【Will You Marry Me?】1. Losing you made me realize how much I love you (Xiao Feng) (Female protagonist's infinite time travel)

Chapter One: Losing You, I Realized I Loved You (Xiao Feng)
The flashback and key plot points have ended, but I remain motionless,

sitting the edge of my bed in my personal space, letting tears roll down my cheeks. Some trickle down my chin to my neck;

others drip directly onto my firm, youthful breasts, shattering into pieces, just like my current

state of mind —broken, irreparably broken.
My own memories and the third-person, 3D images played directly in front of me by the system intertwine and recur in

my mind, lingering yet fragmented and chaotic, unable to form a complete picture. Bewildered yet

heartbroken, I lie on the bed, not bothering to pull the sheet over my naked body, just lying there on my side,

tears still flowing unconsciously.
Why do I feel this pain? Why is this happening? The story has reached its end; Xiao Feng is no longer the

one I must protect from dying. But why did I still act so impulsively,

declaring that I would die for him, saying I'd rather die first than let him die in front of me,

and ultimately, we both committed suicide together? Perhaps, I really have fallen in love with him? If that's the case, then

it means I've abandoned my past and am looking forward to creating a future with him.
Thinking of this, I chuckled softly. The body the system created for me was almost perfect, and

could be freely adjusted using reward points and system money. My voice was as melodious as a nightingale's song, and my laughter

as sweet as silver bells—truly delightful. But this chuckle was hoarse and low, terribly unpleasant

.
Yes, I have truly fallen in love with him. Otherwise, how many more opportunities would I have had to change this heartbreaking

ending ? I had countless chances to kill Yelü Hongji beforehand—

the Liao Emperor Daozong, a devout Buddhist in official history, passionate about Han studies, calligraphy, painting, poetry, and literature, and fond of fine wine and women, yet incompetent in distinguishing loyalty from treachery, but portrayed by Jin Yong

as a brilliant and ambitious ruler.
But I dared not; I was afraid. I knew from the system that non-mandatory main quests

could be altered through my own actions, not predetermined. Yet, I

still used the main quest to convince myself not to take any action. Because I was afraid, terribly

afraid .
I was afraid that if I did, Xiao Feng would be disappointed, heartbroken, doubt me, and

reject attributing all the beautiful moments we shared to a premeditated and purposeful scheme. I simply

stayed by his side, gave birth to twins, and then remained bedridden after childbirth. I could have easily

used any of the system's advanced medications to quickly alleviate my condition and heal the weakness caused by

the difficult .
But I didn't. I ran away in confusion and fear, afraid to make a decision, unwilling to make

one. I feared the final outcome, but after circling around in circles, it still arrived

before me. In my avoidance, I lost the opportunity to change it. In the end, I could only swallow the bitter pill brewed by my weakness,

avoidance , and inaction.
I died, but the main quest was finally completed. So, death is not true liberation. I

returned to the personal space the system had opened for me, continuing to grieve, weep, and regret.
Lying in bed, I recalled our countless passionate encounters in the mission world, our intense and passionate lovemaking.

Beneath him, I cried out and moaned, begging for mercy while simultaneously wrapping my arms around his neck and my legs around his

waist, tightly gripping his penis—a

penis —until he ejaculated deep inside me, still refusing to let go.
I remembered us lying in bed, whispering sweet nothings, my small hands tracing and caressing the wolf head tattoo on his

chest , sometimes drawing circles on his well-developed pectoral muscles with my fingers,

sometimes twirling his chest hair around my fingertips, and occasionally lightly tracing and

teasing . Until he couldn't resist my teasing any longer, he grabbed my hands, flipped me over, and pinned me beneath him

, kissing my lips with his bearded mouth until I was weak and flushed, only then did he stop.
Then, I would pout my cherry lips and playfully punch his chest with my two little pink fists, saying that his beard

was scratching me and that his kisses almost made me faint, demanding an apology or I wouldn't give in. At this point, he would

usually laugh heartily, and then, under my teasing, continue to flirt with me (although he really

didn't have any skills in this area, and would often get embarrassed and just kiss me passionately until I was weak and breathless, and that was considered a win for him

), or he would pin me down on the bed and take me right there, fucking me hard and fiercely until I reached orgasm several times,

and finally fall asleep exhausted in his arms.
I recall our first meeting, his boldness and generosity, his heroic strength. My

anxiety , my pain and despair in Juxian Manor. Even now, looking back

, I still can't know exactly when I fell in love with him; perhaps from the very beginning, my heart was gradually

drawn to him.
I was completely unaware of it all. I only knew that I was following the system's task prompts, step by step, under the arrangement of

the system's two main tasks (one to get closer to and eventually marry Xiao Feng, and the other to let Xiao Feng complete his

life trajectory in the original novel), sinking deeper and deeper into his trap until I could no longer leave him.
Although the system was there to issue tasks to me; although all my martial arts moves were provided by the system,

used like casting spells with buttons in an online game; although I also had a portable space like in many novels

