Love and Desire in the Sea [Complete] - 4

Love and Desire (23)

Chapter Twenty-One

After the woman left, Ouyang Yiming began to dress. He sat blankly on the edge of the bed for a while, sinking into extreme regret. He had not done right by Liu Yan. He had so easily had such a relationship with a woman he knew nothing about and had no feelings for. His first time was in such a situation, in such an unfamiliar place, with this woman. He had actually entered this house and gotten into this bed under the woman's almost threatening behavior. Yet all of this was so natural. It seemed that he and this woman were destined to have such a relationship.

Suddenly, he felt a pang of sadness. He thought to himself, what am I? A man who is nearly 1.8 meters tall was so easily defeated by a woman who is 1.6 meters tall and physically weak. How could he face Liu Yan like this? Last night, he had sworn to Liu Yan that he would not do anything to betray her, but in less than 24 hours, he had done something that Liu Yan would absolutely not tolerate if she knew. As he thought about it, tears streamed down his face. A moment later, a strong urge to leave this place overwhelmed him. It was as if this place were a den of demons, and this woman would ruin his love with Liu Yan, ruin his happiness, ruin his life… At that moment, he felt as if Liu Yan's eyes were spitting fire at him. Suddenly, he thought of the photograph of the woman's husband on the table in the room, and a chill ran through him, his face turning pale. He jumped up and quickly walked out of the room. He had to escape this place, escape this woman… As he reached the living room door, about to open it, the door opened instead. Ouyang Yiming froze. The woman saw Ouyang Yiming standing by the door, noticed his trembling body, and quickly closed the door, asking,

"What's wrong?" Ouyang Yiming's lips trembled, and tears streamed down his face as he said, "Please, let me go." The woman looked at him in surprise, took his hand, and said softly, "Come here." Ouyang Yiming sat down on the sofa with her. The woman asked, "What's wrong?" Ouyang Yiming's voice trembled as he said, "I'm really scared. I feel like this is going to ruin my life. I'm afraid your husband will find out, afraid my lover will find out, afraid of losing the person I love."

The woman stared at him for a long time, then sighed and said, "You really are a very naive person. Now I believe this is the first time you've done something like this. To be honest, I really regret treating you this way, regret bringing you here in that manner. But please rest assured, I would never harm you. In fact, I like you even more now. Think about it, I don't know anything about you yet, but you already know about my family. If you had any sense, you wouldn't think I would harm you. Now, if you wanted to harm me, it would be very easy.

I am also a woman with a good job, and I still have a family..." "Woman with children, if you wanted to harm me, I think you'd be in a much worse situation than me. The reason I haven't had any reservations about you is because I saw your honesty."

She paused and said, "How about this? We've met, and we've even had a relationship. This is a rare fate. Let's have a meal here. I've bought the groceries. After you eat, you can leave. In the future, if you feel I can still bring you happiness, you can continue to contact me. If you're not interested in me or you think I'm older than you, then don't contact me anymore. If we happen to meet again in the future, let's say hello. But I think if you don't want to see me anymore, we may never see each other again in this life. But I will remember you forever. You brought me a happiness I haven't felt in a long time today, and I sincerely thank you." As she spoke, two streams of tears flowed down her beautiful eyes.

The woman took off her glasses, wiped her tears, and lowered her head. Ouyang Yiming's heart tightened, and he didn't know what to say. The woman raised her head and said, "Let's have a meal here." Ouyang Yiming nodded.

The woman smiled and said, "Thank you." She stood up and said, "My name is Bai Xue. Remember my name. I think, whether you like it or not, I won't easily disappear from your memory. Don't you think so?"

Ouyang Yiming didn't speak, thinking to himself, "Bai Xue, what a pure name. Bai Xue should be innocent, yet she had such a relationship with me." Then he thought of what Bai Xue had said, and thought, "Yes, if she wanted to harm me, why would she bring me home? She's a woman with a family, a husband, children, and a good job. She wouldn't ruin herself because of this."

But the guilt he felt towards Liu Yan was indelible.

The woman plated the groceries she had bought and placed them on the table, then went to another room to get a bottle of wine, and then beckoned Ouyang Yiming over.

After Ouyang Yiming sat down, the woman said, "It's very simple. I don't want to cook anything, this is more convenient. There's rice steaming in the rice cooker, and I'll make some soup later." She picked up a wine bottle and said, "This is wine my husband brought back from Switzerland, you should try some."

Ouyang Yiming looked up and saw a delicately carved glass bottle filled with pale yellow wine. The woman poured the wine, saying, "Sometimes I feel too down, so I drink a little, even though I can't drink much." She put down the bottle, picked up a glass, and said, "Come on, have a drink with me." Ouyang Yiming picked up his glass, and the woman reached out and touched it to his, giving him a flirtatious look, saying, "Let's hope for our destiny." She then took a sip. Ouyang Yiming also drank a little. Putting down her glass, the woman said, "If you can drink, drink more. Eat some food." She placed a piece of duck gizzard on the plate in front of Ouyang Yiming.

The woman said as she ate, "I'm really glad to have met you. To be honest, do you think I'm promiscuous?" Ouyang Yiming thought for a moment and said, "I don't want to hide my thoughts. To be honest, I haven't forgotten you since the movie theater. But I just can't associate you with promiscuity. Although some of the things you do seem promiscuous to me, I still feel that you are a very cultured and refined person." The woman sighed and said, "These things are involuntary. Physical desires can sometimes really torment you. He's a sailor, and we spend too little time together. When we're together, we do it like crazy, and when we're apart, we have to endure the torment of long, heartless separations. I might have a very strong sex drive, and sometimes I just can't control myself."

As she spoke, she picked up her glass, and the two of them drank some more.

The woman and Ouyang Yiming ate some food and continued, "But I can't help but endure it. I don't know how many more years this kind of life will last. But I've never regretted marrying my husband. I love him; he's my life, I can't live without him. But my body needs it. I crave the caresses of the opposite sex." Ouyang Yiming asked, "Did your husband really say he wanted you to do such things with other men?" The woman said, "I have no reason to lie to you. He did say it, and he understands me. I think it's his way of showing his love for me. But he's a man too, and he has his pride. He said to just not let him know. Actually, I know the hardships he endures at sea. I also know he'll seek out women when he's abroad. I don't blame him; I understand. Men and women both need things."

The woman and Ouyang Yiming took another sip of wine, and the woman poured some more for each of them. While eating, she said, "My husband told me this, but I've never been with any other man. I don't understand why I feel this urge when I see you. I couldn't control myself at the movie theater that time, and afterwards I was terrified of my actions. I've thought about it many times, how could I have been so bold? I won't lie to you, I want to see what men's 'things' are like, and I masturbate when I'm lonely. I also had an orgasm at the movie theater that time. I felt so satisfied that time. I've thought about it many times since then, and I can't understand my own actions. I just think that you and I are destined to be together, otherwise, we wouldn't have done that kind of thing the first time I saw you. It was fate that we would do this. Sigh, there are so many things in life..." Desire, every single one of them is tormenting. Especially the physical kind. You might ask me, why not find a lover? To be honest, I've thought about it, but I don't dare. I'm afraid of being entangled with someone else. I can't lose my husband because of it.”

Ouyang Yiming said, “Why do you trust me so much?” The woman said, “I can't explain it, I just feel that you are very trustworthy. Besides, I'm also attracted to your physique and appearance.

A man like you is easily liked by women. And women will fantasize about you.” She took a bite of food, shook her head, and said, “Actually, thinking about it more deeply now, I was foolish. I brought you home without knowing anything about you. If you had any ill intentions towards me, I wouldn't have been able to handle it. Isn't that the truth?”

Ouyang Yiming thought to himself, "What she said is absolutely true! There's really nothing she can control about me, unless we meet on the street. But the chances of that are incredibly slim. She didn't ask my name, didn't even know my age, or that I'm still a student. She knows nothing about me, yet she brought me to her home without any suspicion. What if she wasn't meeting me, but someone with ulterior motives? This woman was foolish enough to leave her home unattended by a stranger. Thinking about it, this woman isn't all that great; all she does is threaten me. She doesn't have much of a mind of her own. And yet I've been intimidated by her words and obediently let her do as she pleases. Aren't I being foolish too?!" He thought to himself, "We're both fools!"

He felt much more relaxed at this moment and said, "There's absolutely no way I could do anything to you. From the first time until now, I've always been passive. To be honest, I only acted this way because you threatened me.

In the movie theater, you said you wanted me to touch you, and I didn't dare to say a word. I was scared that time. I didn't understand who you were, and I was really afraid you would harm me. This time, I was terrified when I saw you. After hearing your tone, I had no choice but to go along with you. Looking back now, I was really stupid. What could you have done to me if I hadn't gotten off the bus with you?"

The woman smiled and said, "I really won't do anything to you today. What could I do on a bus in broad daylight? But it was different at the movie theater last time. That day it was dark. If you really didn't want to, I might have shouted. And people would have actually believed it." Ouyang Yiming shuddered. The woman blushed and continued, "I'm sorry, I'm telling the truth. That day I really couldn't stand it anymore. I had to see your thing. I couldn't control my desire anymore. I had to let your fingers go inside me. I really couldn't take it then." Ouyang Yiming didn't say anything. He picked up his glass and took a sip of wine.

