Love and Desire [Complete] - 8

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Love and Desire (52)

Chapter 50

After walking for less than a quarter of an hour, they found a small photo studio near the Meridian Gate. The two approached and saw a couple watching TV inside the glass door, so they pushed the door open and went in. The woman stood up, smiled at the handsome man and beautiful woman who came in, and asked, "Do you want to take pictures?" Liu Yan smiled and nodded, "Yes." The woman frowned and said,

"But we are already closed." Liu Yan said, "It's like this, because I'm being transferred tomorrow, I haven't had time these past few days, so it's only now. You can charge a little more, we're a bit embarrassed to trouble you now."

At this moment, the man stood up and smiled and said, "You must be in a hurry to come, it's unavoidable. It's a bit of a hassle to pack everything up, although we are in business, we also know that serving the people is fundamental, please wait a moment, I'll go and prepare." After speaking, he stepped into a closed door.

The woman then invited Ouyang Yiming and Liu Yan to sit down on the sofa. Liu Yan smiled and said, "Your service is excellent." The woman poured two glasses of water and handed them to them, saying, "We're a small business, not as well-off as state-owned enterprises, so we rely on our enthusiastic service to win customers. But then again, it's so late, and we've already packed up our cameras and stuff, it's a bit of a hassle." Liu Yan said, "You've really gone to so much trouble."

The woman said, "Don't mention it, it's our pleasure."

As she spoke, she glanced at Ouyang Yiming, then turned back to Liu Yan and asked, "Are you two a couple?" Liu Yan nodded. The woman said, "I can tell, you're a perfect match, such a beautiful couple." Ouyang Yiming and Liu Yan blushed. The woman asked Liu Yan, "Which military unit are you in?" Liu Yan glanced at her, then lowered her head and thought for a moment. The woman immediately smiled and said, "Look at me, I shouldn't have asked that question." Liu Yan smiled and said, "It's alright. I work at the military region headquarters. I'm being transferred tomorrow, and I've been busy with the transfer these past few days. I haven't had time to take photos. I was eating nearby just now and suddenly remembered this. So I came to trouble you." The woman said, "You're welcome."

Liu Yan stood up and leaned closer to the woman, saying, "To be honest, my parents don't know about our relationship yet. I wanted to take these photos to show them to my parents, so I hope you can help me take good pictures."

The woman smiled broadly and said, "You two will look good no matter how you take pictures. He's handsome and dashing, and you're beautiful. How could you not look good? Don't worry, my husband's photography skills are top-notch. He'll definitely take the photos carefully. When you show the photos to your parents, they'll be very satisfied." Liu Yan said, "Thank you for your kind words. He's still in university and won't graduate until next year. Otherwise, I would have taken him home. Seeing a photo is definitely better than seeing the person." As she spoke, the man came out of the house, saying that everything was ready. Ouyang Yiming and Liu Yan entered the photography room.

The man said, "Let's take color photos of the group," and Liu Yan nodded in agreement. The woman then asked the two to adjust their clothes in front of a large vertical mirror. She leaned closer to Liu Yan and asked, "Would you like to take wedding photos in your wedding dress?" Liu Yan blushed and said, "No need, just a few group photos are fine." The woman then asked the two to sit down in front of the camera light.

The man fiddled with the camera, adjusted the focus, and directed them to pose for two photos. Then he had them stand up and took two full-body shots. After that, the woman said to Liu Yan, "We have some suits here; why don't you, sir, change into one and take a couple more photos?" Liu Yan looked in the direction she was pointing and saw some clothes in a cabinet. She then looked at Ouyang Yiming for his opinion. Ouyang Yiming shook his head. Liu Yan pulled Ouyang Yiming along, saying, "Go try them on."

The woman quickly opened the cabinet and took out the clothes. Liu Yan helped Ouyang Yiming unbutton his clothes and take off his outer garment. The woman then put a white, short-sleeved blouse over him, covering only the collar and shoulders, and tied a red tie around his neck. She then helped him put on a medium-gray suit jacket and buttoned it up.

Liu Yan was surprised to find that after this simple tidying up, Ouyang Yiming looked like a completely different person, even more dashing. She pulled Ouyang Yiming to look in the mirror.

Ouyang Yiming was also startled, hardly recognizing himself in the mirror. The woman laughed, "Look at you! Clothes make the man. This outfit makes you incredibly handsome. I dare say your mother will be overjoyed and won't say a word; she'll be very happy with this son-in-law."

Ouyang Yiming blushed and didn't say anything; Liu Yan was indeed very excited. The woman asked Liu Yan if she wanted to change into casual clothes, but Liu Yan replied, "I'm used to wearing this, so let's just take the photos like this."

The woman immediately chimed in, "Girls look so good in military uniforms." So Ouyang Yiming and Liu Yan took a few more pictures

. After leaving the photo studio, Liu Yan paid, and the woman said she would only charge the normal rate for photos, no extra fees. Liu Yan and Ouyang Yiming thanked her. The woman gave them a receipt and told them they could pick up the photos in a week. Ouyang Yiming took the receipt and put it away. The two thanked her again and left the photo studio, returning the way they came.

Liu Yan said, "With these photos, it'll be a done deal for Mom, and I don't think I need to say much more." Ouyang Yiming appreciated Liu Yan's good intentions, but still felt uneasy about her parents' approval. He nodded and said, "I hope so." Liu Yan turned to look at him and said, "I will definitely get their approval." Seeing her determined expression, Ouyang Yiming felt a little relieved.

Liu Yan said, "I'll write to you as soon as I report to my new workplace. Once you receive the letter, send me these photos. I'll reveal our relationship to them at the appropriate time."

Ouyang Yiming thought for a moment and said, "I still have over a year until graduation, so there's no rush. We should choose a more suitable time. It's best to wait until later; to be honest, I'm still a little worried."

At this moment, Ouyang Yiming thought of the girl who jumped off the building at school, and his heart sank. Liu Yan said, "I know. When I said 'appropriate time,' I meant it should be close to your graduation, so they don't have too much room for thought." She was also thinking about telling her parents about her relationship with Ouyang Yiming soon. She thought to herself that the person she loved was no ordinary person; he was a student at a prestigious university and exceptionally handsome. Her parents had no reason to object to their relationship.

Ouyang Yiming asked, "Did you leave on the appointed day?" Liu Yan replied, "All the formalities are done. My aunt said she'll take me in her unit's car the day after tomorrow. She hasn't visited my home in years and wants to go back with me. Taking the train to my hometown is troublesome; I have to transfer, and I have so much luggage. Taking the ship is too slow, so my aunt called my mother a couple of days ago and said she'd come back with me. I was hoping to see you again tomorrow night, but my comrades are having a farewell dinner for me. My biggest wish these past two days has been to spend more time with you.

But..." Ouyang Yiming said, "You must be very busy these past two days. I wanted to see you off, but you and your aunt..." Liu Yan said, "No need for you to see me off. I'll get my luggage on the car at the hospital and then leave with my aunt. I'm sure many comrades will see me off. Just wish me a safe journey here. Besides, you have class that day; how can you come to see me off?" Ouyang Yiming nodded.

The two talked all the way back to the tree they had crawled in and out of countless times. Liu Yan pulled Ouyang Yiming to a stop and said, "Let's sit for a while longer." Ouyang Yiming nodded. The two of them went under the tree.

Just as Ouyang Yiming hung the food bag on a tree branch, Liu Yan hugged him tightly. After a kiss, Liu Yan said, "I really can't believe this is our last date in this city. It feels like a dream." Ouyang Yiming said, "That's right. Before, when I thought of you every day, it felt like you were right beside me, since we were in the same city. Now, there's not much hope of seeing you again." Liu Yan said, "I think so too. But it's only for a year. After a year, we can be together again." Looking up at him, she said, "Just think of it as me going on a business trip. Just think of it as me coming home for vacation. Time will fly by. After I leave, you must take care of yourself. Don't eat anything random on the street. I'm worried you won't be able to take care of yourself." Ouyang Yiming said, "I've been away from home for several years now. I can take care of myself. Don't worry." Liu Yan teased, "Last time you were hospitalized, wasn't it because of those things you ate? You must be careful about foreign foods in the future and don't eat them randomly." Ouyang Yiming nodded in agreement.

After exchanging loving words, the two embraced again, kissing passionately. Liu Yan looked up and asked, "Want more?" Ouyang Yiming understood what she meant and nodded. He reached his hand inside Liu Yan's breasts. At the same time, Liu Yan unbuckled his belt and reached inside, grasping his hot, hard member. After a while of rubbing and caressing, both of them lost control.

Liu Yan then inserted a contraceptive film into her body. After a while, they removed their lower garments and, just like last time, entered each other from behind. This time, it clearly lasted longer than before; Liu Yan felt two orgasms before Ouyang Yiming ejaculated.

Both seemed exhausted. They stood embracing, catching their breath. Liu Yan said, "Yesterday I was thinking of taking you to my dorm to have some fun. I'm the only one in my dorm now. It used to be just me, Jin Ming, and Zheng Lanlan. After Jin Ming transferred, it was just the two of us. Zheng Lanlan just got married and lives in the logistics department, so now it's just me. But I'm still scared. Men aren't allowed in the nurses' building after 7 pm every day; there's a auntie guarding the door downstairs. Actually, I could talk to her now, but I'm still afraid." Ouyang Yiming said, "That won't do. What if people find out? You'll be gossiped about before you leave." "It's not worth it," Liu Yan said. "Yes, that's why I'm worried. But thinking about how we've always done this in the wild since we met, I just want to be able to do it with you like a married couple for one night." Ouyang Yiming said, "I want that even more. We can do it like that after we get married." Liu Yan said, "I really dream about that day, when we're lying in a warm bed, I want you to hold me tightly, to let you see every part of my body, and I want to admire every inch of your skin. How happy that would be."

Ouyang Yiming was captivated by her description, and that scene appeared in his mind. Soon, he felt his penis swell again. So he whispered to Liu Yan, "I'm thinking about it again." Liu Yan looked at him in surprise and said, "You're still doing it! You've done it twice already." Ouyang Yiming said, "I'm still doing it." Liu Yan stared at him for a while and said, "Okay, today you can do it as many times as you want."

After saying that, she inserted another contraceptive film into his body. After a while, the two did it again.

After resting for a while, they looked at each other and smiled. Liu Yan said, "Look at all the work we've done over the past few weeks. The weather's so cool; I'm worried it might harm your health. Let's go for a walk."

Ouyang Yiming agreed. So the two went out and walked hand in hand.

The moon was exceptionally bright that night, its light shining from their sides, their shadows merging as they walked. Ouyang Yiming looked back at the pine tree, a sudden wave of sorrow washing over him. He turned to Liu Yan and said, "With you gone, perhaps we'll never come to this tree again." Liu Yan turned to look too, sighing, "Yes, how could we possibly have another chance? We should really thank this tree." Ouyang Yiming said, "Yes, it has witnessed almost every one of our lives." Liu Yan nodded, saying, "After we get married, we must come and see this tree sometime. I've developed a deep affection for it." She then bent down and bowed deeply to the tree. Ouyang Yiming felt a pang of sadness.

The two walked on in silence, unsure what to say. Liu Yan glanced at her watch; it was already 10:15. "Time flies," she said. Ouyang Yiming also looked at his watch and said, "Yes, it feels like just yesterday." Liu Yan said, "I really wish we could walk like this all night." Ouyang Yiming said, "Yes, I really don't want to leave."

They fell silent again. Suddenly, Liu Yan laughed and said, "Look at us, tonight feels like a final farewell. It's only a year, maybe I'll have another chance." Ouyang Yiming asked excitedly, "A real chance?" Liu Yan said, "That's what I think, but who knows if it will happen. Sigh, don't think about it. Before we part, let's both be happy; this is too depressing." Ouyang Yiming

said sadly, "How can we be happy at a time like this?" Liu Yan nodded and said, "That's true."

She said this, but her heart was still heavy with sadness, and she spoke very little. Liu Yan stopped and said, "Ouyang, let's go back. There has to be a moment of separation. Walking together like this isn't pleasant either." Ouyang Yiming nodded. Liu Yan stared intently at him. The two stared at each other. After a moment, Liu Yan buried her face in Ouyang Yiming's arms and sobbed.

Ouyang Yiming held her tightly, his heart also filled with mixed emotions, and he silently shed tears. Liu Yan suddenly looked up, her eyes brimming with tears, and said to him, "Ouyang, you must promise me you won't let me down." Ouyang Yiming nodded solemnly and said, "Don't worry, I absolutely won't, believe me."

Liu Yan wiped away her tears, a smile appearing on her face, and said, "Alright, don't say anything more. I'll be at ease as long as you take care of yourself." As she spoke, she reached into her pocket and took out a wad of cash, saying,

"This is two hundred yuan. Don't say anything, just take it. I prepared it for you; buy some supplements." Ouyang Yiming hurriedly waved his hand and shook his head, saying, "I don't need much money, why bother..." Liu Yan said, "I thought you shouldn't take it, but you must accept this money today. I'm going to be away from you for so long, and I'm worried about your health. I have a monthly salary, and going back to my parents won't cost me much. Don't say anything more, or I'll be very sad." As she spoke, she stuffed the money into Ouyang Yiming's pocket. Ouyang Yiming looked at her with a troubled expression. Liu Yan said, "If you truly consider me your wife, you shouldn't say anything more." Ouyang Yiming fell silent, feeling somewhat embarrassed.

They walked silently for a while until they reached the bus stop. Only a middle-aged couple stood at the stop. Ouyang Yiming and Liu Yan approached, their backs to each other under a tree beside the stop, hand in hand, gazing at each other. A bus arrived. They boarded. The bus was nearly empty, and the two sat close together, their hands clasped tightly, hoping the bus would slow down. But they quickly reached Liu Yan's stop.

Ouyang Yiming gripped Liu Yan's hand tightly, tears welling in his eyes as he looked at her. Liu Yan, tears still in her eyes, stood up and walked towards the door. As she got off, she turned back to gaze at him. Ouyang Yiming felt a sharp pain in his heart, as if pierced by needles, and tears streamed down his face. The doors closed, and Ouyang Yiming pushed open the window, his tear-streaked eyes fixed on Liu Yan as she receded into the distance.

Liu Yan stood on the platform watching him, silently shedding tears, until the bus carrying Ouyang Yiming disappeared from sight, before she slowly moved her somewhat tired and weak steps... Love and Desire (53) Chapter Fifty-One After a Sunday afternoon, Ouyang Yiming took a bus to the photo studio. The woman recognized him as soon as she saw him and warmly greeted him, asking him to wait a moment. Two girls who looked like students were standing in front of the counter. When they saw Ouyang Yiming enter, they stared at him for a few moments, then leaned together and whispered to each other, laughing for a moment, and then both tilted their heads and glanced at him. The woman whispered something to the two girls, also glancing at Ouyang Yiming from time to time.

Ouyang Yiming noticed this and his face turned red. He thought to himself that the two girls' laughter must be related to him, but he didn't know what he had that was funny to him. He looked down at his clothes but didn't find anything, so he felt extremely uncomfortable. A moment later, the two girls glanced at Ouyang Yiming a few more times, then blushed and smiled as they walked into the photography studio.

The woman looked up and greeted Ouyang Yiming with a smile. As they approached, the woman glanced at the studio door, then turned back and asked, "Do you know what those two girls were saying?" Ouyang Yiming shook his head, blushing. The woman said, "The two girls exclaimed 'Wow!' the moment they saw you. The one in red said to the one in blue, 'Your Prince Charming has arrived!' She even said you're a movie actor. The two girls asked me where I was from. I said I didn't know, and they said they seemed to know me well. I said no, we're just clients. I teased them, saying, 'Even if you like him, it's no use, he's already taken, his girlfriend is a beautiful female military officer.' The two girls wanted me to show them your photos, but I refused. It's a matter of professional ethics, right? I didn't say anything else."

Ouyang Yiming smiled, blushing, secretly amused. The woman took the receipt from Ouyang Yiming, and while looking down at the photos, she said, "You and your girlfriend are such a perfect match." Ouyang Yiming smiled but didn't say anything. The woman took out a paper bag, pulled it out and looked at it, then looked up at him and smiled, saying, "I want to discuss something with you, I don't know if it's alright."

Ouyang Yiming looked at her suspiciously. The woman smiled and said, "It's like this, the day before yesterday my husband brought your photos from the photo lab and told me that the pictures of you two were very good. We'd like to transfer two of your photos to the display case at the entrance of our shop. If you agree, we'll waive all the fees for the photoshoot and refund you."

Ouyang Yiming was secretly pleased, but he wouldn't agree to such a thing. He shook his head at the woman and said, "That's not appropriate. She's a soldier, and it's not good for her to be displayed in your shop. Besides, we're not married yet. If we put them in your shop window for others to see, she definitely won't be happy." The woman smiled and said, "She's been transferred, so it's fine as long as you agree." Ouyang Yiming said, "How can that be? Even if she's not here, we can't do this! I won't agree either. I'm really sorry." Ouyang Yiming thought to himself, "Don't even mention a photo of me and Liu Yan together; even a solo photo of myself wouldn't be displayed there." He felt somewhat disgusted by the woman's words.

The woman looked somewhat disappointed, her expression a little unnatural, but after a moment she smiled and said, "It's alright. I already told my husband that you might not agree." She handed the photo to Ouyang Yiming and asked, "She's gone, hasn't she?" Ouyang Yiming, while taking out the photo, said, "She left the day after the photo was taken." Looking at the photo, he indeed saw a handsome man and a beautiful woman embracing, smiling sweetly. He was even quite satisfied with his own appearance in the photo. He thanked the woman and left the shop.

"I'm fine, don't worry."

Actually, Wu Yingying was genuinely afraid that Ouyang Yiming would leave. Even though he didn't say anything, just standing beside her, she felt like she had a pillar of support. She thought that if Ouyang Yiming left, she might collapse. But she also knew she had no right to let him stay by her side like that; after all, they had no relationship.

Ouyang Yiming thought for a moment, still worried about leaving her alone, so he said, "Let's go back together." Wu Yingying looked up with tearful eyes and said, "Won't people talk if I go out like this!" Ouyang Yiming saw her swollen eyes and felt that if she appeared in front of others like this, with her red and swollen eyes and her sorrowful, unnatural expression, people would definitely gossip. He was truly in a dilemma.

Wu Yingying said, "You go back first. I'm worried about you being talked about. If I go to school with you looking like this, and it gets back to Xu Hui, I'm afraid she'll misunderstand you. Even if I go back to school alone, I don't want my classmates to suspect anything."

Hearing this, Ouyang Yiming knew that Wu Yingying was mainly thinking of him, and his heart stirred again. He thought: I can't leave her here alone. He asked, "How long are you going to stay here? Are you going to wait until dark to go back?" Wu Yingying replied, "I just want to think about it quietly. It'll be dark soon." Ouyang Yiming glanced at his watch; it was already past six. He said, "How can you stay here alone until dark? What if you run into bad people again..." Wu Yingying said, "It's okay."

