Roujia's Diary: An Experience as a Female Submissive (01~528)

Chapter Ten
Seeing that he had almost fully instilled SM knowledge and ideas in me, he called me a slut, a little bitch. Before, he was so calm and polite
in conversations , but now, suddenly calling me that, my heart trembled, and my labia and vaginal walls
involuntarily clenched and twitched. I blushed and sent him a shy emoji with trembling hands. Seeing that I
didn't say knew I wasn't offended, and this was the beginning of his seduction. He had never seduced me before, but now he felt
the time was right. Seeing that I didn't object, he knew I was willing to listen.
He told me to call him master, and I had a slight urge to do so. I slowly pulled my panties down to my knees,
my inner thighs soaked with vaginal fluid. I gently closed my eyes, savoring the surging pleasure. It felt like
when my lover confessed his love to me, saying, "Baby, darling, call me husband." But this time, the confession was completely
different; it was, "You slut, you little bitch, call me master." Just like in the article, he acted as master in the chat first. I didn't call
him that; once I did, it would be hard to turn back.
Isn't that how it was done in the article? First, he calls me "master" online, then they meet in person. At first, I wasn't accepting it, but
I gradually got used to it. He got me in just a few days of chatting. I'm so pathetic. If I keep going with this guy, I
'll gradually accept it psychologically. It's only been a few days. For convenience, I'll call the online friend I
chat with "Heartbroken Person," and the mysterious person "master" in quotes because I haven't called him master yet. When I do, I
'll remove the quotes. The day I call him master will be the day my heart is conquered by him.
"The sad person" asked me to be his "master" and to call him master. I said, "I didn't mean to call you that." I'm
such masochist. We're such good friends and I don't call him that, but after knowing him for only a few days, I want to call him master.
What do I like about "master"? I can't explain it. It's like the kind of feeling between a sadist and a submissive. People who aren't that kind of person can't understand it.
This is dangerous, isn't it? It's only been a few days, and I already have the urge to call him "master." Both the heartbroken man and I don't want to play the master,
but I'd rather call the mysterious man "master." He said he dared to say that I would definitely let the "master" fuck me and let him
play with me as my master. That's how I am. I can't force myself to do things I don't like, but I'll do what I like seriously. Soon, very soon, if he
teases me again, the word "master" will just slip out of my mouth. The heartbroken man and I are so close, and he's
even acting as my master online. You wouldn't want that, but you're willing to be the "master," which shows that I'm a sincere masochist. I wrote that
I refuse to be trained by multiple masters and only recognize one master. I'll become his bitch and serve him wholeheartedly. The feelings between me and the heartbroken man
as his little lover are gone.
The heartbroken man is a failure. He liked me so much, accepting everything I liked. I like BDSM, and he wanted to be
my master, even a cyber slave, but I felt nothing. I liked him the moment I met this mysterious man. No one can force someone to do what
they don't want I do what I like seriously. In reality, even if someone likes me and puts in so much effort
and money, I don't care. This heartbroken man has been devoted to me for so long, yet I've never sent him a single photo of myself
, never even seen my breasts. All I've seen are photos from years ago. This mysterious man is so lucky. I accepted
him emotionally, and soon I called him master. He ravaged my full breasts and licked my cunt.
He was sexually potent, his big cock fucking my cunt, making me squirt. I knelt obediently like a bitch, my
master fucking me from behind. He ejaculated in my mouth and made me swallow it, ejaculated in my vagina and made me lick the semen,
urinated on my face and in my mouth, and slapped my round, big ass. I felt an indescribable pleasure, beyond emotion and sexual stimulation.
The heartbroken man wanted to play the master, calling me a slut, a bitch, but I didn't feel anything. He started teasing me,
calling me a slut, and my pussy got wet. Soon he would tease me again, calling me a slut and making me call him master. Later, I
shyly called him master, just like in the story. He had successfully trained me. Next was meeting,
just like in the story. He arranged a place to train me. At first, I was reserved, but it was very exciting. Later, he started anal sex,
playing with me to a degree that I could accept.
If it really happens, he will definitely tell my mother. Don't believe him too much. Just because he says he won't tell doesn't mean he won't.
My mother might tell your husband. Even if she doesn't, I will listen to my master's agreement with my sister. I
feel like 's much easier for him to have sex with me than with others because I am a masochist. I have a strong sex drive, but I am well-behaved. If
I become his bitch, I will no longer be the person I used to be in everyone's eyes.
I need to think this through carefully. There are no secrets that stay hidden forever. My husband and father-in-law
thought , but I found out too. If it happened with an online friend, it wouldn't be a big deal. He's a real person in my life,
someone my mother knows. If it happened with me, the secrecy would be even lower. At least my life is in his hands,
and I'm under his control. If nothing happens, it's fine, but if things don't go his way, it'll be a trigger.
He said he'd been watching and inquiring about me for quite some time. He started noticing me after he met my mother. I thought, "
How could he know me so well just from my appearance? Turns out he's been watching me for years, finding out everything from my mother and husband
." How terrifying! For the past few years, I've been living under someone else's watchful eye and surveillance.
