My forbidden love with my sister

My name is Tian Yu, and I have a twin sister named Tian Jing. We're twins, a boy and a girl—many people envy
families with twins, but in reality, my family isn't happy. For years, it's been a nightmare for my
brother and me.

Our father is an alcoholic and gambler, and our mother supports us on a meager salary, but she's frequently beaten and verbally
abused by my father. My mother endures it all for my and Jing'er's sake, forcing a smile, hoping to
survive until we grow up. But… that day's memory is a nightmare that will haunt us for the rest of our lives.

The man was completely drunk, falsely accusing Jing'er and me of being illegitimate children born to my mother and another man. He started punching us
indiscriminately . I tried to stop him, but he hit me on the head with an ashtray and knocked
me unconscious. Then, he choked my mother, and she died right there in front of Jing'er, leaving us forever
…

Based on my testimony and that of the neighbors, years of domestic violence, and charges of intentional homicide, the man
was sentenced to death. My sister and I were temporarily raised by my mother's younger sister, our aunt. However, my mother had
many siblings, and their relationships weren't particularly good. My aunt also had her own family and
limited , so it's understandable that Jing'er and I didn't receive much treatment. For the sake of my sister, who was my only support
, I dropped out of school and became an apprentice at a car repair shop, desperately learning the trade, taking on any dirty or tiring job, struggling
to earn a meager income to pay for my sister's tuition and other expenses.

We lived at my aunt's house for a year. Having already struggled in society, I had lost the innocence and naivety that someone my
age should have. I could clearly feel the exclusion my sister and I faced in this family.
One time, my uncle complained coldly, and seeing Jing'er's aggrieved face, I got angry and argued with him. Then I
took Jing'er and left this house. From then on, I shouldered my sister's tuition and living expenses, as well as our rent.
Although it was very hard and difficult, every time I returned to our rented, simple little house and saw my sister
doing her homework , I could endure any hardship or fatigue.

Jing'er's school learned about her family situation, and her homeroom teacher personally came to our rented apartment,
kindly persuading Jing'er to live at the school. However, I was reluctant to let Jing'er leave my side, and years of
relying on each other had fostered a bond between us that was different from siblings, making us unwilling to separate. So,
Jing'er and I both politely declined the well-meaning homeroom teacher's
offer. But perhaps fate intended to make things difficult for those who suffer, because my refusal to let Jing'er live at the school brought another hardship to us.

Jing'er, now in her second year of high school, had an increasingly heavy workload, studying at
school . So, every night I had to pick her up from school. Fortunately, my boss and mentor knew my situation
and were very considerate, not letting me work too late, allowing me time to pick Jing'er up from school every day.

Now, Jing'er has grown up, blossoming into a beautiful young woman with a lovely face, delicate features, and expressive
eyes that always seem to hold a touch of melancholy. Coupled with her quiet and peaceful nature, just like her name suggests, she attracts
many boys and is the envy of many girls at school. Many gossips call her the school beauty, and her
excellent grades have made her quite famous. However, fame is not always a good thing. A
boy who knows many thugs outside the school takes a liking to Jing'er. After his repeated unsuccessful pursuit, he finally becomes enraged and decides to take revenge.

That evening, I rushed to school after work. It was already past 9 PM,
Jing'er's dismissal time, but when I arrived at the school gate, I didn't see her. Usually, if I was slightly
late Jing'er would be waiting for me silently at the gate, so I assumed she had a lot of homework and hadn't finished class yet.

Every evening I would wait for Jing'er at the gate, and sometimes she would wait for me if I wasn't there on time,
so the gatekeepers all recognized this beautiful girl. When the gatekeeper saw me waiting there, he hurriedly told me that Jing'er
had been dragged away a few minutes earlier. I was shocked and immediately chased after them in the direction they pointed.

"Jing'er! Jing'er!" I shouted Jing'er's name frantically, but there was no answer. A chill
ran through me . I forced myself to calm down and think carefully… According to what the gatekeeper had said
, there were three people in total. They seemed to have threatened Jing'er a few times before dragging her away, and I didn't see any transportation,
meaning they couldn't have gone far! Given the surrounding terrain, they were likely to have gone to a
wooded park not far from the school, so I ran there.

Luckily, after rushing into the woods, I found Jing'er, but what I saw made my blood
boil with rage. At this moment, Jing'er lay on a stone table, her mouth taped shut, unable to make a sound.
Tears of fear and humiliation streamed down her delicate cheeks. Her thin school uniform was bunched up to her chest
, and her bra had been torn off, revealing her budding breasts, full and round like steamed buns. Three men
were groping Jing'er's baby-soft skin with their filthy hands, while her hands,
tightly bound by the duct tape, were powerless to resist.

"Stop! You bunch of bastards!" I roared and rushed forward, kicking one of the boys who was walking towards me away
. But I was immediately punched in the face by another man, the blow making me see stars and almost fall to the ground. I
quickly retaliated, wrestling with the three men. My life hadn't been very good for a long time, and I
wasn't physically strong. Although I'd gained some strength from working, I was no match for three people. Besides, these
thugs were more experienced in fighting than me and hit me hard, aiming for my face every time. Before long, I was beaten
black and blue and lying on the ground.

Jing'er's hands and feet were tied. She struggled a few times
before , her heart broke. Her mouth was gagged, and she could only make muffled sobs.

"Tch, you stupid brat, daring to ruin our good time! You're her brother, right? We'll
have some fun with your sister right in front of you, hahaha!" A boy who looked about my age lewdly
chuckled, leaving me half-dead, and walked towards my sister... I felt dizzy, the blow to my head
almost made me faint, but I saw them walk towards Jing'er, yank down her pants,
revealing her mysterious private parts! I don't know where the strength came from, but I struggled to my feet again and lunged at them...

Soon I fell to the ground again. The three men spat at me and walked back towards Jing'er. So I...
I stood up again… I don’t know how much time had passed. I was repeatedly beaten down and repeatedly stood up.
My face was bruised and swollen like a pig’s head, completely unrecognizable. Bright red blood
kept , dripping onto my body and the ground. Jing’er was sobbing weakly, seemingly having given up
all resistance. Perhaps she was willing to lose her virginity if I stopped being beaten. When I struggled to
get up from the ground again, my blurred vision showed that Jing’er had only had her clothes torn off. The three bastards didn’t have time
to do anything further to Jing’er, and I felt a little relieved.

“Heh…heh heh heh heh…you grandsons, come again! As long as you don’t kill me, you dare to touch a
hair on Jing’er’s head. As long as I have a breath left, I will bite off pieces of your flesh!” I squeezed out a
cold , then laughed arrogantly. By this time, the three men had also suffered many injuries on their faces. Seeing that I
could get up no matter how many times I fell down and fight back like a mad dog, they began to be afraid.

"We've been dragging this on a bit too long. Let's finish this kid off quickly, then drag this pretty girl to some
hotel and have some fun with her," one of the men said viciously, pulling out a horn-bladed knife.

Seeing the sharp blade, my heart sank. I knew they must have forced Jing'er here at knifepoint.
At this point, I was covered in sores that I couldn't even move. I could only
watch as the knife slowly approached, preparing for a final desperate fight… Seeing the man slowly closing in, I
gave a contemptuous sneer. Seeing my expression, he almost lost his mind, roaring as he charged at me, his knife slashing
fiercely . However, the blade of this horn-bladed knife wasn't very sharp; the correct way to use it was to stab with the tip.
These scoundrels knew that stabbing would be fatal, so they only dared to use the blade to slash. Although the blade
wasn't sharp, the tip still managed to cut my skin. After taking several cuts, I finally grabbed
the blade and gripped it tightly, ignoring the blood streaming down my hand. With my last bit of strength, I
punched the bastard hard in the nose, stunning him, and then snatched the horn-shaped knife from him.

I gripped the knife tightly and laughed gleefully! My bruised and swollen face looked so
ferocious in the dim light, like a demon from hell. I stared at them, slowly took a step forward,
and said , "Hehe...hehe, I was just thinking...how to kill you bunch of bastards...and you...

you gave me a handy knife, shouldn't I say thank you? Hehe...hehehehehe...
"

My ferocious smile, my chilling words, the blood-stained blade! The three finally panicked. One of them stumbled and
ran away, and the other two followed without looking back. After they walked away, I finally
collapsed to the ground, unable to hold on any longer. I struggled to crawl towards Jing'er, helped her remove the tape from her hands, and told her,
"Call the police quickly," before losing consciousness... When I woke up again, all I saw was a white ceiling,
then white walls, and a white blanket... I slowly thought for a long time before I understood what had happened. I
sat up and looked around, finding Jing'er lying peacefully on the recliner next to my bed, a few strands of hair hanging on her fair
cheek, seemingly asleep. I observed her closely and, seeing that she didn't seem to be injured, I breathed
a sigh Looking at Jing'er's beautiful face, I reached out and lovingly stroked her cheek, but this unexpectedly
woke her up.

Jing'er gasped when she saw I was awake, jumped up and threw herself into my arms, hugging me tightly and burying her face in my
chest, sobbing, "Waaah... Brother... You scared me to death."

I gently patted Jing'er's back, carefully comforting her, "Jing'er, don't cry, I'm fine, aren't you? You
're not hurt, are you? You weren't violated by those people, were you?"

Jing'er shook her head and said, "No, I'm fine. Brother, don't do this again, you scared me to death.
Mom is gone, and Jing'er doesn't want her brother to be gone too."

"Silly girl, it's precisely because Mom is gone that your brother will protect you no matter what. You are my
everything, my hope for living..."

"Waaah... Brother..."

The brother and sister clung tightly to each other, but soon the oblivious nurse heard the commotion and rushed in.
Finding that I had woken up and gone out again, a middle-aged doctor came in a moment later. He glanced
at Jing'er, who was still sitting to the side with tears in her eyes and a blushing face, smiled and shook his head, then began to examine me.

