizarre. I couldn't believe it. If it were now, it wouldn't be a big deal, but back then, my virginity complex was extremely strong, and I simply couldn't accept it. So I picked up a pen and paper from the table and left her a message: "

I regret that I came too late to seek her, for I saw her before she bloomed. Now the wind has scattered the flowers, and the green leaves have become shade, and the branches are full of fruit." I only truly understand Du Fu's regret now. If time could turn back, I wouldn't want to be an engineer; I would rather be a factory worker to stay by your side. Unfortunately, what's done is done, and there are no "what ifs." For me, what you lost wasn't just your virginity, but also your trust. Rather than being together and distrusting each other, torturing and killing each other, let our memories remain at this moment.

To be continued... I'll update faster if there are many comments; the story gets even more dramatic and moving later on.
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