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I lost count of how many cigarettes I'd smoked, only that I felt nauseous and wanted to vomit. I

opened the window to let the smoke out, as the entire office was now enveloped in it. My whole body

was numb, like I'd overdosed on drugs. I felt even more dazed, as if I'd been

under general anesthesia before surgery.

I don't know how long I sat in the wicker chair, but I stood up and staggered towards my desk. I

couldn't possibly sleep in that chair. Perhaps it was from the excessive smoking, but I felt very cold, goosebumps all over my body.

I didn't know if it was physical or emotional coldness. I practically had to hold onto the wall as I walked. When I reached my desk,

the computer screen still showed the live feed from home, and Xiaoying was still fast asleep.

I'd learned too many answers tonight, but there was one last one left: how Xiaoying and

her father had spent that night. I'd never had the courage to watch it before. Should I

watch it tonight? I'm already so deeply hurt today; what difference would a little more make? I hovered my mouse

over the monitoring software, suppressing the urge to vomit, probably from smoking too much. After

several misclicks, I finally opened the monitoring software and entered the time. Fast-forwarding,

half-asleep, I finally managed to get the feed to Xiaoying leaving our bedroom and

standing at her father's door

. I froze the frame at that moment, then rewound the time slightly

to see if Xiaoying was reluctant or resolute as she walked towards her father's bedroom.

The feed showed Xiaoying walking towards her father's bedroom door, her body trembling

slightly , and she trying to control her breathing. Whether from nervousness or fear,

Xiaoying kept glancing towards our bedroom door throughout the process. Her gaze held no lingering affection, only

worry . She was afraid I would wake up, but the heightened sensitivity from the aphrodisiac controlled her reason

as she walked to her father's bedroom door. Xiaoying placed her hand on the doorknob, took a few deep

breaths as if to bolster her courage, and finally glanced in our bedroom's direction, as if bidding

a silent "farewell" to her husband.

"Click," the door to her father's bedroom opened gently, and then, as it

closed, Xiaoying disappeared into the room. Simultaneously, the security camera

footage from her father's bedroom opened. In the footage, Xiaoying remained still, leaning against her father's door, calming

herself . Although Xiaoying had subtly "tested" me before coming to her father's bedroom, this decision

and the journey itself had still tested her immense courage.

As Xiaoying entered her father's bedroom, my attention wasn't solely focused on Xiaoying; I was also

observing her father. When Xiaoying closed the door, her father, seemingly asleep, subtly

shifted his body. Though the movement was light and subtle, I easily caught it.

Was her father awake? Just without opening his eyes.

Xiaoying composed herself and turned to look at her sleeping father. Her gaze fell on

the slight ugly, dirty thing below was Xiaoying's target. She had taken such a great

risk tonight, wasn't it all for that? Seeing the curve of her father's crotch, her

lust, which had been somewhat cooled by the cold water, reignited. Slowly, I saw the last vestige of

clarity in Xiaoying's eyes disappear.

Xiaoying walked step by step towards her father's bedside. I had seen this scene countless times before, but this time

the feeling was completely different. In the past, it was just the two of them in the house. But this time,

I, as a man, was "sleeping" next door, less than 5 meters away from them.

Xiaoying slowly walked to her father's bedside. This time, she didn't "admire" her father's

body as before. Her physical desires were overwhelming; she desperately needed her father's thick penis to satisfy

her . She knew that no matter how careful she was, her father would wake up, so she didn't hesitate and

went straight for what she had longed for.

Xiaoying hooked her hands around her father's pajama bottoms and underwear. To save time, she quickly and efficiently

pulled them down. Perhaps because she had taken aphrodisiacs, she was stronger than usual,

and she

pulled them all the way down in one go. At this moment, her father, who had been pretending to be asleep like me, could no longer keep up the act. He suddenly opened his eyes, trying to pull up

his pajama bottoms and underwear, but lying flat, he couldn't reach them with his hands to put them on.

He had no choice but to settle for covering his groin with his hands.

The father dared not make a sound. Although he had just been awakened, his mind was perfectly clear.

He didn't know why his beloved daughter-in-law would come to his room in the middle of the night, but

the fact remained that his son was home. He dared not disturb me with a sound, and could only try to stop it silently with his actions.

However, the father underestimated Xiaoying's frenzy after taking the aphrodisiac

. Before the father could even cover his groin with his hands, Xiaoying was faster. Xiaoying quickly took the "high ground,"

grabbing the father's still-erect penis with one hand.

Because Xiaoying was eager to take the initiative, she gripped the father's penis too tightly, and the father

couldn't help but let out a painful groan. But he quickly suppressed the sound, probably afraid that

I would hear it from next door.

"Xiaoying, what are you doing? Are you crazy?" The father was anxious, and his penis was now under Xiaoying's control.

