【Huihui】(17) Author: pobird

Author: pobird
Word Count: 7075

(Seventeen)

We drove back to Guangzhou from Gaoyao. Actually, I was quite happy. The hotel bed was making a creaking and squirming sound, and
I was too embarrassed to have sex on it; the neighbors would hear it clearly. Although I talk a lot of lewd things, I
'm still .

Moreover, Xing Lu said he didn't need to go to Shenzhen because it was very difficult for them to win this bid, so they didn't need to put in any special
effort to prepare.

As Xing Lu drove,
he sighed, saying that Xie Yu, the salesman from H Company in charge of the Shenzhen business, was much more difficult to deal with than Song Tong. This time, he had completely lost to him.

I asked Xing Lu what kind of person Xie Yu was. I was a little curious; someone who could beat Xing Lu must be an extremely
capable salesman.

Xing Lu hesitated for a moment, seemingly reluctant to talk about it. I said understandingly, "If it's hard to say,
then forget it. I'm not that curious."

Xing Lu said, "Fine, I'll tell you anyway. It's good for you to know these things."

Hmm, there must be something shady going on again. Sigh,
why Every salesperson has a lot of bad stuff behind them.

Xing Lu quietly said, "This department manager position originally belonged to Xie Yu. He wanted to jump ship, but he
didn't pass the background check. Then I was promoted internally. In terms of ability, I'm definitely not as good as him."

I asked curiously, "Why didn't he pass the background check?"

Xing Lu said, "She came from a very poor background. She'd do anything to succeed. She started as a
receptionist, and supposedly, she got to where she is now by sleeping her way up."

I exclaimed in surprise, "So Xie Yu is actually a girl? No wonder you were so
worried , afraid I..." "So, you ended up in sales because you saw what she did?"

Xing Lu nodded. "She's just one of many. Actually, female salespeople generally don't develop client relationships as deeply as male
salespeople ."

I said, "I know, you told me that client leaders are usually men, so female salespeople can't go
to prostitutes with clients like male salespeople do."

Xing Lu nodded. "Then why do you think she developed deeper relationships than male salespeople?"

I was a little puzzled, then a thought suddenly flashed through my mind, and a chill ran down my spine: "Xing Lu, you mean,
she slept with a client?"

Xing Lu nodded: "She's very beautiful, even more beautiful than you. She not only slept with clients, but also with her own
agent boss. They even had a threesome on one project."

I exclaimed, "A threesome? Like a sandwich, or the kind where one end is separate?"

Xing Lu was speechless. "How would I know? It was her former colleague who told me during the background check. That
person couldn't possibly know that much detail. Besides, Huihui, your focus is too strange."

I said innocently, "I'm just curious, do people really act like that?" "Does it involve inserting two holes, one above and one below
?"

Xing Lu said, "I don't know, but I can't accept it, I can't accept it either."

I nodded, "I can't accept it either."

Xing Lu suddenly seemed to realize something, "Huihui, I've noticed that lately when I talk to you, you always
manage steer the conversation towards sex."

I laughed and said, "Because you're so amazing, you're making me almost a sex addict."

Xing Lu smiled smugly. Men, ah, that's really how it is. The novels are definitely
right men have the strongest vanity in this regard.

However, I thought to myself: Xing Lu, I only like making love with you, I will never accept
other men touching me. Then, I suddenly remembered the first time I met Xing Lu, when I mistakenly thought he wanted to buy me as
a sexual bribe, and I felt a chill. Fortunately, Xing Lu wasn't that kind of person.

Back in Guangzhou, Xing Lu immediately started receiving emails, reviewing tender documents, and then scheduling a meeting with the engineers and agents the next day
to discuss strategies and prepare the tender documents.

I was a little curious: "Didn't you say the project was doomed to fail? Why did you spend three thousand yuan on the bidding documents
and go to so much trouble preparing them?"

Xing Lu said, "The project budget is over five million yuan. If I participate in the bidding, Xie Yu will eventually bid
around three million yuan. If I don't participate, she'll probably bid around five million yuan, so I have to bid."

I said, "Isn't this a lose-lose situation?"

Xing Lu smiled and shook his head: "No. First, if I drive down the bid price, Xie Yu won't be able to give the client's
leader enough kickbacks. Even if she sleeps with the leader again, without enough real money, the relationship..." That will also cause problems.

