Masturbation made me a cuckold.

Many people have masturbated, whether you are a man or a woman. From early childhood, we are fascinated by our own genitals, and unconscious touching can produce pleasure. Children have all seen this; when children are very young, they touch their own genitals. At that time, children are young and have no sexual awareness; they simply find it fun and feel good. As we grow up, the pleasure from touching our own genitals becomes more intense. In puberty, a particular orgasm can open the door to a new world for us. We will pursue this pleasure and become addicted to it.
A childhood game led me down a path of no return. I became addicted to the pleasure of masturbation every day. The toilet at home, my bed at night, public toilets on the street, the school toilets, and my walk home after school after dark were all places where I masturbated. Even worse, for the sake of stimulation, I masturbated in the women's restroom. It was an old-fashioned dry toilet where excrement and urine were all in the pit below, toilet paper and sanitary napkins were everywhere, and the stench was unbearable, but I found it exceptionally stimulating; the feeling of ejaculation was even more pleasurable. To masturbate, I tore my pants pockets so I could put my hand in and play with my penis. At my sister-in-law's house, I would sit on the sofa and secretly masturbate while looking at her mature body. In class, I would secretly masturbate while looking at my pretty deskmate. I was secretly masturbating, and the most outrageous time was in a public restroom. Just as I was about to ejaculate, someone else came in to use the toilet. It was an old-fashioned restroom with individual squat toilets. I was on the side closest to the women's restroom, listening to the sounds of women urinating next door. I was really into it when a middle-aged man came in to urinate and stood next to me. Usually, if I heard someone come in, I would just pull up my pants and leave. But today, listening to the young women laughing and talking next door, and hearing the sound of them urinating, I couldn't stop. The man stood next to me, watching me as he urinated. My lust got the better of me, and instead of stopping, I started masturbating even faster. Semen gushed out in spurts. I felt so ashamed, yet so excited. At that moment, I really didn't care about anything else and did whatever I wanted.
Sometimes, after masturbating too much, I feel dizzy and weak, and I try to control myself and stop. But it's like an addiction; when the urge strikes, I feel restless and unable to do anything without masturbating. Only after ejaculating can I calm down. I feel completely drained, but I can't stop. Later, I read about the harmlessness of masturbation in a book, which made me even more reckless. The book said that moderate masturbation can relieve sexual tension, but now I realize that's nonsense. What self-control can a young person have? How can it be moderate? Masturbating once a month is fine, but it's addictive, and I can't stop. I used to be quite well-developed; my penis was as thick as a No. 1 battery when I was a teenager. I felt great inserting a flashlight with a plastic bag over it. But after masturbating for a long time, my penis shrank, and my testicles became smaller. The key issue is that I ejaculate very quickly; I ejaculate at the slightest touch. Masturbation is truly harmful.
My wife is very beautiful, and beauty brings suffering. She must have had plenty of sex before we got together. Beautiful women are always coveted. The reason she married me is partly because I'm really good to her, and partly because she's probably been playing around for too long and just wanted to find an honest man to marry. Now that I think about it, marrying a beautiful wife means being prepared to be cuckolded. I masturbated too much and couldn't satisfy her, which gave her the opportunity to cheat. From sneaking around to doing it openly, we've argued and fought. She said she originally wanted to settle down and live a good life, but since I can't satisfy her, she has to find someone else. She said if I can't accept it, we should get a divorce. I want to divorce her but I can't bear to. If we divorce, she might still end up being cuckolded again. So I can only endure it and let her live a life of wandering. Women who are good at having sex are actually smart. She understands that others are just lusting after her beauty and wanting her body. As for true love, I think that's hard to say. Everyone wants to sleep with her. If she didn't have a cuckold fetish, what man would want to marry her?
To be honest, it's all my own fault. I'm not inherently cuckolded, but I just can't help it. I want to enjoy a beautiful woman all to myself, but I'm powerless to do so. My wife says, "I'll settle down with you when I'm done playing around," but I don't know when that will be!
My wife still goes out to play around often. When I want to have sex with her, I do it, but maybe because her vagina isn't wet enough, the friction is too great, and I ejaculate after a few thrusts. When she comes back from playing around, I don't know if it's because she's too slippery or because of psychological factors, but I can last much longer, and my wife is satisfied. I've seen a doctor and gotten medication to regulate my body, hoping that one day I can satisfy my wife without external help, and then she can come back to the family!

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