[Blue Ocean] (The End) Author: Feng Shang 7

Author: Feng Shang 7
Word Count: 11781

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Where to begin this story? It seems so vivid in my memory, yet my thoughts are a jumbled mess. Let's start with my first love.
I'm not inherently a person who craves indulgence, and I'll slowly recount this from my recollections.

One autumn month of a certain year, due to work arrangements, I had to go to H country for training for a period of time. During this time, Yi and I
were separated by thousands of miles. When I missed her, we chatted on QQ. Yi was my girlfriend of four years, my first love. Before losing her,
I was intoxicated; after losing her, I was devastated.

When I returned from the training abroad, she was waiting for me at the airport. The first thing I saw was her
long, slightly wavy, wine-red hair. She was becoming more and more beautiful, youth and beauty perfectly embodied in her. That day, I
saw . She became increasingly fashionable, while I remained unchanged, neither moving nor
changing.

Perhaps it was because I was too busy with work, but I saw Yi less and less, and neither of us had time to
explain. I don't know when, but there were always a few colleagues around her, intentionally or unintentionally. Once, I went to a party and drank too much
. Xu Hua, who was also drunk, grabbed my hand and said, "When you have time, let's have a good drink together, just the two of us."

I've never been particularly close to Xu Hua; we usually don't even bother to greet each other. We drank
a glass of wine, and Yi smiled and pulled me aside to talk. I don't remember what she said, but I do remember the colorful
lights and her lightly made-up face, which had an unprecedented charm. Her gentle words still
seem to echo in my ears. With the passage of time, she has become more and more beautiful, and I feel a
sense of impending loss. That night, I drank too much, and my eyes welled up with tears without me even realizing it.

Yi was a fashionista, especially since bars and nightclubs were springing up all over the country at that time
. Because she often traveled for work, she frequently went to Shanghai and frequented bars. When she came back, she would tell me about
things in Shanghai. I accompanied her to Shenzhen a few times, and we talked a lot, but I've forgotten a lot of it. She said that
most of the bars she went to in Shanghai were run by foreigners, located in the WD area. Occasionally, she would go to other places for a few drinks.
I was listening intently when Yi smiled gently and said, "Autumn is here."

I didn't know how to talk to her. I was a very well-behaved child since I was little. My father was often away from home, and my mother
raised my brother and me. If I made a small mistake, I would be severely scolded and locked in the house. I would cry loudly, and I
would be released when I realized I was wrong.

Holding each other's hands, we walked along the road without realizing it, reliving the happy times we had in college.
I kept making witty remarks, and Yi laughed frequently. When we rested in the park, she rested her head on my shoulder and gently called my
name. At that moment, Yi was quiet and pure. Then, we kissed naturally in the park, and time became
happy .

I worked harder and harder, and my love life was also going well. After work, I started going to a nearby bar
with have a few drinks, trying to be more fashionable, at least keeping up with the trends. I drank
more and more often. One time, it was raining, and I drank too much. I started acting crazy on the street across from the bar. Chen had no choice but to call Yi
. When Yi came over, I was vomiting badly. Looking back, that was probably the most enjoyable and also the most
painful .

I couldn't see Yi's face clearly; my mind was a complete blur. I don't even know how I got home. When I woke up again
, I was lying in bed. Yi was in the bathroom, the door ajar. I sat up and looked at her. In the steamy
air, she was bathed in heat. Her wine-red hair and snow-white back ignited a burning desire within me, making me lose control.

When I rushed into the bathroom, Yi was startled and a little surprised. I hugged her and murmured some nonsensical
words. She responded with the warmth of her body, and we naturally became intimate. She loved watching me
ride her body. When we were intimate, Yi would unconsciously bite me, moaning softly, her voice soul-stirring. I listened
to her soothing sounds, caressing the softness of her breasts. For the first time, I deliberately kissed Yi's wine-red hair. That time,
Yi was more engaged than ever before.

I must say, Yi was always very satisfied during our intimate moments. It was a complete immersion for her. Each time we finished
, we would hug each other, her cheeks flushed, her breath warm and soft, her eyes always radiating tenderness and contentment.

The word "marriage" was formally brought up one day after work. My mother was pressuring me to get married,
and Yi was a girl she liked—graceful, poised, and polite.

We went shopping for clothes, and I picked out a snow-white sweater for her. It was autumn, and the weather was a bit chilly. Holding Yi's
hand, we didn't talk about drinking or recent work, but walked home together. The mall
was close As we crossed the street, we saw Xu Hua drive by in a flash. Xu Hua glanced at Yi and me.
Yi seemed very uncomfortable because at that moment, her hand unconsciously gripped mine tightly, so tightly it hurt.