"Hehe, young man, be careful when you hug a girl or a little sister. You just got stitches, don't let the wound reopen
." The doctor seemed very cheerful and even joked.

"Uh... Doctor, don't talk nonsense." I looked at Jing'er, whose originally fair face was now completely red like an apple
, and said anxiously.

"Just kidding, haha. It's nothing serious now, just a mild concussion. You need to
rest more. Also, you have too many wounds, so don't take a bath for a while, and avoid getting it wet. Okay, it
's nothing serious, you rest first. The police from the station will come to check on things later. I'll be going now."

After watching the doctor leave, I turned to Jing'er and said, "By the way, what are you doing here? Don't you have class?"

"I was worried about you... My brother got so badly injured for me, how could I concentrate on my studies..."

Jing'er said aggrievedly. Seeing this expression, I immediately surrendered, holding her soft, boneless little hand, and said
softly ,

"I was just worried about your studies. After such a big incident, I was afraid you'd have some kind of trauma that would affect
your studies."

"Don't worry, my brother has done so much for me all these years, I will definitely study hard, I will be as strong as
my brother !"

"Good girl, come here, let me hug you again. "

"You're so annoying..."

Afterwards, the police station began investigating the matter, and the school also got involved. The three people were suspected of rape.
He was convicted of multiple crimes , including attempted rape and intentional assault, but that's another story.

After being discharged from the hospital, because my injuries hadn't fully healed, I asked my boss for leave to rest at home. As the saying goes,
children with hard lives mature early. Although I've been taking care of Jing'er for years, she's done her
share of housework, more than capable of handling my limited mobility. And the inexplicable feelings between Jing'er and me seemed to have
intensified.

A little over a week later, my injuries were fully healed, and I returned to my demanding work. Jing'er also threw herself into her studies.
Although my injury had delayed her studies for a while, her grades didn't drop. By the end of the semester...
My daughter's overall grades were in the top 10 of her grade, which made me, as her older brother, very happy.

Soon, Jing'er was in her final year of high school, and her studies became even more demanding. Evening study sessions ended very late,
so for safety and convenience, I let her live at school. This was the first time I'd been separated
from her. To avoid disturbing her, I rarely contacted her. Whenever I returned to my rented room, where I was all alone, it felt like
just home, no matter where I was.

I thought about how Jing'er had grown up, becoming more and more beautiful. I, as her older brother
, found it increasingly difficult to understand her thoughts. She was starting to feel shy around me, to avoid me, and to have her own
little secrets… When I was alone, I liked to overthink these things, my mind filled with my sister's beautiful image.
This angelic image sustained me. While Jing'er was at school and I was alone, I
worked overtime like crazy to earn more performance bonuses and raise more money for Jing'er's university education.

Time flies. It was the final sprint of Jing'er's senior year, the second semester of her final year of high school. Even on weekends, Jing'er stayed
at school , occasionally calling to let me know she was okay. I only called her homeroom teacher occasionally to inquire about her
progress. The teacher praised her highly, which put my mind at ease.

Three years of study, two days of exams. After the college entrance exam, I cooked a huge meal for Jing'er
and celebrated. Jing'er was very happy and, unusually, drank some wine. When the scores came out, Jing'er
's results were excellent, easily qualifying her for university in Beijing. We celebrated even more.

"Jing'er, now that you're filling out your college application, where are you planning to go? Peking University or Tsinghua University?" I asked, taking a sip of my drink.
I've always played a role that's half brother, half father. With Jing'er's results, all the hard work and struggles of the past years have
been worthwhile.

Hearing my words, Jing'er's previously beaming face suddenly calmed down, and her complexion seemed rather
unpleasant . I asked in surprise, "What's wrong? Are you unhappy?"

"Brother..." Jing'er paused for a moment before saying, "I'm planning to apply to Wuhan University."

"Why? Although Wuhan University is also a top-tier university, its reputation isn't as great as Peking University or Tsinghua University. It's easier to find
a job , and..."

"I don't want to leave you..." Jing'er suddenly interrupted me. "If I study at Wuhan University, I won't have to
go . I don't want to leave you... I never want to..."

Jing'er's sudden words left me speechless for a moment, and the previously joyous atmosphere turned strange. After a long while,
I forced a smile and said, "What nonsense are you talking about, haha... Silly girl, I'm only
thinking about your future. As long as you're doing well, all these years have been worth it... As for
leaving or not leaving for life... Haha, silly girl, you'll get married sooner or later, then I
'll finally be able to relax, haha... haha... ha... uh, umm."

Towards the end, I couldn't even laugh anymore. Jing'er was silent too. We siblings silently lowered our heads and
ate our food. What was supposed to be a celebratory feast had inexplicably become tasteless. After we finished eating, Jing'er
said to me, "Brother, let's go for a walk. You used to pick me up from school all the time; it's been so long since we went
out ."

"Oh... okay, I'll go after I finish washing the dishes."

As night fell, the young man and woman strolled along the quiet path. Jing'er wore a pure white sundress,
revealing her jade-like arms. Her naturally beautiful figure made me hesitant to look directly at her. In contrast, I was dressed in
simple shorts and a basketball jersey, wearing flip-flops, looking like a complete loser. Walking next to Jing'er, I couldn't help but feel ashamed.

"Brother... I remember back then your grades were better than mine, and you were quick-witted, unlike those bookworms, and you were athletic
too. It's just that you've worked so hard for me all these years, thank you..." Jing'er said softly.

"Sigh, that's all in the past..." Hearing Jing'er's thanks, I felt inexplicably sad. This was
the first time she had ever said "thank you" to me since birth, a "thank you" that I didn't need at all... "
Because I'm your brother, this is what I should do. You don't need to thank me. If you really want to thank me, then
focus on your own life..."

"We were born on the same day. Maybe you really were born a few minutes earlier than me from your mother's
womb , but that shouldn't determine your fate," Jing'er said quietly, her tone tinged with resentment.

"Uh... what exactly are you trying to say? I haven't read many books, so I don't quite understand."

"What I mean is, if it weren't for me all these years, my brother wouldn't have had such a hard life. You
sacrificed your own life for me, was it really just to
protect me, your sister who was only born a few minutes after you?"

Jing'er's words were rather long, and I pondered them carefully. Jing'er seemed to be hinting at something, but I still
didn't understand. I scratched my head and said, "Uh... siblings are helpless, and the brother earns money to support his sister, is there anything
wrong with that?"

"I love you, what about you?" Jing'er suddenly said.

I paused, sensing the subtle, unspoken affection between us that had grown over the years. I remained silent for a moment,
then forced a smile that looked more like a grimace, saying, "Uh, haha, of course I love you, brother! Do you even need to ask?"

Hearing my words, Jing'er stopped, her fists clenched, biting her lip, tears welling in her eyes. She said,
"The love I'm talking about isn't a sister's love for her brother, but a wife's love for her husband! We've
supported each other through thick and thin all these years. Our feelings for each other have long since transcended the boundaries of siblings. Brother, you understood all along, you
understood all along! Why did you… sob…"

Jing'er threw herself into my arms and wept
bitterly . My emotions, suppressed for so many years, were on the verge of breaking down. Yes… all these years of endless overtime, surrounded by grease and mud, sometimes
having to swallow my anger and endure even the most humiliating situations, even being trampled in the mud—why?

"But we...we're siblings after all. We're destined not to be together. We're too young, too
inexperienced . You'll definitely meet someone who will accompany you through the rest of your life, and that person will never be me..."

I said sadly.

"No! We've been inseparable since childhood...we played together, went crazy together, grew up together, lost
our parents ...sob...brother, from that day on, my world only had you, and you were my whole world
. No one else can enter my world anymore."

"But...have you ever thought that perhaps this isn't love? Because when I was 1*5 years old, I shouldered..."
"Your life, your feelings for me, are inherently a kind of attachment, a reliance. I've done
things that other brothers couldn't, so as your sister, you've mistaken this attachment for love?"

Jing'er suddenly wrapped her arms around my neck, stood on tiptoe, and pressed
her intertwined. Jing'er's sudden frenzy almost made me lose control, but our awkward
kiss brought me back to my senses. I quickly pushed her away, saying, "You! What are you doing?"

"What? Brother, you still won't admit it? Can siblings kiss like this? You clearly
responded to the love I conveyed!" Jing'er roared, she had never spoken so loudly before.

"Yes! That's right! Even if I love you! But so what? We're siblings!" I roared back, completely
ignoring the strange looks from the occasional passerby. "We're destined not to be together, I know. I knew it a long
, long time ago , even before I was old enough to understand, that I deeply love you, but what can I do?" Our
parents are gone, and no one will raise us anymore. I finally have the chance to act on this love and make sacrifices.
I only want you to have a good life because of my sacrifices; that's my love for you!
But now you've torn down this barrier. What should I do? What can I do?

At this point, I finally understand. When we were little, although we were different genders,
it was almost impossible to tell. Every time we played together, I looked at Jing'er as if I were seeing myself. This
strange feeling of being connected heart to heart is something only twins can experience. But as we grew up, with
the sudden changes in our families and lives, our appearances became different, and our experiences became different. Having struggled in society early on,
I only pursued results in many things, just like the feelings between us siblings. Although I love her,
we can't be together, can't marry, and can't have children. So I chose to sacrifice everything for Jing'er's happiness,
even if it meant living in darkness for the rest of my life. But now, Jing'er is just a 1*8 A 17-year-old girl, living her
school life, had experiences different from mine. She believed love was just love, merely an emotion; her ideas
seemed like an unrealistic fairy tale to me.

Jing'er was silent for a while, then turned and left without saying another word. I followed her silently
until we got home. We didn't speak to each other, not even walking side by side. After getting home, Jing'er
took a shower. When she finished, it was my turn. When I finished too, we had nothing to do
.

After a long silence, Jing'er sighed softly and said, "I will do as my brother said, go to Beijing to study,
and then follow my brother's..." "I told you, work hard, find a good man to marry, and live the life your brother hopes I'll have..."