While saying she was fine, Wu Yingying secretly wished she had run into bad people, preferably several, and been raped!

Why was she so pathetic! Thinking this, she felt another wave of sadness, and tears streamed down her face. Seeing this, Ouyang Yiming said, "Look at you, how can I be at ease? Okay, I'll stay here with you." Wu Yingying looked at him with tearful eyes, her heart filled with gratitude, and said, "Really, it's not necessary, I'm fine." Ouyang Yiming said, "Don't say anything more, I'll stay here with you. It'll be dark soon." But in his heart, he thought, why did I have to run into them like this? He and Xu Hui originally didn't want to get involved in Wu Yingying's affairs anymore. After Wu Yingying had an abortion, she got back together with Zhu Haitao. Although they thought Wu Yingying might have had no choice, they were still secretly angry with her. Chapter 52 of

Love and Desire (54) : Ouyang Yiming squatted down in front of her, glanced at Wu Yingying, and said, "Actually, I knew when you and Zhu Haitao got back together." Wu Yingying stared at him in surprise. Ouyang Yiming said, "Zhu Haitao told Jiang Yuqi, and Jiang Yuqi told me." Wu Yingying asked, "Xu Hui knows too?" Ouyang Yiming said, "I told her. No one else knows." Wu Yingying asked somewhat flusteredly, "Then Jiang Yuqi knows about my abortion?" Ouyang Yiming said, "Do you think Xu Hui and I would talk about this? No one knows except the three of us." He paused and then asked, "Did you tell Zhu Haitao?" Wu Yingying said, "No, I didn't tell him about it. Actually, after I got back in touch with him, I didn't go out with him many times." She paused and lowered her head, saying, "I didn't let him touch me even though we went out a few times." Ouyang Yiming knew what she meant and didn't know how to respond. Wu Yingying said, "He did think about it, and he even tried to force me, but I didn't let him succeed." Ouyang Yiming thought to himself that perhaps Zhu Haitao had contacted that girl again precisely because he hadn't succeeded. But since this topic was currently at hand, he couldn't continue talking to her alone, so he remained silent. Wu Yingying blushed and said, "You and Xu Hui will definitely call me cheap when you find out I'm back with him." Ouyang Yiming said, "No, not at all. Xu Hui and I were initially confused when we found out, but then we analyzed that you had many considerations. We thought that since you, a girl, had lost your virginity to him, you still wanted to be with him. We also thought that you truly had feelings for him." Wu Yingying said, "That's right. I've thought about many things too. I also think that he loves me, and that he was just confused for a moment with that girl. I was afraid you would talk about me, so I didn't dare let you know. After he had Xu Hui give me a hundred yuan, he secretly slipped me another one..." I wrote him three letters, all filled with remorse and urging me to forgive him. He said he was just being foolish and truly loved me. One day during a break, he asked to go out that night, and I refused. He then begged me. Honestly, after reading his letters, although I was angry with him, I also wanted to forgive him. That day, I made him write a guarantee, which he gave me the next day. It said he and Yang Qian were just playing around and had no feelings for each other. It said if he ever got together with Yang Qian again, I could punish him however I wanted. I actually believed him. Now I realize how infatuated, naive, and ridiculous I was. He was such a hypocrite, a scoundrel... "How could I not see through this? This is a matter of character, something that can never be changed. This time, I'm completely heartbroken." Ouyang Yiming said, "Actually, there are some things Xu Hui and I can't say. To be frank, we're worried that if you two really reconcile, some of the things we said to you might reach Zhu Haitao's ears, and we're worried he'll hate us. As classmates, we really want to help you in some way, but..." Wu Yingying said, "I understand, it's reasonable for you to have these thoughts. But how could I forget the kindness you've shown me? No matter what, I will never let what you said to me reach his ears." “It’s good that you understand,” Ouyang Yiming said. Wu Yingying said, “I know how good you all are to me. If it weren’t for you and Xu Hui, I would have truly wanted to die after that abortion. I’m grateful for that for the rest of my life.” Ouyang Yiming said, “Don’t say that. You need to be more open-minded in the future. Let’s just consider this as a thing of the past, like I said last time, just like a nightmare.” Wu Yingying sneered and said, “Can this be a dream? A dream is over when you wake up, but this is a lifelong pain. I won’t forgive him.” Ouyang Yiming heard the same words as last time, but he thought this time might be different. He was a little worried and said, “I still say, don’t do anything foolish, it will hurt both of us.” Wu Yingying didn’t respond to Ouyang Yiming’s words, her face showing a painful expression, she lowered her head and remained silent for a while. The sky gradually darkened, and Wu Yingying raised her head and said, “Let’s go back.” Ouyang Yiming agreed and stood up. Wu Yingying went out first, and Ouyang Yiming followed. The park was already quite empty, with only a few couples strolling hand in hand. Wu Yingying sighed heavily and said, "I don't know why my life is so miserable. Look at all those couples, how could I have met someone like that?" Ouyang Yiming comforted her, "Don't think about it anymore." Wu Yingying didn't say anything. After a moment, she looked at him and said, "Let's just grab something to eat outside. The cafeteria is already open by the time we get back."

Ouyang Yiming suddenly remembered the time they ate lotus root starch together and ran into Zhu Haitao. He felt a pang of anxiety and remained silent. Wu Yingying looked at him, also thinking of the incident, and said, "It can't be such a coincidence, can it? I don't think they'll be going back to school for dinner tonight. How about this, we head south, eat there, and take a bus back. We definitely won't run into anyone." Ouyang Yiming was reluctant and wanted to break up with her now. But he felt it wouldn't be right, he couldn't save face, and he was worried about letting her go back alone, so he nodded. The two headed south.

After about half an hour, they entered a noodle shop. Wu Yingying said she couldn't eat anymore. Ouyang Yiming suggested she eat less and bought two bowls of pork belly noodles, one large and one small. Wu Yingying found it difficult to swallow, and seeing Ouyang Yiming looking at her, she didn't want him to say anything more for her. She forced herself to finish, but felt even more suffocated.

The two left the shop and boarded a bus. They transferred buses at Xinjiekou. The bus was crowded, so they had to stand for a while. When a seat became available, Ouyang Yiming let Wu Yingying sit down, while he stood a short distance away.

They got off at a stop not far from the school gate. Ouyang Yiming told Wu Yingying to go first, saying he was going to buy some things at a small shop nearby.

Wu Yingying understood Ouyang Yiming's meaning; he was worried about gossip if they went back to school together, so she nodded in agreement. When they parted, Ouyang Yiming again told Wu Yingying not to overthink things. Wu Yingying was touched, but didn't say anything, just smiled at him and turned to leave.

Ouyang Yiming went into the shop, pretending to look at things while secretly watching Wu Yingying enter the school gate before feeling at ease. He bought a tube of toothpaste and looked at pens for a while before leaving the shop. As they walked into the long street inside the school gate, they encountered their counselor. Ouyang Yiming greeted her warmly, thinking to himself, "It's a good thing I didn't walk into the school gate with Wu Yingying."

The counselor asked Ouyang Yiming what he was doing there. Ouyang Yiming waved the toothpaste in his hand and told her he was buying something. The counselor said, "I was just saying I wanted to talk to you about something tomorrow." Ouyang Yiming stopped with her by the roadside. The counselor said, "It's like this, the branch held a meeting a couple of days ago to discuss your application to join the Party. Most people voted in favor, and your class teacher and all the professors had a good impression of you, saying you are honest, steady, and academically excellent. However, a few student Party members said you weren't very concerned about collective life, and you must pay attention to that in the future. Here's what I'm thinking: you should quickly write another application to join the Party and hand it in to me. Write it more sincerely, and make your demands for joining the Party more vehement, so that I can put in a good word for you during the next discussion and try to get you approved this time."

Ouyang Yiming nodded gratefully and thanked her repeatedly. The counselor smiled and said, "No need to thank me. You have a good reputation among teachers and classmates. I'm just stating the facts; I feel a good student like you should join the Party. It's not a big deal; most of the committee members appreciate you. I'm happy to be your introducer."

Ouyang Yiming was excited and didn't know what to say, only expressing his gratitude. The counselor suddenly lowered his voice, staring at Ouyang Yiming's face, and said, "There's something I'd like to ask you."

He paused, smiled at him, and said, "I'm just asking casually; don't get any other ideas." A sudden sense of panic arose in Ouyang Yiming's heart, and he nodded.

The counselor said, "Someone said in the meeting that you're in a relationship, I wonder if it's true." Ouyang Yiming blushed instantly, his heart pounding, and he hurriedly said, "That's not true at all. Who are they talking about?" The counselor smiled and said, "Don't be nervous. I asked that student about it in the meeting, asking him if he had any real evidence. He couldn't say anything, so I said it's best not to bring up such unfounded rumors. It's extremely irresponsible to assume that male and female students are dating just because you see them talking together or occasionally going out together. Most people agreed with me, and that student even blushed after I said that. Of course, you shouldn't ask which student it is."

Ouyang Yiming felt relieved after hearing this, but he knew in his heart that what others were talking about was definitely him and Xu Hui. He thought to himself, "It's better to say it in front of the counselor, so she won't have any doubts." Xiaoxiao said, "I won't inquire about this. I just wanted to ask, are you referring to Xu Hui and me?" The counselor's eyes lit up and said, "Exactly."

Ouyang Yiming shook his head and said, "Actually, I know some classmates are talking about it, and some have even asked me directly. But I can assure you, Xu Hui and I really haven't had a romantic relationship. I don't know how it happened..." The counselor said, "Don't mind it. It's normal. To be honest, even I think you two are a perfect match. With you two as the golden couple in the class, how could people not talk about you? If you two become a couple in the future, that would be perfect. But you can't go public now."

Ouyang Yiming didn't expect the counselor to say something like that to him. Blushing, Ouyang Yiming said, "We really haven't had any romantic relationship. Has anyone seen me dating her?"

The counselor smiled and said, "No one has said anything. I believe it. To be honest, I'm not much older than you, so we shouldn't have a generation gap. I want to say something from the bottom of my heart: I really hope you two can get together in the future. You two are a perfect match. Even if you two did have that kind of relationship, you need to control yourselves and not date too often. I'm just saying this because I really value you. Don't tell anyone else." Ouyang Yiming nodded and said, "I won't tell anyone, but I really haven't had any romantic relationship with her..." The counselor smiled and said,

"Don't explain anymore. I understand that you both have feelings for each other, which is perfectly normal."

Ouyang Yiming didn't want to explain anymore and thanked the counselor, blushing. The counselor said, "Don't mention gratitude. Your character and academic performance are both excellent. I was just expressing my opinion. That's all for now. Go back and finish writing. I'll come to your classroom to pick it up tomorrow afternoon." Ouyang Yiming quickly said, "I'll write it and bring it to you." The counselor said, "No need, I'll pick it up tomorrow. Go back now." Ouyang Yiming thanked him again. The two went their separate ways.

After returning to his dormitory, Ouyang Yiming took out the draft of his previous application to join the Party from his suitcase. He then put the photos back in the suitcase. Overwhelmed with excitement, he lay on his bed and revised the original draft again and again, adding some more radical words. Feeling quite satisfied, he carefully copied it again, folded it neatly, and put it in his coat pocket. Only then did he lie down on the bed to rest his mind.

He thought about how dramatic the events of the afternoon had been; in just a few hours, several things had happened, bringing joy, sorrow, and happiness. Naturally, she thought of Wu Yingying again, and felt sad for her, so she couldn't help but sigh for her in secret. Chapter 53 of

Love and Desire (55) After returning to the dormitory, Wu Yingying felt miserable, full of sorrow, and physically and mentally exhausted. When she took off her clothes to go to bed, Xu Hui, who was sitting on the opposite bed reading a book, asked her why she was going to bed so early. Wu Yingying wanted to talk to her, but she felt that she really didn't want to speak at the moment, so she smiled bitterly and said that she was feeling a little unwell. Xu Hui asked with concern if she should see a doctor. Wu Yingying said that she didn't need to, and that she would feel better after resting for a while. Xu Hui saw that her expression was a little strange, and she was puzzled , so she didn't ask any more questions. Wu Yingying lay down and pulled the quilt over her head. She thought to herself how lucky Xu Hui was to have found a man who was not only handsome but also of such good character. She felt sad for herself and couldn't help but shed some tears. After a period of heartbreak, she began to hate Zhu Haitao again. When she hated him, she would grind her teeth so hard they clattered, wishing she could tear him to pieces and swallow him whole. Then she suddenly thought that Zhu Haitao and that woman were probably somewhere right now. She imagined them making love outside, and a surge of hatred and jealousy welled up inside her. She felt as if that woman was tearing her own flesh out and eating it, and she wanted to rip her apart too. She cursed inwardly: "You little slut, it won't be long before you're just as heartbroken as I am. If Zhu Haitao can treat me like this, why can't he treat you the same way? Your fate might be even worse than mine." After cursing, she thought, "Let Zhu Haitao fuck you to death. If you get pregnant and have an abortion, you'll bleed profusely. Then Zhu Haitao won't care about you at all; you'll just have to wait to die." At this moment, a strange sense of pleasure arose within her, and she even chuckled smugly.

After a while, she thought again that this was all Zhu Haitao's fault, and she shouldn't hate that girl so much. Wasn't she also deceived by Zhu Haitao just like her? Her heart trembled again, and she felt that the girl was just as pitiful as she was, and she felt a sense of shared suffering. In an instant, she thought that she should help that girl and not let her suffer like she did. After all, they were both women, and this was all that man's fault. How could she blame a girl who had also been deceived by a man?

Thinking of this, she felt guilty for cursing the girl in her heart earlier, and blushed. After a while, she had an idea. She wanted to tell the girl about how Zhu Haitao had deceived her, so that she would wake up quickly. Yes, she also had to show her the guarantee that Zhu Haitao had written to her. That way, she would definitely leave Zhu Haitao. Let this inhuman man suffer too. She finally made up her mind and decided to go to see the girl in the next few days.

The following afternoon, the counselor came to Ouyang Yiming's class during the break. Ouyang Yiming quietly handed her the application form. The counselor didn't even look at it before putting it in her pocket, instructing, "Don't let anything happen recently. I'll try my best for you. It's not a big problem; most people won't object." Ouyang Yiming thanked her again. The counselor said she needed to talk to another student about something. So Ouyang Yiming left.

Xu Hui, standing not far away, watched all of this closely. She wondered what the counselor wanted to talk to Ouyang Yiming about, and what that piece of paper Ouyang Yiming gave her was. Puzzled, she wanted to find a time to ask.

That evening, while eating in the cafeteria, Xu Hui kept glancing at Ouyang Yiming, who was sitting not far away eating with Jiang Yuqi. She didn't get up after finishing her own meal, talking to Li Xuan, and only stood up after seeing Ouyang Yiming finish eating. After washing the dishes, she and Li Xuan followed Ouyang Yiming and Jiang Yuqi out the door. After walking for a while, seeing that there were few people behind her, Xu Hui said to Li Xuan,

"Call Ouyang." Li Xuan said, "Is something wrong?" Xu Hui nodded. Li Xuan called out. Ouyang Yiming and Jiang Yuqi stopped. Xu Hui and Li Xuan caught up, and Xu Hui said, "Ouyang, I want to say something to you." Jiang Yuqi and Li Xuan exchanged glances and walked a few steps ahead.

Ouyang Yiming thought of what the counselor had said that afternoon and frowned as he looked at Xu Hui. Xu Hui asked, "What did your counselor want with you this afternoon?" Ouyang Yiming thought for a moment, deciding he shouldn't hide it from her, and whispered, "My Party membership application. I saw her last night, and she asked me to write another application for her, saying I have a chance this time. Don't tell anyone." Xu Hui beamed, saying, "I thought you'd done something wrong and had to write a self-criticism." Ouyang Yiming said, "Don't talk to me alone lately. The counselor said someone said… when they were discussing my case, the counselor said I absolutely mustn't cause any problems recently." Xu Hui understood what she hadn't finished saying and readily agreed, "I understand." Ouyang Yiming said, "But whatever you do, don't tell anyone." Xu Hui glanced at him and said, "Who can I tell? I'm not stupid! It's not someone else's business; I know what I'm doing." She then called for Li Xuan.

Li Xuan and Jiang Yuqi stopped. Approaching, Li Xuan said, "You're done whispering so quickly?" Xu Hui blushed and said, "What nonsense are you talking about?" Then she said to Ouyang Yiming, "You guys go first, I need to talk to Li Xuan about something." Ouyang Yiming understood, but Jiang Yuqi was confused, so Ouyang Yiming pulled Jiang Yuqi away.

Xu Hui and Li Xuan stopped, and only started walking after watching them walk away. Li Xuan asked, "What's up? Were you talking about me?" Xu Hui laughed and said, "We weren't talking about you."

Li Xuan asked, "Then what do you want to tell me?" Xu Hui said, "Just something off the cuff, what could I possibly be talking about! I don't want to walk with them." She then giggled. Li Xuan laughed and said, "You seem so happy, what's the good news?" Xu Hui giggled and said, "Really, nothing much, don't overthink it." Li Xuan laughed and said, "It's like you're getting married soon, tell us!"

Xu Hui blushed and said, "I was just talking to him about something else." She paused and asked, "Hey, where did you go yesterday?" Li Xuan was startled and blushed, but quickly regained her composure and said, "I went shopping yesterday." Xu Hui said, "Why didn't you call me? It was a coincidence yesterday, I took a nap and couldn't find Wu Yingying anywhere. I wanted to go shopping to buy a bra, and I was hoping you guys could give me some advice. But I had to go by myself." Li Xuan's mind raced and she said, "I went to your dorm after lunch, but you were sleeping, so I didn't call you." Xu Hui said strangely, "You could have just called me." Li Xuan said, "I just went to buy some underwear, and I felt bad about disturbing your sweet dreams. You're probably dreaming about dating Ouyang somewhere, so I didn't dare to bother you." She then laughed.

Xu Hui said, "Nothing you say sounds good." Li Xuan laughed. She said, "Why didn't you let Ouyang go with you?" Xu Hui blushed and said, "Why can't you be serious?" Li

Xuan had spent the entire afternoon yesterday with Yao Jianshe in the guesthouse at the electrical factory. She had slipped out of the campus during self-study on Saturday afternoon to call Yao Jianshe. Yao Jianshe was in his office and was overjoyed to receive the call. Li Xuan said she wanted to talk to him about something and asked if he was free that evening. Yao Jianshe said they should meet at the guesthouse the next afternoon. Li Xuan deliberately said on the phone that she wouldn't go and would find somewhere else to talk. Yao Jianshe asked why, and Li Xuan hesitated for a while before shyly saying she was afraid he would do something bad. Yao Jianshe assured her he wouldn't do anything bad, but was afraid people would see them and gossip. After all, he was a government official, and it wouldn't be good if they ran into acquaintances. Li Xuan deliberately remained silent for a while, and Yao Jianshe pleaded softly on the phone. After a while, Li Xuan agreed, but warned him never to do that kind of thing again. Yao Jianshe readily agreed.