My heart was filled with mixed emotions, like a jumbled pot of vinegar. I barely spoke a word on the way home. Yi was holding
a white sweater hanging in the closet. I hugged her from behind, gently kissed her neck, and said in
a charmingly , "Let's get married..."

Yi's neck flushed slightly, and she nodded, seemingly shy but also touched. I picked her up and placed
her on the bed, passionately kissing her face and lips, her wine-red hair. Waves of desire grew stronger within me. Yi gripped
the pillow, her face trembling as if drunk, moaning with my advances.

It was during this time that I truly felt the responsibility of a man—a man who provides for his family, a man
who cares for his woman. When Yi came out of work, I took out the diamond ring I had prepared beforehand and, without a word,
slipped it onto her finger. Yi smiled at me, and we went out to eat happily. It was also during this time that my
best friend Chen told me that Xu Hua was pursuing Yi intensely.

I don't understand just how intense this "intense" is. Chen said angrily, "Yi is alright, she always
ignores Xu Hua, but Xu Hua keeps pestering her. You can ask Xia Yao and you'll know. Let me tell you, if that
bastard keeps bothering Yi, you can stand it, but I can't. Luckily, I have a few buddies who are in the underworld
. If you say a word, we can smash his beat-up car and it won't matter."

Chen is my best friend, and someone Yi always praises. She says Chen is good in every way, except she's
a bit stubborn. She's usually indifferent to everyone, but she's very open and honest with you. Maybe the two of you
have something in common.

I went home almost in a daze. Yi wasn't home; she didn't return until late at night. I didn't ask her anything; she
assumed I was asleep. She hugged me from behind and sighed softly.

I wanted to ask her what had happened, but I didn't open my mouth.

The next day, I acted as if nothing had happened. Yi was putting on makeup in front of the mirror. I
went downstairs to work without waiting for her. Xu Hua, like a dog in heat, relentlessly waited downstairs.
He looked a little haggard; it seemed Yi had rejected him again. His eyes were bloodshot. That time, we almost got into a fight, just
because Yi had mercilessly scolded Xu Hua in front of many people. I felt incredibly happy; it turned out she had been with
me all along.

I didn't dare think about how shameless Xu Hua was. Anyway, once someone gets stuck in a dead end, it's hard to get out
, especially for a man, an animal that can go crazy for a woman.

I won't elaborate on Yi's beauty; she's one of the company's undisputed beauties. We went to university together and
joined the company together. She has several close girlfriends: Xia Yao, Li Jing, and another one
I can't quite , but I vaguely recall her being secretly called "Four-Eyes.

" My feud with Xu Hua had practically become public knowledge. After competing on popularity, we went straight for strength. That
time a fight broke out without warning in the company. Xu Hua's glasses shattered on the floor. Chen cursed, "Fuck your
mother!"

and viciously smashed a chair into Xu Hua's back. Chen and I worked in perfect unison, giving Xu Hua a good beating. The incident didn't
escalate too much, but it certainly caused quite a stir. Chen and I were detained for a few days because of it. Yi came to see me, crying
terribly.

My heart ached, but I smiled and comforted her, telling her not to cry. After this incident, if it weren't for the boss's mercy, she would almost have had to change
jobs. But Yi started being gossiped about. She was already beautiful and popular, but after this incident, some women
ruthlessly turned on her, saying behind her back that she was a womanizer, causing her boyfriend to end up in jail. Several times, when Yi went to get hot water
, they would say that Yi looked unwell. I, working in the next office, saw her standing blankly by the water dispenser, not even noticing that the water was full.

Gossip is terrifying, especially the idle chatter behind a woman's back; almost no one can bear it. Only
Xia Yao and Li Jing never gossiped. It was clear that they were genuinely good to Yi. When Yi was
unhappy besides me, it was only the two of them who were there for her.

After more than a month of this, Yi looked much more haggard. One day after work, she unusually took me out for drinks. Her
long, wine-red hair cascaded over her shoulders, and she wore the white sweater I had bought for her. She had a great figure,
the kind . In the bar, many men's eyes kept glancing at her, intentionally or unintentionally. We drank, we walked,
and when it was time to go home, I, as always, tried to take her hand. Yi refused, her beautiful eyes filled with a deep
resolve . I could see it clearly; her beautiful eyes were still so captivating. Then she fell silent and softly said, "Let's break up
..."