Hearing this, my heart ached violently for no reason. What Jing'er said was indeed what I hoped for, but seeing her
face devoid of a smile, I began to feel lost. Why?
Why did
n't we feel any joy when Jing'er's college entrance exam score was high enough to get into any top university? Seeing that Jing'er had already taken the first step towards a bright future, why didn't we feel any happiness? If there truly was mutual affection between us, was
it already a forbidden fruit according to morality and ethics? Otherwise, why was it so bitter?

"I... I'm not trying to arrange your life; I just hope you can be happy and stop suffering." "

I sighed.

"But you don't understand, being with you is my greatest happiness, my only happiness..."
Jing'er's eyes were filled with tears as she said sadly, "I know I'm being selfish, so I
'll bless you both when you find a wife, but please don't send me away..."

I felt a sharp pain in my heart. We used to be able to understand each other's feelings just by being close, and this heartache
was probably what Jing'er felt. I pulled Jing'er into my arms possessively and said to her, "I was wrong. My greatest
effort in this life was to stop Jing'er from crying, but I made her cry instead. I'm sorry. What can I do to
stop you from crying?" Jing'er

raised her head, her eyebrows arched, and her eyes, full of affection, gazed at me quietly before slowly closing them.
Her delicate chin lifted slightly, her cherry lips parted, and she waited patiently. I stroked her smooth, delicate cheek, my fingers
wiping away the tears clinging to it, and then my lips pressed against hers. Neither of us had much experience kissing;
our soft tongues intertwined cautiously, while one of my hands unconsciously climbed onto Jing'er's
breast, gently kneading her delicate nipple through her clothes. Jing'er let out a soft moan and wrapped her arms around my neck,
responding to my kiss even more passionately.

After a long while, our lips parted, a thin thread still connecting our tongues, as if reluctant to separate. Jing'er blushed deeply and said
in a barely audible voice, "Brother, carry me to bed..."

Chu Dongren's shy and charming appearance completely ignited my desire. I picked her up and carried her to the bedroom in a few
steps , carefully placing her on the bed. Our humble abode was a small room of only 30 square meters,
with only one bedroom. My brother and I had slept in the same bed for many years, but we had never crossed the line.
Now, however, I placed Jing'er on this bed and slowly undressed her.

Her white dress lay scattered on the floor. I couldn't wait to remove Jing'er's camisole and panties. Her
round, full breasts stood proudly erect, her pink nipples glistening with desire. Her mysterious private parts
were not clearly visible because Jing'er shyly kept her legs tightly closed; only sparse hair in an inverted triangle shape below her cute navel could be seen.

I, too, couldn't wait to strip off my own clothes, revealing my erect penis.

"Ugh, don't look at me like that! It's so embarrassing! Turn off the light!" Jing'er glanced at the ugly
penis, too ashamed to look a second time. She covered her private parts with both hands and urged me to turn off the light.

Jing'er's perfect, artistic body, now partially hidden, possessed an alluring, half-concealed charm. I
impatiently turned off the light, climbed onto the bed, and mounted Jing'er… In the darkness, my rough hands
roamed over Jing'er's smooth, jade-like skin, finally finding her full, jade-like breasts. Jing'er's breasts weren't large, but
they were firm and beautifully shaped. I caressed them lovingly, even bringing my mouth to her tender nipples
, sucking, nibbling, and licking. Still a virgin, Jing'er was incredibly sensitive, her body swaying restlessly as I teased her, a mixture of resistance
and acceptance.

Soon, I felt my penis throbbing uncomfortably, and I eagerly prepared to penetrate her. However, as I parted Jing'er's long , slender
legs and tried to thrust my penis into her private parts, I couldn't find the right spot, leaving me sweating profusely.

"Jing'er, I...I can't find it!"

"Not there...a little lower, no, that's the anus, ouch..."

"Uh...should we turn on the light first?"

"Hmm..."

The light was turned on again. Looking at the delicate body on the bed, I awkwardly scratched my head, then came to Jing'er,
spread her legs, and carefully observed the girl's mysterious private parts. I thought to myself that it was so
embarrassing that I didn't know where to start earlier, but now I had to study it properly.

Seeing her brother staring at her private parts like that, Jing'er was so ashamed that she grabbed a pillow and
covered her face, like an ostrich burying its head in the sand. As for me, I observed carefully. Not very thick pubic hair grew on
the mons pubis, and below it was a slightly protruding area with a mysterious fleshy slit. Then I used
my fingers to pry open the fleshy slit, revealing the bright red tender flesh inside, and a mysterious hole was hidden inside. I reached out
and explored inside, and Jing'er's delicate body trembled repeatedly, especially when I touched a strange
protrusion above her labia; she recoiled instantly.

"Eh? Does it hurt?" I asked curiously.

"It doesn't hurt... it's just... um... a little sensitive..." Jing'er said shyly.

At that moment, I remembered a colleague who loved to boast about his romantic escapades. He told me, with an air of
experience , that when having sex with a virgin, foreplay was crucial to ensure ample lubrication so the girl
wouldn't experience too much pain. But what exactly was foreplay? For a clueless virgin like me, I could only mimic
the scenes from the adult videos I'd seen.

So I stuck out my tongue and licked back and forth on her tender labia. "Oh! Brother, what are you doing?
Stop ! It's so dirty there... Ah! Hmm..."

Before Jing'er could finish speaking, my tongue was already teasing her clitoris. Jing'er's body trembled violently
, and she reflexively tried to pull back, but I held her legs tightly, and she could only endure my
brutal violation of her private parts.

"Does it feel good? Eh? There's some water coming out... Sizzle... Mmm, so sweet..."

"Hmm... No... Ah! This feeling... I've never felt this before..."

Jing'er's sensitive private parts were still overflowing with love juice from my clumsy teasing. Looking at
Jing'er lying on the bed, panting and blushing, I couldn't wait to turn off the light again. I supported myself on the bed with one hand,
searching . This time, I felt that my glans had finally found the place, so I slowly entered until I encountered a
barrier. I didn't think too much about it and pushed my penis in with a little force.

"Ah! It hurts! Waaah..." Jing'er's cries came from the darkness, which startled me, and I quickly pulled out my penis.

"Ah! Brother, don't leave me..." Jing'er sobbed.

"I'm here, I'm right here," I quickly comforted her.

"Waaah... I meant... don't come out, brother's... seems a bit big... come in,
be gentle with me this time." Jing'er said, her slender hand grasping my penis in the darkness, aiming it at
her tender opening. I cooperated and slowly and carefully inserted it again.

Before, during occasional breaks at work, I would chat with colleagues about penis size. Later, I secretly
used a caliper that could measure to 0.01 millimeters to measure it. My erect length is about 15 centimeters, and
the thickest part is about 3.5 centimeters, which seems to be a little larger than average. Since that's the case, I
should be even more careful when breaking my virginity.

I slowly inserted it, my penis slowly penetrating the warm, moist narrow passage until it was completely inside. This
pleasure of thrusting all the way in made me feel like I was sleepwalking, it felt unreal. Jing'er's tender hole was filled to bursting, a
tearing pain mixed with pleasure made her cry out, "Brother!..."

Her tight, tender hole became increasingly wet, and my movements became smoother. Jing'er wrapped her arms around my neck, and we
intertwined until we were exhausted. I ejaculated my first semen deep inside her wet, tender hole...

I fell into a deep sleep, seemingly dreaming constantly, my dreams filled with all the experiences Jing'er and I had shared from childhood to adulthood.
From tiny kids barely taller than a table to now, we went to school together, finished class together, went crazy together, climbed trees together,
explored places we'd never been before, copied each other's homework to fool the teachers, climbed mountains to watch the sunrise together,
listened to music together, snuggled together reading, and... made love... Morning light streamed into the room through the window, and
I slowly woke up. Jing'er was sleeping sweetly in my arms beside me, a smile on her lips, as if she was still
enjoying the warmth of the night. I gently placed her beside me, covered her with a blanket, picked up my clothes, and went out. In the bathroom
, the icy water washed over me, washing away the impulse and passion of last night. I've never regretted
anything in my life, but now I can't help but regret it. I took my beloved sister's virginity; I was utterly despicable.
What am I going to do now? We can never be together... With mixed feelings, I made breakfast.
Jing'er still hadn't gotten up. Perhaps she was exhausted from her first experience. I didn't wake her, quietly
left the room, and threw myself into my heavy work.

After a tiring day, thankfully I didn't have to work overtime. When I got home, Jing'er
had . Her attitude and way of interacting with me seemed to have changed from that of a brother and sister
to that of a couple deeply in love, which made me very uncomfortable. But when, before going to bed that night, Jing'er took off her thin shirt, revealing her flawless
body , all moral ethics were completely overwhelmed by my beastly lust. Then, panting heavily, I pressed down
on Jing'er's slender body, possessing her, violating her... But with each act of lovemaking, my guilt and self-reproach
deepened . Yet, whenever I wanted to end this improper relationship, Jing'er always seemed to sense the difference, so she used
various methods to bind my body and soul. She learned to give me oral sex, and although she was clumsy, it still gave me
unparalleled pleasure. Compared to her, she learned to dress up. Even a touch of light makeup made her more beautiful. Sexy black
fishnet stockings, revealing lace nightgowns, even nude aprons… Before I knew it, I
was hopelessly addicted to Jing'er's gentle charms. And during sex, whenever I brought Jing'er to orgasm, ejaculating hot, sticky
semen inside her, she would often faint. I thought it was due to the stimulation of the orgasm, completely
unaware that when Jing'er fainted, my heart
was pounding violently like a hammer blow… Jing'er's short summer vacation passed in warmth and debauchery. Eventually, Jing'er entered Wuhan University,
embarking on her new campus life. She also moved into the university dormitory, only spending weekends with me.
My rest time is not fixed, and sometimes I can't rest on weekends, so the time we spend together becomes
very short and precious. The nights of passion are fleeting, and often when I get home from work, as soon as I open the door, a naked
and beautiful body will rush into my arms, then give me a sweet kiss, even ignoring that the door is not closed and that I
am covered in sweat, and will take my hand and place it on her private parts and her increasingly large breasts... I don't know if it is right for
this ill-fated relationship to continue like this, and I also know that we can no longer be
a brother and sister like before... However, I still don't realize why Jing'er, who was once pure and innocent, would crave
sex so much. I still don't realize
what . One night, I penetrated Jing'er's thin, unguarded body. After our passion subsided, Jing'er
lay in my arms, tears inexplicably streaming down her face. She sobbed, "Brother, you must take good
care of yourself from now on..."