In that case, she won't be able to solidify this client base, and we might
have opportunities .

Second, Company H is different from us; their management is more localized. Their investment in current projects comes
directly from profits of previous projects. I must cut off that line. If she really gets a million in profit from this deal,
she'll have enough capital to attack other of my key clients. "

My brain is about to stop working from listening to all this. Forget it, I really shouldn't have known these things. The more I hear, the
worse . Xing Lu, you people, with such high intelligence, why do you use it all on these scheming schemes?" It's exhausting scheming and
backstabbing.

Xing Lu was reviewing tender documents and making phone calls until after 1 a.m., and told me to go to sleep and not wait for him. I
knew he probably wasn't in the mood for sex at that time, so I sensibly didn't force him.

Actually, I wasn't in the mood for sex either. Xing Lu's story about Xie Yu today really shocked me; I was
a little scared. My family is very poor, and if I hadn't met Xing Lu, I wouldn't have been able to find
a job . I'd probably end up as a receptionist, but how could I survive in Guangzhou as a receptionist?

Although I firmly told Xing Lu I wouldn't go into sales, if... If I can't support
myself , or if the person I marry has a low income and can't provide my child with a normal upbringing and education, will I
still hold onto the idea that I won't do certain things?

Just over six months ago, I was willing to sell my virginity online for Susu. In the future, for survival and for my child,
can I really hold onto the idea of not selling my body? My mind raced with these thoughts. I felt so cold, and I wanted to hug Xinglu,
but he was afraid of disturbing me, so he took his laptop to the living room to work. I didn't want to bother him.

Then, foolishly, I thought, "I heard that a single room in Shenzhen rents for over two thousand a month. What if I can't even pay next month's rent?"
Here it comes. This time, they want me to have a threesome with the agent and the client, and I can land the project and earn tens of thousands of yuan. Would I do
it?

If I stay in Guangzhou, become a full-time housewife, and have a child with Xing Lu, what if Xing Lu suddenly
loses his job? What if he suddenly becomes unwell because he drinks and stays up all night every day? I
don't know how will I support the family then?

Sigh, I really shouldn't have asked about Xie Yu today. My mental fortitude is exceptionally poor. I
turned on the bedside lamp, found my least favorite text, and started memorizing it. Finally, I slowly got sleepy, put down the book, and fell into a deep
sleep.

Then, I had a terrible dream. I dreamt that Xing Lu ultimately gave me to one of his
clients . That person was very fierce and evil; he grabbed me and wouldn't let me move, trying to rape me. I kicked him hard,
crying and screaming no.

Then, I woke up crying and found myself lying in Xing Lu's arms. Thank goodness, it was Xing Lu, it really was Xing Lu.

Xing Lu asked worriedly, "Huihui, what's wrong? Did you have a nightmare?"

"Yeah," I said, feeling wronged. Then I turned around and hugged Xing Lu, tears streaming down my face, and said to him, "Xing Lu, take
me, take me hard."

Xing Lu seemed a little confused. Seeing that he didn't react, I crawled under the covers, forcefully pulled down his underwear
, and sucked on his penis.

When it got hard, I took off my underwear, flipped over and sat on top of Xing Lu, holding his penis as I sat down.
It hurt so much . I felt like I wasn't wet at all, and it hurt a lot. I frowned and tried to sit down harder. When I reached the bottom, I turned
Xing Lu over so that he was on top of me. It seemed like only when he was on top of me did I feel safe.

Xing Lu seemed to notice I wasn't wet, so his movements were very gentle and slow. I was still sobbing a little, "Xing Lu, don't worry about
me, just go for it."

Xing Lu said helplessly, "Huihui, it hurts me too."

I finally burst out laughing through my tears, and continued to insist, "Xing Lu, take me hard, hold me tight,
crush me."

Xing Lu hummed in agreement, held me tightly, and began to thrust in and out quickly. I threw myself
into it , and soon reached my climax. Xing Lu didn't hold back either; seeing that I had come, he also quickly ejaculated.

I held onto Xing Lu, not letting him leave, even though I was almost suffocating under his big body. I didn't want to
let go until his penis shrank and slipped out of my hole.

I went to the bathroom to clean myself up, then took a wet towel and wiped my face thoroughly. I came back and snuggled into Xing Lu's
arms , letting him hold me tight. Xing Lu was concerned, "Huihui, what happened?"