There was no desperate pleading as I had imagined, no kneeling in the street clinging to a woman's leg, wailing and begging for love.
Instead, I, who hadn't cried since I was old enough to understand, sat alone in the park and cried like a child. Yi left,
and never came back.

Without her, my life was shrouded in darkness. I went to work aimlessly, not knowing how I got
to work or how I got home. During this time, it wasn't Xu Hua who was stuck in a dead end; it was me. I couldn't
find my way out of this dead end.

Chen also lamented how quickly the world changes. The difference was that Xia Yao was gradually entering my world. Xia Yao was sweet-looking; everyone
said she was a very sweet person, and she had many suitors. However, this girl seemed to have high standards and never liked
anyone else.

Because of Yi, it was Xia Yao who took care of me most often. My infatuation and love were all
poured out on Yi without reservation. I was deeply in love, my love was loyal, and my mind was filled with images of Yi.
I dreamed of her, and she came from my dreams; I woke up, and she came from my mind. This kind of life lasted for far too long.

As the company developed, some people had to go to Shanghai. In winter, there was no snow in that city, only cold, and
my mood was probably the same.

One night, a dozen or so people gathered at a bar near Jing'an Temple. We drank and reveled, and during this time, we met Xia Yao.
She had just arrived in Shanghai, also her first time in the city. The difference was that we had been there for over two months.
What kind of person was Xia Yao? Actually, I couldn't quite say, so I simply didn't bother to describe her type of person
. Anyway, I couldn't say for sure.

Chen was quite drunk, his face as red as a monkey's bottom. Xia Yao wasn't much better off, appearing somewhat reserved.
It seemed like her first time here, and when I asked her, it turned out it was indeed her first time.

She had just gotten off the plane when Li Jing called her here. Li Jing was gentle and graceful, possessing all the virtues of a traditional Eastern
woman , very ladylike, and her distinctive style was captivating. Actually, I secretly wanted to
pursue her, but she had so many suitors that I was intimidated!

Xia Yao sat next to Li Jing, her face still charming even without makeup. Since they were all old acquaintances, they
chatted freely. As the drinking progressed, Li Jing persuaded Xia Yao to have a few drinks as well. She couldn't hold her liquor and quickly became flushed. Chen
, drunk, tried to joke with Xia Yao, but she easily defeated him with a few nonchalant words.

This gathering was to celebrate Li Jing's birthday. Li Jing, cupping her face in her hands, giggled and said, "First of all, thank you so much, dear
Yao Yao, for coming all the way from Suzhou! My good sister, thank you, thank you! And also, thank you everyone for coming tonight! Have a
good drink!"

Xia Yao and Li Jing attracted countless eyes, while I was trapped in Yi's vortex, struggling and
pleading, but I just couldn't escape. While drinking, I unconsciously started smoking. Perhaps I was being
rude; Li Jing only smiled and scolded me, but the acquaintances around me looked at me with more pity.

The next day, Li Jing gave me a QQ number, smiling mysteriously. "It's the little princess's number. I'm giving it to you secretly
, don't tell her!"

It was Xia Yao's QQ number. During the days Yi wasn't around, Xia Yao was the one who comforted and kept me company the most.
At that time, Chen was pursuing Xia Yao, and I didn't know what to do or what my attitude should be. I applied to add Xia Yao
on QQ; her nickname was "Little Princess." Xia Yao was a very popular girl in the company. Someone called her "Little
Princess" one time, and it spread. Basically, no one called her by her real name anymore; close friends and casual acquaintances all called her "Little
Princess ." Over time, the nickname "Little Princess" stuck.

Her QQ profile picture had a blue sea background with a girl with a great figure standing on the shore. I recognized her at a glance.
This girl was lively and youthful. Her friend request question was, "Why did you add me?"

Her tone was playful and cheerful. I quickly typed two words: "To confide!"

Almost no one uses the word "confide" when adding someone as a friend. I think I was the first. It was
right after work, almost bedtime, and the request was approved quickly. I spoke first, using a stranger's tone,
"Hello."

Xia Yao quickly sent a sleepy emoji. "I'm not feeling well, I'm so sleepy, yawn."

I sent a smiling emoji. "Why don't you go to sleep first?"

There was a pause, then a message: "No, don't sleep yet. Tell me who you are, why you added me, and tell me the
truth!"

I said I was a stranger.

On the other side of the computer screen, I could almost see her lively and charming smile. We talked so much that night. I
confided in her about my feelings for Yi.