I was utterly confused, thinking something had happened to her. I quickly hugged her, gently comforting her,
"Silly girl, haven't I always taken good care of myself? I've taken care of you too."

But Jing'er didn't respond, only curling up tightly in my arms like a frightened fawn.

However, for the next two weekends, I worked past midnight, sleeping at the factory, which meant I didn't see Jing'er
for half a month . When I received a call from her at work, I was too busy
to notice the discomfort in her voice and hurriedly hung up... But a few days later, while working, my
heart suddenly pounded violently. The intense pain made me sweat profusely, and I collapsed to the ground, groaning loudly. I pressed my hand to
my heart , large beads of sweat rolling down my forehead. For some reason, in that instant of intense pain,
Jing'er's pained face appeared in my mind, her voice echoing deep within my soul: "Brother... I'm in so much pain...
Where are you?"

The excruciating pain caused me to faint. My colleagues, alarmed, immediately dropped their work and rushed
me to the hospital. A thorough examination at the hospital revealed nothing abnormal. I could clearly
feel the pain in my heart, as if it were being ripped from my body, no longer belonging to me. Yet the doctor said
the electrocardiogram was normal. Just then, my phone rang.

"Hello, are you Tian Jing's brother, Tian Yu?" a strange girl's voice came urgently.

"Yes, this is... May I ask who you are...?"

"Your sister has suffered a sudden heart attack and is hospitalized. Come quickly! She's in the ICU, 3rd floor, room 11 at the People's Hospital..."

Hanging up, I ran out of the hospital and hailed a taxi to the People's Hospital. The
traffic jam took nearly half an hour, which felt like an eternity to me. When I jumped out of the taxi and
ran to the intensive care unit, the room was quiet except for the beeping of the medical equipment. Jing'er was
alone , and her face was devoid of its usual smile and radiance. She was slowly breathing in
the oxygen supplied by the oxygen mask. I finally understood why I had been experiencing heart pain all this time. Since the hospital hadn't found
anything wrong with me, it must be the feeling of being connected to Jing'er by blood, and the pain I felt was Jing'er
's pain!

I trembled as I grasped her cold little hand and said, "Jing'er, it's me! I'm here..."

Jing'er slowly opened her eyes, tried to smile at me, and struggled to remove the oxygen mask. In a weak voice,
she said, "Brother, I'm so glad to see you. It's been half a month since I last saw you, it felt so long..."

"It's okay, brother is here with you. Everything will be alright!" I whispered to comfort her.

To my surprise, Jing'er shook her head and said, "It's no use. I have congenital heart disease."

"Congenital heart disease? Why is it no use? Is it incurable?" I asked anxiously. "

We simply cannot afford the enormous cost of the surgery, and the success rate is extremely low.
Furthermore the optimal treatment time has been missed; there's no hope..."

"How could this be... how could this be?" I felt utterly hopeless, almost unable to think straight.

"Brother... I miss you so much. If I don't see you for a day, I miss you every single day. The more I think of you,
the more my heart aches..."

"I..."

"Don't interrupt me. I have so much to say. Please listen to me... Actually, we weren't born to
Mom and her husband, but to Mom and her cousin. Because of this close kinship,
their children are prone to congenital diseases. Fortunately, if one child was destined to be sick,
as twins, God only chose one child—me..."

I was utterly shocked, suppressing my many questions, and patiently listened.

"Surprised? Actually, I knew all this when I was very young. The reason I didn't tell you was
because I was afraid you would worry about me..."

I held Jing'er's cold little hand, tears almost streaming down my face. For so many years, I had always told myself
to be strong, that tears were something to be discarded. But at this moment, all my strength, my hope, and my dreams were
shattered. In front of Jing'er, I tried my best to maintain a distorted smile, quietly staying with her,
speaking softly... Two days later, Jing'er's condition suddenly worsened. After all the resuscitation efforts failed, the doctors came out, patted my
shoulder, and gave me her last moments... Jing'er lay on the hospital bed, her skin deathly pale. I
sat beside her bed, tightly holding her little hand... "Brother, promise me, you must live well from now on, you must
take good care of yourself..."

Jing'er had said those words to me before. My heart ached terribly, and tears finally
welled up in my eyes. She said firmly, "I will. I will take good care of myself. I will live well. I will
spend my whole life remembering you, missing you, engraving you deep in my heart, letting you live in my heart,
accompanying me through my life!"

A tear rolled down her cheek, and she whispered, "Tian Yu, I love you.
What about you?"

I kissed the tear, my trembling voice echoing throughout the room: "I love you, I love you, I love you,
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you..."

Jing'er was too weak to speak anymore. Listening to my repeated words, that endless love for her,
her eyes were filled with reluctance, resentment, disappointment, and despair. I knew she
didn't want to die !

But in the end, she seemed exhausted and wanted to sleep. She slowly closed her eyes, and
the hand I was holding lost its last bit of strength… That day, Liu Jing, with me by her side, completed her short
life … When I arrived at Liu Jing's school like a walking corpse, collecting her belongings, one of her roommates—
the girl who called to tell me about Liu Jing's accident—handed me a locked diary, telling me that
Liu Jing had asked her to give it to me, and the password was our birthdays…

Back home, I opened the thick notebook. The diary recorded almost everything that had happened between us since childhood,
some of which I had no recollection of. I learned that she had liked me since we were in junior high school,
suppressing her feelings every day. But she never showed the pain of unrequited love or the conflict of our sibling relationship
, silently bearing everything alone…

March 21, 2005: You no longer have parents, and I don't know when I will leave you too.
You are so pitiful, I love you so much…

December 4, 2005: We finally got into the same prestigious high school. Why didn't you listen to me and
drop out of school? Do you know how unworthy it is? Because I've already...

April 6, 2006: You and Uncle had a fight, so we moved out and into your rented apartment. Although
life is more difficult now, I finally have our own little world with you...

October 20, 2006: Yesterday you protected me. I was almost violated. I was so scared, scared that if I got defiled,
you wouldn't want me anymore. When you protected me, I was also so scared, scared that I would lose you...

September 3, 2007: It's already my senior year of high school. The workload is heavy, but it's not difficult for me. It's just that
I don't have time to be by your side anymore, you know? Actually, I didn't want to go to university. Every moment we spent together
was precious because I didn't have much time left... But I didn't want to disappoint you, didn't want
to let you down after everything you'd done for me...

June 17, 2008: I finally found out my college entrance exam results. You were very happy, and I was very happy too,
because I finally made love to you. My dream came true, I finally became your wife. I love you...

July 3, 2008: We made love almost every day. You seemed troubled, but I didn't know when I
would leave. I wanted to be with you more... The last page wasn't a diary entry anymore; it was a
message from Jing'er, a suicide note.

Tian Yu:

Brother, when you see this diary, I think I'll be gone from this world. When I was little, I was very willful,
and you always indulged and spoiled me. I really couldn't bear to lose that love. Actually, I knew long ago that I would die
soon . You dropped out of school for me back then, and I tried so hard to dissuade you, but you wouldn't listen. I wanted
to tell you the truth then, but I was afraid of hurting you… All these years, brother, you
worked . It must have been so hard, so tiring, and so frustrating, all for me, who was about to leave this world. I'm so sorry… Brother,
my heart has been aching so much lately. It hurts every time I think of you, and it hurts every time we make love. I know I
can't have sex or do strenuous exercise because of my illness. Every time I make love to you, it's hastening my death, but I don't regret it…

Brother, I really love you so much. You once questioned my love for you, saying it was a sister's attachment to her brother.
I don't know if you're right, but I really love you so much! It's a pity we're siblings, twins.
Mom and her cousin had congenital heart disease after I was born. I didn't know how serious our child would be, so I
secretly took long-term birth control pills and couldn't have your child… Brother, I really wanted to stay in this world a few more
years, to see you settle down, get married, and have children, to know you're living a happy life, so I could leave
without any regrets . I'm sorry I once wanted to possess you, but just as you sacrificed yourself for my happiness
, I also wanted you to live a happy life. Promise me you'll find a good wife and
live ever after…

But then again, I'm still not reconciled. If you hadn't dropped out of school, if you could have gone to university,
you , I've held you back… Do you remember when we
climbed the mountain together? In the temple on the mountain, I prayed to Buddha that you would be forever happy and healthy, and that we
could be !

Brother, I love you so much. We've suffered so much in this life. If there's a next life, I hope
God will take pity on me for all the suffering I've endured, and let me fall in love with you again. But please don't let me be your sister again; I
want to be your wife! What about you? If we meet again in the next life, will you marry me? This

is such a long diary! After writing for so many years, it's finally finished. Brother, have you read it all,
bit by bit ? I'm so reluctant to let it go, but what can I do? Brother, have you engraved my name in
your heart?

...I didn't eat or drink, and spent a whole day reading through every single word in the diary. The happy and sweet
days we shared were so vivid in my mind. When I finally closed the diary, I couldn't hold back anymore and burst into tears. This was
the first time in my life I had ever cried out loud. The pain and suffering were indescribable, as if my heart was being crushed. My throat was
hoarse, my vision blurred, and my whole heart was shattered… Time flies, and five years have passed in the blink of an eye.
After Liu Jing's death, I became taciturn, still the same laborer, aimlessly spending the rest of my life. Jing'er's
appearance was so stunning. As a twin, I was naturally not bad-looking either. Over the years,
girls have confessed their love to me, and friends have introduced me to people, but my heart is ashen. I have no interest in anything.
The only thing I like to do is go back to the rented room where Jing'er and I used to live, carefully flipping through
the diary she left behind, recalling her beautiful figure from the past…

My name is Tian Yu, and I have a twin sister named Tian Jing. Twins, a boy and a girl—countless people envy
families with twins, but in reality, my family is not happy. On the contrary, for many years, it has been a nightmare tormenting my
brother and me.