The woman said, "To be honest, I really liked you and wanted to maintain this relationship. But now I'm a little disappointed; I think you might not continue like this with me." She sighed and said, "I've said all I wanted to say today. I don't want to say anything more. Perhaps today is the first and last time we'll be together. However, I will remember you forever."

After the meal, the woman poured a glass of water for Ouyang Yiming, sat down beside him, and looked at him with deep, affectionate eyes. Ouyang Yiming's heart began to race again. After a while, she grabbed Ouyang Yiming's hand, rested her head on his shoulder, and said, "I really hope you come often." Ouyang Yiming didn't speak. He felt a surge of heat, a burning sensation within him. The woman looked up at him, her eyes filled with a seductive smile, and asked, "Still want more?" Ouyang Yiming turned to look at her but didn't speak. The woman lowered her head and reached out to touch his crotch, saying, "It's hard again." Ouyang Yiming blushed. The woman said in a trembling voice, "Would you like to wash up in the bathroom? I want to make love with you properly."

She took Ouyang Yiming's arm and went into the bathroom, grabbed a basin, poured in some hot water, and then rinsed it with cold water. She took a clean towel, had Ouyang Yiming stand there, and carefully washed him. She then squatted down and washed herself. Then, blushing, she let Ouyang Yiming carry her into the bedroom. A while later, they undressed and got into bed. They lay on their sides, gazing at each other, both seeing desire in each other's eyes.

Their lips met, their tongues entwining. The woman's body pressed tightly against Ouyang Yiming's, one slender leg draped over his waist. Her soft breasts pressed tightly against his chest.

Ouyang Yiming's hands caressed her back, slowly sliding down, lingering on her ample buttocks and kneading them. In a short while, the hand slid from between the woman's buttocks to between her legs, and a finger slipped into her warm, moist body.

The woman began to emit beautiful moans from her nose. These soft, heavenly moans acted like an aphrodisiac, exciting Ouyang Yiming. The movement of his finger went from slow to fast, and then back to slow. The woman's moans also fluctuated in volume and intensity, like a piano piece that was sometimes gentle and sometimes turbulent.

The woman sat up, turned to lie on her side, and curled one leg up, revealing her private parts to Ouyang Yiming. Ouyang Yiming leaned closer to look at this place he had touched many times but never seen before. It filled him with curiosity and excitement. He gently parted his fingers with two fingers to examine it closely. The woman's mouth took Ouyang Yiming's hard lower body in her mouth and sucked on it... Ouyang Yiming sat up, smoothed the woman's smooth, soft body, and climbed on top of her. The woman guided Ouyang Yiming's penis into her body. The woman lay there softly, her eyes slightly closed, moaning... moaning louder and louder. The woman tightly hugged Ouyang Yiming's thick waist, suddenly screamed twice, her body began to tremble, and waves of throbbing began inside her. Ouyang Yiming felt the hot flesh tightening and contracting around his hardness, and at the same time, he felt waves of hot something stimulating his tip... In a series of even more intense thrusts, Ouyang Yiming felt a tingling, electric-like sensation throughout his body. After savagely thrusting deep into the woman's body several times, streams of fluid shot into the woman's body... The exhaustion after the passion left the couple lying together, panting as if they were completely drained. They remained silent for a long time, their eyes tightly closed. The woman opened her eyes, turned to face him, and draped a slender arm over his chest. After a moment of silent thought, she suddenly burst into tears and said, "I am truly grateful to you." Ouyang Yiming glanced at her. The woman said, "You satisfied me, satisfied my burning desire. This desire was fatal. Without you, I would have been left only with this burning desire." Ouyang Yiming asked, "What did you do before?" The woman blushed and said, "I had to take care of myself. But that wouldn't have the same feeling." As she spoke, she sat up and said, "I'll show you something."

She got out of bed, went to the kitchen cabinet, opened it, fumbled around for a while, and took out a delicate box. She got back into bed and sat down next to Ouyang Yiming, saying, "This is something my husband brought me from abroad."

She opened the box and took out something exactly like a man's penis, saying, "It's electric. I use it when I can't hold back." Ouyang Yiming took it and examined it carefully, secretly marveling that such a thing even existed. He squeezed it; it was surprisingly soft. The woman said, “My husband is so considerate. He knows I sometimes can’t help myself, so he brought me this. He really loves me. There aren’t many men who can understand and care for their woman’s physical needs like this. Even you, I don’t think I’ll ever buy something like this for my woman again. In this life, I won’t give this love in my heart to anyone else, including you.”

Ouyang Yiming sighed inwardly. He thought to himself, “Yes, how many men can tolerate their wives’ behavior like this? And if they can tolerate it, why would they think of buying something like this to satisfy their wives?” In that instant, he felt immense admiration for the woman’s husband.

After two more passionate nights together, Ouyang Yiming said he had to go home. The woman cried upon hearing this and asked, “Can’t you stay with me for one more night? Will you come again?” Ouyang Yiming said, “I have to go home. Maybe, maybe I will come again.” The woman said, “I need you, I really need you. Can you come once a week?” Ouyang Yiming thought for a moment and said, “We’ll see.” The woman wept for a while and then said, “I have a feeling that once you leave, you won’t see me again.” Ouyang Yiming remained silent.

The woman looked at him with pleading eyes and said, "Even if you pity me, please come every now and then. Your visit will satisfy me for a while, quench my thirst. Please come often, I beg you!" Ouyang Yiming's heart softened at her pitiful voice. Although he didn't know this woman very well, he sensed she was kind, at least she wouldn't harm him.

So he nodded and said, "Okay."

The woman became excited, a smile blooming on her face, and said, "I'm so grateful. I just thought about it. From now on, don't come directly to my house. I'll put a flowerpot on the balcony. If you see the flowerpot, just come upstairs; I'll definitely be home. If there's no flowerpot, I'm not home, or someone's home. I usually watch TV or read at home in the evenings; if you knock five times, I'll know it's you." Ouyang Yiming laughed and said, "You learned that from movies, didn't you? It's like a rendezvous." The woman smiled sheepishly and said, "It's unavoidable. It's not exactly aboveboard."

They parted at the door. The woman hugged him tightly, tears streaming down her face, and said, "Promise me you'll come. Don't forget me." Ouyang Yiming said, "I will." The woman said, "If you're coming next time, come earlier. I'll prepare some dishes, and we can have some drinks together." Ouyang Yiming nodded. They kissed for a while, then the woman opened the door, and Ouyang Yiming went out.

That night, Ouyang Yiming couldn't sleep for a long time. The name Bai Xue and what he had done with her kept churning in his mind. What kind of woman was she? She seemed quiet and gentle, yet she could be so bold and crazy when it came to such things. He had never imagined that his first sexual experience would be with a married woman he didn't know. This woman's journey from their first meeting at the movie theater to their chance encounter today was so magical.

Recalling the novel and exciting sexual encounters with Bai Xue, after a surge of heartbeats, his heart suddenly sank, and a strong sense of unease and fear tormented him. Liu Yan's image kept flashing before his eyes, filling him with extreme guilt, his heart and body trembling. "Liu Yan, I've wronged you," Ouyang Yiming repeated to himself.

A moment later, he defended himself in his mind: "It wasn't intentional. Bai Xue forced me. She took me to her house. She initiated it."

"Is that enough to forgive? After all, you gave your virginity to another woman. After all, you had such a sordid relationship with another woman. Didn't you feel extremely satisfied? Weren't you extremely excited when you were with Bai Xue? In the end, it was your own choice." Ouyang Yiming blamed himself again. At this moment, he felt an overwhelming sense of shame, as if Liu Yan was watching him from a distance. He buried his head under the thin blanket, breathing heavily.

"There won't be a next time. Just consider it a dream!" Ouyang Yiming thought sadly to himself. Thinking of the dream, Ouyang Yiming truly felt that everything that had happened between him and Bai Xue was a dream, as if it had all occurred within a dream. Dreams can end, and once awakened, they vanish. But the dream he had with Bai Xue would be permanently etched in his mind, never to disappear.

That night, a strong wind arose in the middle of the night, howling and whipping the trees, making mournful cries. A window, caught in the wind, opened and closed repeatedly, slamming against the frame with a crackling sound, but fortunately, the glass didn't shatter. Everyone in the dormitory was awakened. Ouyang Yiming hurriedly climbed out of bed and, braving the slapping wind, tightly closed the window. At the same time, large raindrops pattered against the windowpane, followed by a torrential downpour, blurring the apricot-yellow streetlights outside.

Jiang Yuqi, still half asleep, cursed, "Damn it, such heavy rain." He then pulled the blanket over his head.