She asked, "Poor child, you must have loved her very much?"

I said yes, I loved her, loved her to the point of madness, the pain of not being able to breathe. For her, I would do almost anything,
but she cruelly abandoned me. As I said this, tears welled up in my eyes again.

She seemed to sense my sadness and replied in a very comforting tone, "Don't cry, don't cry. I guess you're crying,
but you must live on bravely and strongly, instead of living a life of debauchery every day, don't you think?"

I almost choked up and couldn't type. Instinctively, I wanted to say something, but tears fell drop by drop, hitting the
keyboard. After that night, whenever I couldn't fall asleep in the quiet of the night, I would think of Xia Yao and confide in her about my
past, about my love for Yi. She always thought of me, comforted me, and listened.

During this time, one day at noon... Around 10 PM, while I was at work, news of an earthquake suddenly came in from a certain province.
The earthquake affected a wide area, with several provinces feeling the tremors strongly. The whole country was united in its efforts to provide
disaster relief . When I logged into QQ late at night, my computer was filled with messages, all from Xia Yao. "I was so worried about you!
Are you okay? There was an earthquake today, it was terrifying!"

I replied to her. "I'm in Shanghai."

She was silent for a while, then replied with a smiling emoji, "That's great, I'm in Shanghai too."

Girls seem to have a natural love for gossip. I always confided to her how I couldn't forget Yi. Over
time , she also became quite curious about Yi, since I was using an alias and telling her
things that Yi and I talked about when we were alone.

She asked me, "Is your girlfriend very pretty?"

I replied, "Little princess, when you love someone, you don't care about their appearance. Although she is beautiful, I
don't love her beauty, I love her as a person."

Like a child, she thought for a moment and said, "Okay, love is such a strange feeling. Luckily, I don't have
love . Look how good I am now. I go to work and come home every day, sleep when I'm tired, travel, eat when I'm hungry,
and I feel happy just thinking about the wonderful life ahead."

I replied, "I wish you happiness forever."

She replied with a cheerful and carefree attitude, "Likewise, likewise. You must also be happy forever, and don't
drink anymore."

I had been chatting with Xia Yao online for more than half a year without realizing it. Until one day, she
saw She was very charming and walked towards me with a pout. Without saying a word, she sat down on
the chair opposite me, picked up her glass and took a sip, very elegant and alluring.

I was somewhat stunned, wondering why she suddenly sat so openly across from me. Before Yi was around, Xia Yao
was someone I interacted with through work. When we greeted each other, she would say, "Keep it up!"

From then on, we greeted each other every day, and every morning after "Good morning," she would always add "Keep it up! "

Xia Yao had a beautiful and refined appearance and a sweet smile. She pretended to be deep in thought, cupping her delicate face in her two jade-like hands, her large
eyes glistening with moisture. Suddenly, she smiled sweetly, "I didn't know you were like this. You hid it well. I asked Sister Li and found out
it was you who added me on QQ."

After chatting online for more than half a year, we seemed to have become very close friends. I smiled and
poured her a glass of wine.

That night, I took her home. As she was about to go upstairs, I grabbed her hand and naturally
kissed .

In the days that followed, my relationship with Xia Yao went from being hidden to being public. Our friends all gave their blessings, except for Chen, who continued
to pursue Xia Yao relentlessly. Because of this, the two brothers never spoke a word to each other again after meeting.

Do I feel guilty towards Chen? A little, but I guess anyone would feel the same way in that situation.

I still drink occasionally, and when I'm drunk and think of Yi, I inexplicably burst into tears. It's an
indescribable loneliness—having someone with you, yet still feeling lonely. That's the most pitiful tragedy of humankind.

Before, when I was drunk, Chen would take me home. Since I got together with Xia Yao, I haven't spoken a word to Chen.
Not long after, Chen resigned, and we haven't been in contact since. We'll never see each other again.

Now, when I'm drunk, Xia Yao takes me home. After that, I started trying to quit drinking. Two months later, I rented
a place closer to my company. The environment is decent, though it's near Jing'an Temple, which feels a bit more
remote .

Since breaking off contact with Chen, I haven't seen Xia Yao for over half a month. It's not that I don't want to see her, but
thinking of Chen makes me feel guilty.