I stammered as I told him about my nightmare and the wild thoughts that had crossed my mind after hearing Xie Yu's story.

Xing Lu looked at me tenderly and kissed me gently, telling me not to be afraid.

I suddenly started to sob again: "Xing Lu, I want to go back to teach at the school... I'm scared..." Yes,
what I saw around Xing Lu frightened me. It seemed that only by returning to Huizhou, only by working as a teacher at that school,
only by being able to ignore everything else, could I find my safe haven and peace of mind.

Xing Lu said, "Okay, I'll send you back tomorrow. Don't be afraid."

I hummed in agreement, snuggled into Xing Lu's arms, and said, "Don't look down on Xie Yu either,
just like you shouldn't look down on Wenwen. When a woman is poor, she's truly afraid. She must have her own
hardships. No matter how promiscuous a woman is, she wouldn't want to have sex with someone she doesn't like."

Xing Lu smiled, "I'm about to lose two projects to her, how could I dare to look down on her?"

I hummed in agreement and continued, "Xing Lu, if I really marry you, please don't make me quit my job
, okay? I've inquired about the salaries at Shixiao. In case of the worst-case scenario, my income will at least ensure we can live
a simple life. I promise I will never cheat on you when you're not by my side."

Xing Lu nodded and hummed in agreement, without saying anything, just holding me very tightly. I felt very safe and
warm, and then I fell asleep peacefully.

The next day, after I woke up and had breakfast, Xing Lu said to me, "Huihui, I'm afraid I really can't get away today.
I'll find a driver to take you back. I'll come see you after I'm done here."

I was stunned for a moment, then realized he meant my desire to go back to Huizhou. I quickly shook my head, "No,
I'm not going back. I want to stay here with you."

Xing Lu was puzzled, "Didn't you say you were going back last night?"

I shook my head, pretending to be relaxed, "I tend to be more sensitive at night, and I tend to overthink things. Sometimes my thoughts
are absurd, but I'm fine during the day. Don't take it too seriously."

Xing Lu looked incredulous. Even guys probably wouldn't act like that. However, I stayed
not because I thought my thoughts last night were absurd—those thoughts were very real—but because I had the courage to
face them during the day.

Xing Lu was a regular; he left early and came home late every day, but he always made sure to
be back before I went to sleep, to make love to me, and to let me relax and fall asleep in his arms.

On the evening of the 8th, Xing Lu came back and said that Xie Yu and her team had won the bid for 2.78 million yuan. I was a little worried. According to Xing Lu
, Xie Yu personally lost 300,000 to 500,000 yuan in kickbacks from this deal. Wouldn't that make them mortal enemies? Why provoke
a woman like that?

Xing Lu, however, didn't seem to care: "In business, it's always a matter of life and death, a cutthroat competition. There's no
way around it."

Oh, I didn't say anything. I knew I didn't understand, and saying anything would be useless, but I couldn't help worrying about Xing Lu.
Maybe it was because I finally saw Xing Lu lose the project, and I suddenly lost that blind
confidence in him before, and started to worry helplessly.

The days after the May Day holiday seemed even harder to endure. Xing Lu started going on business trips constantly, and when he was in Guangzhou, he always
came back drunk very late.

This Friday, Xing Lu finally came back before 10 pm, and he hadn't been drinking. I was a little happy. Tomorrow he
wouldn't have to get up early, and we could finally have some intimacy.

Xing Lu went to take a shower as soon as he got back. I thought to myself, "So eager, huh?" I blushed a little as I said it. I
had already showered beforehand, and I had two condoms on the bedside table. I was probably much more eager than Xing Lu.

Xing Lu lay down on the bed, and I threw back the blanket, completely naked, and went to hug him. Xing Lu hugged
me back, but his movements seemed a little stiff.

I asked Xing Lu, "What's wrong? Something on your mind? Work not going well?"

Xing Lu hesitated for a moment, then sighed, "I'm sorry, Huihui, I went to
a sauna ."

Xing Lu had mentioned what a sauna meant, and after a moment's hesitation, I asked, "The full service?"

Xing Lu hummed in agreement, and my tears suddenly welled up. I let
go pulled away, turned my back to him, and burst into tears.