Ouyang Yiming woke up before dawn, feeling cold all over. The temperature dropped sharply after the rain. For two days, Ouyang Yiming felt depressed. This woman who he couldn't figure out made him feel ashamed. When he met Xu Hui

's eyes, he felt fear and guilt. He didn't even dare to look anyone in the eye, as if what he and Bai Xue had done had been known by others and was being discussed in secret. This was an extremely sordid thing that made him unable to face everyone. He even felt as ashamed as Jin Ling and Liang Chao when they were caught, just like Jin Ling felt ashamed to face people those days. But what made him feel most uneasy and depressed was Liu Yan, whom he would meet in a few days. He remained silent and didn't want to talk to anyone, and he rarely went out during breaks. This woman, seemingly fallen from the sky, who instilled fear and dread in him, yet also gave him unparalleled pleasure—Bai Xue—had disrupted his normal life. This unexpected encounter and the events that unfolded left him bewildered and terrified. How many more unexpected events would one encounter in a lifetime?! "No one will know about this; it's just a dream," he would sometimes console himself in moments of extreme distress. "I must forget her, completely forget her!" he would sometimes think fiercely to himself. But after a while, he would say to himself: Once something like this happens, how easy is it to forget that person and those events?! "It won't happen again; this will only happen once. If I do meet her again, I will never be controlled by her like this, I will never have such a relationship with her again!" Only when he silently strengthened his resolve in his heart would his mind slowly calm down, but it would probably take him some time to return to his previous state. Two days later, after dinner, Ouyang Yiming encountered Li Xuan at the library entrance. In the days since Ouyang Yiming and Xu Hui had talked at the music station, he had been observing Li Xuan, intentionally or unintentionally. He found that she seemed perfectly fine, still talking and laughing as usual. He secretly admired her; this girl had a truly magnanimous heart, and he felt incomparable to her. At that moment, he felt a little ashamed. Sometimes he would recall her words at the music station about "having many ambitions," and wonder what those "ambitions" might be. He couldn't guess, but he was certain that such a broad-minded and generous girl would surely do something extraordinary in the future. Li Xuan called out to him, saying mysteriously, "Your mother-in-law is here. Didn't you go to visit her with her?" Ouyang Yiming knew that the mother-in-law Li Xuan was referring to was definitely Xu Hui's mother. Looking around at the classmates walking by, he blushed slightly and whispered a reproach to Li Xuan, "Don't talk nonsense. Be careful others hear you. Xu Hui's mother is here?" Li Xuan stuck out her tongue at him, made a face, and giggled twice, saying, "She came at noon, but left after a short while. I didn't see her; Wu Yingying told me. Everyone in her dorm saw her and brought Xu Hui some delicious food, which was all devoured by those foodies. Xu Hui went to her mother's place after class today. I thought you knew. Aren't you going to see her?" Ouyang Yiming said, "You always talk nonsense." Li Xuan chuckled softly and said, "People say an ugly daughter-in-law is afraid to meet her in-laws, and an ugly son-in-law is afraid to meet his mother-in-law. You, such a dashing son-in-law, are afraid to meet your mother-in-law?" Ouyang Yiming blushed and shook his head, saying, "Stop joking. Go inside and study." Ouyang Yiming didn't take Li Xuan's words to heart. The next morning, on his way back to the dormitory after class, he ran into Xu Hui and Wu Yingying. Xu Hui casually mentioned to him, "My mother is here." Ouyang Yiming and Jiang Yuqi were walking together, and not wanting to reveal that he had already heard about it from Li Xuan, he asked, "Really? When did she arrive?" Xu Hui replied, "She came on Monday. She's here for a meeting, something about a provincial local opera symposium. Who listens to opera these days? My mother is an opera singer, and I absolutely hate listening to it." Ouyang Yiming smiled and said, "That's incredibly disrespectful of you. Doesn't your mother get angry if you say that?" Xu Hui said, "You're wrong about that. I often make my stance clear to her." Ouyang Yiming shook his head and smiled. Jiang Yuqi stared wide-eyed at Xu Hui and asked, "Your mother is an actress?" Xu Hui replied, "Yes, why are your eyes so wide? My mother is a famous Kunqu Opera actress in Suzhou; she was a leading lady when she was young." Jiang Yuqi laughed and said, "No wonder you're so beautiful; you have an actress mother. Your mother must have been as beautiful as you when she was young." Xu Hui said, "Of course my mother was very beautiful when she was young." Jiang Yuqi said, "You must look like her." Wu Yingying chimed in, "You really do look a bit alike. Especially her eyes." Ouyang Yiming and Jiang Yuqi looked at Xu Hui's eyes. Jiang Yuqi laughed and said, "Xu Hui's eyes are really beautiful. I can imagine how beautiful your mother must have been when she was young." Xu Hui blushed, glanced at Jiang Yuqi, and said, "Who needs your praise?" As she spoke, she glanced at Ouyang Yiming. She thought to herself, "I would love to hear these words coming from Ouyang Yiming." But she saw Ouyang Yiming walking with his head down, grinning foolishly. He pulled Wu Yingying along, saying, "Come on, let's not tell them." The two quickly walked a few steps ahead. Jiang Yuqi looked at Ouyang Yiming and smiled, "You're really lucky. It'll be much more convenient for you to listen to Kunqu Opera from now on."

Ouyang Yiming glanced at him but didn't speak. The image of Liu Yan flashed through his mind, followed by Bai Xue. His heart sank.

During the last self-study period on Thursday afternoon, just before the end of class, Xu Hui suddenly walked to his seat, handed him a book, and said, "Finished reading? Here you go." Ouyang Yiming looked at her suspiciously. Xu Hui smiled sweetly, said, "Thank you," and turned to leave.

Ouyang Yiming took the book and saw it was Margaret Mitchell's novel *Gone with the Wind*. He knew he hadn't lent her a book, so there must be some secret in it. He opened it and saw a note tucked inside, but didn't dare read it, stuffing it into his pocket.

After class, he went outside and opened it in a secluded spot. It read: "Be here before 7 PM after dinner. I need to talk to you urgently. It's very important, remember to be on time." Below were detailed directions. He turned back to look at the classroom crowd, but Xu Hui was nowhere to be seen.

Ouyang Yiming was surprised. This was the first time Xu Hui had asked him out alone in the evening, and he wondered what it was about. What kind of "urgent matter" could it be? Thinking back to Xu Hui's expression when she returned the book, he thought she didn't seem to have anything urgent. So what was so "important"? He thought for a while but couldn't come up with anything. He

hadn't seen Xu Hui eating in the cafeteria that evening. Suddenly, he wondered if Xu Hui wanted him to meet her mother! A chill ran down his spine, and he felt uneasy. Then he thought, Xu Hui wouldn't be so impulsive. She wouldn't disregard his feelings or ask him to meet her mother without even saying hello. Besides, they hadn't even talked about love yet; a girl wouldn't introduce herself to her mother at this point. Although he was suspicious, he decided to go anyway.

He took a bus for three stops at the school gate, then changed buses and took another five stops. Ouyang Yiming got off at the stop Xu Hui had indicated, walked a little further, and saw Xu Hui waiting for him under a tree by the roadside. Seeing her smiling face, Ouyang Yiming knew she wasn't in a hurry, so he stepped forward and asked, "Why did you bring me here?" Xu Hui smiled and said, "Of course there's something. I was afraid you wouldn't come. I knew you wouldn't." Ouyang Yiming frowned and asked, "What could it be that requires us to come here? So mysterious."

Xu Hui blushed and gave him a playful smile, saying, "You'll find out soon enough." Ouyang Yiming was puzzled but followed her forward. After about ten steps, they reached a teahouse. Xu Hui turned to look at him and said, "Please have some tea." Ouyang Yiming stopped and said, "Are you running a fever? Coming all this way for tea? Something must be up." Xu Hui said, "Of course there is.

Talking over tea, isn't that romantic?"

Ouyang Yiming stopped, a premonition forming in his mind. Could it be that Xu Hui had asked him to meet her mother? He looked a little nervous and asked Xu Hui, "Did you ask me to come see your mother?" Xu Hui paused, then smiled and said, "I just wanted to talk to you about something." She glanced at Ouyang Yiming and saw his discomfort, which annoyed her. She asked,

"I did ask you to come see my mother. How can you leave now? To be honest, I just wanted you to talk to my mother."

Ouyang Yiming's heart skipped a beat. He stared at her with wide eyes and said, "Really? To see your mother?! How come you..." Xu Hui thought to herself, seeing his expression, "You're really useless. You get so nervous when you see my mother." She said, "Are you afraid my mom will eat you alive?"

Ouyang Yiming felt flustered, his face flushed, and he said, "No, this is too sudden, I wasn't prepared at all." Xu Hui laughed and said, "What, are you thinking of buying something for my mom? I'll thank you for your kindness on her behalf." Ouyang Yiming said, "No, I mean I'm not mentally prepared at all." Xu Hui said, "What do you need to prepare to meet my mom? Just chat casually. You're a man, why are you so timid!" Ouyang Yiming said, "This is too sudden." "I did think about it, but I never felt you'd be so reckless.

You should have at least told me."