I didn't see Xia Yao again until the company organized a trip. She was still that lovable little princess, surrounded by
men and women . Xia Yao had a great sense of style, and this time she was dressed quite casually,
with her long, flowing black hair and a snow-white off-shoulder dress. Her face was beautiful and ethereal; she truly looked like a princess. We

admired many beautiful sights along the way. Xia Yao sat behind me, and I wasn't sure if her gaze lingered on me. I just wondered
if Yi was thinking of me now, and if she was thinking of her as much as I was.

I couldn't quit drinking, no matter how hard I tried. I indulged in a life of debauchery, frequenting nightlife. During that time, I met several girls, and
naturally we ended up having relationships. The sad thing is, now I feel regret, but I don't know how to feel. I wouldn't
say I'm heartless.

One night, I got drunk again and fell down the steps. I don't even know how Xia Yao got there.
I vaguely remember several colleagues from the company rushing over in the middle of the night to carry me home. Xia Yao was the last one left. She took
a band-aid put it on my forehead. I saw her sigh softly, and tears welled up in my eyes. I
burst into tears and poured out my heart to her, telling her about all the little things I'd shared with Yi over the past five years. How could she be so heartless to me?

Xia Yao's eyes also welled up with tears. She didn't say anything, didn't do anything, and just fell asleep in her arms.
One night, when I woke up the next day, Xia Yao's hair was slightly disheveled and she wasn't even dressed. She was lying on the sofa, and I vowed never to drink again.

I have a habit of writing in my diary, and even when I'm drunk, I'll write down everything that happened last night. Tonight, I had plans with
Xia Yao. I learned from Li Jing that today is Xia Yao's birthday.

The celebration was specially chosen to be held in a beautiful park. The weather forecast said it would rain tonight, but
that didn't matter. I was hoping for rain, not for anything else, but just to give Xia Yao a romantic birthday.

After careful preparation, I set out candles and a birthday cake in a gazebo, waiting for Xia Yao's arrival.
Sure enough, it started to rain not long after. The rain wasn't heavy. Just then, Xia Yao, looking
charming , walked towards me with her hands behind her back and smiled, saying, "Why did you ask me out?"

I smiled and replied, "Come here, come here and I'll tell you."

Xia Yao stood at the bottom of the gazebo, refusing to come up. "No way! You're all smiles, you must have a bad idea. Tell me
why you asked me out!"

I turned around abruptly, revealing a snow-white strawberry cake behind me. Xia Yao gasped, covering her mouth
with a look of surprise, "Mine?" She

quickly ran up to the gazebo, cupping her pretty face and staring at the cake. I asked her, "You must have turned down
all the birthday celebrations for you and come here specifically."

Xia Yao looked at my face with her beautiful eyes and smiled, "Yes, but every cloud has a silver lining."

I sat down next to her and asked, "Do you like it?"

Xia Yao paused, then suddenly... Then I asked, "Why are you suddenly being so nice to me?"

Her answer left me a little confused. But thinking about it carefully, it made sense. After all, I had poured all my love into Yi
, while Xia Yao was completely unaware. With her bright, sparkling eyes, she looked happily at the cake in front of her and murmured
to herself, "More than anything, I'd be happier if you didn't drink."

I didn't say anything. Xia Yao continued to be immersed in her happiness. She told me, "Do you remember my QQ profile picture?
It's a picture taken at the beach. My parents met at the beach, and then I was born. I've always loved the blue sea and
dream of having a house by the sea."

After listening to her story, I smiled broadly and let her blow out the candles. "Make a wish!"

Xia Yao smiled sweetly, closed her eyes, and made a wish. Then we both blew out all the candles in one go, letting the rain
pour down. Xia Yao was happier than ever, and so was I. Since losing Yi, this was the happiest and most
joyful day I'd ever had.

I don't know what she wished for, and it's not good to ask. The rain gradually stopped, and I took her hand and we
strolled in the park. The park is my favorite place to come to, a place to relax. We walked and chatted,
with light drizzle falling like powder. I took off my coat and covered Xia Yao's head with it, put my arms around her waist,
and kissed her tenderly. She frequently slipped her tongue into my mouth, and we kissed passionately. When the kiss ended, she blushed and
nestled in my arms. "Is this what it feels like to be drunk?"

I put my arm around her waist and we walked slowly home, answering her, "It's different. A little princess is sweeter than wine."

Calling her "little princess" at this moment had a flirtatious feel to it. Xia Yao blushed and playfully complained, "You're so annoying!"

Yi never said the word "annoying." On one hand, she felt that saying that word made her seem
weak, and on the other hand, she had a strong sense of pride.