It turned out, I simply couldn't accept it. When we went to Zhelang Island, I told Xing Lu to
remember to use condoms when he went to find prostitutes. After our first time together, I asked him how many girls he'd slept with. Xing Lu
had been traveling frequently for work these days, so he'd probably slept with prostitutes too. I always thought I could accept it, but when Xing Lu said it
, I realized I still couldn't accept it.

I don't discriminate against prostitutes; I've sold myself online, but I can't accept Xing Lu hugging another woman and then
turning around to hug me, and I can't accept his penis, which had just been inside another woman, going back to me.

Xing Lu remained silent behind me, just watching me cry quietly. After a long while, when I had cried enough,
I turned over and hugged Xing Lu again. Xing Lu stroked my head and murmured, "Huihui, I'm sorry."

I softly said, "Don't say sorry. I said I chose to be with you, so I have to accept this
. I'm just feeling incredibly sad right now, but I will accept it."

I gently asked, "Did you use a condom when we did it?" Xing Lu nodded.

I continued, "Xing Lu, I don't want to do it with you tonight. Let's do it tomorrow. I should be
fine ."

Xing Lu hugged me tightly and murmured sorry again. I buried my head in his chest, trying not to let him see me
secretly crying again.

On Saturday morning, I made love to Xing Lu, wanting to test if I was no longer affected, but
it didn't work Clearly, neither of us was in the mood. For the first time ever, Xing Lu ejaculated, but I didn't have an orgasm. I don't know
when this trauma will pass.

Thankfully, Xing Lu must have realized the problem, or maybe he felt guilty. He stayed home with
me all Saturday, and even insisted on washing the dishes after dinner. Watching him clumsily moving around in the kitchen, I smiled slightly.
He really cared about me.

That night, as we were going to bed, I took the initiative to kiss Xing Lu, and he patiently caressed me. I quickly became aroused,
constantly asking him to knead me harder, harder still. In the almost suffocating
, crushing pain, I moaned with pleasure. Loving Xing Lu must be like this—a bittersweet experience.

Since he had already ejaculated once that morning, Xing Lu lasted a long time this time,
ejaculating inside me only after my second orgasm. I held him, feeling his penis throbbing inside me, and thought, "So
this is the true meaning of not using a condom." Only with someone you truly love can you be so nakedly open with them. I
don't know if this is just self-consolation, but it made me feel much better.

At least I can accept this fact for now, regardless of how much it will ultimately affect our relationship
.

Xing Lu is away on a business trip again on Monday. I hesitated for a long time before finally calling Sister A Zhu and hesitantly
asked her if she had time to have dinner together. We could eat out or come to Xing Lu's place, and I would cook.

Sister A Zhu readily agreed, saying she would come over for dinner that evening and try my cooking. I nervously told her
not to bring her husband, and she said she understood.

I quickly went to the market to buy groceries. My sister is so busy, yet she managed to find time for me; I couldn't neglect her.

I hesitated for a moment,
then took all the two thousand yuan Xing Lu had left me and went to a nearby, relatively expensive seafood shop to buy a grouper, some cabbage hearts, and chicken. It cost less than 1,000 yuan in total, which still
hurt .

Although grouper is expensive, it's relatively easy to cook; steaming is fine. Making boiled cabbage in clear broth was a bit more difficult,
but luckily I had experimented with it before when I made it for Xing Lu, and given my natural talent in this area, it was still
quite easy for me.

I stewed half the chicken for broth and minced the other half. I filtered
the broth through cheesecloth to remove impurities, then added some of the raw minced chicken and stirred it in, allowing the oil and turbidity to adhere to the minced chicken.
I filtered it through cheesecloth again, repeating this process three times until the broth was almost transparent like clear water. Satisfied, I nodded, then added
the cabbage hearts and steamed it.

My sister, A-Zhu, was completely accustomed to Cantonese cuisine. She opened the soup bowl, took a sip,
and exclaimed in surprise, "Is this boiled cabbage in clear broth?" I nodded.

She scooped out some cabbage hearts with a small spoon and ate them, then exclaimed, "Since leaving Sichuan for university, I
haven't had such authentic boiled cabbage in clear broth. Yours is even better than my dad's!"

