Amidst the myriad splendors of life, detachment brings liberation.

Time flies, and I've reached my fifties in the blink of an eye. The impulsiveness and fervor of my youth have slowly faded, and I've unconsciously begun to search for a more self-consistent attitude towards life and a more natural way of being. Sometimes, sitting alone in my office, looking out the huge glass window at the bustling crowds, the speeding cars, and the towering skyscrapers, I always reminisce about when I first came to this city, about my work, my life, and my dating experiences. Back then, I was young and energetic, spending every day in the office during the heyday of QQ. Besides writing reports day and night, I used my spare time to chat online, constantly adding people. There were also various chat rooms, one of which I think was called "Fun," with a huge number of members. I remember many of their usernames were things like "What Middle-Aged Woman" or "What Middle-Aged Man." To be honest, I still preferred middle-aged women. Therefore, whether on QQ or in chat rooms, I mostly added middle-aged women. It turned out that people back then were quite reliable; what they said in person was generally consistent with what they said in chat. After getting their consent, I would add them on QQ, resulting in hundreds of QQ friends at the time. The next step was to use all my charm to chat and get their phone numbers. We both knew the purpose of the chat was to hook up and release hormones. And so, one would come along, and we'd move on to hookups. I remember one time, a hookup buddy called me at 9 pm saying he was at a nearby hotel. I dropped everything and rushed there. The moment I opened the door, a woman who looked like a village woman stood before me—dark-skinned, overweight, and ugly, a far cry from her photos. I immediately lost interest. Considering her feelings, I went in anyway, chatted briefly, and then quickly left, citing my shift.
Gradually, my work and job changed, and so did my hookup environment. Considering work and family, I became more cautious and focused on quality. I wouldn't hook up with anyone who couldn't guarantee safety, had ulterior motives, would affect my work or family, or wasn't of high quality. Age was also a significant factor; time waits for no one, and my energy wasn't what it used to be. I no longer had that hormone-fueled, relentless drive to ejaculate. Today, casual chatting and hooking up are no longer about relentless pursuit or clinging until the goal is achieved; it's more about a natural, go-with-the-flow attitude.
Time will pass, but the world remains vibrant. Acknowledging the passage of time brings a sense of liberation. All that has passed is memory, settling deep within our lives...

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