Xu Hui was slightly annoyed. "I'll be reckless this once. Would you have come if I'd told you?!" She paused, then stared into his eyes and said, "Speaking of which, even if I had told you beforehand that I was coming to see my mother, you couldn't have refused to give me that face. Fine, I won't force you. If you don't want to see me, go back now. But let me tell you, if you make me lose face in front of my mother, I'll never speak to you again for the rest of my life."

With that, she turned and walked away. Ouyang Yiming grabbed her arm and said, "Look at you, why are you so angry? I didn't say I wouldn't see you." Xu Hui said irritably, "Whatever, you have legs. If you don't want to come in, am I supposed to drag you in?" Ouyang Yiming smiled awkwardly and said, "I'm here now. Fine, I'll see you then." Xu Hui looked at him and chuckled, saying sarcastically, "You, I really don't know what to say to you. The reason I left you the note was because I was afraid you wouldn't want to see my mother. Let's go."

Ouyang Yiming nervously followed Xu Hui inside. The teahouse was softly lit, and the gentle strains of Chopin's Serenade filled the air. It was Ouyang Yiming's first time here, and he felt a sense of novelty and curiosity. His eyes darted nervously around as he followed Xu Hui. Stopping at a table in a corner, Ouyang Yiming saw a middle-aged woman standing beside her, looking at him.

The woman appeared to be around thirty-five or thirty-six years old to Ouyang Yiming, and was about the same height as Xu Hui. Her black hair was pulled up high, revealing her slender neck; her eyes were like spring water, and her skin was as white as jade. She was tall and stylishly dressed. A gentle smile graced her peach-blossom face, which resembled Xu Hui's. The beauty of a mature woman radiated from her graceful and delicate figure. This was Xu Hui's mother, Yang Ping.

Ouyang Yiming and Xu Hui stopped in front of the woman's table. Xu Hui introduced her, saying, "This is my mother." Ouyang Yiming was struck by how much she resembled Xu Hui. He hadn't expected Xu Hui's mother to be so young and have such a beautiful figure. Judging by her appearance, one could easily believe she was Xu Hui's older sister. After being introduced to his mother by Xu Hui, Ouyang Yiming's heart pounded. He mechanically nodded to the woman and greeted her in a trembling voice, "Hello, Auntie."

Xu Hui then tugged at Ouyang Yiming and said to her mother, "This is Ouyang."

Yang Ping glanced down at Ouyang Yiming a few times, smiled and nodded at him, then elegantly extended a hand, saying, "Hello, please sit down." So everyone sat down.

Ouyang Yiming was momentarily stunned. Meeting the elderly woman for the first time, or rather, knowing in his heart that she was Xu Hui's mother, who had feelings for him, made him uneasy and reserved. He sat there dumbfounded, unsure of what to say. Seeing his embarrassed expression, Xu Hui felt guilty for not giving Ouyang any time to prepare him. She tugged at Ouyang Yiming again. As she poured tea, Xu Hui glanced at Ouyang Yiming's embarrassed expression and whispered in his ear, "I'm sorry, it's my fault for not telling you beforehand that I was coming to see my mother, and I didn't let you prepare."

Ouyang Yiming, who had been feeling a little angry, couldn't help but smile at Xu Hui's words. Glancing at Xu Hui, he thought to himself, "I can't show my displeasure in front of Xu Hui's mother," so he tried to calm himself down, smiled, and looked up at Xu Hui's mother, saying, "I heard from a classmate the day before yesterday that Auntie went to school, but I didn't see her."

Yang Ping smiled and said, "I went there for a while at noon, but I was afraid of disturbing her studies. I've been busy with meetings these past few days, so I haven't gone again." Ouyang Yiming said, "You should have come to visit Auntie earlier, but Xu Hui didn't tell me."

Yang Ping smiled happily and said, "Xu Hui always mentions you to me, saying that you've been so kind to me these past few years... " She was very considerate, so I told her I wanted to see her and chat. Xu Hui said she didn't tell me she was coming to see me, you won't mind, will you?"

Ouyang Yiming glanced at Xu Hui again and said, "No, if Xu Hui had told me earlier, I would have come much sooner."

Yang Ping laughed, "Xu Hui even said that if she had told you beforehand, you wouldn't have come. It seems Xu Hui was overthinking it." Turning to Xu Hui, she said, "Look how sensible Ouyang is."

Xu Hui smiled, but in her heart she thought, "Don't I know him? If I had told him beforehand, he definitely wouldn't have come." She also thought, "Ouyang Yiming is really a man, he can control himself in such a short time, and he's so good at talking." She was quite pleased.

Yang Ping looked at Ouyang Yiming and said, "Xu Hui always praises you, saying you're a talented scholar and a diligent student. She also calls you a bookworm, but I don't agree. I don't think you're like a bookworm at all. Your behavior and speech are very proper, and your social skills seem good too."

Xu Hui blushed and glanced at her mother shyly, saying, "I never praised him. He's just a bookworm."

Yang Ping laughed and said, "Xu Hui said you study very hard and are even planning to take the postgraduate entrance exam after graduating from university, right?" Ouyang Yiming scratched his head and said, "I have that plan, but I don't know if it'll work out." "Let's talk about it next semester," Yang Ping said. "It's good that you have the ambition; where there's a will, there's

a way. Xu Hui doesn't have such lofty ambitions as you, so you have to help her." Ouyang Yiming said, "Xu Hui is quite studious." Yang Ping said, "I know her well. Before the college entrance exam, if her father and I hadn't been watching over her and pushing her so hard, she might not have gotten into this university. She's very smart, but she needs encouragement. Since her father and I aren't around, you'll have to supervise her more." Ouyang Yiming blushed and smiled.

Xu Hui pouted at her mother and said, "Is my college entrance exam all thanks to you and Dad?!"

Yang Ping smiled, seeing that Xu Hui didn't respond. She said to Ouyang Yiming, "Her father and I only have this one daughter, and we've spoiled her since she was little. She's a bit pampered and sometimes willful, I know that."

Ouyang Yiming said, "She's quite good. Her classmates at school all have good opinions of her."

Yang Ping nodded and said, "Actually, she's quite sensible. Overall, she's not bad, and I'm basically satisfied with her."

Xu Hui then interjected, playfully scolding, "Oh dear, why do you always talk about me?!"

Ouyang Yiming and Yang Ping both laughed.

Ouyang Yiming changed the subject, saying, "Xu Hui told me you're a traditional opera performer."

Yang Ping laughed, saying, "Xu Hui would say I'm a traditional opera performer?!" She shook her head, saying, "I don't believe you, you've embellished that. She always says I'm just a singer." She paused, then said, "Actually, I am just a singer. I sing Kunqu Opera, also called Kunqu. It's an ancient opera genre, and you could say it's our national treasure. Kunqu Opera is known for its clear and melodious tunes, delicate and graceful dances, superb martial arts techniques, and sincere and heartfelt performances, which has kept it alive for over six hundred years. It's very charming and deeply loved by audiences. I started learning Kunqu Opera professionally at sixteen and have been singing for half my life. I love this genre and I love this stage, but not many young people like it anymore. I hope you'll have the chance to come to Suzhou to see our performance."

Yang Ping couldn't contain her excitement when she talked about her profession, and she seemed quite agitated.

Xu Hui pouted at Ouyang Yiming and said, "My mother can't talk about Kunqu Opera; once she starts, she has endless things to say."

Ouyang Yiming said, "That's just the dedication of an artist."

Hearing Ouyang Yiming's words, Yang Ping seemed even more excited, her face beaming with a bright smile. Looking at Xu Hui, she said, "Look how pleasant Ouyang's words are. Unlike you, you don't support my work at all."

Xu Hui looked at Ouyang Yiming and said, "This is the first time I've seen you speak so well." Then she turned to her mother and said, "He's usually not very talkative, and I've never seen him speak so pleasantly before. It's really strange today."

Yang Ping said, "Ouyang is much more sensible than you."

Ouyang Yiming smiled sheepishly, only then realizing that he no longer felt the nervousness and restraint he had when he first arrived. He felt very calm, as if he were facing an acquaintance. He felt as if there was no generation gap between him and Xu Hui's mother; they seemed like friends without even realizing it. He was surprised that he felt no shyness after meeting Xu Hui's mother for a while.

Yang Ping smiled and said to Ouyang Yiming, "I wouldn't dare call myself an artist, but I do love my profession. Having dedicated half my life to Kunqu Opera, how could I not have feelings for it?"

Ouyang Yiming asked, "Auntie, do you still perform on stage often?" Yang Ping replied, "I don't perform often anymore; I mainly teach students. I'm forty-five now, and singing and running around are getting a bit tiring."

Ouyang Yiming was surprised that Yang Ping was already forty-five; she didn't look forty at all. He thought to himself that she looked more like she was in her thirties, but he didn't say it aloud. He knew that while Xu Hui's mother would like to hear that, she might misunderstand it as a compliment.

Xu Hui, however, said proudly, "Look at my mom, she doesn't look that old, does she? People on the street say we look like sisters."

Ouyang Yiming said, "Yes, Auntie does look very young." Yang Ping was happy inside, a smile on her face, but she said, "I'm getting old."