I smiled happily. Eating with my sister was wonderful; she had excellent taste and knew her food. Last time Xing Lu
ate this dish, he only said, "The soup is good, very fresh." And as a Chengdu native, he didn't even
believe it was Sichuan cuisine.

My sister finished her soup, and I picked up her soup bowl to get another. She smiled and said, "Don't be so
fussy , just bring the soup bowl over."

I nodded, brought the bowl over, and my sister and I quickly finished our soup, one bowl for each other.
My sister sighed contentedly and then started eating.

There were only two vegetable dishes and a fish, but my sister ate very happily, praising my cooking skills.
During the meal, my sister didn't mention Xing Lu at all, and I didn't either, afraid of spoiling her appetite.

After the meal, I cleared the dishes to the kitchen. My sister sat on the sofa and smiled, saying, "Tell me,
what problems did you have with Xing Lu?"

Sigh, just like Director Shi, those all-seeing eyes. But my sister's smile was so warm;
I suddenly felt less nervous.

I quietly recounted what had happened a couple of days ago. My sister's smile vanished, and she sighed, "I knew it was about this
. I guessed it when I came. What are your thoughts?"

Afraid that my sister would misunderstand and say I wanted to break up, I quickly explained, "I think this is all in the past. We had sex
both , and it was very successful. I don't feel any lingering trauma. I'm just worried that if we get married
, and Xing Lu keeps acting like this, I might not be able to handle it."

My sister nodded, "You've come to the right person. I've been through this."

My sister pulled me to sit beside her, affectionately stroked my long hair, and slowly began to tell her story with her husband:
"Your brother-in-law, Xing Lu, and I all grew up together in the same compound. We fell in love in high school, and
our families arranged our engagement in our second year of high school."

Your brother-in-law has a free-spirited and adventurous personality. When we were in college, we rented a counter in the nearby Dinghao Shopping Mall to sell
compatible computers. Later, on Xing Lu's advice, we switched to selling printing supplies, which happened to be a good time. By graduation, we had earned over
a million yuan.

Around graduation, a senior from Guangzhou started a company and invited us to join. We got married and moved there. The first year was very
difficult. Our partner withdrew their investment, and we had unsold inventory of products we were distributing. For a while, we were so poor we could barely afford takeout
. We even considered closing the company and returning to Sichuan. Our parents had already found us jobs. But your brother-in-law
is strong-willed ; he borrowed money from friends and managed to get through it. After that, things went relatively smoothly, and the business grew bigger and bigger.

For six months, we really struggled. We were careful with every penny. I didn't
buy , and I even bought the cheapest sanitary napkins. During that time, I felt like I was willing
to pay any price for survival. I felt that if I had neglected myself earlier, I would make up for it many times over later. So now that I have money, I'm buying
clothes to treat myself. "

I suddenly understood what my sister wanted to say. She didn't need to say anything more. I hugged her, my heart
aching . So that's how it is. Only with such a solid emotional foundation, having gone through such hardship and difficulty, can one be
so indifferent to things outside of relationships. But, can I do that?

My sister knew I understood and lovingly stroked me: 'Many successful people in the business world have
hardships that others can't see. If you choose this path, you can only accept these things. Of course, you can choose other paths. For example, we could have all gone back to a research institute in Sichuan
after graduation, and we wouldn't have had to go through all this. Life would have been very stable and peaceful, but we would
have missed out on a lot of excitement.'

I gently asked: 'If you could choose again, would you want to stay the way you are now, or...' " "Going back?"

My sister said slowly, "I won't choose. Your brother-in-law chose, so I'll just follow him."

I stared at my sister, who smiled and said, "Back in college, Pan Ying and I had
very different views on love. I thought it was about falling in love with someone and then enjoying life with them. Pan Ying thought it was about enjoying someone's
life first, and then falling in love with them. She always thought that when Xing Lu was with her, he was only interested in the novel
experiences, not her as a person. She always thought she wasn't pretty and was too willful, so Xing Lu wouldn't truly love her as a person."

I shook my head and said firmly, "She's wrong. Xing Lu loves her as a person." Yes, I was
absolutely certain, because this was the most unforgettable and important thing to me.

My sister smiled faintly, "But her view on love might not be wrong. You love someone because you love their
life. Over the years, I've met so many people and experienced so much, and I still haven't seen another woman like me,
who would love someone and not care about the kind of life she would have with them."

[To be continued]

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