Our father was an alcoholic and a gambler, and our mother supported the whole family on a meager salary. Every few days, she
was subjected to beatings and verbal abuse from my father. She endured it all for the sake of my daughter and me, forcing a smile, hoping to
survive until we grew up. But… that day's memory is like a nightmare that will haunt us for the rest of our lives.

That man, completely drunk, falsely accused my daughter and me of being illegitimate children born to my mother and another man.
He was wildly swinging his fists, and when I tried to stop him, he hit me on the head with an ashtray
and knocked me unconscious. Then, he choked my mother, and she died right there in front of Jing'er, leaving us forever
…

Based on my testimony and that of the neighbors, years of domestic violence and intentional homicide
led to the man being sentenced to death. My siblings and I were temporarily raised by my mother's sister, our aunt. However, my mother had
many siblings, and their relationships weren't particularly good. My aunt also had her own family and
limited was my only support
, I dropped out of school and became an apprentice at a car repair shop. I worked tirelessly, taking on the dirtiest and hardest
jobs to earn a meager income to pay for my sister's tuition and other expenses.

We lived at my aunt's house for a year. Having already struggled in society, I had lost the innocence and naivety that someone my
age should have. I could clearly feel the exclusion my sister and I faced in this family.
One time, my uncle complained coldly, and seeing Jing'er's aggrieved face, I got angry and argued with him. Then I
took Jing'er and left this house. From then on, I shouldered my sister's tuition and living expenses, as well as our rent.
Although it was very hard and difficult, every time I returned to our rented, simple little house and saw my sister
doing her homework , I could endure any hardship or fatigue.

Jing'er's school learned about her family situation, and her homeroom teacher personally came to our rented apartment,
kindly persuading Jing'er to live at the school. However, I was reluctant to let Jing'er leave my side, and years of
relying on each other had fostered a bond between us that was different from siblings, making us unwilling to separate. So,
Jing'er and I both politely declined the well-meaning homeroom teacher's
offer. But perhaps fate intended to make things difficult for those who suffer, because my refusal to let Jing'er live at the school brought another hardship to us.

Jing'er, now in her second year of high school, had an increasingly heavy workload, studying at
school . So, every night I had to pick her up from school. Fortunately, my boss and mentor knew my situation
and were very considerate, not letting me work too late, allowing me time to pick Jing'er up from school every day.

Now, Jing'er has grown up, blossoming into a beautiful young woman with a lovely face, delicate features, and expressive
eyes that always seem to hold a touch of melancholy. Coupled with her quiet and peaceful nature, just like her name suggests, she attracts
many boys and is the envy of many girls at school. Many gossips call her the school beauty, and her
excellent grades have made her quite famous. However, fame is not always a good thing. A
boy who knows many thugs outside the school takes a liking to Jing'er. After his repeated unsuccessful pursuit, he finally becomes enraged and decides to take revenge.

That evening, I rushed to school after work. It was already past 9 PM,
Jing'er's dismissal time, but when I arrived at the school gate, I didn't see her. Usually, if I was slightly
late Jing'er would be waiting for me silently at the gate, so I assumed she had a lot of homework and hadn't finished class yet.

Every evening I would wait for Jing'er at the gate, and sometimes she would wait for me if I wasn't there on time,
so the gatekeepers all recognized this beautiful girl. When the gatekeeper saw me waiting there, he hurriedly told me that Jing'er
had been dragged away a few minutes earlier. I was shocked and immediately chased after them in the direction they pointed.

"Jing'er! Jing'er!" I shouted Jing'er's name frantically, but there was no answer. A chill
ran through me . I forced myself to calm down and think carefully… According to what the gatekeeper had said
, there were three people in total. They seemed to have threatened Jing'er a few times before dragging her away, and I didn't see any transportation,
meaning they couldn't have gone far! Given the surrounding terrain, they were likely to have gone to a
wooded park not far from the school, so I ran there.

Luckily, after rushing into the woods, I found Jing'er, but what I saw made my blood
boil with rage. At this moment, Jing'er lay on a stone table, her mouth taped shut, unable to make a sound.
Tears of fear and humiliation streamed down her delicate cheeks. Her thin school uniform was bunched up to her chest
, and her bra had been torn off, revealing her budding breasts, full and round like steamed buns. Three men
were groping Jing'er's baby-soft skin with their filthy hands, while her hands,
tightly bound by the duct tape, were powerless to resist.

"Stop! You bunch of bastards!" I roared and rushed forward, kicking one of the boys who was walking towards me away
. But I was immediately punched in the face by another man, the blow making me see stars and almost fall to the ground. I
quickly retaliated, wrestling with the three men. My life hadn't been very good for a long time, and I
wasn't physically strong. Although I'd gained some strength from working, I was no match for three people. Besides, these
thugs were more experienced in fighting than me and hit me hard, aiming for my face every time. Before long, I was beaten
black and blue and lying on the ground.

Jing'er's hands and feet were tied. She struggled a few times
before , her heart broke. Her mouth was gagged, and she could only make muffled sobs.

"Tch, you stupid brat, daring to ruin our good time! You're her brother, right? We'll
have some fun with your sister right in front of you, hahaha!" A boy who looked about my age lewdly
chuckled, leaving me half-dead, and walked towards my sister... I felt dizzy, the blow to my head
almost made me faint, but I saw them walk towards Jing'er, yank down her pants,
revealing her mysterious private parts! I don't know where the strength came from, but I struggled to my feet again and lunged at them...

Soon I fell to the ground again. The three men spat at me and walked back towards Jing'er, so I stood up
once more ... I don't know how much time passed. I was repeatedly beaten to the ground and repeatedly stood up.
My face was bruised and swollen like a pig's head, completely unrecognizable. Bright red blood
kept , dripping onto my body and the ground. Jing'er was sobbing weakly, seemingly having given up
all resistance. Perhaps she was willing to lose her virginity if I stopped being beaten. When I struggled to my feet again
, my blurred vision showed that Jing'er had only had her clothes torn off. The three bastards hadn't had time
to do anything further to Jing'er, and I felt a slight sense of relief.

"Heh...heh heh heh heh...you bastards, come on! You dare to lay a
finger on me unless you kill me. As long as I have a breath left, I'll bite your flesh off piece by piece!" I spat out a
chilling , then laughed arrogantly. By this time, the three men had been fighting for a long time, and their faces
were also quite bruised. Seeing that I could get up no matter how many times I fell, and fight back like a mad dog, they began to be afraid.

"We've been dragging this out for a while. Let's hurry up and deal with this kid, and then drag this pretty girl to some
hotel to have some fun with." One of the men said viciously, then pulled out a horn knife.

Seeing the sharp knife, my heart sank. I knew they must have forced Jing'er here with it.
At that moment, I was covered in wounds, my body aching so badly I could barely move. I could only
watch as the knife slowly approached, preparing for a final desperate fight… Watching the man slowly close in, I
gave a contemptuous sneer. Seeing my expression, he almost lost his mind, roaring as he charged at me, his knife slashing
fiercely . However, this kind of horn knife wasn't very sharp; the correct way to use it was to stab with the tip.
These scoundrels knew that stabbing would be fatal, so they only dared to use the blade. Even though the blade
wasn't sharp, the tip still managed to cut my skin. After taking several blows, I finally grabbed
the blade and gripped it tightly, ignoring the blood streaming from my hand. With my last bit of strength, I
punched the bastard hard in the nose, stunning him, and then snatched the horn knife from his hand.

I gripped the knife tightly and smiled happily! His bruised and swollen face grinned menacingly in the dim light
, like a demon from hell. I stared at them, slowly took a step forward,
and said , "Heh heh... heh heh, I was just thinking... how to kill you bunch of bastards... and you...

you just gave me a handy knife, shouldn't I say thank you? Heh heh... heh heh heh heh...
"

My ferocious smile, my chilling words, my blood-stained blade! The three finally panicked. One of them stumbled and
ran away, and the other two followed without looking back. After they walked away, I finally
collapsed to the ground, unable to hold on any longer. I struggled to crawl towards Jing'er, helped her remove the tape from her hands, and told her,
"Call the police quickly," before losing consciousness... When I woke up again, all I saw was a white ceiling,
then white walls, and a white blanket... I slowly thought for a long time before I understood what had happened. I
sat up and looked around, finding Jing'er lying peacefully on the recliner next to my bed, a few strands of hair hanging on her fair
cheek, seemingly asleep. I observed her closely and, seeing that she didn't seem to be injured, I breathed
a sigh Looking at Jing'er's beautiful face, I reached out and lovingly stroked her cheek, but this unexpectedly
woke her up.

Jing'er gasped when she saw I was awake, jumped up and threw herself into my arms, hugging me tightly and burying her face in my
chest, sobbing, "Waaah... Brother... You scared me to death."

I gently patted Jing'er's back, carefully comforting her, "Jing'er, don't cry, I'm fine, aren't you? You
're not hurt, are you? You weren't violated by those people, were you?"

Jing'er shook her head and said, "No, I'm fine. Brother, don't do this again, you scared me to death.
Mom is gone, and Jing'er doesn't want her brother to be gone too."

"Silly girl, it's precisely because Mom is gone that your brother will protect you no matter what. You are my
everything, my hope for living..."

"Waaah... Brother..."

The brother and sister clung tightly to each other, but soon the oblivious nurse heard the commotion and rushed in.
Finding that I had woken up and gone out again, a middle-aged doctor came in a moment later. He glanced
at Jing'er, who was still sitting to the side with tears in her eyes and a blushing face, smiled and shook his head, then began to examine me.

