Contentment brings happiness; find joy in the ordinary.

I thought you'd be the one to stay with me until the end. You tolerated my bad temper, tolerated me treating you like a chauffeur, tolerated me always blurting out "idiot." You were so tired at home, yet you still insisted on waiting for me to get out of school and call me at night, always considering my feelings. Whenever I was feeling down, you would magically call me like Professor Do. I remember riding your bike and leaving you behind, laughing at you for being too slow. I remember you listing all my flaws and then just saying, "Just make do." I remember the feeling of being fearless as long as you were there. I remember when I lost my meal card, I remember when I was too embarrassed to cheat on the exam, I remember who was there for me when I had a fever and pneumonia in October. I remember that dating without the intention of marriage is just playing around. I remember you still wanted to listen to my songs even though they were in a flat tone. I remember how I always ruined the atmosphere you painstakingly created. I remember how you would get so angry that you would just sit there silently without a single complaint. I remember how you would bring out your whole family every day, making me dizzy while you just laughed like an idiot. I remember how you would put aside your pride and patiently explain whenever I complained to you. I remember how you, so concerned with your image, would suppress your anger and cheer me on for my college entrance exam. I remember how my silence always made you very upset. I remember how I always hesitated to call you, just because I was afraid you were busy, not because I didn't want to talk to you. In the end, I realized that you had already become a part of my life, a habit, and etched into my heart, but you have disappeared from my life forever.
Tears can't bring back what's lost, so don't cry easily. Don't cry just because you're sad, so don't be stingy with your smile.
You can't give everything you think you can, so don't make promises lightly.
It's not that you've accomplished nothing, so don't always be pessimistic and think you're incapable. It's not that you're the only one trying, so don't give up easily. When you meet someone you truly love, strive to have the chance to spend your life with them, because when they leave, it will be too late. When you meet a trustworthy friend, cherish the relationship, because true friends are rare in life. When you meet someone you once loved, remember to smile and express your gratitude, because they are the one who taught you to love better. Don't wait until you break up to regret not cherishing the relationship; don't wait until someone praises you to believe in yourself; don't wait until someone points it out to realize your mistakes. Perhaps we'll miss each other, and then regret not speaking up. The stars we can't reach are always the brightest. The fish that escape are always the most beautiful. The movies we miss are always the best. The lovers we lose are always the ones who understand us best. In this world, everyone has someone they want to find. But the one I've always wanted has left me.
I wasn't by your side when you were down.
When you needed warmth the most, I was asking for care instead.
I always overemphasize my own importance while repeatedly ignoring your feelings. When I show you my scars seeking comfort, I forget that you might be bleeding while gritting your teeth and giving me a hug.
How I wish you could look me in the eyes and angrily say, "Don't be stubborn, you know?" when I'm forcing myself to be strong. It's not that I don't trust you, but that I lack confidence in myself. I always want to show you my best side, but it always ends up being so bad.
I'm just an ordinary person; there are people I can't keep, there are secrets I can't confide in, and there are times when I suppress my loneliness and shed tears in the dead of night. Although I am insignificant, I also want to be like the sun, even if I am just an inconspicuous star.
Many people have advised me to keep you here, fearing I'll regret it. But...but...but...everyone has their own freedom, and I can't interfere with anyone's thoughts. The problems you've brought me, I can only slowly understand myself. It's my immaturity, my childishness. This understanding, if not from you, would come from someone else, teaching me how to love myself, how to love those who love me. I always hurt those around me, but I didn't realize it. I'm always so stubborn, always acting impulsively, always crossing your bottom line again and again, yet you always forgive me with a smile, forgiving me for only understanding now.
It turns out there will always be someone or something that teaches you life lessons. They only give the lecture, and I only need to experience it firsthand. I understand, and then they should leave.
I wish you happiness, that you find a girl you can spend your life with.
This heartfelt blessing is fake; only a fool would encourage you to find someone else. How can I bear the pain of someone else standing beside you? How can I let go? How can I watch you drift further and further away? How can I bear to see you go in the direction you leave?
Thank you for being with me through this time, thank you for teaching me such a profound lesson, thank you for warming my life, for teaching me to cherish, and for making me understand what it means to want.
In your presence, I don't need to pretend; I can cry when I want to cry, and laugh when I want to laugh. Thank you for that childlike feeling you brought me. I will carry the warmth you gave me on my journey, and live with this beautiful smile. I think I am lucky, because I have had it, because I have experienced it, because among so many people, I finally met you. I think that many years later, when I think of you, perhaps I will feel regret that it wasn't you, perhaps I will feel gratified that I once had you, or perhaps, upon reading what I have written, I will realize how pure my feelings were.

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