, in my relationship with Xiao Feng, I was truly engaging in an incredibly painful and torturous unrequited

love affair. Although it was a system-transmigrated infinite online game world, all of this could only provide me with task guidance and

martial arts for self-defense; it did nothing to help me complete the task of getting Xiao Feng to marry me.
This wasn't a dating simulation game that displayed the character's affection level and provided

notifications , nor did it arrange various events to advance your relationship with him. Although Xiao Feng was like

a heroic and tragic hero of Yan and Zhao, he was definitely not a fool. On the contrary, he was intelligent and quick-witted. Aside from

the devastating impact of his own past, which left him confused and prone to making mistakes, he was otherwise remarkably...

He was so shrewd that there was no opportunity for anyone to take advantage of him.
Moreover, he was a devoted, responsible, and good man, a true gentleman who would never engage in a sham wedding

ceremony or merely go through the motions. Therefore, for him to marry me, all his desires would have to be resolved, and he

would have to fall in love with me as much as I had fallen in love with him—this was no easy feat.
Pain, struggle, and torment—this was the true psychological portrayal of me, who didn't even understand my own feelings, as I pursued Xiao Feng

. In the original story, A'Zhu made Xiao Feng fall in love so easily, quickly establishing

their relationship through two opportunities, only to die at the hands of her lover at the most crucial moment.

I cannot learn from her path, nor can I ever copy it. I can only explore and walk my own path.
From Xiao Feng's appearance in the original story to the end of the plot, only four short years had passed. For me to get him to

marry me formally before then was an extremely difficult task; any mishap along the way would

lead to .
I repeatedly appeared at the last minute, protecting and helping him. At that time, I didn't know it was my

"true love" for him. Even after we married and had children, I deceived myself into thinking I was just

completing a mission, merely "playing along."
So, I just told myself, Xiao Feng can't die, and if you die, Xiao Feng can't die either.

If the mission completion percentage is high enough, the system will deduct the reward proportionally and revive you. If Xiao Feng dies,

the main mission fails, and he will suffer unbearable punishment. And since you've already failed once,

after the second failure, what awaits you besides torment and punishment is final annihilation.
So, I spoke up for him in Xingzi Forest, I shielded him from a palm

strike , I declared at Juxian Manor that I would commit suicide rather than let him be threatened, and I helped

him, who was confused and blinded by his own involvement, to determine that Duan Zhengchun was not the leader. At the same time, I had to secretly defend

against A'Zhu and A'Zi like a dog guarding its food, using my own methods to prevent Xiao Feng—my

food-loving puppy—from being taken away.
The A'Zhu in the original story didn't love with such exhaustion, such heartache. To

devote oneself wholeheartedly, trying to make a man fall in love with you, to make him willing to marry you—such complete devotion—how could I still

think of this as just a game that would continue indefinitely? Perhaps in this world, this time travel is just "a

game, a dream," but for me, it was a war of love and hate, a war that left me

exhausted , wounded, and utterly weary, before I finally achieved my goal.
But in the end, because I didn't see my own heart clearly, or rather, deliberately refused

to see it, I wanted to escape, to escape my true feelings, my true emotions, my true intentions. The result was the death of Xiao Feng, and also the death of

myself, leaving me only to weep alone in pain and regret.
The system voice announced: Patch 2.0.4.1 Update Content:
1. After completing Main Quest 1, if the completion rate exceeds 60%, you can voluntarily apply to

exit the quest.
2. After clearing a quest world, you will no longer be prompted whether to retain the travel portal; instead, the traveler can check the system

menu and set this themselves.
3. Added functions for replaying quest world segments, saving the complete story, and saving beautiful scenes, automatically saving them to

the traveler 's personal space storage, which can be accessed and viewed at will.
4. Even if you choose to close the travel portal in a world, you can still view the subsequent development and experiences of your related characters on the display screen in your personal space

.
5. When using a punishment quest world, the identity, martial arts, and abilities used by the traveler are no longer considered as backup

templates ; they are all converted into equivalent reward points and system currency. Items can be unlocked in all three worlds.
6. The system shop has added complete character templates, composed of identity, martial arts, ability, and item sets, available

for purchase . Welcome to browse and purchase.
This system patch is a belated attempt to mend the fence; everything in the past is irreversible. What's lost is lost

and never be recovered. A tear rolled down my cheek, bitter and astringent. Was this the taste of

regret
?

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