"Hehe, young man, be careful when you hug a girl or a little sister. You just got stitches, don't let the wound reopen
." The doctor seemed very cheerful and even joked.

"Uh... Doctor, don't talk nonsense." I looked at Jing'er, whose originally fair face was now completely red like an apple
, and said anxiously.

"Just kidding, haha. It's nothing serious now, just a mild concussion. You need to
rest more. Also, you have too many wounds, so don't take a bath for a while, and avoid getting it wet. Okay, it
's nothing serious, you rest first. The police from the station will come to check on things later. I'll be going now."

After watching the doctor leave, I turned to Jing'er and said, "By the way, what are you doing here? Don't you have class?"

"I was worried about you... My brother got so badly injured for me, how could I concentrate on my studies..."

Jing'er said aggrievedly. Seeing this expression, I immediately surrendered, holding her soft, boneless little hand, and said
softly ,

"I was just worried about your studies. After such a big incident, I was afraid you'd have some kind of trauma that would affect
your studies."

"Don't worry, my brother has done so much for me all these years, I will definitely study hard, I will be as strong as
my brother !"

"Good girl, come here, let me hug you again. "

"You're so annoying..."

Afterwards, the police station began investigating the matter, and the school also got involved. The three people were suspected of rape.
He was eventually convicted of multiple crimes , including attempted rape and intentional assault, but that's another story.

After being discharged from the hospital, because my injuries hadn't fully healed, I asked my boss for leave and stayed home to rest. As the saying goes,
children with hard lives mature early. Although I've been taking care of Jing'er all these years, she's done her share of housework, more
than capable of handling my limited mobility. And the inexplicable feelings between Jing'er and me seemed to
have intensified.

A little over a week later, my injuries were fully healed, and I returned to my demanding work. Jing'er also threw herself into her studies.
Although my injury had delayed her studies for a while, her grades didn't drop. At the end of the semester, her
overall exam scores placed her in the top 10 of her grade, which made me, as her older brother, very happy.

Soon Jing'er was in her final year of high school, and her studies became even more demanding. Evening study sessions ended very late,
and considering safety and convenience, I decided to let her live at school. This was the first time I'd been separated from her. To avoid
disturbing her, I rarely contacted her. Whenever I returned to my rented room, where I was all alone, I felt it
was just a room; only when I was with Jing'er did it feel like home, no matter where I was.

Thinking about how Jing'er had grown up, becoming more and more beautiful, I, as her older brother, felt a pang of longing for her.
I'm increasingly unable to understand her. She's become shy around her brother, she's started avoiding him, she has her own
little secrets… When I'm alone, I like to overthink these things, my mind filled with my sister's beautiful image.
This angelic figure sustains me. While Jing'er was at boarding school and I was alone, I
worked overtime like crazy to earn more performance bonuses and raise more money for Jing'er's university education.

Time flies. It was the final sprint of Jing'er's senior year, and she stayed
at school , occasionally calling to let me know she was okay. I only occasionally called her homeroom teacher to inquire about her
situation. The teacher praised her highly, which put my mind at ease.

Three years of study, two days of exams. After the college entrance exam, I cooked a huge meal for Jing'er
and celebrated. Jing'er was very happy and, unusually, drank some alcohol. When the exam results came out, Jing'er
's scores were excellent, more than enough to get into Beijing, and we celebrated even more.

"Jing'er, now it's time to fill out your college application. Where are you planning to go? Peking University or Tsinghua University?" I asked, taking a sip of my drink.
I've always played the role of half brother, half father. Jing'er's results make all the hard work and struggles of the past years
worthwhile.

But upon hearing my words, Jing'er's previously beaming face suddenly calmed down, and her expression seemed rather
unpleasant . I asked in surprise, "What's wrong? Are you unhappy?"

"Brother..." Jing'er paused for a moment before saying, "I'm planning to apply to Wuhan University."

"Why? Although Wuhan University is also a top-tier university, its reputation isn't as great as Peking University or Tsinghua University. It's easier to find
a job , and..."

"I don't want to leave you..." Jing'er suddenly interrupted me. "If I study at Wuhan University, I won't have
to go . I don't want to leave you... I never want to..."

Jing'er's sudden words left me speechless, and the previously joyous atmosphere turned strange. After a long while,
I forced a smile and said, "What nonsense are you talking about, haha... Silly girl, I'm only
thinking about your future. As long as you're doing well, all these years have been worth it... As for
leaving or not leaving for life... Haha, silly girl, you'll get married sooner or later, then I
'll finally be able to relax, haha... haha... ha... uh, umm."

Towards the end, I couldn't even laugh anymore. Jing'er was silent too. We siblings silently lowered our heads and
ate our food. What was supposed to be a celebratory feast had inexplicably become tasteless. After we finished eating, Jing'er
said to me, "Brother, let's go for a walk. You used to pick me up from school all the time; it's been so long since we went
out ."

"Oh... okay, I'll go after I finish washing the dishes."

As night fell, the young man and woman strolled along the quiet path. Jing'er wore a pure white sundress,
revealing her jade-like arms. Her naturally beautiful figure made me hesitant to look directly at her. In contrast, I was dressed in
simple shorts and a basketball jersey, wearing flip-flops, looking like a complete loser. Walking next to Jing'er, I couldn't help but feel ashamed.

"Brother... I remember back then your grades were better than mine, and you were quick-witted, unlike those bookworms, and you were athletic
too. It's just that you've worked so hard for me all these years, thank you..." Jing'er said softly.

"Sigh, that's all in the past..." Hearing Jing'er's thanks, I felt inexplicably sad. This was
the first time she had ever said "thank you" to me since birth, a "thank you" that I didn't need at all... "
Because I'm your brother, this is what I should do. You don't need to thank me. If you really want to thank me, then
focus on your own life..."

"We were born on the same day. Maybe you really were born a few minutes earlier than me from your mother's
womb , but that shouldn't determine your fate," Jing'er said quietly, her tone tinged with resentment.

"Uh... what exactly are you trying to say? I haven't read many books, so I don't quite understand."

"What I mean is, if it weren't for me all these years, my brother wouldn't have had such a hard life. You
sacrificed your own life for me, was it really just to
protect me, your sister who was only born a few minutes after you?"

Jing'er's words were rather long, and I pondered them carefully. Jing'er seemed to be hinting at something, but I still
didn't understand. I scratched my head and said, "Uh... siblings are helpless, and the brother earns money to support his sister, is there anything
wrong with that?"

"I love you, what about you?" Jing'er suddenly said.

I paused, sensing the subtle, unspoken affection between us that had grown over the years. I remained silent for a moment,
then forced a smile that looked more like a grimace, saying, "Uh, haha, of course I love you, brother! Do you even need to ask?"

Hearing my words, Jing'er stopped, her fists clenched, biting her lip, tears welling in her eyes. She said,
"The love I'm talking about isn't a sister's love for her brother, but a wife's love for her husband! We've
supported each other through thick and thin all these years. Our feelings for each other have long since transcended the boundaries of siblings. Brother, you understood all along, you
understood all along! Why did you… sob…"

Jing'er threw herself into my arms and wept
bitterly . My emotions, suppressed for so many years, were on the verge of breaking down. Yes… all these years of endless overtime, surrounded by grease and mud, sometimes
having to swallow my anger and endure even the most humiliating situations, even being trampled in the mud—why?

"But we...we're siblings after all. We're destined not to be together. We're too young, too
inexperienced . You'll definitely meet someone who will accompany you through the rest of your life, and that person won't be me..."

I said sadly.

"No! We've been inseparable since we were little...we played together, went crazy together, grew up together, lost
our parents ...sob...brother, from that day on, my world only had you, and you were my whole world
. No one else could enter my world anymore."

"But...have you ever thought that maybe this isn't love? Because I've been supporting you since I was 1.5 years old
, your feelings for me are just a kind of attachment, a reliance. I did
things that other brothers couldn't do, so as your sister, you mistook this attachment for love?"

Jing'er suddenly hugged my neck, stood on tiptoe, and pressed her soft, fragrant lips to mine. Then
our soft tongues intertwined. Jing'er's sudden frenzy almost made me lose control, but our awkward
kiss brought me back to my senses. I quickly pushed her away and said, "You! What are you doing?"

"What? Brother, you still won't admit it? Can siblings kiss like this? You clearly
responded to the love I conveyed!" Jing'er roared, she had never spoken so loudly before.

"Yes! That's right! Even if I love you! But so what? We're siblings!" I roared back, completely
ignoring the strange looks from the occasional passersby. "We're destined not to be together, I know that. I knew it a long
, long time ago , even before I was old enough to understand, that I deeply love you, but what can I do? Our
parents are gone, no one will take care of us anymore. I finally have the chance to act on this love and make sacrifices.
I just want you to have a good life because of my sacrifices, that's my love for you!
But now you've torn down this facade, what am I supposed to do? What can I do?"

At this point, I finally understood. When we were little, although we were different genders, it was almost impossible to tell the difference
when . Every time we played together, I looked at Jing'er as if I were looking at myself. This
strange feeling of being connected heart to heart is something only twins can experience. But as we grew up, and with
the sudden changes in our families and lives, our appearances became different, and our experiences became different as well. Having struggled in society at a young age,
I only pursued results in many things, just like the lingering feelings between us siblings. Although I loved her,
we couldn't be together, couldn't marry, and couldn't have children. So I chose to sacrifice everything for Jing'er's happiness,
even if it meant living in darkness for the rest of my life. However, Jing'er is now just an 18-year-old girl, living her
school life. Her experiences are different from mine. She believes that love is just love, just an emotion. Her ideas
seem like a fairy tale to me, unrealistic.

Jing'er was silent for a while, then turned and walked away. I followed her silently
until we got home. We didn't speak to each other again, and we didn't even walk side by side. After returning home, Jing'er
took a shower. When she finished, I took my turn. After I finished too, we had nothing to
do.