The relaxed and pleasant conversation lasted for over an hour before they realized it. Ouyang Yiming felt there wasn't much to say, so he said goodbye, "You two chat, I'll head back now." Xu Hui's mother said, "Why are you in such a hurry? You and Xu Hui can go back together later."

Xu Hui glanced at Ouyang Yiming, thinking he might be a little reserved talking to his mother, and said, "Let him go back first, I'll stay a bit longer. I want to talk to you."

Xu Hui didn't want to go back with Ouyang Yiming either. Although he seemed relaxed, she knew he would still resent her for bringing him to meet his mother in this way. She didn't want to hear his reproach. Yang Ping said, "Alright then, be careful on the road." Ouyang Yiming replied, said goodbye to Yang Ping, and got up to leave.

Yang Ping was a very easygoing woman. In the troupe, although she was the deputy head, she was humble to everyone. This was related to her personality. She was a simple person without complicated thoughts, someone who loved theater dearly. Although she and Xu Hui were mother and daughter, they talked about almost everything. In Xu Hui's eyes, her mother was more than just a mother; she was like an older sister or a close friend.

When Xu Hui came to see her, the two chatted, and Yang Ping asked her daughter, "I heard that many college students are dating these days. Has anyone pursued you?" Xu Hui immediately thought of Ouyang Yiming and proudly said, "How could a beautiful woman like me not have suitors?!" Yang Ping was also satisfied with her daughter's appearance and temperament. She thought that with her daughter's qualities, she would definitely have many suitors. So she smiled and asked, "Tell me, who are they?"

Xu Hui was stunned. She searched her memory but couldn't recall anyone writing her love letters or expressing their affection. She blushed slightly and said to her mother, "To be honest, I haven't received a single love letter, nor have I ever directly told anyone."

Yang Ping was a little surprised and shook her head, saying, "I don't believe you. Is it because you don't want to tell me? Or are your standards too high, making them feel unattainable?" Xu Hui smiled and said, "That's true to some extent. It's not that they don't want to pursue me, it's that they're afraid they won't be able to." Yang Ping said, "That's not good either. Otherwise, some outstanding boys who have feelings for you won't dare to express them." Xu Hui said, "It's not what you think. It's because they all think Ouyang and I are a couple, so who would dare to compete with Ouyang for me?"

Yang Ping suddenly became interested and said, "Who is Ouyang? Is he that amazing?" Xu Hui said with a joyful expression, "My favorite person. And the person who likes me the most."

Yang Ping smiled and said: "Judging from your expression and tone, this Ouyang is quite outstanding at your school, huh?!" Xu Hui raised her head and said, "Not just outstanding, he's exceptionally outstanding." Yang Ping stared at her, somewhat excited, and asked, "Really? You two are dating?"

Xu Hui shook her head and said, "He's a bookworm, and we haven't talked about it yet. We both know how the other feels, we just haven't mentioned it. Many classmates think we've been dating for a long time. Everyone knows that only Ouyang is good enough for me, and some of my good friends say that we're the most compatible couple."

Yang Ping thought for a moment, then shook her head slightly and said, "A bookworm isn't necessarily outstanding."

Xu Hui quickly explained, "I call him a bookworm because he prioritizes his studies right now. He clearly likes me, and people have mentioned it to our faces. But he hasn't told me he likes me to my face. He's not the kind of bookworm you imagine, like a wooden doll."

Yang Ping smiled and said, "Judging from your expression, I can tell that Ouyang has already taken a very important place in your heart." Xu Hui said shyly, "Not just important, but extremely important."

Yang Ping lowered her head and thought for a moment, then said, "Now that you mention it, I really want to meet this Ouyang."

Xu Hui hesitated for a moment, then said, "I'm afraid that won't work. I know him well. If I tell him I want to meet you, I think he would absolutely refuse."

Yang Ping nodded and said, "That's true. Your father was the same way back then, afraid to meet your grandparents. These men are usually quite bold, but for some reason, they become so timid when meeting their girlfriends' families."

Xu Hui said, "We haven't even talked about our relationship face-to-face yet. He said he plans to take the postgraduate entrance exam after graduating from university, and I'm afraid it will interfere with his studies. Besides, I don't want to go on dates with him frequently right now. Although we both know what the other is thinking, neither of us has mentioned it." Yang Ping nodded, then looked up and asked, "This Ouyang is quite rational.

Are you so sure he likes you too?"

Xu Hui laughed happily and said, "Is your daughter stupid? How could she not know these things? He doesn't just like me, he really likes me. He loves me. I can't even sense these things."

Yang Ping looked at her daughter and laughed, saying, "Aren't you ashamed? He hasn't even mentioned it to you yet, and you're already saying yes or no. So confident?" Xu Hui blushed and said, "What's there to be ashamed of in front of you?! It's not just ordinary confidence, it's extreme confidence. Look at your beautiful daughter, who could she not be good enough for? Besides, do you think I can't see through his feelings!"

Yang Ping smiled and nodded, saying, "Although it's a little shameless for you to say this, it's the truth. I really want to meet him." Xu Hui shook her head and said, "He definitely won't see you." Yang Ping was somewhat disappointed.

Yesterday, when Xu Hui came to see her mother, Yang Ping brought up Ouyang Yiming again, saying, "I'm going back to Suzhou the day after tomorrow after my meeting. I've been thinking about you and Ouyang these past two days.

I really want to see him." Xu Hui frowned. Yang Ping quickly said, "Here's an idea, what do you think?"

Xu Hui perked up immediately and asked with great interest what the good idea was. Yang Ping said, "I think you shouldn't tell him directly, so he doesn't refuse you outright. Tomorrow night, before you come to my place, try to leave him a note saying you have something to discuss with him, leaving him no room to ask you questions. That way, he can't refuse you outright. This way, you can also test if he's sincere towards you, if he really cares about you. If he truly cares about you, he'll keep the appointment no matter what. If he doesn't come, it means he doesn't really care about you."

Xu Hui became interested when she heard the second half of her mother's sentence, thinking: Yes, although I understand his feelings, I still haven't verified it. This method is quite good. At the same time, she was genuinely worried that Ouyang Yiming wouldn't come after seeing the note. But her desire to try was also very strong. So she said to her mother, "I think this plan is feasible. Mom is so thoughtful. Let's do it this way."

So the mother and daughter began to plan. Yang Ping's idea was to invite Ouyang Yiming to a restaurant for a meal. Xu Hui considered it and said, "Let him eat first. It'll make him feel uncomfortable eating with you. Besides, if he comes to eat with you, will you pay or will he pay?" Yang Ping thought it made sense, but joked, "Look, you're not even married yet, and you're already trying to save him money. It's only right that he treats his future mother-in-law to a meal." Xu Hui blushed and said, "He's just a student, how could he have money? He'll definitely treat you later!"

Yang Ping laughed happily.

Afterwards, the mother and daughter discussed where would be suitable, and finally decided to meet Ouyang Yiming at this teahouse.

After Ouyang Yiming left, Yang Ping said to Xu Hui with a beaming smile, "You have good taste." Xu Hui said proudly, "I wasn't exaggerating, was I?" Yang Ping praised, "He's a very outstanding young man." Then she teased, "If I were twenty years younger, I'd definitely compete with you for him." Xu Hui giggled and said, "No one can take him away. I know he only likes me." Yang Ping laughed, "Be careful someone else snatches him away." Xu Hui smiled confidently and said, "That's absolutely impossible. Besides your beautiful daughter, who else is worthy of him?"

On his way back to school, Ouyang Yiming was really a little annoyed with Xu Hui. He was annoyed that she had tricked him into meeting her mother without any preparation. He was even a little angry.

But after a while, he calmed down and forgave her in his heart. He knew Xu Hui's feelings for him. He also understood that Xu Hui did this entirely because she liked him. He also thought that Xu Hui had tricked him into coming because she understood him. If she had told him the truth, she would have known that he wouldn't come to see her mother, so she had resorted to this tactic.

He imagined that a girl would use such a kind trick to deceive him, and only someone who truly loved him could do that. How could he blame her? But the more he knew about Xu Hui's feelings for him, the more his heart trembled. He couldn't imagine what the future would hold for him and Xu Hui. His heart sank deeper and deeper.

Love and Desire (25) Chapter

Twenty-Three

The next morning, on the way to the classroom, Xu Hui saw Ouyang Yiming walking ahead of her. She quickly walked over to him and whispered, "You acted so cool in front of my mom. She's very satisfied." Ouyang Yiming turned to look at her, hesitant to speak. Xu Hui saw that he was frowning and thought he was still angry. She said sweetly, "Silly boy," and ran away with a smile.

Ouyang Yiming didn't expect that in just a few days, two things would happen that made him unable to face Liu Yan. He had been depressed for the past few days.

These two unexpected events weighed heavily on his mind. He wanted to confide in someone, he wanted to tell Liu Yan. But he also knew that his affair with Bai Xue was something he absolutely couldn't tell anyone; no woman would forgive such a thing. He couldn't tell anyone. Even if he told Liu Yan about meeting Xu Hui's mother, he was still very worried. He repeatedly considered whether it was feasible, whether Liu Yan would be angry if she knew, or whether she would have other thoughts that made him hesitate. This complicated state of mind made him feel somewhat tired.