Since losing her virginity to Yao Jianshe, Li Xuan hadn't seen him until yesterday. She thought that if this continued, he would surely become disappointed, which would be disadvantageous for her.

If she didn't occasionally offer him some sweetness, to whet his appetite, perhaps one day he would lose interest in her. She had already lost her virginity to him, and precisely to achieve her personal goals. If she didn't see him for too long, going too far wouldn't work. She couldn't possibly resort to her last trump card to blackmail him.

Besides, whenever she thought about the man touching her that day, she felt an indescribable feeling. But the thought of the pain he felt during penetration sent shivers down her spine. She was truly afraid. She thought, everyone says that sex is an extremely pleasurable experience, but why did it feel like she was about to die? She knew that the first time she experienced excruciating pain from the rupture of her hymen, so it might get better later, but she thought it would hurt no matter what. How could it not hurt when such a large thing was inserted into such a small hole? The thought still filled her with fear.

After lunch, Li Xuan went to the electronics factory. When she arrived at the guesthouse and opened her room, she saw Yao Jianshe already lying in bed. Startled, she thought, "He's really eager."

Yao Jianshe saw her come in and quickly got up, but he was only wearing his underwear. Li Xuan had felt flustered and her face flushed when she saw him; seeing his clothes made her even more flustered, and she didn't dare look at him. She

turned and sat on the sofa. Then she heard Yao Jianshe say, "Come here." Li Xuan didn't look up and said, "No, I'll go back after I finish what I need to tell you." Yao Jianshe abruptly threw off the blanket covering his lower body, got out of bed, rushed to Li Xuan, and picked her up, carrying her to the bed like a child.

Li Xuan was startled by his sudden action. She struggled to sit up in bed and said, "Why are you like this? I came to talk to you about something." Yao Jianshe still held her, panting, and said, "Go ahead." Li Xuan composed herself and asked, "Have you seen Gao Peng?" Yao Jianshe said, "Not yet." Li Xuan said, "He asked me to go out with him twice, but I refused. I think he's a little angry." Yao Jianshe said, "Never mind him. So what if he's angry? Don't go out with him." Li Xuan said, "But you should tell him sooner rather than later. I'll only feel at ease if he remarries his wife as soon as possible." Yao Jianshe said, "This can't be rushed." Li Xuan said, "I've been quite anxious these past few days. I don't know if you've told him yet. Can't you go to the school to find him?" Yao Jianshe said, "How can that be? He might get suspicious."

Li Xuan thought to herself, "I've thought about all of this," and said aloud, "What should I do? Look at me, stuck between the two of you men." Yao Jianshe said, "I'm thinking about that too."

"There needs to be a suitable opportunity." After thinking for a moment, he said, "How about this, I'll go to his house one day and say I'm just passing by on my way. I think his wife will definitely tell me when she sees me, and then I'll have a reason to persuade him." Li Xuan said, "That's a good idea. You're a section chief after all; how come I didn't think of this?"

Yao Jianshe smiled smugly. He hugged Li Xuan tightly and went to kiss her. Li Xuan blushed and struggled, saying, "I came to talk to you about something, and you're bullying me again." Yao Jianshe said, "Didn't we agree? Let's do it that way. I'll try to be quick." Li Xuan said, "Then I'll go back." Yao Jianshe hugged her even tighter and said, "I've almost missed you so much these past few days, and you're leaving after just meeting me." Li Xuan said, "What do you miss me for? You just want to do something bad!" Yao

Jianshe chuckled, then suddenly pulled Li Xuan onto the bed, pressing his lips to hers, his tongue trying to force open her tightly closed mouth. Unable to open it, he used one hand to touch her breasts. Li Xuan opened her mouth and said, "No..." Yao Jianshe's tongue easily entered. Li Xuan struggled a few times, then stopped moving, their tongues intertwining.

Li Xuan was now burning with desire; the last time she lost her virginity, Yao Jianshe had only focused on thrusting and hadn't kissed her much. Only now did Li Xuan experience the beauty of a kiss, and she instinctively responded. Their mouths met, moistening each other. Suddenly, Li Xuan felt Yao Jianshe's hand already on her breast. She wanted to say no, but Yao Jianshe's lips were pressed tightly against hers, preventing her from crying out. She tried to pry Yao Jianshe's hand away but couldn't move it. After a moment, she felt very comfortable and stopped moving, letting Yao Jianshe touch her.

Yao Jianshe was already aroused. He released his hand from Li Xuan's breast, pulled down his underwear, and his penis sprang out. He pulled Li Xuan's hand out and placed it on his penis. Li Xuan was startled, but Yao Jianshe held it down. Li Xuan didn't dare move for a moment. Yao Jianshe said, "Touch it, grab it." Li Xuan didn't move. Yao Jianshe straddled her, his hands reaching to unbutton her still-undone clothes. Li Xuan gasped, "No, no, please..." But

Yao Jianshe wouldn't listen. He unbuttoned her clothes, pulled her up, and yanked off her cotton coat. He then laid her down, lifted her sweater, and pulled up her bra, revealing her full breasts. Yao Jianshe lowered his mouth and took her nipple in. Li Xuan felt a tingling, electric sensation all over her body and stopped moving, letting the man kiss her breasts. Soon, she felt Yao Jianshe's hand move to her crotch, and she trembled all over, trying to struggle but feeling powerless.

Yao Jianshe looked up and saw Li Xuan's eyes were closed. He said softly, "Take it off." Li Xuan opened her eyes, blushed, and shook her head, saying, "No, no." Yao Jianshe pulled her up, saying, "Be good." Li Xuan said, "I'm scared." "What are you afraid of?" Yao Jianshe asked. Li Xuan said, "I'm afraid..." Yao Jianshe smiled, stood up, and quickly took off his shirt and trousers, revealing his naked body to Li Xuan.

Li Xuan saw the hard object that frightened her and it stood erect, causing her to shudder again, but she immediately closed her eyes. Yao Jianshe squatted down and said, "Come on, grab it."

Li Xuan closed her eyes and shook her head. Yao Jianshe took Li Xuan's hand, and when her hand touched the hot penis, she tried to pull it away, but Yao Jianshe held it down, and Li Xuan just grabbed it, feeling the swelling in her hand.

Seeing that she had her eyes closed, Yao Jianshe said, "Look at it." Li Xuan didn't say anything, but after a moment she couldn't help but open her eyes, her heart pounding wildly as she looked. Yao Jianshe said, "Move it." Li Xuan didn't move. Yao Jianshe said, "We've already done it once, why are you still so shy?" Li Xuan remained silent. Yao Jianshe then began to remove Li Xuan's sweater. Li Xuan, embarrassed, looked up at him and said, "I'm really scared."

Yao Jianshe asked, "Scared of what?" Li Xuan said, "Last time, it hurt..." Yao Jianshe said, "That was the first time, it won't be like that this time."

As he spoke, he lifted Li Xuan's sweater, and Li Xuan cooperated by taking it off. When she was down to only her bra, Li Xuan involuntarily hugged her chest with her arms. Yao Jianshe pushed Li Xuan down, saying, "Don't be afraid." He then began to undo Li Xuan's belt. Li Xuan sat up abruptly, saying, "I'm really scared." Yao Jianshe said, "Don't be so nervous." He pushed her down again, untied Li Xuan's belt, and pulled her down neatly, panties and all. Li Xuan involuntarily squeezed her legs together. Yao Jianshe then helped Li Xuan up, unhooked her bra from behind, and a smooth, fair woman's body was completely revealed to the man's eyes.

Laying Li Xuan down, Yao Jianshe said, "I will make you happy." He lowered his head and kissed her breasts, while one hand roamed over Li Xuan's abdomen. After a moment, the hand moved between Li Xuan's tightly closed thighs, and a finger caressed her protruding area. Li Xuan was already too weak to move, and as the hand explored deep into her thighs, she involuntarily loosened her legs, allowing Yao Jianshe's finger to touch her genitals. Li Xuan felt an indescribable tingling sensation. The feeling was beyond words; she felt as if she were floating on air.

Suddenly, she felt Yao Jianshe crawl towards her lower body. Opening her eyes, she saw Yao Jianshe looking at her genitals, so she closed her legs tightly and said, "Don't look." Yao Jianshe didn't utter a sound, but instead spread Li Xuan's legs apart with both hands, and pressed his mouth against her genitals. Li Xuan let out a soft "ah," feeling the man's tongue licking her lower body, instantly experiencing an exquisite pleasure that intoxicated her. She stopped moving. After a while, Li Xuan felt the man's tongue tip penetrate her, and another pleasurable sensation spread throughout her body. Her legs involuntarily opened, wanting the man's tongue to lick deeper. Sometime later, Li Xuan's hand had grasped Yao Jianshe's penis, and as Yao Jianshe licked her genitals, her hand began to slide along his penis.

After a while, Yao Jianshe looked up and asked, "Is it comfortable?" Li Xuan blushed and didn't answer. Yao Jianshe said, "You'll feel even more comfortable when I insert it later." Li Xuan said, "No, it hurts."

Yao Jianshe said, "Silly girl, it won't. I'll go slowly. " Yao Jianshe shifted his position, picked up his clothes, took out a condom from his pocket, and put it on his erect penis. He spread his legs between Li Xuan's legs, lifted them apart, and placed them on his thighs. With one hand, he held his penis and rubbed it against Li Xuan's genitals.

Li Xuan was both excited and nervous, saying, "Be gentle, I'm scared." Yao Jianshe nodded, and his penis entered Li Xuan's open body. Li Xuan felt a swelling sensation. Yao Jianshe asked, "Does it hurt?" Li Xuan shook her head. Yao Jianshe pushed in a little further. Li Xuan still felt some pain and said, "Slower." Yao

Jianshe gently thrust in and out. Li Xuan felt every nerve in her body tense, as if floating with each thrust. Yao Jianshe continued to penetrate deeper.

Li Xuan felt it, and strangely, the slight pain she had felt earlier vanished completely as the man penetrated further, replaced by an indescribable pleasure. She enjoyed it, letting out soft moans.

Yao Jianshe knew that Li Xuan was experiencing this wonderful pleasure. So he thrust harder. Li Xuan's moans grew louder and louder, and after a while, she involuntarily hugged the man's waist tightly, her mouth responding to Yao Jianshe's tongue, her body beginning to twist. After another while, she felt as if her whole body was floating. Suddenly, she felt an itch inside her body, as if countless ants were crawling all over her. She felt a throbbing sensation inside, a feeling as if something was about to burst out. In an instant, her whole body spasmed, and after a shiver, she reached orgasm. Yao Jianshe felt it, and quickly thrust in and out, ejaculating several times. Afterwards, Yao Jianshe lay weakly on top of Li Xuan, panting heavily.

As her breathing calmed, Li Xuan felt Yao Jianshe's hard penis gradually shrinking, becoming soft and pressed against her lower body. Her mind gradually cleared, a blush rose on her face, and she shyly pushed Yao Jianshe away. He slid off her and lay down beside her. Li Xuan felt sticky down there and asked, "Did you bring any tissues?" Yao Jianshe said, "No." He pulled a pillowcase and handed it to her, saying, "Use this." Li Xuan glanced at him but didn't say anything, taking it and wiping herself. She lay back down, turning to her side with her back to him. Yao Jianshe put an arm around Li Xuan's waist and asked, "Was it comfortable?" "

Li Xuan didn't answer, but in her heart she thought, "I didn't expect it to be so comfortable. Those last few moments felt like I was going to heaven." She felt very relaxed. Yao Jianshe said, "I told you it wouldn't hurt anymore, but you didn't believe me." Li Xuan said, "How can it not hurt? There's still some pain." Yao Jianshe said, "It won't hurt anymore, only feel good." Li Xuan said, "I didn't feel any comfort."

Yao Jianshe said, "Nonsense, I felt movement inside you, that means you reached orgasm too." Li Xuan said, "You know so much."

Yao Jianshe chuckled. He got up, took off the condom that was about to slip off, held it between two fingers but didn't know where to put it, and said, "Using this thing is so annoying." Li Xuan looked at it and said, "Don't leave it in this room, what if the staff sees it?" Yao Jianshe thought for a moment, got out of bed, opened a drawer, tore off two pieces of paper, wrapped it up, and placed it on the counter, saying, "I'll take it with me later, throw it outside." He got back into bed, lay down opposite Li Xuan, put one arm around her waist, and looked at her with a smile. Li Xuan closed her eyes. Yao Jianshe said, "Yours is really tight." Li Xuan opened her eyes and looked at him, asking, "What do you mean, really tight?"

Yao Jianshe reached down and touched Li Xuan's lower body, saying, "It's tight inside." Li Xuan blushed instantly and said, "Aren't all women the same?" Yao Jianshe said, "No, my wife's is loose; it's uncomfortable to insert it." Li Xuan closed her eyes in embarrassment. Yao Jianshe said, "Women loosen up after having children; it's not comfortable to do it then." Li Xuan said, "So you're just trying to take advantage of me?" Yao Jianshe chuckled and said, "I like you." Li Xuan said, "Don't say nice things; you like doing this with me." Yao Jianshe said, "I really like you." Li Xuan said, "I know, it's true." After saying that, she rolled over and lay flat, looking at the ceiling. Yao Jianshe asked, "Do you like me?" Li Xuan said, "We've already done this together, and you're still asking me if I like it or not!" Yao Jianshe laughed.

Li Xuan sighed and said, "What does it matter if I like you or not? You still won't marry me." Yao Jianshe said, "I really want to, but..." Li Xuan said, "But you can't bear to leave your wife." Yao Jianshe said, "No, it's the child." Li Xuan said, "Alright, you're using that child as a shield. Don't worry, I never intended to marry you. I don't want to make another woman suffer while I'm happy." Yao Jianshe said, "You have such a kind heart." Li Xuan said, "So what if I have a kind heart? My life is just miserable." Yao Jianshe said, "What's so miserable about your life? Don't worry, I'll do my best to arrange the best job for you, and then I'll introduce you to a satisfactory man."

Li Xuan thought to herself, "I've been waiting for you to say that." She said, "You said it yourself, don't forget later." Yao Jianshe said, "Look at you, I always keep my word." Li Xuan asked,

"So you're willing to introduce me to other men?" Yao Jianshe said, "I'm not petty, I can't stay with you like this forever. I really can't bear to part with you, but I can't be too selfish." Li Xuan said, "I didn't realize you were so kind." Yao Jianshe laughed and said, "I've always been a warm-hearted person." Li Xuan said, "If this hadn't happened between us, would you still be this enthusiastic?" Yao Jianshe said, "I might help, but not as much as I would be now that we have this relationship." Li Xuan said, "Don't just go through the motions now that we have this relationship." Yao Jianshe said, "Look at you, here we go again. What kind of relationship do we have now? Would I do that? You don't need to worry about anything anymore. Even if your school needs help later, I can handle it for you."

Li Xuan nodded and said, "I believe you." Then she turned to the side and hugged him. Yao Jianshe said, "I really want to have you for the rest of my life. Even after you get married, will you still maintain this relationship with me?" Li Xuan thought to herself, "You're dreaming. Once I achieve my goal, I won't have anything to do with you anymore." She said aloud, "How can that be? If a man finds out, he'll kill me." Yao Jianshe said, "How could he find out?" Li Xuan said, "I'm scared just thinking about it." Yao Jianshe said, "What are you afraid of? Just do it secretly." Li Xuan said,

"Okay, I don't even know when I'll have a boyfriend. It's too early to talk about it now. Besides, will any man want me like this?" Yao Jianshe said, "Of course." Li Xuan said, "You've already taken my virginity, so when..." Yao Jianshe said, "See, here we go again. Didn't I say that last time?" Li Xuan said, "I'm not going to talk about it anymore. I want to sleep for a while." Yao Jianshe said,

"Okay, I kept thinking about you before you came, and I couldn't sleep. I'll sleep for a while." So the two embraced and soon fell asleep.

When Li Xuan woke up, she found herself naked, sleeping next to a naked man, and being embraced by him. A jolt of fear shot through her. She instantly remembered what had happened before she fell asleep, and her face flushed crimson. She turned away from Yao Jianshe, curling up, a pang of sadness rising within her. Thinking of the suffering she had endured since childhood, despite her outward strength, who knew the bitterness in her heart? Now, sleeping with a man she didn't love, a man she only wanted to use, she felt a pang of shame. A wave of sadness washed over her, and tears silently streamed down her

face. Yao Jianshe woke up, opened his eyes, and saw Li Xuan lying motionless with her back to him. He assumed she was still asleep, but the unique scent emanating from this girl, more than ten years younger than him, stirred his heart again. He reached out and touched Li Xuan's breasts, his heart pounding. Li Xuan remained motionless, feeling a ticklish sensation as the man caressed her. She felt Yao Jianshe's penis growing harder and harder against her buttocks. A moment later, she felt the man holding the hard object and moving it downwards, rubbing it against her genitals.

Li Xuan felt that indescribable pleasure welling up inside her again, wanting that hard object to slide inside her already hot and wet opening. A moment later, the hard object indeed went in, moving gently there. After a while, Li Xuan couldn't control herself anymore, turning over so the penis was out.

Li Xuan pretended to be sleepy, lying flat, and Yao Jianshe climbed on top of her. Li Xuan pushed him away, saying, "Want to do it again?" Yao Jianshe chuckled and said, "I want it again."

Li Xuan rolled her eyes at him and said, "I've become your tool for sexual release." Yao Jianshe grinned, not saying anything, and tried to climb on top of Li Xuan again. Li Xuan said, "Wait a minute, okay? I just woke up." Yao Jianshe said, "I can't take it anymore." Li Xuan said, "You haven't even put it on yet and you're already thinking about..." Yao Jianshe said, "I don't want to wear it, it's uncomfortable." Li Xuan said, "That won't do. If you don't wear it, then don't do it." Yao Jianshe said, "Wearing that thing creates a barrier, it just doesn't feel right." Li Xuan said, "You don't wear it with your wife either." Yao Jianshe said, "She has an IUD." Li Xuan said, "Yes, she has an IUD and she can't get pregnant. If I don't wear it, aren't you afraid I'll get pregnant? What am I to you then?

How about this, you don't wear it, and if you get pregnant, I'll give birth to your child, are you willing?" Yao Jianshe chuckled, got up, and put one on his erection.