The first time I heard a girl speak to me in such a soft, sweet tone, my inner desires surged
like a raging sea. When I brought her home, it was already 2 AM. The desires that had been building up all night could no longer be contained.
Without realizing it, I picked Xia Yao up and placed her on the bed. I turned off the light and passionately kissed her lips. Xia Yao's moans were like a plaintive whisper,
her whole being delicate and timid. I first removed her snow-white shirt, then her light blue skirt,
revealing .

When she was only wearing a bra and panties, Xia Yao blushed deeply, struggling to kiss me. My
hands grasped her two full
breasts inside her bra, kneading and caressing them with tenderness. Xia Yao moaned softly, clinging to my neck, refusing to let go. My hands trembled as I covered her breasts with my palms;
the fullness and elasticity beneath the bra made my heart flutter. Xia Yao let out a soft sob, her beautiful face flushing slightly.

As I unhooked her light blue bra, a pair of snow-white, smooth breasts trembled and were exposed. My desire ignited, and I climbed
on top of Xia Yao, passionately kissing her snow-white breasts. When I took her
nipple into my mouth, all the gloom vanished. Xia Yao seemed to struggle, grabbing a pillow and placing it under her neck, her beautiful eyes wide as she watched me nibble and kiss her breasts. As I took turns sucking on her breasts
, a gentle, jade-like hand caressed me tenderly above my head. This was a woman
offering .

I manipulated her thighs, pulling her pink panties from between her legs. Xia Yao seemed to have anticipated
something , her pink legs trembling. I shamelessly pressed down on her fragrant shoulders, and as we wriggled and intertwined, we were deeply
united. In that moment of union, I was like a lost child, thrusting forcefully into her body. Xia Yao whimpered softly, and I was
incredibly , not knowing how I got through that night.

Men are often head over heels in love with their first love, but after losing it, they almost completely lose interest in love altogether
. This is often why many women are left heartbroken.

After countless drunken nights, Xia Yao started planning to move again. The new
apartment was much better, and that's when we officially started living together.

There were definitely some work-related troubles, and she was also hanging out with some new colleagues. Drinking
seemed to have become a way of life. Xia Yao started buying flowers, from lilies to roses, then tulips, and then all sorts of other
things in life One weekend, I came home from work and opened the door to find a husky crawling around in the living room,
a festive red rope around its neck. Xia Yao came out of the kitchen grinning, "Newly bought, 1600 yuan."

The aroma of the food whetted my appetite, and I forgot about the husky. I ran over, grabbed her hand, and asked, "What's in the dishes?"

Xia Yao smiled mysteriously, "You'll find out soon enough. I invited Sister Li..." " Come here, don't just stand around,
tidy up the room."

I replied. "Oh, it's Li Jing, haven't seen her in a long time,"

Xia Yao replied from the kitchen. "She just came back to Shanghai from Suzhou. In another six months or so, we might
have to go back to Suzhou."

I tidied up the new house. That husky, true to its name, was very shy at first, but soon
became mischievous, chasing after the fur ball. Xia Yao finished in the kitchen, checked her watch, and said, "It's 7 o'clock. I told her it would be
7:10. It should be almost there. She's always so punctual."

I smiled, "Hmm, ten more minutes. Let me give my wife a little kiss first."

He pulled her into his arms and kissed her passionately. Li Jing came over carrying a bunch of flowers and teased the husky,
asking, "New? How much did they cost?"

Xia Yao laughed and said, "1600. I asked a friend to buy them. They said they're a purebred, but I don't really know."

Li Jing was wearing a pink sundress and transparent high heels, which accentuated her tall figure. Hearing that she was engaged, Xia
Yao smiled brightly. "Are you busy lately?"

Li Jing picked up the dog and played with it. "Who says I'm not busy? But I'm used to it."

During dinner, we talked about everyday life. Li Jing wished Xia Yao and me happiness and sighed about
how expensive .

Days passed, and I stopped drinking for a long time, almost forgetting about it. But I still secretly went
out have affairs. The thrill and tension of the affair kept me hooked. My loyalty to Yi and my inability to forget her were
what made me relax during those affairs.

Until one day, during a business meeting, a woman named Wang Wen entered my life. Wang Wen was in her early twenties, in the prime of
her youth . Nothing happened between us, except we chatted on QQ and our phones about things we shouldn't have, which Xia Yao
inadvertently found.

The two of us had a huge fight. She threw my things and tore up my diary. In a fit of rage, she slammed the door and ran away
, never to return.

I was left alone in my messy home, surrounded by flowers and my husky.