That evening was the time for his date with Liu Yan. He had a strong desire to see her, yet he was also very timid about meeting her.

That night, Ouyang Yiming went to Wuchaomen Park with a heavy heart, feeling guilty and uneasy. After getting off the car, he looked into the park and saw Liu Yan in the distance. He couldn't help but tremble and stop in his tracks. At that moment, he felt extremely uneasy, as if he were a criminal and Liu Yan was the judge going to be judged. After hesitating for a moment and seeing Liu Yan looking at him, he finally took heavy steps towards Liu Yan.

Liu Yan greeted him with a smile. Ouyang Yiming glanced at her, his heart pounding with unease, but he still managed a smile and asked, "You're here so early today, what time did you arrive?" Liu Yan replied,

"I've been here for quite a while." She drew out the word "quite a while," and then laughed. Ouyang Yiming smiled back. Liu Yan smiled sweetly and said, "I missed you, why didn't you come sooner?" Ouyang Yiming glanced at her guiltily. Images of Bai Xue's naked body flashed through his mind. His heart pounded, and he trembled.

Liu Yan noticed something was wrong with Ouyang Yiming and looked at him, asking, "What's wrong with you today?"

Ouyang Yiming was startled, as if Liu Yan had seen through his thoughts, and he panicked slightly. After a moment, he composed himself and said, "Nothing." Liu Yan looked at him and said, "You seem unhappy." Ouyang Yiming said, "Nothing's wrong." Liu Yan looked at him again but didn't speak. Ouyang Yiming reached out and took her hand, asking, "Did you miss me?" Liu Yan smiled at him and said, "What do you think?" Ouyang Yiming said, "I really missed you, so much." Liu Yan said, "I felt the same way."

Reaching the tree, Ouyang Yiming, his heart filled with complex emotions, suddenly embraced Liu Yan tightly, pressing his lips to hers. He dared not meet her gaze; it seemed only through kissing could he soothe the guilt he felt towards her. The two kissed passionately, their emotions swirling within them. After a while, Ouyang Yiming could no longer control himself. The pent-up bitterness that had been building up inside him for days erupted uncontrollably during their kiss. Like seeing a loved one, tears streamed down his face as he held Liu Yan tightly, struggling to suppress his sobs. At that moment, Liu Yan tasted the salty bitterness of tears mingling with Ouyang Yiming's kiss. She held her breath, abruptly separating from him, cupping his head in her hands, staring intently at him, and asking in surprise, "What's wrong?"

Ouyang Yiming gave Liu Yan a pitiful look, quickly averting his gaze, and buried his face in her neck, weeping. Liu Yan's heart pounded wildly, and she was at a loss for what to do. A moment later, she snapped out of her daze and turned Ouyang Yiming's head, anxiously asking, "What's wrong? Speak!" Ouyang Yiming sobbed, "I...I...I'm sorry." Liu Yan stared intently at Ouyang Yiming's face, remaining silent for a long time. Judging from his expression, his actions, and his crying, something serious must have happened. She was too nervous to ask him anything.

Ouyang Yiming, who had been avoiding Liu Yan's eyes, shrank back, burying his face in his hands and crouching down. A moment later, he regretted his outburst; he didn't know why he had suddenly erupted into such emotions. He thought to himself that this uncontrollable emotion was all because of Bai Xue, and what he and Bai Xue had done was something he absolutely couldn't tell Liu Yan. So now he had no choice but to tell her about going to see Xu Hui's mother.

Liu Yan crouched beside him and softly asked, "What happened? What did you do to wrong me?" Ouyang Yiming was speechless. Liu Yan raised her voice and asked, "Tell me, did something happen between you and Xu Hui?" Ouyang Yiming trembled with fear and lowered his head, saying, "The day before yesterday, the day before yesterday I went to see Xu Hui's mother."

Although Liu Yan suspected something might have happened between Ouyang Yiming and Xu Hui, hearing it from his mouth still made her heart tremble. She asked urgently, "Xu Hui's mother?! Where did you go to see Xu Hui's mother? Did you have a relationship with Xu Hui?" Ouyang Yiming shook his head and said, "I didn't have a relationship with Xu Hui. I just went to see her mother." Liu Yan asked, "Where? Did you go to her house or did her mother come?" Ouyang Yiming said, "Her mother came here for a meeting. I went to see her." Liu Yan was stunned for a moment and said, "Tell me slowly, tell me in detail. How did you know her mother was coming to a meeting, and how did you end up going to see her mother?"

Ouyang Yiming then recounted how Xu Hui had tricked him into going to see Yang Ping by writing a note. Liu Yan felt relieved after hearing this and asked, "So what did you and Xu Hui's mother talk about?" Ouyang Yiming said,

"We didn't talk much, just chatted for a while."

Liu Yan lowered her head and thought for a moment, then said, "I understand Xu Hui's intention. She really has feelings for you, and she already considers you her lover. Otherwise, she wouldn't have let you meet her mother like that." Ouyang Yiming nodded. Liu Yan said, "I know you care about Xu Hui too." Ouyang Yiming was startled and looked up at her, saying, "Me?" Liu Yan stared at him and asked, "Did I say something wrong? If you didn't care about her, would you rush to meet her in the middle of the night after she wrote you a note? If you didn't have any feelings for Xu Hui, would she be so devoted to you?

Can you deny that you don't have her in your heart?"

Ouyang Yiming blushed under Liu Yan's questioning and said, "I really don't have anything between us. We've never talked about this before." Liu Yan said, "You haven't said anything. But she likes you and loves you, and we both know that." Ouyang Yiming said, "I felt it, but aren't we in love now?" Liu Yan said, "Yes, you are in love with me, but I beat her to it. But you still have her in your heart, you can't deny that." Ouyang Yiming said, "Yes, I don't deny it, I don't deny liking her, but it hasn't evolved into love.

You know about me and Xu Hui, and I've explained it to you."

Liu Yan looked at him and sneered. The cold laugh sent a chill down Ouyang Yiming's spine. He truly regretted his loss of control and revealing his plan to meet Xu Hui's mother.

He thought of what he and Bai Xue had done, and what the consequences would be if Liu Yan found out. The thought of Bai Xue sent another shiver down his spine.

Ouyang Yiming said, "I was considering not telling you, but I was so eager to. Xu Hui's feelings for me have been suffocating me these past few days. Meeting Xu Hui's mother this time has made me even more uneasy. I'm worried about what will happen between Xu Hui and me. I wanted to tell you, to get your understanding, and to get some advice. I feel so bad for you that I went to see Xu Hui's mother." As he spoke, his heart ached, and tears welled up in his eyes.

Liu Yan felt a surge of warmth in her heart. She thought to herself that it was truly difficult for Ouyang Yiming, and felt comforted that he had managed to meet Xu Hui's mother, and that his guilt towards her was something to be ashamed of. She thought, "Ouyang Yiming loves me; he only loves me." Otherwise, even if he hadn't said anything, she wouldn't have known. The fact that he would apologize for something like this shows his sincerity. She was also secretly moved by Ouyang Yiming's naiveté and honesty. For a moment, she felt a sense of satisfaction at her earlier lack of composure. However, she still felt an instinctive jealousy that Ouyang Yiming had met Xu Hui's mother; this unspoken jealousy prevented her from calming down. She told herself, "This isn't Ouyang Yiming's fault; I must stay calm. Otherwise, he'll become even more uneasy."

So she said in a calm tone, "You should have said it, and I understand your intentions. You wanted to confess to me, or perhaps you felt you were deceiving me by not telling me. I should understand. I'm even a little moved that you feel guilty and shed tears over this. It shows you care about me and love me. I was also momentarily jealous and couldn't accept it. Don't blame me."

Ouyang Yiming felt a surge of warmth in his heart, and his eyes welled up with tears. He felt a strong sense of grievance, yet at the same time, he felt an even greater sense of satisfaction towards Liu Yan. He thought to himself, "Liu Yan, my guilt isn't because I went to see Xu Hui's mother. I'm crying because I did something you absolutely cannot tolerate. I'm so sorry, truly so sorry. It will never happen again, never again." He felt like crying. And so tears streamed down her face… Liu Yan sighed and said, “I understand. You love me, but you also like her. If I hadn’t come along, you two would have ended up loving each other. But you and I fell in love. It’s all God’s arrangement. I’m so glad I got your love, so glad God gave you and Xu Hui to me early on. But I’m still worried that Xu Hui will take you away from me. I know you don’t want Xu Hui to remain so infatuated with you, but you don’t know how to stop it. You’re also afraid of hurting her. But what kind of ending will this have? I really can’t imagine.”

Ouyang Yiming was surprised by her analysis. At this moment, he felt a special respect for Xu Hui and said, “Yes, that’s it. I’ve thought about telling Xu Hui about us many times, but I never dared to. I was afraid of hurting her, afraid that I wouldn’t be able to face her after hurting her, afraid that she might lose her temper after knowing that you and I love each other, afraid that it would disrupt our relatively peaceful environment and affect our studies. I was even more afraid that our classmates wouldn’t know.” Suspicion breeds all sorts of gossip.