Li Xuan looked at it and remembered him licking her genitals, thinking, "That feels good too. You're willing to lick my dirty place, aren't you? I'd be even more willing." A vengeful sense of triumph arose in her heart. So, as Yao Jianshe was about to climb on top of her, she said, "Why are you in such a hurry now? It's not like last time." Yao Jianshe looked at her and laughed, "Where do you like me to lick you?" Li Xuan didn't answer, but closed her eyes.

Yao Jianshe indeed lowered himself and stuck out his tongue to lick her genitals. Li Xuan felt an indescribable pleasure. As Yao Jianshe licked, he would occasionally ask, "Does it feel good?" Li Xuan would just hum in response. After a while, Li Xuan felt the tip of his tongue moving inside her, and she felt some sticky stuff flowing out of her body. She thought to herself, "You're licking so enthusiastically, do you want to eat it too?" So she looked up and saw Yao Jianshe about to stick his mouth out to the ground to spit out the sticky stuff, so she asked, "Doesn't it taste good?" Yao Jianshe glanced at her and, sure enough, swallowed what was in his mouth.

A surge of vengeful pleasure welled up inside Li Xuan. She thought to herself, "This man is truly despicable at this moment. He's like a dog now. Look at him, all serious and proper in his clothes; he's just like one of my dogs. He'd do whatever you wanted." She suddenly thought of the skinny little spotted dog her family had when she was a child. When the family was happy, they'd tease it; when they were annoyed, they'd kick it. Give it some food, and it would still wag its tail and beg. This man now, bent over her lower body, licking her with all his might, bringing her pleasure, was no different from that little spotted dog. That filthy stuff, and she'd only said it casually, yet this man could swallow it. He's even more despicable than a dog! "So you think you can play with me now that you have some power? You're playing with me now! Playing with you like a dog!" She laughed inwardly at these thoughts. Yet, she also felt an unusual comfort in the man's licking.

Although Li Xuan had deliberately and willingly given herself to this man, she still felt a sense of injustice and grievance. She felt she had to do this for a man she didn't love, a man she was merely using, and she felt psychologically unbalanced.

After a while, Li Xuan lost control of herself, and Yao Jianshe, clearly at his limit, climbed on top of her and quickly thrust his penis into her, pumping forcefully. Li Xuan felt she was about to climax while he was licking her, and this climax came quickly with his forceful thrusting. Yao Jianshe ejaculated rapidly a few moments later. After

catching his breath, Yao Jianshe got up and took the condom. Li Xuan grabbed a pillowcase to wipe herself down and went to get her clothes. Yao Jianshe said, "Get up now." Li Xuan said,

"Do you still want to?" Yao Jianshe laughed and said, "I really want to keep going." Li Xuan said, "I can't." So she put on her clothes one by one, and Yao Jianshe didn't stop her.

After a while, Li Xuan sat down on the sofa and poured herself a glass of water. Yao Jianshe sat down, lit a cigarette, and said, "Can you come every week from now on?" Li Xuan replied, "We'll see. I'll call you when I come." Yao Jianshe said, "Don't wait this long like this time." Li Xuan said, "But I need to have time. I'll call you when I have time." Yao Jianshe said,

"If you wait this long again, I'll come to your school to find you." Li Xuan glared at him and said, "You dare!" Yao Jianshe laughed and said, "Even if you gave me the guts, I wouldn't dare." After chatting for a while

, Yao Jianshe checked his watch and said, "It's time to eat. I'll go to the cafeteria first. You wait for me to come back." Li Xuan agreed. Yao Jianshe stood up and asked, "What do you want to eat?" Li Xuan said, "Turtle or crab, anything is fine." She laughed to herself after saying that. She thought to herself, judging from his expression just now, maybe he'll listen to her. Whatever, might as well eat it. Yao Jianshe also laughed and said,

"I'll go see if we have any." He got up, opened the door, and went out. Li Xuan felt a surge of smugness.

After a while, Li Xuan went to the cafeteria. The waiter led her to a private room. Sure enough, upon entering, she saw a plate on the table with several large crabs. She smiled and said, "You're really obedient." Her mind then drifted to her little spotted dog. Yao Jianshe smiled and said softly, "It doesn't cost any money." Li Xuan sat down and asked, "If it cost money, wouldn't you buy them?" Yao Jianshe said:

“You have to eat, even if it costs money, as long as you’re willing.” Li Xuan pursed her lips and said, “You have a good tongue.” Yao Jianshe said, “Why would I hesitate to give it to you?”

As he spoke, he picked up a bottle of wine, filled Li Xuan’s glass, and then suddenly asked, “Have you spent all the money I gave you last time?” Li Xuan’s face flushed red at this question, and she said, “Not yet.” Yao Jianshe poured wine into his own glass, got up, walked to the coat rack, took out a wad of cash from his pocket, returned to the table, and sat down, saying, “This is over two hundred yuan, take it.” Li Xuan blushed and hurriedly waved her hands, saying, “How can I… no… what’s this?
” Yao Jianshe took her hand, placed the money in her palm, and said, “I’m giving it to you, so take it. What’s this? Why are you being so polite with me?” Li Xuan pushed again, saying, “No, I can’t do this. If I keep doing this, I’ll despise myself.” Yao Jianshe laughed and said, “Look at you, always overthinking things. You still don’t consider me one of your own.” Li Xuan said, “But I’ll feel uneasy if I do this.” Although Li Xuan had no feelings for this man and was only using him, she still felt uneasy when she saw the money. It felt like she was selling herself. Yao Jianshe said, "Don't say anything more, just take it."

Li Xuan didn't back down, nor did she put the money in her pocket; she just held it in her hand, looking somewhat bewildered. Yao Jianshe said, "Put it away, the waiter won't know what's going on when he comes and sees it." Li Xuan turned to look at the door, then turned back to put the money in her pocket, too embarrassed to look at the man's face. Then Yao Jianshe said, "Come on, let's drink." Li Xuan looked up, picked up her glass, and the two clinked glasses and drank.

Yao Jianshe placed a crab on Li Xuan's plate, and as they ate, Yao Jianshe seemed somewhat smug, saying, "To tell you the truth, this money isn't mine; it's all from others! In our line of work, as long as we do something for someone, they'll give us a little something in return." Li Xuan nodded and said, "You should be careful not to give anyone any leverage."

Li Xuan's words were genuine; at that moment, she was touched by how much this man cared about her. Yao Jianshe smiled and said, "It's okay, I won't do anything I'm not sure about." After saying that, he wondered if he had said too much, so he said, "Let's not talk about this anymore, let's eat." Li Xuan smiled and said, "If you help me with this in the future, I won't have money to give you." Yao Jianshe said, "You'll give me money? Don't talk nonsense. Let's not talk about this anymore, let's drink and eat, there will be turtle later." Li Xuan stared at him and said, "Really?" Yao Jianshe smiled and said, "If you say so, do you think I dare not to do it?

Otherwise, you won't let me touch you next time." Li Xuan blushed and didn't say anything.

After saying that, he put down his chopsticks, picked up a bottle and poured wine. Li Xuan said, "I can't drink like last time, otherwise it will be hard to talk when I go back to school." Yao Jianshe said, "Whatever, if you don't want to drink, then don't drink, let's focus on eating." Li Xuan said, "Then I won't drink, we still have to eat turtle later." So the two laughed.

Love and Desire (56)

Chapter 54

After Liu Yan returned to Jianghan City and reported for duty the next day, she was assigned to the Military Region Headquarters Club as deputy director. The head of the club was a company-level officer in his thirties, surnamed Meng, from Luoyang, Henan. His wife worked in the industrial and commercial department in Luoyang. The couple had been separated for many years, which inevitably caused them some distress. Director Meng was currently planning to transfer to civilian work and was busy traveling between Jianghan and Luoyang to arrange his work. Most of the club's affairs were managed by a female soldier from Hengyang, Hunan, with over four years of military service.

This soldier was named Wu Min. She had a round face, with dimples that only became visible when she smiled. She had large, bright eyes, a low nose, and small, round, pink lips.

She was about 1.6 meters tall, neither too thin nor too plump. She was well-mannered and capable after her military service. While not a beauty, she was quite likable.

Her father was the head of the armed forces department in the district and town, and had also served in the army for many years, rising from a soldier to a deputy company commander in an engineering unit. He was about to bring his wife and children to join him in the military, but then the demobilization of the army in 1975 occurred. Having come from a remote mountain village, he had no connections in his hometown. After being demobilized, he was assigned to be the head of the armed forces department in his hometown town.

What frustrated him most was that he couldn't bring his family with him, and he couldn't transfer Wu Min and his three other children to urban residency. But his more than ten years of military service had instilled in him a deep affection for the army, and all his children were subsequently sent to the army. His greatest hope was that

his only daughter could be promoted to officer in the army. Although it was no longer possible to be promoted directly from soldier to officer like he had when he was in the army, there was still a chance to be recommended to the training corps for officer training. Based on his years of experience in the army, in every letter he wrote to his daughter before and after sending her to the army, he constantly instructed her that excellent performance and solid work were prerequisites, a little bit of attention and flattery were also necessary, and it was especially important to manage the relationship with her direct superior. Wu Min was naturally intelligent and naturally remembered her father's teachings. She was favored by her squad leader and company officers during basic training and was assigned to the club after basic training. Not long after, her old squad leader retired, and she immediately took over as his squad leader. He joined the Party the following year and was considered a good soldier by his superiors.

Before Liu Yan arrived, she had received a notification that a new deputy director of the club would be taking office. She knew in her heart that this deputy director was actually there to replace Director Meng. She also heard that this person came from a powerful background; both her parents were high-ranking officials in the logistics department. Director Meng had recently returned from his hometown. So, two days before Liu Yan's arrival, she, in charge, had her staff clear out a room on the second floor that had previously contained some old film equipment. The walls, floor, and windows were cleaned spotlessly, and tables, chairs, and other office supplies were arranged. A telephone was installed at the switchboard, and she obtained a single sofa, a three-seater sofa, and a coffee table from logistics. It looked almost identical to Director Meng's office, and she was satisfied, waiting for the new deputy director to take office. She wondered what this deputy director would be like, and worried whether these children of high-ranking officials would be difficult to get along with. But in the end, she was confident that she could handle the relationship. She thought, what kind of leader couldn't she handle?

When Wu Min met Liu Yan, she was taken aback. She hadn't expected the new deputy director to be so beautiful and young. She hadn't even asked Liu Yan's age at the time. In Liu Yan's office, Liu Yan smiled and asked her. Wu Min replied that she was twenty-two. Liu Yan said she was also twenty-two and then asked Wu Min what month she was born in. Wu Min said October. Liu Yan laughed and said,

"Then I'm still older than you; I was born in May."

Seeing how easygoing she was, Wu Min's nervousness lessened considerably, and she laughed and said, "Then I should call you 'sister.'" She immediately regretted it, blushed, and quickly said, "Look at me, I was too casual." Liu Yan laughed and said, "It's alright." Wu Min said, "How can I? You are my superior after all; I should call you Director Liu." When Liu Yan first arrived at the club and heard people calling her Director Liu, she felt somewhat awkward, as if Director Liu wasn't herself.

Hearing Wu Jun call her Director Liu again, Liu Yan's heart fluttered, and she blushed slightly, smiling as she said, "We're all comrades." Wu Min said, "I shouldn't call you 'sister,' I'm just too casual."

She paused, then added, "You, Director Liu, are so approachable." Liu Yan was pleased by this somewhat flattering remark and said, "Don't be reserved in front of me in the future. We'll all be working together, so let's not make the atmosphere tense." Wu Min said, "I'll never be reserved in front of you." Liu Yan smiled. Wu Min said, "Director Liu, Director Meng took leave to go home and hasn't returned.

I was wondering if it's possible that you could hold a meeting this afternoon to introduce us subordinates." Liu Yan thought for a moment and said, "Okay, I'd like to familiarize myself with the place for a couple of days. I'm not familiar with the work here, so I'll have to rely on you. Could you first introduce our club?"

Wu Min began to introduce the club. Including Wu Min, there were four female soldiers, five male soldiers, and eleven people including Liu Yan and Director Meng. They were responsible for the large and small auditoriums for meetings and movie screenings, as well as the library, chess and card room, and gym for officers and soldiers. Wu Min said, "There's not much to do usually, just a bit busier when there are meetings. Movies are shown frequently, usually one a week, sometimes two. Tickets are picked up by the various departments, so it's not a hassle." Liu Yan stood up and let Wu Min lead her around. As they walked, her soldiers would stand at attention and salute her, which Liu Yan returned. At that moment, Liu Yan felt a great sense of satisfaction.

Back in her office, she poured herself a glass of water and sat down at her desk. As she drank, she thought of Ouyang Yiming. A sweet feeling welled up inside her. She thought, "Bookworm, do you know what I am now? I'm the director. If you saw those soldiers saluting me so respectfully, you'd be happy for me too, right?"

Then she wondered what he was doing. She glanced at her watch; it was almost ten o'clock. She thought he was probably teaching a class. A hazy image of Ouyang Yiming listening to a lecture floated into her mind. Her eyes fell on the phone on the table again, and a sudden thought struck her. She felt a surge of excitement, thinking, "Great! It won't be hard to hear his voice anymore." She wrote a letter to tell him to call if he missed her. But she regretted that she couldn't call him. Thinking about it, she wanted to write him a letter right away, so she picked up a notebook and pen from the table. But then she hesitated, deciding to write at home tonight. She wasn't in the mood to write anything sentimental here. She was also worried someone might come in. So she capped the pen and put it back on the table.

Her aunt had already gone home in the afternoon. She ate dinner at home with her parents that evening, and her mother asked how her work environment was. Liu Yan replied that it was alright, except she wasn't used to being called "Director Liu" all of a sudden. Her parents laughed.

Liu Yan's father was a deputy director in the logistics department, a deputy military rank. Her mother, surnamed Qin, also worked in the logistics department, as a section chief in the fuel department. The reason they hadn't transferred Liu Yan to the logistics department was because both she and her husband worked there. The straightforward Deputy Director Liu worried that her subordinates might have something to say. Liu Yan's mother understood her husband's situation, so she discussed it with him and asked his old comrade-in-arms, who was the deputy political commissar of the military region, to transfer Liu Yan to the region.

Director Qin smiled upon hearing her daughter's words and said, "You'll get used to it eventually." Turning to her husband, she asked, "Has Political Commissar Zhang returned from the meeting?" Deputy Minister Liu replied, "Yes, he's back. I spoke to him on the phone this afternoon." Director Qin asked, "Did you thank him?" Deputy Minister Liu frowned and said, "Sigh, you women are so fussy. Why say all that?" Director Qin scolded him, "You can't even bring yourself to say thank you? He brought Yanzi over from another military region; shouldn't you at least thank him?"

Deputy Minister Liu glanced at Director Qin, then lowered his head to eat without speaking. Director Qin said, "How about this, Yanzi and I will go to his house after we finish eating." Deputy Minister Liu remained silent. Director Qin got up, walked to the phone, picked up the phone, and called the car service, saying he needed a car to go to the military region in half an hour. Returning to the table and sitting down, she picked up her chopsticks and said, "I wanted to give those two wild ginseng roots from Changbai Mountain that your old comrade-in-arms sent you before the New Year to Political Commissar Zhang." Vice Minister Liu turned to look at her and said, "My old comrade-in-arms dug them himself on the mountain; it's a token of his affection for me. How can I just give them away?" Director Qin said, "Look, it's not good to bring anything when we go to his house; we can't go empty-handed. He won't eat them, saying they're too heaty. What's the point of keeping them?" Vice Minister Liu saw she wanted to say something more but didn't, turning back to continue eating. Director Qin said, "It's all for the children." Vice Minister Liu said while eating, "Whatever you say." Director Qin smiled and started eating as well.

Just as they finished eating and hadn't even cleaned up, they heard a car horn outside. Liu Yan knew it was her father's car. Director Qin said, "Come back and clean up." He turned and went upstairs to retrieve the two ginseng roots, which were wrapped in a plastic bag and several layers of newspaper. As they were leaving, Liu Yan asked, "Is this ginseng hard to find?" Director Qin replied, "Of course. These are two ginseng roots that a soldier who retired when your father was a company commander spent two years digging in the mountains. They're very precious. I only dared to offer them today because of you, and that's why your father agreed. He always says it's a token of their kindness and we should keep them safe." Liu Yan asked, "Then why bring these? Dad will be worried." Director Qin said, "Let him worry. What could Political Commissar Zhang's family possibly lack? Besides, it wouldn't look good to bring anything else. This is the most appropriate gift, and they appreciate it." Liu Yan stopped asking, moved by her parents' thoughtfulness.

After entering the military compound, the car made several turns and stopped in front of a two-story detached house. Director Qin rang the doorbell. A moment later, someone opened the door. Liu Yan saw a handsome young soldier of about eighteen or nineteen, and knew he was Political Commissar Zhang's orderly. The soldier saluted Liu Yan and her mother, greeting them with "Greetings, Commander." Liu Yan and her mother returned the greeting. Director Qin asked, "Is Political Commissar Zhang home?" The orderly replied, "Yes." He then followed the orderly.

The courtyard was large. The side gate Liu Yan had entered through was at the corner of the east end of the building, facing north. The streetlights in the courtyard were on. Rows of metasequoia trees lined the large area to the south. On either side of the living room door in front of the building, about 1.5 meters wide, were planted with flowers and grasses, which appeared withered as it wasn't yet the season for leaves and flowers, but the grass on the ground was evergreen. In front of the flowerbeds was a three-meter-wide cement walkway, at the end of which was a tightly closed green gate, seemingly not frequently opened. Outside the gate was a north-south avenue, its streetlights casting a soft glow on the courtyard.

Entering the living room involved three steps. On either side of the steps were several symmetrically placed evergreen bonsai trees, such as iron trees, all in white porcelain pots. The living room door was a double green wooden door, one of which was open at this moment. Before even reaching the steps, one could see a woman in her fifties sitting on the sofa in the living room, looking towards the door. She clearly hadn't seen who was coming from outside. Even after Liu Yan and her daughter stepped onto the steps, the woman didn't stand up.

Before even entering the room, Director Qin smiled and said to the woman, "Minister Jiang, your sister has come to see you." This woman, referred to as Minister Jiang, was the wife of Political Commissar Zhang. She had also worked in the Logistics Department before being demobilized six years ago and was now the Minister of the Organization Department of the Municipal Party Committee. Minister Jiang immediately stood up upon hearing this, greeting her with a broad smile, saying, "Oh, who do we have here? It's my dear Qin!

What a rare guest!"

He took Director Qin's hand as they approached, saying, "What brings you here?" Director Qin replied, "I could come even without wind, I missed you." Minister Jiang laughed, "It's been a while since we last met, I wonder what you've been up to. Logistics and the military compound aren't that far apart." Turning to Liu Yan, he asked, "And this is her?" Director Qin said, "Don't you remember my little Yanzi?" Liu Yan called out, "Aunt Jiang."