What he said makes sense. I am a submissive, just undeveloped. Once developed, I'll be like my mother. He's a
professional BDSM practitioner; the psychology of BDSM is different from that of ordinary people. I'm probably mildly fascinated, not intensely so.
I like freedom and don't like being restricted by anyone. I can accept submissives, but only if I have feelings for someone
I like . BDSM comes second. Besides BDSM, there's probably nothing about him that I like. I don't know, but I
vaguely feel he's my type. He wants to use BDSM to get me to accept it psychologically, only sexually. It doesn't have
the passion and emotional connection of my previous boyfriends. I'm not that easy to accept. Right now, it's not about whether I accept it or not
; it's about not knowing what will happen in the future, not knowing if I'll be able to accept it.
他見我在他的挑逗下也沒反感，知道時機差不多了，說想要見我，這麼快他
就想見啊，他以為他確定收服我的心才見，他這樣自信啊。也太快了吧，這才幾
天，我見面的心理準備都沒有，我沒答應。這麼快就想見我，也就是他非常自信，
認為看我非常准。我不是非常好奇他是誰嗎，非常想知道他的樣子嗎，見一面怕
什麼，他又不會吃了我。
他見我沒答應，以為我害羞，不會扮演ｍ，就說：「小母狗，不用擔心，見
面後先不用你做什麼，也不讓你跪著趴著聽我命令，我們開始就平等對待，你喜
歡怎麼樣我就怎麼樣。」
沒想到他見面就想操我，我說不見了，以後再說吧。我要是不矜持，答應了
他見面，他會對我做什麼，想到這裡，我的胴體輕輕顫抖，用手把我的睡衣拉到
胸口上，蹦出一對顫巍巍的白嫩乳球。柔嫩的奶子，淡淡的乳暈，小小的乳頭嫩
嫩的。
我輕握住我的白嫩乳房慢慢揉搓，我讓他發照片，他說過幾天，他說可以，
過幾天。現在我想要他照片，除了看這個神秘人的是誰，我還有另一種期待，好
想看看我的「主人」長的什麼樣，帥不帥，和我想像的一樣吧，要是照片有種說
不出來的主人的威嚴，我喜歡上了，怎麼辦，就是長的一般，我想我也會喜歡他
的，我喜歡的不是他的相貌，是他對我有說不清的感覺。想到「主人」的樣子，
我敏感的陰蒂漲漲的感覺，我羞澀的輕輕扭動著身體。真是荒唐，我連他名字都
不知道，長什麼樣也不知道，這奇特的追求方式，叫我騷逼，讓出了我的性欲，
叫我小母狗，叫出了我的奴性。他好象知道我期待看他的照片一樣，故意讓我急
幾天。
他對我說，「小母狗，我給你發一張你媽媽這只母狗的照片，想看嗎？」
我害羞的說想看，他發了一張我媽的照片，是一張我媽跪著的照片，臉露一
少半，真是我媽媽，穿的很少，很恭順的樣子，就象一隻馴服的母狗。但好像是
幾年前的樣子，可能是我結婚前了。
看到了照片，這下我更加相信他說的事實了，看來我媽媽真的成了他的母狗，
對他說出了我老公和公公和我媽做愛的事。他又撤回了，我說再發，他說不能再
發了，要保護她隱私，我是她女兒，和我還有什麼不相信的。真是的，ｓｍ不是
互相真誠的信任嗎，他就這樣不信任我。
看到我媽媽這樣的照片我反感，本來對我媽印象就不好，感情很淡，現在又
象母狗一樣下賤的樣子，我更沒好感。我要是真接受了，我想他會讓我和我媽媽
一起這樣，我可不願意讓他一起玩我和媽媽，他就不一樣心理了，一想到我和媽
媽都變成他的母狗，他心理一定非常非常刺激，就是我是ｍ，我也接受不了和媽
一起這樣跪著讓他玩。
我邊用手指在我的濕潤的陰道口劃著，邊想像著以後他也會這樣對你，我穿
的少，露出大屁股和奶子，跪著叫主人，他叫我母狗，我一臉的恭順，我感覺有
點刺激，邊摸著我的逼，柔弱的呼吸變的濁重。
我讓他發他雞巴照片，他會發嗎，我真想看他的大雞巴什麼樣，但我不會主
動讓他發，這多不好意思說出口，他會發的以後，也可能會發的，他一定有讓我
看他雞巴的衝動，挑逗我的衝動。
敢給我打電話，敢和我聊這個，他就知道我不會給老公說，就知道我是合適
的ｍ，文章中那個ｍ開始也和我一樣，開始甚至不喜歡，討厭，接受不了，可是
甘心聽主人的，這就是ｍ神奇之處，他看的很准，我確定是ｍ，不過心理不象文
章中的那麼重，不過要是接受調教就可以成為ｍ，我媽媽開始也是對這個不瞭解
的，我不知道我是不是願意，和我以前所以經歷完全不同，我是有沒完全釋放的
東西。
我應該不會成為他的母狗吧，要是成他的ｍ，這一切都變了，尊嚴沒有了，
ｓ就是主人，要絕對服從，我的肉體，靈魂，人性都要讓他踐踏。文章中的尿和
麵包一起吃，我不能接受。網友傷心的人一個勁勸我，說要是當ｍ一定能接受，
不接受就懲罰。我竟然替「主人」辯解，說不一定都那樣。
文章說有ｓ勸她不要輕言退出，並承諾可以給她更精彩的項目、更刺激的花
樣，她回絕了，文章中的ｍ也最後退出了，就玩一次就退出了，我想我接受了就
不容易退出吧，我媽媽就讓他玩好幾年了。
文章中說ｍ一直以為多多少少會得到主人的一些撫慰，一點肯定——哪怕一
個字也好，都會讓她覺得所有的傷痛有價值、有意義，甚至是一種榮幸，別指望
主人的溫柔和商量，絕不可能的，主人就是主人，聽你的那還叫主人嗎，我的
「主人」也不知道會對我怎麼樣，現在他沒露出本性。「主人」就是看到我屈辱，
痛苦，他快樂，我就是感覺污辱，痛苦感覺快樂，在自己的性愛方面是完全喪失
自主性的，一個合格的性奴應該很清楚得認識到，我自己就是主人的性俘虜，一
種泄欲的工具。自己的主要工作就是滿足主人所有性方面的需求，以此來獲得自
己的性快感。我感覺我會接受他，成為非奴的，因為我這個人吧，我不喜歡的事，
誰也勉強不了，要是這個人光以做愛目的，我也不會同意的，可是他是ｓ，發現
了我ｍ的心理，所以能得到我的肉體和精神，現在就是效果，我不反感他，就聊
幾天就接受他的滲透方法，學習他發的資料，接受他打電話，我和網友傷心的人
聊幾年了，我都不和他說電話，更不用說打電話了。
和「主人」聊完後，我的心久久不能平靜，他叫我騷逼了，叫我小母狗了，