Liu Yan nodded, saying, "What you fear is true; these things could all happen. But ultimately, we'll still hurt her."

Ouyang Yiming sighed, "Yes, I've considered intentionally distancing myself from her, but that would definitely arouse her suspicion. Then she might question me."

Liu Yan said, "Not just possibly, she definitely will question you."

Ouyang Yiming said, "That's what I think too. What I mean is, even though she still has feelings for me, we've never mentioned it. These things are kept in our hearts, and without being exposed, we can only maintain this facade. I plan to reveal our relationship to her before graduation, so that after being hurt, she won't have to suffer every day facing me, someone in the same school. And I won't have to suffer from her unspoken reproaches every day, feeling distressed, guilty, and affecting my studies."

Liu Yan nodded, saying, "It seems you've thought about this for a long time. What other choice is there? This is the only way."

Ouyang Yiming said, "It's a helpless situation. I didn't want to do this, but I had no other choice. Thinking about it makes me feel like a heavy stone is pressing on my heart."

Liu Yan said, "I know you won't feel any better. But right now, I'm not thinking about you. I'm just wondering, even if, as you said, I only let her know about our relationship right before graduation, could she handle the blow? I understand us women. Once we women have given our hearts and then have to take them back, it's more painful than death. I can't imagine how Xu Hui will feel then."

Hearing this, Ouyang Yiming's heart sank again. "Then what do you suggest we do?" Liu Yan asked anxiously.

Xu Hui sighed heavily and said sadly, "What good solution is there? We can only do as you say." She paused and then added, "Of course, the best solution is for me to back out, that way..."

Before Liu Yan could finish, Ouyang Yiming hugged her tightly and said, "Don't say anymore, if you back out, you'll kill me."

Liu Yan gazed at him for a moment, then suddenly smiled and said, "Don't worry, I won't back out. If I back out like that, I wouldn't be Liu Yan."

Ouyang Yiming breathed a sigh of relief, but he was still confused by her seemingly sarcastic words.

Liu Yan stopped smiling and said, "I won't give up, never! Unless you don't love me." Her tone was heavy and firm.

Ouyang Yiming looked at her in astonishment.

Liu Yan said, "I love you more than I love my parents and family. I can't lose you, I can't throw away the love I've gained. Do you understand?"

Ouyang Yiming nodded. Tears suddenly welled up in Liu Yan's eyes. In that instant, she couldn't control herself and buried her face in Ouyang Yiming's arms, sobbing uncontrollably.

Ouyang Yiming was momentarily at a loss. He held Liu Yan tightly, saying, "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, it's all my fault."

Liu Yan choked out, "I never imagined that my first love would turn out like this, that the person I love would have another woman who loves him so deeply. Why did this happen?"

Ouyang Yiming didn't know what to say either, so he could only hold her tightly, unconsciously patting her hand. His heart was filled with guilt.

After a while, Liu Yan stopped crying, pulled away from him, took out a handkerchief, and wiped her tears. Ouyang Yiming cupped her face in his hands and said, "I'm sorry, it's all my fault. It's all my fault for telling you these things." Liu Yan

shook her head and said, "No, I don't blame you. I just feel a little sad."

Ouyang Yiming said, "If I hadn't told you, you wouldn't..."

Liu Yan said, "You should have told me. I know in my heart that you told me because you are sincere towards me. I won't blame you. To be honest, I respect you even more. Actually, I wouldn't have known even if you hadn't told me. Telling me your secrets shows how much you care about me. But I'm still very sad. It's my fault, but I couldn't control myself."

Ouyang Yiming said, "I've been quite troubled by this these past few days, and I wanted to tell you." In his heart, he thought that he could never forgive Bai Xue for what happened.

Liu Yan sighed and said, "I understand. Don't say anything more, just do as you wish."

Love and Desire (26)

Chapter Twenty-Four

Liu Yan moved and sat on Ouyang Yiming's lap, their mouths touching. Their tongues roamed in each other's mouths. Their tongues intertwined. Their lips sucked the sweet nectar secreted by each other's mouths... Ouyang Yiming, who was new to the sea of desire, forgot all his guilt and shyness after a while, and his hand naturally reached into Liu Yan's breasts again. His restless hand moved over Liu Yan's soft and smooth body. It touched the protruding nipples and gently kneaded them with two fingers.

This tingling pleasure made Liu Yan completely lose her mind, leaving only primal desire. Liu Yan's mouth kept kissing Ouyang Yiming's face and mouth, and she murmured, "I love you... Ouyang... I love you..."

Ouyang Yiming's lower body swelled up, it was so hard and so hot. He had a strong desire to touch it, to rub it. He withdrew his hand from Liu Yan's breasts, fumbled for the zipper on his pants, and his penis sprang out with a slight flick, like a wild beast raising its head. He grabbed one of Liu Yan's hands, pulling her slender, soft, sweaty hand onto that hard object.

At that moment, Liu Yan understood what was pulling her hand onto, and instinctively tried to pull it away, but Ouyang Yiming forcefully pressed it down. Liu Yan tried to pull away twice but failed, then stopped moving. Suddenly, she thought to herself, "I want to give it to him, I want to give it to him tonight. I want to give him everything before Xu Hui. I want him to give me his heart completely." This thought was so strong in Liu Yan's mind.

Liu Yan grabbed that hard object. She was secretly terrified: this thing is so hard, so hot, like a thick, fiery rod. Her heart began to tremble; her hand gripped tightly; she kissed Ouyang Yiming even more passionately.

Ouyang Yiming felt an overwhelming pleasure. He moved his hand back to rub Liu Yan's soft breasts. He could feel Liu Yan's hand sliding across his hardness, clumsy and forceful; it hurt a little, but he liked the feeling. His

head began to spin. He moved his hand from her breasts down to her abdomen, moving, moving… This unruly hand slid down in an instant, so fast, that it touched that sacred territory.

Liu Yan gasped in surprise. Although she had already decided to give herself to Ouyang Yiming, she was instinctively stopped by this sudden urge to touch. She quickly released her grip on Ouyang Yiming's hardness and tried to grab the hand that was already covering her wet territory, but she couldn't move it; Ouyang Yiming seemed to have lost his mind. One of his fingers had already entered Liu Yan's body.

This instantaneous entry made Liu Yan tremble after experiencing a sensation she had never felt before, and an overwhelming fear instantly arose in her heart. She knew she was about to give herself to him, about to lose him.

Ouyang Yiming was nearly insane. As he groped her with his fingers, he murmured, "I want...I want...I love you..." He suddenly picked Liu Yan up, placed her on the ground, knelt between her legs, and brutally groped to undo her belt, pulling her pants down to her underwear. In that moment, he saw a patch of grass beneath her snow-white expanse.

He so quickly pulled off his own pants and pressed himself against her. Liu Yan almost suffocated in the tension and fear. Her mouth instinctively pleaded and struggled, but she was powerless.

She felt that hot, hard object thrusting wildly into her private parts; she felt it had broken through her boundaries. As she felt that hard object penetrate her body, tears streamed down her face. Just then, she felt a heart-wrenching pain. She clung tightly to Ouyang's waist, tears welling in her eyes, and said, "Please, it hurts."

Ouyang Yiming stopped, his mouth searching for Liu Yan's lips. Liu Yan shook her head, saying, "It hurts, I... please be gentle, please..." Ouyang Yiming slowly thrust, the indescribable pleasure intoxicating him... Suddenly, he felt a sharp pain in his waist, his body trembled, and after a series of rapid thrusts, he ejaculated. He released his seed of love into Liu Yan's body. He collapsed onto Liu Yan, panting heavily... Slowly, he regained some clarity, looking at Liu Yan lying there with her eyes closed, as if she had stopped breathing. Startled, he scrambled to his feet.

Liu Yan also sat up at the same time as Ouyang Yiming, covering her face with her hands, and after a moment, she lowered her head and wept bitterly.

Ouyang Yiming was fully awake. He knelt down beside Liu Yan, bewildered, watching her sob silently, her shoulders heaving. He didn't even know how to speak, just silently watching her cry. "Guilt," the word flashed through his mind. He also instantly thought of Bai Xue.

"I hurt her. I hurt her! How could I hurt her?!" he asked himself repeatedly.

Suddenly, he raised his hand and slapped himself across the face. This slap wasn't just to avenge the hurt he had caused Liu Yan; it also reminded him of Bai Xue. He cursed inwardly,

"Ouyang Yiming, are you even human? You did such a despicable thing with Bai Xue, and now you're hurting Liu Yan. What are you? You're a beast!!" This intense guilt was threatening to break him… Ouyang Yiming's slap startled Liu Yan. She turned around, grabbed his hand, and threw herself into his arms, sobbing. Ouyang Yiming said, "I'm not human, I shouldn't have…"

Liu Yan stared at him intently, saying, "Don't do this, don't do this…"

Ouyang Yiming cried, "I hurt you, I shouldn't have hurt you, I'm so sorry." The hurt and apology in his words included what he had done with Bai Xue.