Minister Jiang released Director Qin's hand, looked Liu Yan up and down for a moment, and asked with surprise, "This is little Yanzi?" Director Qin said, "Of course it's her." Minister Jiang took Liu Yan's hand, saying, "Look, she was only ten or so when we lived in Logistics, and now she's grown so much. So beautiful, even more beautiful than your mother was when she was young. What a beauty!"

Liu Yan blushed and didn't know what to say. Minister Jiang said, "Look at me, I see you two are so happy, please sit down."

Liu Yan and her daughter sat down on the sofa, and the orderly had already brought them tea. Before they could speak, a resounding voice came from a room to the west: "Is that Xiao Qin?" Director Qin hurriedly stood up and said, "Political Commissar Zhang, it's me." As he spoke, the voice said again, "Please sit down, I'll be right there."

Minister Jiang pulled Director Qin down to sit and said, "Don't pay him any mind, he's painting." He smiled mysteriously and whispered, "He's quite something, so self-important. After finishing one painting, he wants me to come and admire it. Just wait and see, after he finishes this one, he wants you to come and admire it too. Do you think he's cut out to paint? But you have to say it's good for him to be happy." Director Qin laughed and said, "Well, it's still good."

Minister Jiang smiled and shook his head, then turned to look at Liu Yan and said, "You've really grown up so beautifully. Where are you serving?" He paused for a moment, looked at Director Qin, and said, "Oh, right, at the hospital, isn't it?" "Director Qin said, 'She's at the hospital. I was talking to Political Commissar Zhang about the child a while ago, trying to get her to live with us. You see, my son has settled down in Zhengzhou, and I wanted my daughter to be near me. I didn't expect Political Commissar Zhang to be so concerned. That's why she's been transferred back and is working at this club.' Minister Jiang said, 'Really? I didn't hear him mention it. That's good. It's not good for you to not have a child with you.

' Director Qin said, 'She just reported for duty yesterday and worked all day today. I told her I wanted to bring her to thank Uncle Zhang.' Minister Jiang said, 'Look at what you're saying. She's his own child; it's only right that you do this.' Director Qin then picked up the two ginseng roots beside him and said, 'Before coming, my husband, Lao Liu, asked me to bring these to Political Commissar Zhang.' Minister Jiang asked, 'What are these?' Director Qin whispered in his ear,

'These are two wild ginseng roots that my husband's old comrade-in-arms dug up in Changbai Mountain. Lao Liu said Political Commissar Zhang likes to drink medicinal wine, so he asked me to bring them to him to make wine.'" Minister Jiang, his eyes wide, declined, "That won't do, such a valuable thing..." Director Qin said, "What's valuable about it? It's not something I bought. I won't buy it for you. I have it at home, it's been sitting there for over two years, I'd forgotten about it if Old Liu hadn't mentioned it." Minister Jiang said, "Then why don't you give it to Old Liu? This stuff is very nourishing." Director Qin said, "He won't eat it, he says it causes internal heat." Minister Jiang said,

"Yes, wild ginseng is even more potent. What you buy in stores isn't wild ginseng, even if they say it's wild, it's all farmed." Director Qin said, "That's right."

At this moment, a man in his fifties, thin but very energetic, walked out of the door. He wore a gray V-neck sweater, military trousers, and slippers. His

hair was gray-black, his eyes shone, and he walked with a brisk pace. Looking at Liu Yan, who had already stood up and was blushing, he said, "This must be Little Swallow." Liu Yan timidly greeted him, "Hello, Uncle Zhang." "Political Commissar Zhang nodded and said, "You've grown so tall. Is everything arranged?" Liu Yan said, "I started work today." Political Commissar Zhang hummed in agreement and said, "Do a good job." Liu Yan shyly hummed in agreement.

Political Commissar Zhang turned to Director Qin and said, "Please sit down, why are you standing?" Liu Yan and her mother sat down. Minister Jiang said, "Look, Minister Liu even had Xiao Qin bring you two wild ginseng roots." Political Commissar Zhang took them, took them out and looked at them, saying, "You didn't buy them, did you?" Director Qin said that Old Liu's old comrade-in-arms dug them up on the mountain. Political Commissar Zhang said, "That's good, don't give me the ones you bought. This is a good thing, I've never heard Old Liu mention it before. If I had heard you didn't bring them to me, I would have gone to your house to get one myself." Director Qin said, "I almost forgot about it. I don't know why he suddenly remembered it today." Political Commissar Zhang said, "This thing is rare. Do you know how many years it takes to grow this big? This size must be at least a hundred years old." As he spoke, he handed the ginseng to his wife, saying, "Keep it safe, Old Liu gave it to me, take it!" Minister Jiang took it, shook his head, and laughed, saying, "You're really not being polite." Political Commissar Zhang said, "Me, being polite to him?!" Director Qin and Minister Jiang laughed.

Director Qin said, "I heard Political Commissar Zhang was painting just now?" Political Commissar Zhang said, "Yes." After saying that, he stood up, waved his hand, and said, "Let's go take a look." Minister Jiang winked and smiled secretly at Director Qin.

Liu Yan and her daughter stood up and followed Political Commissar Zhang into the room. Against the west wall stood an enormous table, on which sat a short, thick, bamboo-shaped brush holder filled with brushes of various sizes and shapes. On the table lay a painting of lotus flowers, its ink still wet, held down by two purplish-red paperweights. Beside the painting was a large Duan inkstone, next to which were several brushes of varying thicknesses, also soaked in ink. Beside it was a finely carved jade brush holder and a large oval brush washer. Against the other wall was a full-wall cabinet filled with Xuan paper, finished paintings, and calligraphy.

Liu Yan and her daughter looked at the paintings. Director Qin, who couldn't understand the paintings either, exclaimed after a moment, "I never imagined Political Commissar Zhang could paint so well! When did you start painting?" Political Commissar Zhang replied, "Two years ago." Director Qin said, "Why didn't Old Liu mention it?" "Political Commissar Zhang said, 'He doesn't have that kind of talent.' He then laughed smugly. Director Qin said, 'He doesn't understand either.

I like it very much. How about this, Political Commissar Zhang, give me this one, and I'll have it framed when I get back.'

Political Commissar Zhang didn't answer, but instead walked to the cabinet, opened it, took out a roll of paintings, and spread it out on the other side of the table, saying, 'Choose one from here. When you came in and interrupted me, look here, a stroke was missed.' Director Qin followed his hand and looked, but couldn't figure it out. Director Qin said, 'That's right, I've heard that painting and calligraphy require special care.' Political Commissar Zhang 'hmm.' Director Qin

flipped through the stack of paintings for a while and said, 'They're all so well painted, I don't know which one to choose.' Political Commissar Zhang came closer and flipped through them, taking out three paintings. Director Qin looked at them and said they were good, and then let him choose two more. Director Qin said, 'They're all so good, I really want to give them all to you. In a few years, you can just take one out and sell it, and that'll be enough to live on for a lifetime.'" "Political Commissar Zhang laughed heartily and said, 'I can't sell this painting. You two sit in the living room first, and I'll inscribe it and stamp it for you. You can take it back after the ink dries.' Director Qin agreed. So the mother and daughter went back to the living room. When Minister Jiang saw Liu Yan and her daughter come out, he leaned close to Director Qin and whispered, 'He's quite pleased with himself.' Director Qin said, 'The painting is really good.'

Before she finished speaking, the door opened, and a soldier in his late twenties rushed in. He was about 1.7 meters tall, plump and sturdy, with a round face, large ears, a wide mouth, a straight nose, thick black eyebrows, and intelligent, gleaming eyes. He was wearing an officer's uniform, with the collar of his shirt open. Upon entering and seeing Liu Yan and her daughter, he first called out, 'Aunt Qin.' His eyes were fixed on Liu Yan. Director Qin asked, 'Xiao Lei just got back?' Xiao Lei said, 'I went home to get some things.' Minister Jiang whispered, 'You don't even go home after work. I wonder what you've been doing out there.'" "I'm busy with official duties," Xiao Lei said. Minister Jiang said, "Hurry up and button up your uniform, or your dad will scold you again." Xiao Lei said, "I'm leaving right away." His eyes then fixed on Liu Yan.

Seeing him looking at Liu Yan, Minister Jiang said, "Don't you recognize her? This is Xiao Yanzi from your Aunt Qin's family." Xiao Lei's eyes instantly lit up, and he said, "Who? This is Xiao Yanzi?"

As soon as Liu Yan entered the door and heard her mother call him Xiao Lei, she knew he was Zhang Lei, the second son of the family, so she called out, "Brother Lei." Zhang Lei stared at her and said, "You've grown up so much, I thought she was a little girl." Director Qin laughed and said, "How old are you? Why are you still talking like that?" Zhang Lei said, "When I was little, she would follow us around when I played with her brother Jianjun. That's why I wouldn't recognize her if I saw her outside." Liu Yan blushed and laughed.

Director Qin said, "That's right, she's been away from home for seven or eight years, how could she possibly recognize him?" Zhang Lei asked, "Where is she now?" Minister Jiang said, "She's been transferred back, she's in our headquarters club." Zhang Lei said, "Really? That's great, it'll be much easier to get movie tickets now." Director Qin pointed at Zhang Lei and laughed, "You silly boy. You can't get tickets without Yanzi around?"

Minister Jiang said, "I don't know where he got so many friends, he gets them all."

Zhang Lei glanced at his mother, checked his watch, and said, "I have something to do. I'll grab my things and go, my friends are waiting for me." He turned and went upstairs. Everyone sat down. Director Qin asked, "Xiao Lei is a battalion commander now, right?" Minister Jiang said, "A deputy battalion commander." Liu Yan asked, "Where does Brother Xiao Lei work?" Minister Jiang said, "In our military region's logistics department."

A moment later, Zhang Lei came down the stairs, stopped, and said, "Aunt Qin, please sit down, I have something to do outside." Liu Yan and her daughter responded. Zhang Lei looked at Liu Yan and said, "Yanzi, I'll come find you to get the movie tickets another day." Liu Yan smiled. After saying that, Zhang Lei turned and left.

Watching his son leave, Minister Jiang shook his head and said, "He's never home, I don't know what he's busy with." Turning to Liu Yan, he said, "Daughters are better, I'm not as lucky as you to have a daughter."

Director Qin said, "Aren't your two sons good enough? Dayu should be a regimental commander by now." Minister Jiang said, "Deputy regimental commander. He lives with the armed police and doesn't come home often."

They chatted for a while, but Liu Yan couldn't get a word in edgewise. The orderly came over and refilled the tea when Political Commissar Zhang opened the door, holding a rolled-up painting secured with a rubber band. He said, "I inscribed some words for you, and I also inscribed one for Yanzi." Director Qin hurriedly took it. Liu Yan thanked him again. Political Commissar Zhang sat down and looked at Liu Yan, saying, "You must do a good job. We cadres' children can't show any special treatment in front of other cadres and soldiers. Don't bring shame to us old folks." Liu Yan blushed and agreed. Director Qin said, "You must remember what your Uncle Zhang said." Liu Yan agreed. Minister Jiang said, "Look at you, a girl acting like a boy. I think Yanzi is a good girl." Political Commissar Zhang glanced at Liu Yan and hummed in agreement. Turning back to Minister Jiang, he asked, "Did you hear Xiao Lei come back just now?" Minister Jiang said, "He went out again because of something." Political Commissar Zhang gave a soft hum. After chatting for a while, Director Qin said it was time to go back. Minister Jiang politely asked him to stay. Director Qin stood up and said, "This has delayed Political Commissar Zhang's painting. And you even asked for these few more pieces; I'll frame them right away when we get back." Everyone stood up, and Political Commissar Zhang and his wife saw Liu Yan and her daughter to the door, watching them get into their car and leave.

After watching TV for a while at home, Liu Yan said she wanted to sleep, so she went upstairs to her room, sat down at the table, opened a drawer, took out a stack of papers, and wrote a letter to Ouyang Yiming. She picked up a pen and wrote, "Dear Ouyang, I miss you," but then didn't know how to begin. Holding the pen in her mouth, she pictured Ouyang Yiming, her heart warming.

Suddenly, as if remembering something, she took the pen out of her mouth and placed it on the table. She got up, walked to the bedside, squatted down, and pulled a suitcase from under the bed. Taking out the key, she opened it, took out Ouyang Yiming's photo, sat back down at the table, rested her elbows on the table, and held the photo in her hands, smiling sweetly as she looked at it. She whispered to the photo, "Darling, do you know what I am now? I'm a director! Hehe, be happy for me! I have several subordinates under me. Hehe." She laughed to herself. Looking

at Ouyang Yiming smiling at her in the photo, she pointed at the photo with a finger and said, "Silly boy, all you do is smile. Talk to me!" As she spoke, she recalled intimate moments with Ouyang Yiming, and kissed the photo, her face flushing. After thinking for a while, she looked at the paper and said, "What are you doing? Missing me, huh?" She placed the stack of letters in front of her and added, "Stay here and be good, I'll write you a letter."

She picked up a pen and wrote "I'm Director Liu now" in the next line after "My dearest Ouyang, I miss you." After writing that, she covered her mouth with her left hand and chuckled. A moment later, she picked up her pen again and wrote about her new job at the club and the club's general situation. Then she wrote about missing him and asking if he missed her, followed by instructions to take care of himself, saying she was worried about him and missed him terribly. As she wrote this, her heart ached, her eyes reddened, and a few tears fell.

After calming herself, she looked at Ouyang Yiming's photo in front of her and said, "You rascal, you're still laughing! I miss you so much! You're making fun of me!" Then she picked up her pen again and wrote down the company's switchboard number, saying to just transfer it to Director Liu's office at the club, and to call her during working hours after receiving the letter. Then she thought that he also had to attend classes during her work hours, so she wrote that he would also take some time to call her during class and that she wanted to hear her talk.

Finally, she wrote "I miss you" many times. When she signed the letter, she wrote: "Your wife, Liu Yan". After writing it, she blushed and muttered to herself, "Aren't you ashamed?" She shook her head, looked at the letter from beginning to end, folded it, took an envelope to put it in, put a stamp on the seal, got up and put it in the pocket of her clothes on the hanger, sat down at the table, picked up the photo and looked at it for a while, got up and put the photo on the pillow and said,

"Sleep with me tonight." She couldn't help but blush after saying that. Then she took off her clothes and went to bed, lay in the quilt and looked at the photo. A wave of drowsiness came over her, and she said to the photo, "Let's go to sleep." She leaned over, turned off the light, closed her eyes and fell asleep.

Love and Desire (57)

Chapter 55

Wu Yingying took a book to read in the dormitory after dinner, but her mind was not on the book. For the past few days, she had been planning to talk to the second-grade girl. Every time she saw Zhu Haitao's smug expression during breaks, a strange anger welled up inside her. She wanted to make him feel bad too. As for the second-grade girl, rather than seeing her as a rival before, she now considered her a victim like herself.

Wu Yingying wanted her to leave Zhu Haitao's side too, to make this despicable Zhu Haitao suffer. Although she couldn't fully know if Zhu Haitao would be devastated after she and the girl left, she sincerely hoped for that outcome—at least, Zhu Haitao would feel bad. Besides, she was doing this for the girl's own good.

Xu Hui saw Wu Yingying reading and asked if she wanted to go for a walk. Wu Yingying shook her head, saying she didn't want to. Xu Hui looked at her but didn't say anything, and went for a walk with another female classmate. Wu Yingying sat blankly on the edge of the bed for a while, then got up, took a small flashlight from the inside of the bed, put it in her pocket, and took out the guarantee Zhu Haitao had written for her from her suitcase before leaving.

Last semester, after Zhu Haitao and Wu Yingying had a falling out, when Zhu Haitao begged her to come out for the second time and gave her the first guarantee, Wu Yingying took a look and noticed that when Yang Qian was mentioned, she always used the pronoun "she." To be honest, Wu Yingying also really wanted to know what this girl's name was. So she deliberately questioned him, "Who is 'she' on this? How many 'shes' do you have? What's her name? You're clearly trying to fool me!"

Zhu Haitao blushed and grumbled, "I have nothing to do with her anymore, why ask her name?" Wu Yingying glared at him and said, "You've betrayed me, can't I even know her name? Can't I even ask?" Zhu Haitao hung his head and said, "I have nothing to do with her anymore."

Wu Yingying glanced at him and said, "Fine, I don't care if you don't tell me." She turned to leave. Zhu Haitao grabbed her and said, "I'll tell you, why are you doing this?" Wu Yingying said, "Just telling you isn't enough? You have to write it down here." Zhu Haitao looked at her, confused, and said awkwardly, "I have to write it down here. Then you have to promise me you won't go looking for her."

Wu Yingying hadn't intended to go to Yang Qian's place if she knew Yang Qian's name. Hearing Zhu Haitao's words, she thought, "You don't want to write it? I'll make you write it anyway." She sneered, "How strange! You've already broken up with her, why would I go to her and get back together with you? You not only have to write her name, but also her class, and you have to write that you were just playing around with her, and that you truly love me, Wu Yingying. Otherwise, how can I know who you're talking about? How can I prove your sincerity? If you don't want to, fine, I won't force you. You said you'd write me a guarantee, begging for my forgiveness, saying you didn't love her, just playing around with her. Otherwise, why would I come to see you? Do you think I wanted to come? What do you have that I'm so attached to? It's not that I feel..." She turned to leave.

She had originally wanted to say, "I wouldn't have come if it weren't for your abortion," but realizing Zhu Haitao didn't know, she didn't say it. He didn't want to talk to Zhu Haitao about this, even though he still cared about Zhu Haitao and couldn't erase the memory from his heart. But the hurt Zhu Haitao had caused her made her wary of him. Zhu Haitao understood that Wu Yingying's unfinished sentence was about giving herself to him. Zhu Haitao thought to himself, even if he told Wu Yingying, what could she do to Yang Qian? Since the day Wu Yingying saw him with Yang Qian and slapped him, he hadn't had any contact with Yang Qian. So he said, "Her name is Yang Qian." Upon hearing the name, Wu Yingying felt a surge of anger and cursed viciously, "Yang Qian, Yang your mother's ass! I already knew, why are you saying it now?"

Zhu Haitao was quite surprised to hear Wu Yingying curse him for the first time, but didn't dare blame her. Hearing her say she already knew, he stammered, "Weren't you doing this on purpose?" Wu Yingying glared at him and said,

"I did it on purpose." Zhu Haitao smiled ingratiatingly and said, "Don't be angry." He then tried to hug her with a playful grin, but Wu Yingying pushed him away, glaring at him and saying, "Don't even think about it after this. Only after we're married."