Xiaoying held onto his manhood tightly and wouldn't let go. The father couldn't help but question Xiaoying. At this moment, the father was

extremely frightened. However

, Xiaoying did not answer her father's words at this moment. Instead, she grabbed her father's penis with one hand and...

With one hand, she struggled against her father's relentless attacks. Seeing Xiaoying, driven by unbearable hunger, manage to

overwhelm , I

couldn't help but recall the scene in *The Return of the Condor Heroes* where Yang Guo fought the Golden Wheel Monk with one arm. "Xiaoying, calm down! Jincheng is still at home! No, no!" Her father, his

manhood held captive, dared not exert any force against Xiaoying, nor could he wake his son to rescue him

. He could only plead with the irrational Xiaoying.

"He's drunk, he won't wake up," she pleaded. Her father's struggles seemed to anger Xiaoying.

She had taken such a risk to find him, and he was unworthy of her. She had hoped for a quick victory, but

his struggles prevented her from succeeding, wasting precious time. At this moment, it truly looked as if

Xiaoying was raping her father; the manner of the act perfectly resembled rape.

"No, Xiaoying, it's too dangerous, don't!" The father continued to struggle, trying to escape Xiaoying's

clutches , but Xiaoying seemed unwilling to waste any more energy and precious time. She

suddenly lowered her head, opened her cherry-like mouth, and swallowed her father's penis. The process was decisive and swift

, giving her father no time to react. The moment Xiaoying bit his penis, her father's words of refusal

were instantly interrupted .

"Sizzle, sizzle, sizzle!" After taking her father's manhood into her mouth, Xiaoying began to suck and spit his penis up and down like a fighting rooster

. The originally dry shaft became moist and shiny from Xiaoying's saliva. Xiaoying sucked on it with

relish, as if savoring an ice pop. At the same time, perhaps to save time, Xiaoying began to pull down her

underwear . Xiaoying directly pulled down her underwear, showing how eager she was; without any hesitation, she went straight to

her goal.

"No, no, Xiaoying, oh!" The father, like a "young woman" being raped

, resisted while pushing Xiaoying's head away. Xiaoying, however, held onto his penis tightly,

biting down on the glans whenever he tried to push away, ultimately causing

him pain. While painfully resisting, the father also enjoyed the intense

pleasure Xiaoying's oral sex brought him—a pleasure that was both painful and pleasurable.

Xiaoying persevered, performing oral sex on her father. Although it was time-consuming, it was

necessary . Oral sex could arouse him and gradually make him give up his struggles.

With Xiaoying's relentless efforts, the father's resistance weakened. Actually, it had been several days since their

last sexual encounter. The father had been pent up for a long time, wanting to find an opportunity

to release his pent-up desire with Xiaoying. However, Xiaoying seemed to be avoiding him, leaving him unable to find an opportunity. His sexual urges

had been suppressed for days without resolution. Finally, the long-awaited moment arrived, only to be met with this unexpected turn of events.

Happiness came too suddenly, but it was also too terrifying. He had allowed his son and

his wife to have an affair while their son was home. The cowardly father was nearly scared to death.

Slowly, the long-absent, thick penis finally reappeared. I had seen my father's thick penis

many times before, but this time the interval was quite long. Seeing it again was like seeing a familiar person—

friend or foe? Why did seeing my father's erect penis evoke such complex emotions in me?

Watching the two people on the monitor, although it was all in the past, it felt

as . Even though I could hear their voices, seeing the video was far

more stimulating than hearing them. The intense sensory stimulation was incomparable to hearing them. I thought I had calmed down

, but seeing the video still made me

feel heartbroken and choked with jealousy. I kept telling myself that it had already happened, that I couldn't

stop it , that it was a recording, and that I could only accept it, not escape it. But the negative emotions

lingered.

Because I was so engrossed in watching the video and focusing on my inner feelings, I neglected my body.

Emerging from these complex emotions, I suddenly felt my penis slowly becoming erect. Although not fully erect,

it was semi-erect. I quickly took off my robe and underwear, and saw my erect

penis. I couldn't believe it. Hadn't I already regretted it? Hadn't I been unable to accept my father and

Xiaoying continuing to have sex? Why did my penis still erect like before when I saw this?

Perhaps it was because I hadn't had sex in a long time, or perhaps I hadn't truly understood my own heart. I thought

I had truly regretted letting my father and Xiaoying have sex, but I hadn't realized that my lustful

desires hadn't disappeared; they had just been temporarily hidden in the dark corners of my heart by my impulses. After

watching the video, those lustful desires rekindled, breaking through the heavy encirclement of my jealousy and being released

again . Seeing my erect penis, should I feel joy or sorrow?

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