After a long silence, Jing'er sighed softly and said, "I will do as you said, go to Beijing to study,
and then as you said, work hard, find a good man to marry, and live the life you hoped I would live..."

Hearing this, my heart ached violently for no reason. What Jing'er said was indeed what I hoped for, but seeing her
face devoid of a smile, I began to feel lost. Why? Why weren't we happy at all when Jing'er's college entrance exam score was high enough to get into any
top university? Seeing that Jing'er had taken the first step towards a bright future,
why weren't we happy at all? If there truly was mutual affection between us, was
even that affection itself a forbidden fruit according to morality and ethics? Otherwise, why was it so bitter?

"I... I'm not trying to arrange your life. I just hope you can be happy and stop suffering,"

I sighed.

"But you don't understand, being with you is my greatest happiness, my only happiness..."
Jing'er said sadly, tears welling in her eyes. "I know I'm being selfish, so I
'll bless you both when you find a wife, brother. Just don't send me away..."

I felt a sharp pain in my heart. We used to be able to understand each other's feelings just by being close. This heartache was probably
what Jing'er felt. I pulled Jing'er into my arms possessively and said to her, "I was wrong. My greatest
effort in this life was to stop you from crying, but I made you cry instead. I'm sorry. What can I do to
stop you from crying?"

Jing'er raised her head, her delicate eyebrows arched, and her affectionate eyes gazed at me quietly before slowly closing them. Her exquisite
chin lifted slightly, her cherry lips parted, and she waited patiently. I stroked her smooth cheek, my fingers
wiping away the tears, and then my lips pressed against hers. Neither of us had much experience kissing.
Our soft tongues intertwined cautiously, and one of my hands unconsciously climbed up to Jing'er's
breasts, gently kneading her delicate nipple through her clothes. Jing'er let out a soft moan and wrapped her arms around my neck,
responding to my kiss even more passionately.

After a long while, our lips parted, our tongues still connected by a thin thread, as if reluctant to separate. Jing'er blushed deeply and
said in a voice almost as soft as a mosquito's buzz, "Brother, carry me to the bed..."

Jing'er's charmingly shy appearance completely ignited my desire. I picked her up and carried her to the bedroom in a few
steps , carefully placing her on the bed. Our tiny apartment was only 30 square meters,
with only one bedroom. My brother and I had slept in the same bed for many years, but we had never crossed the line.
Now, however, I placed Jing'er on this bed and slowly undressed her.

A pristine white dress lay scattered on the floor. I couldn't wait to remove Jing'er's camisole and panties. Her
round full breasts stood proudly erect, her pink nipples glistening with desire. Her private parts
were obscured by her shyly clenched legs; only sparse, triangular hairs below her cute navel were visible.

I, too, eagerly stripped off my clothes, revealing my erect penis.

"Ugh, don't look at me like that! It's so embarrassing! Turn off the light!" Jing'er glanced at my unsightly
penis, too ashamed to look a second time. She covered her private parts with her hands, urging me to turn off the light.

Jing'er's perfect, artistic body, now partially concealed, possessed an alluring, half-hidden charm. I
impatiently turned off the light, climbed onto the bed, and mounted Jing'er… In the darkness, my rough hands roamed over Jing'er's smooth,
jade-like skin, finally finding her full, jade-like breasts. Jing'er's breasts weren't large, but
they were firm and beautifully shaped. I caressed them lovingly, even sucking
, nibbling, and licking her tender nipples. Still a virgin, Jing'er was incredibly sensitive, her body swaying restlessly as I teased her, a mixture of resistance
and attraction.

Soon, I felt my penis throbbing uncomfortably and eagerly tried to penetrate her. But as I parted Jing'er's long
, slender legs and tried to probe her private parts, I couldn't find the right spot. I was sweating profusely with frustration.

"Jing'er, I...I can't find it!"

"Not there...a little lower, no, that's the anus, ouch..."

"Uh...should we turn on the light?"

"Hmm..."

The light came on again. Looking at the soft body on the bed, I awkwardly scratched my head, then went to Jing'er,
parted her legs, and carefully examined her mysterious private parts. I thought to myself how incredibly
embarrassing it was that I couldn't find a place to start; now I had to study it properly.

Seeing her brother staring intently at her private parts, Jing'er was so ashamed that she grabbed a pillow and
covered her face, like an ostrich burying its head in
the sand. I, on the other hand, observed closely. The pubic hair, not very thick, grew on her mons pubis, below which was a slightly raised area with a mysterious slit. I pried open the slit with
my fingers , revealing tender, bright red flesh, and a mysterious opening hidden within. I
explored it with my fingers, and Jing'er's body trembled, especially when I touched a strange
protrusion above her labia; she recoiled instantly.

"Eh? Does it hurt?" I asked curiously.

"It doesn't hurt... it's just... um... a little sensitive..." Jing'er said shyly.

At that moment, I remembered a colleague who loved to boast about his romantic escapades. He told me, with an air of
experience sufficient foreplay was essential when having sex with a virgin, ensuring ample lubrication so the girl
wouldn't experience too much pain. But what exactly is foreplay? For a complete virgin like me, I could only do
what I'd seen in those adult videos.

So I stuck out my tongue and licked her tender labia. "Oh! Brother, what are you doing?
Stop it , it's so dirty there... Ah! Hmm..."

Before Jing'er could finish speaking, my tongue was already teasing her clitoris. Jing'er's body trembled violently, and she
reflexively tried to pull back, but I held her legs tightly, and she could only endure my brutal
violation of her private parts.

"Does it feel good? Eh? There's some water coming out... Sizzle... Mmm, so sweet..."

"Hmm... No... Ah! This feeling... I've never felt this before..."

Jing'er's sensitive private parts were still overflowing with love juice from my clumsy teasing. Looking at
Jing'er lying on the bed, panting and blushing, I couldn't wait to turn off the light again. I braced myself on the bed with one hand,
searching . This time I felt my glans finally find the right spot, so I slowly entered until I encountered a
barrier. I didn't think too much about it and pushed my penis in further with a little force.

"Ah! It hurts! Waaah..." Jing'er's cries echoed in the darkness, startling me so much that I quickly pulled out my penis.

"Ah! Brother, don't leave me..." Jing'er sobbed.

"I'm here, I'm right here," I quickly comforted her.

"Waaah... I meant... don't come out, brother's... seems a bit big... come in,
be gentle with me this time." As Jing'er spoke, a delicate hand grasped my penis in the darkness, guiding it to
her tender opening. I cooperated and slowly and carefully inserted it again.

In the past, during occasional breaks at work, I would chat with colleagues about penis size. Later, I secretly
used a caliper accurate to 0.01 millimeters to measure it. My erect length is about 15 centimeters, and
the thickest part is about 3.5 centimeters, which seems to be a little larger than average. Since that's the case, I
should be even more careful when breaking my virginity.

I slowly inserted it, my penis slowly penetrating the warm, moist, narrow passage until it was completely inside. This
pleasure of thrusting all the way in made me feel like I was sleepwalking, it felt unreal. Jing'er's tender hole was filled to bursting, a
tearing pain mixed with pleasure made her cry out, "Brother!..."

Her tight, tender hole became increasingly wet, and my movements became smoother. Jing'er wrapped her arms around my neck, and we
intertwined until we were exhausted. I ejaculated my first semen deep inside her wet, tender hole...

I fell into a deep sleep, seemingly dreaming constantly, my dreams filled with all the experiences Jing'er and I had shared from childhood to adulthood.
From tiny kids barely taller than a table to now, we went to school together, finished class together, went crazy together, climbed trees together,
explored places we'd never been before, copied each other's homework to fool the teachers, climbed mountains to watch the sunrise together,
listened to music together, snuggled together reading, and... made love... Morning light streamed into the room through the window, and
I slowly woke up. Jing'er was sleeping sweetly in my arms beside me, a smile on her lips, as if she was still
enjoying the warmth of the night. I gently placed her beside me, covered her with a blanket, picked up my clothes, and went out. In the bathroom
, the icy water washed over me, washing away the impulse and passion of last night. I've never regretted
anything in my life, but now I can't help but regret it. I took my beloved sister's virginity; I was utterly despicable.
What am I going to do now? We can never be together... With mixed feelings, I made breakfast.
Jing'er still hadn't gotten up. Perhaps she was exhausted from her first experience. I didn't wake her, quietly
left the room, and threw myself into my heavy work.

After a tiring day, thankfully I didn't have to work overtime. When I got home, Jing'er
had . Her attitude and way of interacting with me seemed to have changed from that of a brother and sister to that of
a couple deeply in love, which made me very uncomfortable. But when, before going to bed that night, Jing'er took off her thin clothes, revealing her flawless
body , all moral ethics were completely overwhelmed by my beastly lust. Then, panting heavily, I pressed down on Jing'er's slender
body, possessing her, violating her... But with each act of lovemaking, my guilt and self-reproach
deepened . Yet, whenever I wanted to end this improper relationship, Jing'er always seemed to sense the difference. So she used
various methods to bind my body and soul. She learned to give me oral sex, and although she was clumsy, it still gave me
immense pleasure. She learned to dress up; even a light touch of makeup made her more beautiful. Sexy black
fishnet stockings, revealing lace nightgowns, even a nude apron... Unconsciously, I became
hopelessly addicted to Jing'er's gentle embrace. And during lovemaking, whenever I... I brought her to climax, ejaculating hot, viscous
semen inside her. Jing'er fainted many times, and I assumed it was from the stimulation of the orgasm, completely
unaware my heart was pounding
violently as she passed out... Jing'er's short summer vacation passed in warmth and debauchery. Eventually, she entered Wuhan University,
embarking on her new campus life. She also moved to the university dormitory, only spending weekends with me.
However, my rest time was irregular, and sometimes I couldn't rest on weekends, so our time together became
very short and precious. The nights were fleeting, and often when I came home from work, as soon as I opened the door, a naked
, alluring body would leap into my arms, showering me with kisses, even ignoring the door being ajar and my
sweaty body, actively taking my hand and placing it on her private parts and increasingly large breasts... I don't know if continuing
this illicit affair is the right thing to do, and I also know that we can no longer do things properly like before.
We're like siblings now... Yet I never understood why Jing'er, once so pure and innocent
, so yearned for sex. I never understood
what . One night, I penetrated Jing'er's thin, unguarded body. After our passion subsided, Jing'er
lay in my arms, inexplicably shedding tears, sobbing as she said, "Brother, you must take good
care ..."