Zhu Haitao said with a pained expression, "Won't that kill me with anticipation?" Wu Yingying said, "You're with me now just to do these things again? Let me tell you, dream on. If you're truly sincere with me, don't touch me, or we'll break up. Or you can go find her." Zhu Haitao said, "Even if you gave me a hundred lives, I wouldn't dare go find her again." Wu Yingying snorted and said:

"You say that, but who knows what you're really thinking? Tell me the truth, how many times have you done 'that' with her?" Zhu Haitao hurriedly said, "That's absolutely not true. It's just that we've kissed twice."

Wu Yingying stomped her foot angrily and walked away. She thought to herself that Zhu Haitao must have had that kind of relationship with Yang Qian, but she was still afraid of hearing it from him. Feeling sad, she squatted down and cried for a while, then handed the guarantee back to Zhu Haitao, saying, "Give it to me when you've finished writing it." She then walked away. Zhu Haitao was stunned for a moment, then caught up with her and said, "Okay, can't I rewrite it tomorrow?"

The next day, Zhu Haitao finished writing it and secretly handed it to Wu Yingying in a secluded spot. From then on, the guarantee bore the names of Yang Qian, her department, and her class.

When Wu Yingying arrived at the second-year dormitory, she met a female classmate and asked about Yang Qian. The classmate happened to be going upstairs and offered to take her there. Wu Yingying said she couldn't go up and waited for her downstairs.

A moment later, a girl skipped downstairs. She paused, looking at Wu Yingying with a vague sense of familiarity, but couldn't quite place her. Yang Qian asked, puzzled, "Do you know me?" Wu Yingying replied,

"Yes, you might not remember me. I have something to discuss with you. Can we talk in person?" Yang Qian looked her over, hesitated, and asked, "What is it that requires a discussion?" Wu Yingying smiled and said, "It can't be explained in a few words." She paused again and said, "I'm in third grade, my name is Wu Yingying."

Upon hearing the name Wu Yingying, Yang Qian's mouth dropped open in surprise, and she froze for a moment. Then, she seemed flustered. She had recently gotten Wu Yingying's name from Zhu Haitao after he had asked her out. Seeing Yang Qian's expression, Wu Yingying smiled and said, "I have no ill intentions in coming to you. I just wanted to talk to you about Zhu Haitao. Don't worry, I would never steal Zhu Haitao from you. I just want to tell you something and show you something that I believe you'll find interesting."

Yang Qian calmed down a bit, but was still nervous, and asked, "What is it that you want to show me?" Wu Yingying said, "It's not convenient here. What can a girl like me do to you at school?"

Yang Qian smiled awkwardly and said, "No, no, I didn't mean anything by it, I'm just curious." Wu Yingying said, "Shall we go to the grove?" Yang Qian thought for a moment, thinking, "Even from there, you can't do anything to me." Besides, she was clearly very interested in what Wu Yingying had to say. So she nodded in agreement.

Yang Qian came from a rural area in Xiayi County, Henan Province. She was taller and slightly plump than Wu Yingying. She had a square face, thick black eyebrows, and large eyes. She had a round nose, a small mouth, and a double chin. She still retained the inherent simplicity of a rural girl, or what city dwellers might call naiveté. She lacked a certain spark, possessing a clumsy yet also exhibiting the characteristics of a girl undergoing change after moving to the city.

On the way to the grove, Wu Yingying tried to remain calm and natural, speaking to her with a smile, avoiding any mention of Zhu Haitao, and asking about some things in Yang Qian's class. Yang Qian answered each question.

They found a spot in the grove and sat down. Wu Yingying sighed softly, then asked, "What do you think of Zhu Haitao?" Yang Qian thought for a moment, then looked at her and asked, "Didn't he say you and he have nothing to do with each other? What do you mean by asking these questions?" Wu Yingying asked, "Zhu Haitao said he and I have nothing to do with each other?" Yang Qian's eyes widened as she said, "Yes, I've asked him many times. He swore and vowed that he and you have nothing to do with each other. He also said... he said he doesn't like you at all."

Wu Yingying felt a sharp pain in her heart, but composed herself and said, "I expected him to say that." At this point, she had completely lost faith in Zhu Haitao, so she was quite frank, her face showing... Smiling, she said, "Even if he wanted to have anything to do with me again, I wouldn't." Yang Qian seemed relieved and asked, "Then what did you want to say to me? What did you want to see?" Wu Yingying said, "Don't rush me. I just want to ask if you truly love him." Yang Qian thought for a moment and said, "It's okay to tell you, since you two have nothing to do with each other anymore. To be honest, I truly like him and love him. I... I hope you won't bother him anymore." Now it was Wu Yingying's turn to widen her eyes and ask, "Did Zhu Haitao say I'm bothering him? Or is that what you think?"

Yang Qian thought for a moment, thinking to herself, "If you, Wu Yingying, haven't given up on Zhu Haitao, why did you come to me? You say you won't have anything to do with him, but you're still thinking about him. Zhu Haitao has already told you he doesn't like you anymore, what's the point of this?" At this moment, she actually felt that Wu Yingying was very despicable. Let you, Wu Yingying, completely give up on this. I'll just tell you everything Zhu Haitao said. So she said irritably, "I won't lie to you, this is what Zhu Haitao said. He said he was heartbroken after you slapped him and said he would never have anything to do with you again.

He said, he said you're a complete shrew. He said..."

Wu Yingying was really angry at this point, but she held back. Seeing that Yang Qian didn't continue, she asked, "What else did he say about me?" Yang Qian met her gaze and said, "He also said that you were the one who pursued him, that he didn't really like you, and that you only got together with him because you kept bothering him." Wu Yingying trembled involuntarily.

Seeing that she didn't speak, Yang Qian thought to herself, "Now you understand everything, Wu Yingying, what do you still want with Zhu Haitao?" Thinking about it, she felt a little sad and said, "I might be younger than you, I'll call you sister, please stop bothering him, okay? I really love him, I can't live without him." Her eyes were moist as she spoke, and the last two sentences were already on the verge of crying.

Wu Yingying had thought that Zhu Haitao would say some unrealistic things, but she never expected him to say such things about her, to be so despicable. Her heart felt like it was being slowly sawed apart by a dull knife, dripping blood and aching terribly. She didn't speak for a while. Yang Qian heard her heavy breathing but didn't ask. After a while, Wu Yingying thought to herself, "Today I've completely seen what kind of person Zhu Haitao is. It's not worth getting angry over him." She felt that Zhu Haitao was as disgusting as a piece of dog shit.

Wu Yingying took a breath and said, "I understand your feelings. Not long ago, I felt the same way, and I even wished you were dead. But now I only feel sympathy for you, because you, like me, love him with a burning heart. I understand your state of mind right now. But what I need to tell you now is that Zhu Haitao said the same things to me as he said to you, even more so. Do you understand?"

Yang Qian looked at her in surprise, not answering immediately, and shook her head after thinking for a moment, saying, "I don't believe it." Wu Yingying said, "I didn't want to believe it either. Before I saw you and Zhu Haitao last Sunday, I thought, like you, that what he said to me about having no relationship with you anymore was true. But when I saw you walking together intimately, I realized that what he said was all a lie."

Yang Qian said in great surprise, "You saw me and him..." Wu Yingying nodded and said, "A few days ago at Wuchao Gate." Yang Qian stared and asked, "You saw it?" Then she asked again:

"You mean he's with me and dating you at the same time, saying he doesn't love either of us? Is that it?" Wu Yingying nodded and said, "That's it."

Yang Qian was in a state of turmoil and extremely anxious. After a moment, she shook her head and said, "No, no, he told me that. He said he doesn't love you, that you're the one bothering him. Don't say anything more. I understand what you mean. You just want to sow discord between him and me, and then take advantage of the situation, right? I..."

Wu Yingying laughed twice and said, "I never thought you would be so naive. I thought I was naive and stupid, but I didn't expect..." Yang Qian interrupted, "You mean I'm even stupider than you?" Wu Yingying said, "You could say that. I originally wanted to explain everything to you, so that you wouldn't be as confused as I am. I thought we were both girls..." In the end, it's not him who suffers, but us. I came to you out of concern, or perhaps out of shared pain, but I never expected you to think I had ulterior motives. This is just me looking in the mirror and making a fool of myself. Okay, I won't say any more. But I want to tell you that I never actively pursued him, nor did I ever pester him. I'm not that pathetic.

As for what you think of me, I don't want to argue with you anymore. But I want to say that even if I were to marry a man who carries manure in the countryside, I would never again associate with a scumbag like Zhu Haitao, who is worse than dog shit. Just love him peacefully. Consider it an act of kindness on my part today. Okay, I won't say any more. I hope he truly loves you.” Having said this, Yang Qian stood up and grabbed her arm, saying, “I'm sorry, I was too emotional just now.”

Yang Qian's heart was stirred by Wu Yingying's words. She thought that Wu Yingying had never meant any harm, and that she shouldn't have said those things. Could Zhu Haitao really be like that? Thinking it over, she still didn't believe her. Didn't she say she had something to show her? Maybe this thing would prove something.

Wu Yingying said, "Is there any point in us talking anymore? Right now, you think I'm here to compete with you for your man. I'm ashamed of you thinking like that. I won't say anything more. I just hope you can fall in love with someone worthy of your love. That's all I hope for." Yang Qian said, "I understand now. I misunderstood you. Forgive me." Wu Yingying said,

"But what else can we say? I've told you everything. You can think about it yourself." Yang Qian asked, "Didn't you say you had something to show me?"

Wu Yingying was so angry about Yang Qian's misunderstanding that she blurted out those words and forgot about the guarantee. Now she remembered that she hadn't shown Yang Qian the guarantee, but she was still annoyed by Yang Qian's words. So she said, "Is there any point in showing it? It seems you're also devoted to him." Yang Qian said,

"To be honest, I really love him." "After I found out about what happened between him and you last time, I was very angry with him, but I forgave him after I learned that he and you had nothing to do with each other anymore. Don't laugh at me, but I really can't let him go. To me, he's like my life; I can't live without him."

Wu Yingying felt a pang of sadness upon hearing this, thinking: Wasn't she the same way she thought before? Are all women so foolish, so easily deceived? Her eyes reddened as she thought this, and then she sighed softly, saying, "Women, how pathetic."

Yang Qian stared at her, unsure of what to say. Wu Yingying said, "Perhaps I shouldn't have come to see you today. Now I think, even if you believed me and broke up with him, given his character, it's hard to guarantee that someone else won't fall for his tricks soon. He's just playing with us women." She shuddered as she recalled how Zhu Haitao had forcibly taken her virginity during their second date.

Hearing Wu Yingying's sorrowful words, Yang Qian's heart clenched, and she wondered if Wu Yingying was truly looking out for her. But she quickly dismissed the thought. She decided to see what Wu Yingying had mentioned and said, "Just let me see that." Wu Yingying replied, "It's not that I don't want to show it to you, it's that I'm afraid you won't be able to accept it." Hearing

this, Yang Qian felt even more anxious and eager to see it. She said, "Don't worry, whatever I see, I'll accept it. You've told me so much already, I should be mentally prepared." Wu Yingying thought about it and agreed, saying, "That's good. But let me make this clear first: don't cry after you see it, otherwise people in this forest won't know what happened. I don't want to be seen and gossiped about." Yang Qian said, "Don't worry." Wu Yingying took out the guarantee from her pocket .

When Yang Qian was about to take it, Wu Yingying said, "I hope you can treat it the same way I did after reading it. Don't have any extreme thoughts. If you really want to, break up with him and let him suffer because of our departure. It's a kind of punishment for him. Don't go with that guy from the physics department..." Yang Qian said, "You think I'm too weak. My parents raised me, and I haven't repaid them even a little. I don't need to die."

Wu Yingying nodded and handed the guarantee to her, saying, "It's the guarantee he wrote for me." As she spoke, she took out the small flashlight from her pocket and handed it to her, saying,

"You must stay calm after reading it." Chapter 56 of

Love and Desire (58) Yang Qian unfolded it and felt like she had been struck by lightning. Her whole body was cold, she was panting heavily, and her hand holding the paper began to tremble. After reading it at least three times from beginning to end, she asked with trembling lips, "This, this is really written by him?" Her eyes never left the paper. Wu Yingying said, "I'm not that stupid, I wouldn't forge this just to compete with you for him." Yang Qian turned to look at her and said, "No, I didn't mean..." Before she could finish speaking, she seemed unable to stand, collapsing to the ground like a lump of damp clay being doused with water. Her hands weakly supported her on the ground, the flashlight shining close to the earth, her eyes fixed straight ahead. A long silence followed. Wu Yingying, also seemingly startled by her actions, stood there looking down at Yang Qian, who sat on the ground like a wooden sculpture. After a while, she recovered, a sudden fear gripping her, so she squatted down and looked at Yang Qian softly, asking, "Are you alright?" Yang Qian slowly shook her head and stopped speaking, her eyes still fixed ahead. Wu Yingying, using the moonlight and the beam of her flashlight, carefully observed her and saw large tears streaming from Yang Qian's eyes. Wu Yingying was startled and, unsure what to say, reached out and picked up the still-lit flashlight from Yang Qian's hand, extinguishing it. Looking at Yang Qian, she said, "When I first saw you with Zhu Haitao, I couldn't accept it either." Yang Qian remained silent, only weeping. Wu Yingying said, "Later, after thinking it through, I felt relieved. The sooner I recognized this scoundrel, the sooner I was free; otherwise, I would have remained in the dark, deceived by him like this." Yang Qian remained silent.

Wu Yingying said, "We're both women, both girls who left their parents and homes. Now that I know his character, I should tell you. That's why I've wanted you to know these past few days; otherwise, how long will we be deceived by him?" Yang Qian slowly turned to look at her. When their eyes met, she suddenly hugged Wu Yingying tightly and burst into tears. Instantly, a strong sense of grievance and sadness overwhelmed Wu Yingying, and she couldn't help but hug Yang Qian and cry as well.

The two women embraced and wept softly, their shared grievances instantly binding the hearts of these two women, who were originally rivals in love, together. After a while, Wu Yingying came to her senses, looked around, and seeing no one paying attention to them, she patted Yang Qian's back and said, "Don't cry, people will talk if they see you."

Yang Qian nodded, but was still sobbing, though her sobs had subsided considerably. Wu Yingying let her lean on her shoulder. After a while, Yang Qian stood up, wiped away her tears, and said fiercely, "I can't let him go." Wu Yingying knew that Yang Qian was in the same mood as she had been a few days ago, so she shook her head and remained silent. Yang Qian said, "I will definitely not let him get away with this."

Wu Yingying said, "Forget it, I was like you a few days ago, but I thought about letting it go." Yang Qian said, "I'm different from you. I gave him everything, and he forced himself on me. You haven't experienced it, you don't know."

Wu Yingying's heart ached. But she immediately realized that Zhu Haitao had also lied to Yang Qian, saying that they had never had sexual relations. At this moment, she had an impulse to tell her everything, even wanting to tell her that she had had an abortion, something she hadn't even told Zhu Haitao. But after weighing the options in her mind, she swallowed her words.

Yang Qian cried, "In my hometown, a woman's chastity is highly valued. And here I am, having been..." Wu Yingying said, "It's all the same! Just consider it a nightmare."

Wu Yingying then thought of her mother's constant admonitions, and now she had not only given herself to a philandering man but also had an abortion for him. She felt incredibly sorrowful. Yang Qian suddenly turned to her and asked, "You too...?" Wu Yingying blushed and shook her head. Yang Qian said, "He hasn't lied to me about this. I asked him, and he said he didn't sleep with you. But I... I've been cheated..." Wu Yingying said, "Don't think about anything now. I came to see you today to tell you not to be fooled again. Otherwise, you might suffer even greater losses in the future."

Yang Qian said, "I've already suffered enough. I thought that if I gave him my body, I would belong to him, but I didn't expect him to be playing with me. I won't let this go." Wu Yingying said,

"Try to think more positively. What can you do? You're not going to kill him. I've also figured it out now. It's foolish to do anything for a scoundrel like him. If we break up, he'll feel bad too. Let it be." Yang Qian said, "But you and I are different." Wu Yingying said, "No matter what, what's done is done. Can it be undone? Don't think about it. This is a lesson. I don't think I'll trust any man again." Yang Qian looked at her, lowered her head, and stopped talking. Wu Yingying said, "Alright, let's go back. I've said everything I needed to say. I just hope you can see things more clearly than I have." She stood up as she spoke and said, "Tear up that piece of paper."

Yang Qian thought for a moment but still handed her the paper, saying, "Why tear it up? It's part of his brilliant performance. Keeping it might be useful." Wu Yingying took it and said, "What use is it?

Just thinking about him makes me sick. What bothers me most right now is having to be in the same class with him for over a year. It's better if you don't see him at all." Yang Qian said, "Can't I stop thinking about him if I don't see him?" Wu Yingying thought about it and agreed, still saying, "That's better than me seeing him every day."

Yang Qian didn't speak, lowered her head and thought for a while, then suddenly stomped her foot and cursed, "Damn it! You've played me like this!" Wu Yingying was startled by her sudden action and the rude curse. Seeing her staring blankly ahead without speaking, Wu Yingying felt a surge of fear and said, "Don't think about it anymore. If you keep thinking, won't it all be the same?" Yang Qian said,

"How can I not think about it? I just don't know how he could hide it so well. No wonder we always end up doing *that* when we meet, even when I'm on my period. He's treating me like a free prostitute. Damn him! I won't let him get away with this!"

Wu Yingying's heart pounded. At that moment, she genuinely regretted coming to her to talk about these things. So she said in a trembling voice, "You, you mustn't do anything foolish." Yang Qian said, "Am I like you? He didn't do anything to you, maybe he really likes you. But how did he treat me? He just treated me like a sex object. Now that I think about it, I was so pathetic. How could I have trusted him so much, liked him so much, and not felt at all that he was being hypocritical towards me. Don't laugh at me, I've told you everything. Guess how he treated me? Besides having sex with me, he also made me suck his thing with my mouth. He said he liked it, said it felt good. I was so stupid, thinking that if he was happy, I did what he said. Now that I think about it, he didn't treat me like a human being at all. He was just playing with me, playing with my body and soul. How could I..." She started sobbing softly again as she spoke. As

Wu Yingying listened to Yang Qian, she thought to herself that when she and Zhu Haitao did that, he had also asked her to do the same thing, but she had refused and firmly refused. But that time, didn't he still force himself on her face?! She never expected that something like this would happen to Yang Qian, and that she would actually do it. After thinking about it, she seemed to understand why Zhu Haitao, after making solemn vows and writing guarantees, still had a relationship with Yang Qian. Perhaps it was because she hadn't satisfied his desires during this time, that he came back to Yang Qian, because he could satisfy all his desires with her. She

also thought that perhaps Zhu Haitao truly had feelings for her; otherwise, why wouldn't he have forced himself on her when she refused him? Therefore, Zhu Haitao and Yang Qian's relationship was purely a naked sexual one, devoid of any affection. At this moment, she truly felt sorry for Yang Qian.