I started drinking recklessly again, with no one to stop me. I hung out with girls until late at night.
The only difference was that when I was drunk, even if I passed out on the street, like a dead dog, no one would care. First, I'd mumble
"Yi," then I'd think of Xia Yao. I wondered whose image lingered more in my mind.

Every time I came home, I would tend to Xia Yao's flowers, watering them daily and remembering to buy dog food for her
husky . I spent my nights partying, almost every night like this, hoping that one day Yi would return to my
side. Sigh, it was all just wishful thinking. I thought and thought, waited and waited.

Most of the time, I would stare blankly at Xia Yao's husky. Several months passed like this, and the husky
grew bigger and bigger. One day, while walking it, I saw Xia Yao.

She was still beautiful, her elegant face showing no trace of past heartbreak. I missed her again, but more than anything, I missed
her alluring, irresistible body.

Li Jing went back to Shenzhen. We occasionally kept in touch online. She always cared about Xia Yao and me. I think, as
a friend, she did her best.

Xia Yao was singing at the karaoke bar. I watched her profile; her skin was so fair and beautiful under the lights. Her slightly trembling red lips
sang a moving song. I didn't care about anything else, I just drank. When I drank too much, I would eat some sunflower seeds and snacks.
I hadn't seen her for half a year, and she had developed even more. From the side, I could see her full breasts even more clearly, and her two dazzling white legs under her skirt.
I don't know when, but she started to like wearing high heels. I thought, while I was away, many men would want to pursue
her.

That's how people are; they don't cherish what they have until they lose it. Now I regret it.

After she finished singing, she excused herself to go to the restroom. I followed her as soon as she left. Xia Yao seemed to know someone
was following . As soon as she entered the restroom, I barged in. Xia Yao was startled. I closed the door and passionately kissed her
neck. Xia Yao struggled desperately, sobbing softly, "If you do this again... ah, I'll accuse you of rape..."

I turned her over, pulled down my pants, and pressed her against the sink, calling her, "Wife,
wife..."

Xia Yao's heart seemed to soften. Taking advantage of this moment, I lifted her skirt, pulled her panties down from under the skirt, and thrust
into her body. Xia Yao whimpered softly, a strong pleasure I had never experienced before filled me. The lewd sounds of our bodies intertwining
echoed .

Xia Yao lay on the sink, watching me thrust into her from behind through the mirror. Her voice was almost a sob as she pleaded, "No...
don't let anyone...hear!"

A surge of intense pleasure overwhelmed me; my vision blurred, and I thrust wildly, babbling incoherently... "Almost
there, almost there, ah, just a few minutes, waves of pleasure, I'm coming!"

Xia Yao's hair was disheveled, her body limp on the sink. I grabbed some toilet paper, lifted her to
sit on the sink, and spread her legs to wipe her private parts.

Xia Yao was incredibly vulnerable at that moment. As I wiped her, she cried. Later, I took her straight
back to our old home. The husky there was now as tall as my knees. Xia Yao stroked its head and smiled happily.

That night she came back, we didn't do anything else, just kept making love until we were both exhausted. I writhed
and entwined on top of her, but couldn't get an erection anymore.

After this incident, we made up. The next day, Xia Yao
was overjoyed to see all the flowers she had bought, praising me for being so considerate and knowing she loved flowers. Actually, I had just been watering
the flowers out of boredom.

I thought this peaceful life would continue, but unexpectedly, we started arguing more and more
, and the reasons for our arguments were often ridiculous. We were busy with work at work, and then busy arguing after work,
starting with the smallest things in life. Then one day, Xia Yao accidentally saw a mention of Yi in my diary, and she completely exploded. She tried to
tear up my diary again. In the ensuing conflict, I accidentally pushed her, and Xia Yao fell onto the bed, staring at me blankly.

I couldn't look her in the eye; I felt a deep sense of guilt. Xia Yao asked me, "Do you love her?"

I couldn't answer, and I didn't want to lie to her.

Xia Yao cried and screamed hysterically, "Is sex that important to you? Do you
love me? Tell me honestly!"

I felt wronged. I wasn't the only one using love as an excuse for sex, but Xia Yao
was serious . She thought love was pure. A girl like her wasn't suited for blind love. After so long together,
it would be a lie to say I didn't like her. Everyone has a heart. I asked her to meet me in the park.

We sat in the same park we used to sit in. Xia Yao clutched her skirt, tears streaming down her face. Her heart seemed
broken; it was a world of shattered hope and darkness. I poured out my heart to her, this was the last
time I told her my feelings, my thoughts. I said I truly loved her, but I couldn't bear that she couldn't let go of my
past. Even if we reconciled, we would still argue. Let's break up.