我差點叫他主人了。在不知不覺下，我的心讓他收服了。我脫了睡衣，把內褲也
脫了下來，看著自己雪白的胴體，修長的大腿，細細的腰，渾圓堅挺的乳房起伏
顫動，陰毛下的裂縫緊緊閉合著，從此，我的身體不再是老公獨有，我的身體是
主人的了，雖然還沒有明確答覆他，我內心已有這想法了。
I got into bed, knelt on it, then lay face down, my buttocks raised high. I reached behind me with both hands,
parting already wet vulva. I'd masturbated like this before, but then I'd thought of past lovers or
other men. Now I thought of my master. "Come, master, put it in, fuck me." I parted my vaginal opening,
widening the rosy orifice with my fingers. Although my master's tone wasn't forceful, his
quiet authority, his balanced strength and gentleness, his calm and composed demeanor, and the sense of control he gave me all
radiated an irresistible power. I was willing to grovel at his feet, to be his slave, his dog. Thinking this, I
inserted my fingers into my vagina. Ah, it felt so good, like my master's huge cock was fucking me.
With my hands behind me, it wasn't convenient, so I reached forward, spread my thighs a little, and inserted my fingers into my vagina. My
breathing became rapid. One hand slapped my buttocks from behind, while the other hand moved my fingers in and out of my vagina, occasionally
rubbing my clitoris. My vaginal fluid overflowed with the thrusting of my fingers. I lifted my round buttocks and swayed them, the words in my heart
blurting out , "My esteemed master, fuck this slave's cunt, this bitch is cooperating with the thrusting of your big cock... ahh."
My body grew increasingly hot, and my cunt continuously leaked lustful fluids. The tingling and itching sensation in my vagina made me scream
, and I frantically thrust my sexy buttocks. I was about to cum, and my lustful fluids gushed out. My fair and tender round buttocks
trembled , and I collapsed onto the bed.
I have a strong sex drive, but I've always been chaste and have never cheated. I've never undressed in video chat groups, nor have I ever
shown my naked body to anyone. I only showed it to heartbroken friends online because my husband cheated on me, and I
felt desire for revenge. I liked him, and we had online text sex. My body wasn't cheating, but my mind
was. This time, I've cheated on him both physically and emotionally. Although I haven't actually had sex with my master, he's
stolen my heart. Because this time it's a real person, and I'm even acting as his submissive, after my orgasm, I lay limp on the bed
, feeling a pang of guilt towards my husband. It felt like I had actually let my master fuck my cunt.
August 13, 2016
On August 6th, 2016, the first day, he said he wanted to subdue me. On the eighth day, he sent me articles about female submissive development,
taught me SM knowledge, and asked me to write female submissive evaluation reports. He called me a slut, a little bitch, and I almost called him master. For the first
time I fantasized about my master masturbating while lying on his stomach.

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