To confirm her suspicions, she asked, "After I slapped him when I saw you last time, when did he contact you again?" Yang Qian said, "He didn't contact me until the holidays. I thought I'd cut ties with him. To be honest, I really hoped he would contact me again. I still have feelings for him, and I still hate you a little. Even though I know I'm with you now, I still have these thoughts. But even though I think about it, he didn't contact me once before the holidays, so I wouldn't shamelessly go to him. It's only been less than a month since he came to see me after the start of the semester. That day, he saw me near our classroom, said he missed me, and said he wanted to go out that night, but I ignored him. But that night, I couldn't help but go. That night, he said he had nothing to do with you..." "What relationship do you have? You even said you asked him to go on a date, but he ignored you, called you a shrew and said he never loved you, that you were just clinging to him. He said a lot that day, all saying he loved me. I also asked him if you and he had slept together. He said he hadn't even gone on many dates with you, so how could anything have happened? Later, he wanted to sleep with me again, but I didn't agree, and he didn't force me. You said you saw me and him at Wuchao Gate that day, that was our second date, and that night he asked to sleep with me again, and I felt sorry for him and couldn't bear it, so I went with him..."

After hearing Yang Qian's words, Wu Yingying completely understood that Zhu Haitao had only gone to Yang Qian after he hadn't gotten satisfaction from her, and Yang Qian was just a tool for his sexual gratification.

She also understood that Zhu Haitao did have feelings for her, and no matter how angry she was, he couldn't deny that. But no matter what, Zhu Haitao was a twisted and morally corrupt person. She would never have any feelings for him again.

Wu Yingying said, "No matter what he says about me, I don't want to explain anymore. He knows better than anyone else." Yang Qian said, "I really believed him back then. Now that I think about it, he was such a good actor. What can an actor do? This kind of person should die. How could he hurt people like that? Just like you said, even if we both leave him, he won't hurt anyone else."

Wu Yingying said, "Yes. But I know what kind of person he is, and I know you're still being harmed, so I still had to come and warn you. Actually, I just wanted to warn you, but I don't know if you'll believe me. We're both girls, and I really don't want to see you being harmed like this. As for who he'll harm in the future, who knows? If you don't know, you won't worry about anyone." Yang Qian said, "I know you're a kind person. But I also know your feelings for him aren't as deep as mine, otherwise, how could you not have had a relationship with him? I believe you when you say you haven't. It's because I care about him too much, otherwise, even if he forced himself on me the first time... if I had firmly disagreed, he wouldn't have succeeded. It's because I care about him that I..."

Wu Yingying nodded, thinking about her first time with him, and thought to herself, "That's exactly it. How could a man possibly succeed with a woman unless he uses force? It's because I'm soft-hearted and have feelings for him that I did this." Then Yang Qian said, "Are we really just going to let him hurt others like this?"

Wu Yingying understood her meaning and her heart sank. She asked, "Then what do you want to do? Do you want to get revenge on him?" Yang Qian said, "I really can't swallow this." Wu Yingying asked nervously,

"Then what do you plan to do..." Yang Qian shook her head and said, "Oh dear, my mind is really confused right now. I don't know what to do. I just wish he were dead." Wu Yingying thought, wasn't she thinking the same way a few days ago? After a few days, she understood and that's how it is. So she said, "Let's go back and rest. Try to think more positively. That's how I got through it. What's the point of getting revenge

on him? How can I get revenge on him? Besides, getting revenge on him won't be good for me either. Let's try to think more positively. We're just two fools, what else is there to say?"

As she spoke, she felt both angry and sad, and tears welled up in her eyes. When she raised her hand to wipe her tears, she realized that she was still clutching the guarantee that Zhu Haitao had written to her. So she raised her hands and tore it to shreds and threw it on the ground. Yang Qian saw that she had torn it up and stared at her with wide eyes, asking, "Why did you tear it up?" Wu Yingying said, "Why keep it? I don't want to use it to see anyone who was harmed by that beast, and I don't want to use it to prove to anyone that Zhu Haitao was only loyal to me. It's all in the past, all in the past..."

After saying that, she took a few steps and looked back to see that Yang Qian was still standing there, so she said, "Go back." Yang Qian took a step with her weak legs...

Love and Desire (59)

Chapter Fifty-Seven

During the break, the counselor brought a letter to the classroom where Ouyang Yiming was. After looking for a while, she did not see Ouyang Yiming. She asked her classmates, who said that they had just seen him, so they helped her look for him. When they saw Ouyang Yiming walking over from the public toilet with a few classmates, they called out to him loudly. Ouyang Yiming saw the counselor running over.

After stopping in front of the counselor, the counselor handed him the letter in her hand and said, "Your letter." Ouyang Yiming took it and read it. When he saw that it was written by Liu Yan, his heart jumped wildly. His face flushed slightly. The counselor asked, "Whose letter is it?" Ouyang Yiming replied, "A classmate of mine from high school, serving in the army there." The counselor smiled and asked, "A male or female classmate?"

Ouyang Yiming's face turned even redder as he said, "A male classmate."

Ouyang Yiming had already mentally prepared answers to the questions that Liu Yan's letter might elicit, so he answered without hesitation. But he hadn't expected the first person he'd face to be his counselor, and he was still somewhat nervous. The counselor said, "Your handwriting is quite delicate, like a girl's." Ouyang Yiming hummed in agreement and smiled again.

The counselor leaned close to his ear and whispered, "Come to my office during your self-study period this afternoon. Your application to join the Party has been approved by the school's Party committee. My application form is with me; come this afternoon and I'll guide you through filling it out. Professor Cheng and I will be your introducers." Hearing this, Ouyang Yiming became even more excited, appearing somewhat flustered, his face burning red as he couldn't utter a word.

Seeing his expression, the counselor thought to himself that Ouyang Yiming was surprisingly shy at this moment, so he smiled and said, "I'll wait for you in the office this afternoon." Ouyang Yiming thanked him quickly. The counselor smiled and left without saying anything more.
Ouyang Yiming was excitedly clutching Liu Yan's letter, eager to read it but not daring to. Even after class, the bustling students on the way back to the classroom prevented him from taking it out.

He planned to read it alone in a quiet place after lunch. He chatted and laughed with Jiang Yuqi along the way, and Jiang Yuqi asked why the counselor had called him. Ouyang Yiming casually replied that he had just brought him a letter, emphasizing that it was from a classmate in high school who had sent it from the army.

Jiang Yuqi then brought up the counselor's words, saying that she was always so picky, looked like a wooden barrel, and always acted like a leader; she was a woman but had no femininity whatsoever—what man would want her? Ouyang Yiming didn't want to interrupt, still somewhat annoyed by Jiang Yuqi's comments about the counselor.

Jiang Yuqi continued talking, and after a few sentences, she wondered if a man would get an erection if she slept with someone like her. Ouyang Yiming couldn't help but say, "With your foul mouth, you always say 'it's none of my business,' but I bet you can't be indifferent to anything." Jiang Yuqi chuckled sheepishly. Just then, Xu Hui called him from behind. Ouyang Yiming and Jiang Yuqi stopped, and seeing Xu Hui and Wu Yingying approaching, Jiang Yuqi whispered to Ouyang Yiming, "The one who can't be indifferent is here." Ouyang Yiming said, "Shut your foul mouth." Jiang Yuqi laughed, tapping the ground with her toe.

Xu Hui approached and saw Jiang Yuqi laughing, saying, "A sly laugh can't be good." Jiang Yuqi looked up and couldn't help but chuckle. Xu Hui blushed and asked, "What are you laughing at? What good thing happened?" Jiang Yuqi laughed and said, "Didn't you say that secretly laughing never brings good news?" Xu Hui said, "I saw you secretly laughing just now, but I see you're not doing it now." Ouyang Yiming glanced at Jiang Yuqi and said to Xu Hui,

"What good thing could he possibly have? Don't ask him."

Jiang Yuqi laughed again and winked at Wu Yingying, who was also laughing. Wu Yingying understood and quickened her pace with Jiang Yuqi, while Ouyang Yiming and Xu Hui lagged behind. Ouyang Yiming asked, "Is something wrong?" Xu Hui didn't answer his question, but asked, "Is Jiang Yuqi laughing at me?" Ouyang Yiming said, "What good things could he possibly say? He was just talking about the counselor, making her sound utterly worthless." Xu Hui said, "You can tell from his expression that he's not saying anything nice. Don't go along with what he says." Ouyang Yiming said, "No, I was cursing him." Xu Hui laughed and said,

"You deserve it. Hey, is the counselor talking to you about your Party membership application?" Ouyang Yiming said, "Yes." Xu Hui's face lit up with joy, and she excitedly asked, "Did you pass?" Ouyang Yiming smiled and nodded, saying, "The school's Party committee approved it. They want me to go to her office this afternoon to fill out the Party membership application form." Xu Hui giggled happily and said, "I knew I passed! I was excited the whole class. Congratulations!" Ouyang Yiming also chuckled. Xu Hui called out to Wu Yingying, and the two of them followed her.

After lunch, Ouyang Yiming secretly slipped out of his dormitory, found a quiet spot, and with trembling hands, pulled out the letter. He saw the address Liu Yan had written: "Dear Ouyang, I miss you." His heart warmed, yet also stung. He thought, "How could I not miss you?" Reading further, he saw Liu Yan mention she was now the deputy director, and he was startled. He didn't know how high a position a director was, and he imagined what Liu Yan would be like as a leader. Next, he saw Liu Yan introducing the club she led, and couldn't help but smile when he saw there were only about ten people. Then he saw some words expressing her longing for him, and his heart ached. Finally, seeing that Liu Yan had her own office and he could call her, he didn't even notice the letter mentioned working hours. He put the letter away and walked towards the door. He longed to hear Liu Yan's voice immediately.

He left the school gate and went into a shop with a public phone, taking out the letter. He dialed the numbers one by one, and while waiting for the call to ring, his eyes lingered on the letter. He was startled to see the words "Call during working hours," and wondered how he hadn't seen them clearly. Just as he was about to hang up, the operator's voice came through, asking where he wanted to go. Ouyang Yiming transferred him to the club as instructed in the letter. He figured he'd already gotten through, so he might as well try calling; most likely, the person wasn't there. But his heart was still pounding as he waited for the call. To his surprise, it was Liu Yan who answered. It turned out that Liu Yan had also anticipated that Ouyang Yiming would receive the letter in the next couple of days. Although the letter had told him to call during working hours, she was still worried he might call after work.

So, for the past two days, she had eaten lunch in the cafeteria and immediately returned to her office afterward.

Liu Yan picked up the phone and asked who it was. Ouyang Yiming immediately heard Liu Yan's voice, and his heart warmed instantly. A wave of bittersweet emotion surged within him, his eyes welled up with tears, and his throat went dry, rendering him speechless. Liu Yan waited a moment for a reply, thinking it might be Ouyang Yiming, but she didn't dare ask. Her heart pounded, and she asked again who it was. Ouyang Yiming, controlling his emotions, said, "It's me."

Liu Yan finally heard Ouyang Yiming's voice, and her longing instantly erupted into a heart-wrenching sob. She said, "Ouyang, I missed you so much." Ouyang Yiming's heart, which had just calmed down a little, was thrown into turmoil again. He said, "Me too." Liu Yan choked back tears, unable to speak. Ouyang Yiming said, "When I dialed the number just now, I saw in your letter that you told me to call during work hours. I thought you weren't home."

Liu Yan regained her composure and said, "I've been waiting for your letter these past two days, thinking it would arrive soon, so I haven't dared to go home, afraid you wouldn't be able to find me." Ouyang Yiming said, "I've been looking forward to your letter every day; I was almost going crazy." Liu Yan said, "I'll write to you as soon as I'm settled in." Ouyang Yiming said, "It feels like so much time has passed." Liu Yan said, "I just started at my new job too, so time seems to fly by." Ouyang Yiming said, "Yes, it feels like..." "What's it like being a leader?" Liu Yan chuckled and said, "One word: awesome!"

Ouyang Yiming chuckled and said, "When will I get to experience what it's like to be a leader?" Liu Yan laughed and said, "If I experience it, it's the same as you experiencing it." Ouyang Yiming laughed, then suddenly remembered his joining the Party and said, "I also have some good news to tell you. This morning was a double celebration." Liu Yan said, "Really? Tell me quickly." Ouyang Yiming said, "The first thing was receiving your letter. The second thing is that I will soon become a member of the Party."

Liu Yan said with delight, " "Really? That's wonderful news! I knew my husband was the best!" Ouyang Yiming paused for a moment upon hearing the word "husband," then felt a surge of sweetness in his heart. He said, "What did you call me just now? Say it again, I didn't hear you clearly." Liu Yan knew he was doing it on purpose, but she blushed a little for saying that word herself. She still said, "You silly boy, you don't like being called 'husband'?"

Ouyang Yiming said, "Of course I like it. I love it." Liu Yan said, "Then what did you call me?"

Ouyang Yiming turned his head and looked around. Seeing no one was around, he whispered, "My dear wife." Liu Yan giggled. "I've got goosebumps," Liu Yan said with a laugh. Ouyang Yiming chuckled and said, "I haven't seen it, I want to see it." Liu Yan said, "I won't show it to you, I'll make you anxious." Ouyang Yiming said, "You're so heartless after only a few days apart." Liu Yan said, "That's how heartless I am, so what?" Then she asked, "Have you thought about it?" Ouyang Yiming knew what she meant, so he said, "How could I not think about it?" Liu Yan said, "Don't think about it. I'm afraid you'll think about it, who will you be with when I'm not around?" Ouyang Yiming said, "I just started thinking about it." He felt a little hot as he spoke. Liu Yan said, "I really want to see you right now. Sigh, don't think too much. Let's wait another year, then we can be together every day." Ouyang Yiming agreed.

Liu Yan then asked about the photos, asking him to send them quickly. Ouyang Yiming agreed. After saying some more words about missing each other, Liu Yan said, "Don't call too often, just call once every now and then, long-distance calls are quite expensive." Ouyang Yiming agreed. After a while, the two reluctantly hung up the phone.

Before afternoon self-study, Ouyang Yiming went to the counselor's office and saw a female classmate from the same department but a different class already sitting there, looking at a form for joining the Party.

Ouyang Yiming nodded to both of them, and the counselor took the form and placed it on the table in front of Ouyang Yiming, saying, "You two read this carefully; your handwriting must be neat." She looked up and asked Ouyang Yiming, "Did you bring a pen?" Ouyang Yiming nodded and said he did, taking it out of his pocket. The counselor then explained each item to them clearly. Ouyang Yiming took the form and sat down at another table to begin filling it out.

At this moment, Professor Cheng walked in. The counselor greeted him, and Professor Cheng asked, "Not finished yet?" The counselor said he would be done soon. Ouyang Yiming looked up and hurriedly stood up, calling out to Professor Cheng. The girl also stood up to greet him. Professor Cheng nodded and said, "You can fill it out now. Ouyang, come to my office after you're done." Ouyang Yiming responded. Professor Cheng left, and Ouyang Yiming and the female student sat down to continue filling out the form. After a while, Ouyang Yiming finished writing it out carefully and showed it to their counselor. The counselor looked at them both and said, "You must strictly demand of yourselves according to the standards of the Party Constitution. You've attended many Party classes; take some time to review the books. We still need to observe you for a while." The counselor's eyes swept back and forth between their faces, and after a few routine words, she said to Ouyang Yiming, "You should go see Professor Cheng; he might want to see you about something." Ouyang Yiming agreed and said goodbye to the counselor.

On the way, Ouyang Yiming thought that Professor Cheng might also be concerned about his joining the Party. Upon entering the office, Ouyang Yiming greeted the professor and stopped at his desk. The professor took out several miscellaneous books from his drawer and said, "These are the latest chemical engineering materials in China." He flipped to a folded page, pointed to it with one finger, and said, "Take a look at this. The Soviet Union started producing sorghum sugar in the 1960s, but our country still lacks this technology and has to import it. I'm interested in researching this project. You're a top student in the department, so you were the first person I thought of. Go back and take a good look at this. There's no rush; we'll work on it in our spare time. Studying is the priority. When you have the chance, go to the library to look at some more materials. You have a very quick mind; I believe you'll have unique insights. Take these materials back and review them. When the time is right, we can conduct experiments. If you have any questions, come to me." Ouyang Yiming nodded in agreement.

As he left, Ouyang Yiming excitedly thought, "What a wonderful day! So many good things are happening today!" His heart was filled with joy, and he felt the weather was also very nice. Looking up at the sky, he saw a high, clear sky with light clouds. A gentle spring breeze was blowing, soft and soothing. Time passed like a whirlwind. The god of spring had already arrived.

Ouyang Yiming suddenly spotted a flock of swallows frolicking atop a newly leafed ginkgo tree. They would occasionally tilt their heads to look down, then huddle together, chirping merrily, so happy and joyful. He couldn't help but stop and watch, thinking to himself, "The swallows are here! Which one is mine? Are they here to celebrate my joy today?" Thinking of Liu Yan, he thought to himself, "My dear, I'll write to you tonight."

Several girls passed by him, seeing him smiling and looking up, and followed his gaze. They saw a flock of swallows dancing on the branches and were also invigorated. Seeing Ouyang Yiming's infatuated expression, they covered their mouths and giggled as they walked away.

Just then, Ouyang Yiming suddenly heard Jiang Yuqi calling him. He snapped out of his thoughts and turned to see Jiang Yuqi and Ge Guangcheng hurrying towards him. As he approached, he saw the two men looking tense and flustered. Ouyang Yiming's heart sank, and before they could speak, he asked, "What happened?" Jiang Yuqi looked around, pulled him over the fence, and stopped under a tree. He was panting heavily, and his lips trembled as he said, "Zhu Haitao has been taken away by the police."

Ouyang Yiming stopped breathing instantly, looking at him in shock and confusion. Ge Guangcheng said, "They handcuffed him as soon as he left the classroom." Ouyang Yiming paused for a moment, then asked anxiously, "When? And why?" Jiang Yuqi said, "Who knows why? It was during this self-study period. The security department brought two police officers." Ouyang Yiming asked, "Why? They didn't say why." Ge Guangcheng said, "The police officers who brought him seemed to ask him something, but nobody heard it. These days, even if the police bring him, they won't say anything." Jiang Yuqi said, "I think the security department definitely knows. Ge Guangcheng has a fellow villager working there, so we went to inquire." Ouyang Yiming said impatiently, "Then let's go quickly." With that, the three of them started walking.