When Xia Yao heard this, she couldn't even cry anymore. She clutched her clothes tightly, trying to
shout something, but no sound came out. She stared at me blankly for three hours. I was
scared , and I was afraid that staying would lead to an eternal entanglement, so I made the difficult decision to leave.

It wasn't safe to leave her alone in such a large park, so I secretly went back. I saw her sitting
motionless on a bench, staring at the lake, like she had lost her soul. I was afraid she might do something foolish and jump in, so I didn't dare leave
and stayed another hour before finally leaving.

Unexpectedly, she returned in the morning, looking dazed and confused, as if she had lost her soul. I was shocked and
helped her back to her room to rest. Since the breakup, she had been incredibly obedient to me, doing whatever I wanted.
If I got even slightly angry, she would look at me with fear and never dared to argue with me again.

She's a good woman. I think I've forgotten Yi and fallen in love with Xia Yao.

Shanghai is full of bars and nightclubs, and there are many nightclub groups on my phone. Opening a certain app,
almost all the nearby groups are nightclub groups, organizing drinking parties. I introduced my own groups to Xia Yao, and she
made many friends in those groups.

A few months later, Xia Yao discussed resigning from her job with me, wanting to open a clothing store in Suzhou. I agreed, and
soon after, we returned to Suzhou together and opened a clothing store. Although that period was tiring, it was also happy.
We had reached the point of discussing marriage, and as the days went by, my love for Xia Yao deepened.
I had forgotten Yi and was focused on living with her.

Because I wanted to get married, I introduced Xia Yao to my parents. Although there were some minor setbacks in the marriage, we were able to overcome them. I
started to truly change for the better, quit drinking, and stopped fooling around with others. Although Xia Yao and I would sometimes go to nightclubs to drink,
we were still happy.

Heartbreakingly, one night at ten o'clock, I was thinking of going to the clothing store to help Xia Yao close up shop when I saw her on the way.
She was being followed by a man dressed like a thug. Not knowing the situation, I secretly followed him.
I saw the thug try to hold her hand, but she shook him off. At that moment, I rushed over, and only because there were auxiliary police officers
nearby did a fight not break out.

I felt a tightness in my chest, and I went berserk like a wild beast, yelling and screaming at her. Xia Yao cried and explained that she
met him in a nightclub group chat. He said he had a crush on me and had been doing so for several days, but I had ignored him .
She promised me she would never talk to him again, trying to keep her voice down so my dad wouldn't hear.

Because I loved her and couldn't bear to lose her, I made up with her, and life returned to normal.

One weekend, my dad asked me to bring Xia Yao food. I ate with her at the clothing store.
While , that thug ran into the store again, pointed at Xia Yao, and yelled, "You fucking tricked me! We agreed
to meet the night before last, and I waited there for hours and you never showed up!"

"I don't know what Xia Yao's expression was like, and I can't describe how I felt at that moment.
Xia Yao had told me several times before that she was going to stay at her classmate's house for a few days. I knew her classmate,
and she had helped us a lot when we argued before, so I agreed when Xia Yao said that. I slammed the door and left
."

That night, Xia Yao didn't say a word when she got home. I yelled at her, and she cried, then took some
things and stayed at the store.

My parents probably found out something, because they weren't too keen on me being with Xia Yao before, and now that
this happened, they were even more against it and wanted me to break up with her.

Xia Yao's mother also found out about this; Xia Yao must have told her. Xia Yao's mother talked to me for a whole morning,
and I gradually calmed down. Actually, I didn't want to leave Xia Yao. We'd been through so much together, and we were even
at the point of discussing marriage, and now it was all over. I was really unwilling to accept it!

I just hoped Xia Yao could apologize and explain everything to me. But she wouldn't say a word.
She contacted her mother, her classmates, and friends in our group chat to talk to me, but she just wouldn't tell me herself.
I couldn't figure out why!

I couldn't get over it in my heart, and I had no reason to convince my parents. I brought up breaking up again, and this time
she still didn't say a word. So we broke up! She left my family and rented a new place.

A month later, she closed her shop. I brought her clothes and belongings that she had left at my house to her place.
She had lost a lot of weight, and it broke my heart. I didn't ask her why, and she didn't explain anything. That's how
we broke up completely!

Maybe I should have known that she couldn't bring herself to tell me what had happened.

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