I was utterly confused, thinking something had happened to Jing'er, so I quickly hugged her and gently comforted her,
"Silly girl, haven't I always taken good care of myself? I've taken care of you too."

But Jing'er didn't respond, only curling up tightly in my arms like a frightened fawn.

However, for the next two weekends, I worked past midnight and slept at the factory, which meant I didn't see Jing'er
for half a month . When I received a call from Jing'er at work, I was so busy that I didn't
notice the discomfort in her voice and quickly hung up… But a few days later, while working, my
heart suddenly pounded violently. The intense pain made me sweat profusely, and I collapsed to the ground groaning loudly. I pressed
my hand , large beads of sweat rolling down my forehead. For some reason, in that instant of intense pain,
Jing'er's pained face appeared in my mind, and her voice echoed deep within my soul: "Brother… I'm in so much pain…
Where are you?"

The intense pain made me faint. My colleagues, alarmed, immediately put down their work and
took me to the hospital. A thorough examination at the hospital revealed nothing abnormal. I could clearly
feel the pain in my heart, as if it were being pulled out of my body, no longer belonging to me. But the doctor said
the electrocardiogram was normal. Just then, my phone rang.

"Hello, are you Tian Jing's brother, Tian Yu?" a strange girl's voice came through urgently.

"Yes, this is... May I ask who you are...?"

"Your sister has suffered a sudden heart attack and is hospitalized. You need to come quickly! She's in the ICU, 3rd floor, room 11 at the People's Hospital..."

Hanging up the phone, I rushed out of the hospital and hailed a taxi to the People's Hospital. The
traffic jam took nearly half an hour, which felt like an eternity to me. When I jumped out of the taxi and
ran to the ICU, the room was quiet except for the beeping of the medical equipment. Jing'er was
alone ; her face lacked its usual smile and radiance. She was slowly breathing
the oxygen supplied by the oxygen mask. I finally understood the reason for my heart pain during this time. Since the hospital hadn't found
anything wrong with me, it must be the feeling of being connected to Jing'er by blood, and the pain I felt was Jing'er
's pain!

I grasped her icy little hand, trembling, and said, "Jing'er, it's me! I'm here..."

Jing'er slowly opened her eyes, forced a smile at me, and struggled to remove her oxygen mask. In a weak voice
, she said, "Brother, I'm so glad to see you. It's been so long, half a month..."

"It's alright, brother is here with you. Everything will be alright!" I whispered, trying to comfort her.

But Jing'er shook her head and said, "It's no use. I have congenital heart disease."

"Congenital heart disease? Why is it no use? Can't it be cured?" I asked anxiously.

"We simply can't afford the enormous cost of the surgery, and the success rate is extremely low.
Also, the optimal time for treatment has passed; it's hopeless..."

"How could this be... how could this be?" I felt utterly hopeless, my mind almost completely blank.

“Brother…I miss you so much. Every day I don’t see you, I miss you. The more I miss you,
the more my heart aches…”

“I…”

“Don’t interrupt me. I have so much to say. Please listen to me… Actually, we weren’t born to
Mom and her husband, but to Mom and her cousin. Because of this close kinship,
their children are prone to congenital diseases. Fortunately, if one child was destined to be sick,
as twins, God only chose one of us, and that’s me…”

I was utterly shocked, suppressing my many questions, and patiently listened.

“Surprised? Actually, I knew all this when I was very young. The reason I didn’t tell you was
because I was afraid you would worry about me…”

I held Jing’er’s cold little hand, tears welling up in my eyes. For so many years, I've always told myself
to be strong, that tears are something to be discarded. But at this moment, all my strength, my hope, and my dreams were
shattered. In front of Jing'er, I forced a distorted smile, quietly staying by her side, whispering to her
… Two days later, Jing'er's condition suddenly worsened. After all efforts to save her failed, the doctors came out, patted my
shoulder, and gave me her last moments… Jing'er lay on the hospital bed, her skin deathly pale. I
sat beside her, tightly holding her small hand… “Brother, promise me you'll live well from now on, you'll take
good care of yourself…”

Jing'er had said those words to me before. My heart ached terribly, and tears finally
streamed down my face. She said firmly, "I will. I will take good care of myself. I will live well. I will
spend my whole life remembering you, missing you, engraving you deep in my heart, letting you live in my heart,
accompanying me through my life!"

A tear rolled down her cheek, and she whispered, "Tian Yu, I love you.
What about you?"

I kissed the tear, my trembling voice echoing throughout the room: "I love you, I love you, I love you,
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you..."

Jing'er was too weak to speak anymore. Listening to my repeated words, that endless love for her,
her eyes were filled with reluctance, resentment, disappointment, and despair. I knew she
didn't want to die !

But in the end, she seemed exhausted and wanted to sleep. She slowly closed her eyes, and
the hand I was holding lost its last bit of strength... That day, Liu Jing, with me by her side, completed her short
life ... When I arrived at Liu Jing's school like a walking corpse, sorting through her belongings, one of her roommates,
the girl who called to tell me about Liu Jing's accident, handed me a locked diary, telling me that
Liu Jing had asked her to give it to me, and the password was our birthdays...

Back home, I opened the thick notebook. The diary recorded almost everything that had happened between us since childhood,
some of which I had no recollection of. I learned that she had liked me since we were in junior high school, suppressing her feelings every day . She never showed
the pain of unrequited love or the conflict of being siblings , silently bearing everything alone… March 21, 2005: You no longer have parents, and I don't know when I will leave you too. You are so pitiful, I love you so much… December 4, 2005: We finally got into the same prestigious high school, why didn't you listen to me and drop out? Do you know how unworthy that is? Because I already... April 6, 2006: You and Uncle had a fight, so we moved out and into your rented apartment. Although life is more financially difficult now, I finally have our own little world with you... October 20, 2006: Yesterday you protected me. I was almost violated. I was so scared, scared that if I got defiled, you wouldn't want me anymore. When you protected me, I was also so scared, scared that I would lose you... September 3, 2007: I'm already a senior in high school. The workload is heavy, but it's not difficult for me. It's just that I don't have time to be by your side anymore, you know? Actually, I didn't want to go to university. Every moment we spent together was precious because I didn't have much time left... But I didn't want to disappoint you, didn't want to let you down after everything you'd done for me... June 17, 2008: I finally found out my college entrance exam results. You were very happy, and I was very happy too, because I finally made love to you. My dream came true, I finally became your wife. I love you... July 3, 2008: We made love almost every day. You seemed troubled, but I didn't know when I would leave. I wanted to be with you more... The last page wasn't a diary entry anymore; it was a message from Jing'er, a suicide note. Tian Yu: Brother, when you see this diary, I think I'll be gone from this world. When I was little, I was very willful, and you always indulged and spoiled me. I really couldn't bear to lose that love. Actually, I knew long ago that I would die soon . You dropped out of school for me back then, and I tried so hard to dissuade you, but you wouldn't listen. I wanted to tell you the truth then, but I was afraid of hurting you… All these years, brother, you worked . It must have been so hard, so tiring, and so frustrating, all for me, who was about to leave this world. I'm so sorry… Brother, my heart has been aching so much lately. It hurts every time I think of you, and it hurts every time we make love. I know I can't have sex or do strenuous exercise because of my illness. Every time I make love to you, it's hastening my death, but I don't regret it… Brother, I really love you so much. You once questioned my love for you, saying it was a sister's attachment to her brother. I don't know if you're right, but I really love you so much! It's a pity we're siblings, twins. Mom and her cousin had congenital heart disease after I was born. I didn't know how serious our child would be, so I secretly took long-term birth control pills and couldn't have your child… Brother, I really wanted to stay in this world a few more years, to see you settle down, get married, and have children, to know you're living a happy life, so I could leave without any regrets . I'm sorry I once wanted to possess you, but just as you sacrificed yourself for my happiness , I also wanted you to live a happy life. Promise me you'll find a good wife and live ever after… But then again, I'm still not reconciled. If you hadn't dropped out of school, if you could have gone to university, you , I've held you back… Do you remember when we climbed the mountain together? In the temple on the mountain, I prayed to Buddha that you would be forever happy and healthy, and that we could be ! Brother, I love you so much. We've suffered so much in this life. If there's a next life, I hope God will take pity on me for all the suffering I've endured, and let me fall in love with you again. But please don't let me be your sister again; I want to be your wife! What about you? If we meet again in the next life, will you marry me? This is such a long diary! After writing for so many years, it's finally finished. Brother, have you read it all, bit by bit ? I'm so reluctant to let it go, but what can I do? Brother, have you engraved my name in your heart? ...I didn't eat or drink, and spent a whole day reading through every single word in the diary. The happy and sweet days we shared were so vivid in my mind. When I finally closed the diary, I couldn't hold back anymore and burst into tears. This was the first time in my life I had ever cried out loud. The pain was indescribable, the suffering unbearable, as if my heart was being crushed. My throat was hoarse, my vision blurred, my whole heart was shattered… Time flies, and five years have passed in the blink of an eye. After Liu Jing's death, I became taciturn, still the same laborer, aimlessly passing the rest of my life. Jing'er's appearance was so stunning; being twins, I was naturally not bad-looking either. Over the years, girls have confessed their love to me, and friends have introduced me to people, but my heart is ashen. I have no interest in anything. The only thing I like to do is go back to the rented room where Jing'er and I used to live, carefully flipping through the diary she left behind, recalling that beautiful figure from the past…

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