After walking a few steps, Ouyang Yiming stopped, glanced at the two men, and said, "I think it's better for Ge Guangcheng to go alone. If all three of us go, it might be difficult for them to say anything. It's better for one of us to go and inquire." Jiang Yuqi thought for a moment and said, "Yes, I'm afraid the security department won't be able to disclose anything right now. Guangcheng, you go by yourself." Ouyang Yiming asked Ge Guangcheng, "What's your relationship with your fellow villager like?" Ge Guangcheng said, "He's from our town. He was a volunteer soldier who was assigned here after being discharged from the army. We weren't very close back home, but at the school, it's just the two of us from our town, so we're on average."

Jiang Yuqi said impatiently, "Look at you rambling on! Will you be able to find out anything?" Ouyang Yiming said, "Yuqi, don't be impatient. Whether Guangcheng finds out or not isn't up to him. If it's something disciplinary, they probably wouldn't dare." He turned to Ge Guangcheng and said, "Try your best to find out." Ge Guangcheng nodded. Ouyang Yiming asked again, "Does your fellow villager smoke?" Ge Guangcheng said, "He's a heavy smoker." Jiang Yuqi slapped his forehead and said, "Oh dear, how could I forget?" As he spoke, he reached into his pocket, but Ouyang Yiming had already taken out five yuan and handed it to Ge Guangcheng, saying, "Go to the small shop ahead and buy a pack of cigarettes. Try to find out as much as you can. If you really can't find out, then forget it. I think he'll tell you something, so don't force him. We'll wait for your letter in the dormitory." Jiang Yuqi said, "Just say that you and Zhu Haitao are best buddies." Ge Guangcheng nodded in agreement. He took the money Ouyang Yiming handed him and turned to leave.

Love and Desire (60)

Chapter 58

The two watched Ge Guangcheng gradually disappear into the distance and turned to walk back. Jiang Yuqi frowned and said, "I just can't figure out what Zhu Haitao could have done." At this moment, Ouyang Yiming suddenly thought that it might be related to Wu Yingying. Thinking of this, his heart started pounding and he couldn't help but stop. Seeing his strange expression, Jiang Yuqi asked, "Are you clear about this?"

Ouyang Yiming, about to blurt out something, suddenly realized that Jiang Yuqi was unaware of what Wu Yingying had said to him, and telling Jiang Yuqi would only lead to more speculation. So he shook his head and said, "I've been wondering what it's all about. Has he said anything to you lately?" Jiang Yuqi thought for a moment and said, "He hasn't said anything. I haven't noticed anything on his mind either. Everything seems normal."

Ouyang Yiming, however, was wondering if Wu Yingying had really taken revenge on Zhu Haitao. Then he thought, "No way. It's been over ten days since the incident at Wuchao Gate. If she wanted to take revenge on Zhu Haitao, she would have done so a few days earlier. Her anger shouldn't be as intense now. Why wait until now?" But deep down, he still felt that Wu Yingying was involved. Jiang Yuqi suddenly said, "When school started, Zhu Haitao mentioned something about those two female classmates from his middle school. He said he slept with them many times after going home for the holidays. Could it be related to this?" Ouyang Yiming was startled and asked, "What else did he say?" Jiang Yuqi said, "He didn't say anything else, just that he met with two female classmates separately during the winter break and said he slept with them many times. I even said he wasn't afraid of getting into trouble. He said he knew what he was doing, that nothing would happen, and that both girls were happy about it."

Ouyang Yiming was a little angry and said, "If I were to ask him... " "Zhu Haitao is really outrageous. Is this kind of thing so casual? He's just playing with people. He doesn't want to marry her, yet he tricked her into having sex with him. This...this is going too far." Hearing the reproach in his voice, Jiang Yuqi said, "I've talked to him about it too. I told him not to mess things up, because it would be too late then.

He didn't seem to care." Ouyang Yiming said, "Think about it, if you say nothing's wrong, it's fine, but if you say something's wrong, the girl only needs to be careful and accuse him of rape, and he'll be in big trouble." Jiang Yuqi said, "That's exactly right. I didn't mean him any harm." "I did say that, but you're still dating Wu Yingying. Haven't you thought about what she'd think if she found out?

He said, 'How could Wu Yingying know from so far away?' I also asked him if he was still in contact with that girl from the second grade. He said no, that his love for Wu Yingying was genuine. I said, 'If you truly love Wu Yingying, you should break up with that girl from the second grade completely.' He said absolutely not."

As Ouyang Yiming listened to Jiang Yuqi, he recalled what he and Wu Yingying had seen at Wuchao Gate last time—Zhu Haitao and that girl. Feeling an inexplicable aversion, he said, "I don't think he'll ever change." Then, thinking that Zhu Haitao was already arrested, he couldn't say anything too harsh in front of Jiang Yuqi, so he immediately asked, "When did he say that to you?" Jiang Yuqi said, "A few days after the start of the semester." Ouyang Yiming asked, "He said he was sincere towards Wu Yingying?" Jiang Yuqi said, "He did. He said he was absolutely sincere towards Wu Yingying. I could tell from his words."

Ouyang Yiming shook his head, thinking, how could his words be convincing? If he was sincere towards Wu Yingying, then why was he dating a second-year girl? He saw it himself.

Seeing him shake his head, Jiang Yuqi said, "I believe that. He's truly sincere towards Wu Yingying. Don't doubt it." Ouyang Yiming nodded and said, "Then what is it for?

He couldn't possibly do anything else, and there's no indication of anything." Jiang Yuqi sighed and said, "Yeah, I really can't figure it out. Let's wait for Ge Guangcheng's letter."

The two sat silently in the dormitory, listening to their classmates' chatter. Ouyang Yiming didn't want to say anything. Jiang Yuqi, however, was annoyed and stood up, saying, "They're just talking nonsense. We still don't know what's going on." Seeing Jiang Yuqi's gloomy expression, everyone knew that he and Zhu Haitao were quite close. So no one spoke, and the air in the room seemed to freeze in a heavy atmosphere.

After a while, a classmate said to another classmate, "Let's go eat." So everyone except Jiang Yuqi and Ouyang Yiming got up and left.

Ouyang Yiming said, "I understand how you feel, but don't be too obvious in front of your classmates. We still don't know what Zhu Haitao is up to, don't let your classmates think there's something going on between you and him." Jiang Yuqi nodded and said, "I can't stand these people talking nonsense. Look at them, they were laughing just now. Damn it, who knows what's become of Zhu Haitao now. They're all classmates, look at them." Ouyang Yiming said, "It's normal for them to talk. Just pretend you didn't hear it. You can't shut them up."

Jiang Yuqi nodded and lowered her head to think. Suddenly she looked up and said, "Ouyang, I heard that people get beaten up wherever they go. Will Zhu Haitao get beaten up too?" Ouyang Yiming's heart skipped a beat, and he said:

"Probably not. There's no way something like that would happen. The police wouldn't beat someone, would they?" Jiang Yuqi said. "That's how the police handle cases these days, not like the polite treatment people talk about." Ouyang Yiming pictured Zhu Haitao being beaten and wronged in his mind, but said to Jiang Yuqi, "Don't overthink it. Maybe it's nothing serious. Thinking about it won't change anything, and we can't help anyway. I think as long as he explains things clearly, he won't be beaten." Jiang Yuqi said, "I'm just worried he'll end up in detention. I've heard it's all about prisoners beating each other there." Ouyang Yiming's mind raced again. A tremor ran through him. "Why think so much? We still don't know what Zhu Haitao did wrong." Jiang Yuqi frowned and thought for a while, then said, "I just can't figure out what it was about. Ouyang, you know, Zhu Haitao isn't bad, he's generous and loyal, but he's a bit too much when it comes to women." He paused, then added, "I think it's most likely because of women. He can't have done anything else."

Ouyang Yiming's thoughts turned to Wu Yingying again. He had an urge to ask her, but when he stood up, he thought, "Never mind, let's wait for Ge Guangcheng's letter." He said, "Yuqi, let's go eat first. I don't think Ge Guangcheng will be back anytime soon." Jiang Yuqi thought for a moment and said, "Okay, when Ge Guangcheng comes and can't find us, he'll know we went to the cafeteria." After saying that, the two went out.

Inside the cafeteria, everyone was talking about Zhu Haitao. This kind of news spread like wildfire, quickly reaching everyone's ears. Ouyang Yiming and Jiang Yuqi got their food and sat down at a table, eating silently without saying a word. Ouyang Yiming was intentionally looking for Wu Yingying, scanning every table but not seeing her. He couldn't even spot Xu Hui. He figured they might have eaten and gone home. They had only eaten halfway when Ge Guangcheng rushed in excitedly from the doorway. He glanced around, saw Ouyang Yiming and Jiang Yuqi, and quickly walked over. Jiang Yuqi looked at him expectantly. Ouyang Yiming looked at Ge Guangcheng and asked softly, "Are you done?" Ge Guangcheng nodded, then looked around again and said, "I'll go buy more food first."

As they were talking, they stood up and walked away. Jiang Yuqi seemed about to say something. Ouyang Yiming tugged at him and whispered, "There are so many people here, just wait a bit. It looks like Guangcheng can't say anything either."

Jiang Yuqi nodded. A while later, Ge Guangcheng returned with his food and sat down opposite them, saying, "Let's talk after we eat." Ouyang Yiming nodded. Ge Guangcheng then started eating. Jiang Yuqi and Ouyang Yiming had already finished eating. Ouyang Yiming said to Ge Guangcheng, "Yuqi and I will wait for you outside." Ge Guangcheng agreed. The two stood up and left.

They waited on the road outside the restaurant for a while without saying a word. Jiang Yuqi kept looking back at the restaurant door, muttering under his breath, "Eating is like crawling pigs, so damn slow." The

"crawling pig" Jiang Yuqi referred to was a local slang term meaning pigs having sex, implying a very slow pace. Ouyang Yiming didn't understand and didn't ask, simply saying, "Don't rush." Jiang Yuqi then looked towards the restaurant door. A moment later, seeing Ge Guangcheng emerge, the two turned and walked slowly. Ge Guangcheng caught up and headed towards a grove of trees. They stopped under a tree, and Ge Guangcheng looked at Ouyang Yiming and said, "It's rape."

"Rape?!" Ouyang Yiming and Jiang Yuqi exclaimed simultaneously. Ouyang Yiming immediately thought of Wu Yingying. Jiang Yuqi asked urgently, "Who was raped?" Ge Guangcheng said, "They didn't say specifically, but it's definitely rape." Jiang Yuqi asked, "Where did they say it was raped? Outside the school or inside?" Ge Guangcheng said, "Inside the school, but he said because the girl is from our school, the school requires confidentiality. Right now, only the department head and school leaders probably know; those of us below don't know either. They said if word gets out, the girl won't be able to stay at the school." Jiang Yuqi asked, "They didn't say which department?" Ge Guangcheng shook his head and said, "They didn't say. He doesn't know at all. He only knows that she was arrested for rape." Jiang Yuqi turned to look at Ouyang Yiming, and the two exchanged a glance before lowering their heads. Jiang Yuqi said despairingly, "It's over, Zhu Haitao is completely finished now."

Ouyang Yiming thought to himself, this was probably Wu Yingying's doing, otherwise who else would do it? He secretly blamed Wu Yingying for going too far. Not only will it affect Zhu Haitao's entire life, didn't you think about the consequences? Even though the school is keeping it a secret, people will find out eventually. Zhu Haitao definitely knows best; won't he hate you for life? How could you act so recklessly? I even advised you against it. Didn't you say you wouldn't seek revenge now?

Could something have happened between Wu Yingying and Zhu Haitao?

Ge Guangcheng said, "Once this is confirmed, Zhu Haitao's expulsion from school is a done deal." Jiang Yuqi said, "Is that even a question! It's not just expulsion, he'll be in trouble for several years! He's finished, Zhu Haitao is really fucking done for now." Ge Guangcheng said, "If this were during a crackdown, he definitely wouldn't be out for at least ten or eight years." Jiang Yuqi glanced at Ge Guangcheng, then turned to Ouyang Yiming, who was deep in thought, and asked, "Who do you think it might be?" Ouyang Yiming shook his head and said, "Who could possibly know?" Ge Guangcheng said, "Don't let this get out of here. My fellow villager gave me a lot of advice." times. The school requires the security office to keep the information strictly confidential. Ouyang Yiming said: "Don't worry, I will never let your fellow countryman get into trouble." Then he turned to Jiang Yuqi and said, "Don't tell anyone else about this matter again." Jiang Yuqi said: "Who should I tell?" Everyone knows about my relationship with Zhu Haitao. People don't know what to think of me now that they know he was raped. Ouyang Yiming said to Ge Guangcheng: "We will not tell anyone." Let your fellow countryman rest assured. Ge Guangcheng said: "I don't trust you two yet." He raised his wrist and looked at his watch and said "Yeah" in his mouth,

"I have to leave first." After saying that, he nodded to the two of them and left quickly.

Jiang Yuqi looked at Ge Guangcheng leaving blankly, but what he was thinking about was Zhu Haitao. He sighed heavily and said, "It's over now." Why the hell could Zhu Haitao be so messed up? Now he is messed up to the end. After saying that, he looked up and asked, "Ouyang, you can't think of who it is?" "Ouyang Yiming was now convinced that it was Wu Yingying, but he knew he couldn't tell Jiang Yuqi. So he shook his head.

Jiang Yuqi said, "Could it be Wu Yingying?" Ouyang Yiming was startled, but also wanted to hear Jiang Yuqi's analysis, so he asked, "You're considering whether it could be her?" Jiang Yuqi thought for a moment, then shook his head and said, "It doesn't make sense. Putting aside whether Zhu Haitao is sincere towards Wu Yingying, I don't think Wu Yingying would do such a thing. She's a very kind person. Besides, she and Zhu Haitao are doing quite well now; she wouldn't still be holding onto that past incident. Even if she were, she wouldn't go so far as to use such methods to completely destroy Zhu Haitao. I don't think it could be her."

Ouyang Yiming felt relieved to hear that he had basically ruled out Wu Yingying. Regardless of his current opinion of Wu Yingying, he still didn't want Jiang Yuqi to suspect her. He was worried that Jiang Yuqi would also believe she would tell others, which would make it difficult for Wu Yingying to stay at school. Ouyang Yiming said, "Then who do you think it could be? Does he have other women?" Jiang Yuqi said,

"No, it can't be anyone but the girl in second grade." Ouyang Yiming said, "Do you think it could be the girl in second grade?" Jiang Yuqi shook her head and said, "That's impossible too. He broke up with that girl before the holidays. If she wanted to sue him, would she still be here now?"

Ouyang Yiming also thought it was impossible, but what he was thinking was that the girl in second grade didn't know that Wu Yingying had been following them. Seeing how much she and Jiang Yuqi loved each other, she had no reason to mess with Zhu Haitao. Now, the only one who could retaliate against Zhu Haitao like this was Wu Yingying. It should be said that Zhu Haitao had broken Wu Yingying's heart twice. He just wanted to see Wu Yingying immediately and ask her clearly. But then he thought, even if it really was Wu Yingying who did it, would she tell him? Even if she did tell him, what could he do? Blame her? Not to mention that he had no right to blame her, what was the use of blaming her now? But in his heart, he still hoped to find an answer.

Seeing Jiang Yuqi still deep in thought, Ouyang Yiming asked, "Haven't you heard him mention any other women?" Jiang Yuqi replied, "I haven't heard him say anything. But I don't think there will be any more.

He can't keep anything to himself in front of me; if there really were, he would have told me." Ouyang Yiming nodded, thought for a while, and sighed, saying, "Yuqi, don't get angry at anything I say now. Think about it, with him flirting around like this, he's bound to get into trouble sooner or later." Jiang Yuqi shook his head and said, "That's exactly right. I've told him many times that this is typical woman-playing, and it'll cause trouble sooner or later. What do you think he says? He says women are only happy to do 'that,' they can't wait for you to sleep with them. Now look what happened, damn it, you slept with them, and now you've gotten into trouble."

Ouyang Yiming said, "The key is that he's playing with people's feelings. You know, Wu Yingying was truly sincere to him, right? That's why he can still have 'that' with other women." Jiang Yuqi said:

"To be honest, Zhu Haitao really brought this on himself. Wu Yingying truly loved him. Zhu Haitao himself has said that. I even talked to him about it back then. He said he truly loved Wu Yingying, but love and sex are two different things. He said every woman has a different flavor, and what man would have sex with just one woman all the time? He said if a man doesn't have ten or eight women in his life, what kind of man is he? According to his plan, he'll have at least a hundred, if not dozens, of women in his lifetime. Back then, when I heard him say that, I felt a little inferior, thinking that I hadn't even had a woman yet and didn't know what it was like. Now I see that this kind of thing is not something to be touched, and if things go wrong, his life will be ruined." Ouyang Yiming said, "With his kind of thinking, it was only a matter of time before he got into trouble." Zhu Haitao said, "That's exactly right. Damn it, let's not worry about him, he brought it on himself." Ouyang Yiming sighed and said, "Actually, we can't help him at all now. We're just worrying about him and feeling sorry for him." Jiang Yuqi said, "Exactly. Damn it, let's not worry about this crap anymore. Like you said, we can't help him, it's just pointless worrying. It only makes us feel bad." Ouyang Yiming didn't say anything.

Jiang Yuqi asked, "When Ge Guangcheng and I saw you, you were carrying a stack of things, but we didn't bother to ask what it was." Ouyang Yiming replied, "Some materials Professor Cheng gave me; I haven't had a chance to look at them yet." Jiang Yuqi asked, "What's in them?" Ouyang Yiming said, "Didn't I say I hadn't had time to look at them yet? Professor Cheng only mentioned it was some kind of latest international chemical industry news, and told me to look at it first." Jiang Yuqi didn't ask any further. Ouyang Yiming thought that his current mood was related to this; in the past, he would have definitely pressed for details. Jiang Yuqi said, "Come on, let's go back. Go look at them. Look at what Zhu Haitao has done to everyone; they're all suffering because of him." After saying this, the two walked towards the dormitory.

Reaching a fork in the road, Jiang Yuqi stopped and nudged Ouyang Yiming, saying, "Isn't that Xu Hui?" Ouyang Yiming followed his gaze and indeed saw Xu Hui standing under a streetlamp, head bowed. Jiang Yuqi looked at her suspiciously and said, "Why is she alone?" Ouyang Yiming said, "Maybe she's waiting for someone." Jiang Yuqi said, "Waiting for you, I guess." Ouyang Yiming said, "You're just talking nonsense. I've been with you guys since the afternoon. How would she know I was coming from the dining room? I was just about to say a few words to her." Ouyang Yiming wanted to talk to Xu Hui about Wu Yingying and also wanted to learn about Wu Yingying's current situation from Xu Hui. Jiang Yuqi said, "Then I'll go first." Ouyang Yiming said, "Why don't you wait for me?" Jiang Yuqi said, "Never mind, I'll go first."

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