Liu Yan didn't speak; all she understood was Ouyang Yiming's actions towards her. She was even moved by his remorseful cries. She silently held him, tears streaming down her face.

After a long while, Liu Yan finally stopped crying. She released her grip on Ouyang Yiming and moved aside, reaching into her pocket to pull out a handkerchief to wipe her lower body. She picked it up, examined it in the moonlight, and handed it to Ouyang Yiming, saying, "This is proof of my virginity, and also proof of your sin. Keep it safe."

Ouyang Yiming took it and examined it in the moonlight. He saw several dark marks clearly imprinted on the white handkerchief; instantly, he knew they were the marks of Liu Yan's virgin blood. He carefully folded it and put it in his pocket. Suddenly, he remembered what he had done with Bai Xue, and he hugged Liu Yan tightly, crying, "Liu Yan, I'm so sorry." Liu Yan felt

a pang of sorrow and tears welled up in her eyes as well. She patted Ouyang Yiming's head and said, "Alright, you've already done it, why do this?" Ouyang Yiming shook his head in remorse. Liu Yan said softly, "Listen to me, don't cry."

She pushed him to stand up, put on her clothes, tidied her hair, and sat down next to Ouyang Yiming. She lowered her head and said, "I didn't expect to give it to you so soon."

Ouyang Yiming said guiltily, "I'm so sorry, I..."

Liu Yan said sadly, "I'm not a girl anymore." As she finished speaking, she couldn't help but shed tears again.

Ouyang Yiming didn't see them; he hadn't dared to look at her. He lowered his head and said, "I'm sorry."

Liu Yan raised her head, rested her chin on her hands, and forced back her tears, saying, "I always imagined I would give it all to you on our wedding night. I was afraid of this day, but it still came."

Ouyang Yiming still said, "I'm sorry."

Liu Yan turned to look at him and saw that he still had his hands behind his head, lowered between his legs. Knowing he was immersed in remorse, her heart softened, and she said, "Raise your head." Ouyang Yiming shook his head. Liu Yan said, "You've done such a big thing, and you're still afraid to look at me?" Ouyang Yiming remained silent.

Liu Yan thought for a moment, then said softly, "Look up, I want to sit in your lap." Ouyang Yiming looked up at her. Liu Yan moved and sat in his lap, her eyes fixed on Ouyang Yiming's eyes. Ouyang Yiming turned his face away. Liu Yan reached out and turned his face back, saying, "Look at me." Ouyang Yiming, his eyelids drooping

, said, "I'm sorry." Liu Yan said, "You always say that, I'm tired of hearing it! How could you be so savage just now? You men are like wild beasts at that moment." Ouyang Yiming shook his head and said, "I'm sorry."

Liu Yan saw that she was adorably silly, yet also pitifully silly, and said softly, "Don't say anymore, it's all the same now anyway, I'll be yours sooner or later." Ouyang Yiming looked at her seriously and asked,

"Do you hate me?"

Liu Yan raised her hand and gently pinched him, saying, "Yes, I hate you so much." After saying that, she hugged him tightly.

Ouyang Yiming felt a little relieved when Liu Yan hugged him, and he hugged her tighter, saying, "I hurt you." Liu Yan said, "Yes." Ouyang Yiming asked, "It hurts a lot, doesn't it?"

Liu Yan said, "Yes." Ouyang Yiming asked, "Are you feeling better now?" Liu Yan said, "No, not better. You, on the other hand, feel comfortable, especially comfortable."

Ouyang Yiming saw that she was speechless. Liu Yan said shyly, "Do you know, the moment you entered me, it almost killed me with pain." Ouyang Yiming felt a pang of guilt again and said, "I didn't know, I... I'm sorry."

Liu Yan raised her hand and slapped him, saying, "You've already apologized for one more night. Don't apologize anymore, okay? Every woman has to go through this sooner or later. After this, I'll no longer be a girl, I'll become a woman. You're the one who turned me from a girl into a woman, I'm yours now, tonight truly is. You have to promise to take responsibility for me." Ouyang Yiming said, "I will." Liu Yan said, "You have to love me, and you're not allowed to have any thoughts about other women."

Ouyang Yiming thought of Bai Xue again, thinking to himself that if he ever saw her again, even if a knife was held to his throat, he would never do anything to betray Liu Yan again. So he said in a very firm tone,

"I definitely will."

After a moment of silence, Liu Yan said, "Although I'm not a feudal woman, I joined the army at fifteen and have received a traditional education over the years. I haven't had as much contact with women in society, and I still care a lot about a woman's chastity. I should say today that you took me, and you have to promise me that you will always be worthy of me." Ouyang Yiming said, "Don't worry, I definitely will."

Liu Yan nodded and said, "I believe you. Don't feel guilty; I'll be yours sooner or later. Giving myself to you today is destiny." Ouyang Yiming didn't speak. Liu Yan

said, "You were absolutely crazy just now; you scared me half to death." Ouyang Yiming said, "I don't know why I acted that way." Liu Yan said fiercely, "The wildness of an animal."

Ouyang Yiming shook his head. Suddenly, a question that made his heart race suddenly came to mind, and he said, "Could it be, could it be that I'm pregnant?"

Liu Yan said, "You're only thinking about this now? I'm more worried than you. I just calculated that these past few days haven't been my ovulation period."

Ouyang Yiming asked, "What is the ovulation period?"

Liu Yan said, "It's the safe period. Don't ask. I'm a medical student, I know these things. Why do you need to know so much?"

Ouyang Yiming stopped asking.

Love and Desire (27)

Chapter Twenty-Five

It was almost late autumn. The merciless monsoon swayed the trees, and the leaves on the branches helplessly left their mother plants, drifting desolately in the air. They fell to the ground coldly, helplessly, and sadly, seemingly unwilling to give up, rolling and jumping for a while before stopping in a corner. A light rain fell, and the weather suddenly turned cold.

Ouyang Yiming put on the sweater that Liu Yan had bought for him. He had kept it in his suitcase ever since he took it back to the dormitory that night. But he didn't expect that Xu Hui would see it on his way to the classroom early in the morning.

Xu Hui and Wu Yingying walked ahead of Ouyang Yiming, chatting and laughing quietly as they went.

Wu Yingying glanced back casually and noticed the striking red sweater peeking out from Ouyang Yiming's open zipper. She pulled Xu Hui aside and said, "Look at Ouyang's red sweater."

The two stopped and turned to face Ouyang Yiming.

Before Ouyang Yiming even got close, Wu Yingying exclaimed, "Oh my god, this red sweater looks so handsome on you!" Ouyang Yiming blushed and smiled shyly, asking, "Really? Or not?" Wu Yingying looked him up and down, surprised, "Why would I lie? You just look even more handsome." As she spoke, she tugged at Xu Hui and asked, "Don't you think so?"

Xu Hui smiled and nodded, saying, "It really works."

Wu Yingying looked Ouyang Yiming up and down again, saying, "You always look good in whatever you wear. But today you're a sight to behold. This color makes you look even more energetic."

Ouyang Yiming hadn't expected to run into Xu Hui before even entering the classroom after just putting on the sweater Liu Yan had bought him. He felt a little flustered, his face flushed, and he smiled at Wu Yingying, saying:

"Is it really that bad?" Wu Yingying said earnestly. "It's true, why would I lie? Ask Xu Hui." Xu Hui smiled and said, "It's really nice."

The three of them walked forward, and Xu Hui turned to him and asked, "When did you buy it?" Ouyang Yiming was taken aback and said, "I bought it. It was sent by my fellow villager from medical school, Fan Xurui. It was too big for him, and he didn't like the red color. Last time I visited him, he asked me to try it on, and it fit me perfectly, so I brought it over." Wu Yingying reached over and touched the sweater, clicking her tongue and saying, "It's pure wool, it must have cost a lot, right?" Ouyang Yiming said, "I offered to pay him, but he didn't want it and didn't say how much it cost."

As he told these lies, Ouyang Yiming felt very guilty and flustered. Fortunately, they ended the conversation by walking into the classroom.

Ouyang Yiming felt uneasy about always having to lie to Xu Hui, but he had no choice but to do so. He was tormented by this, filled with self-blame, guilt, helplessness, and even agony. Sometimes, a shiver of remorse would well up inside him, a feeling of having wronged Xu Hui rising within him… He couldn't imagine how Xu Hui would feel if she knew he and Liu Yan were dating. The thought of that blow to Xu Hui sent shivers down his spine. He didn't want Xu Hui to suffer any pain, not even a thousand times. He knew he liked her, though he had never spoken of love to her. He knew that if Liu Yan hadn't appeared, they would eventually have fallen in love.

Before meeting Liu Yan, his definition of liking and love seemed somewhat vague. At that time, he vaguely felt that his liking for Xu Hui, and Xu Hui's liking for him, was love. It wasn't until he met Liu Yan that he realized how different love and liking were. Love requires a powerful collision of souls to arise. In his understanding, it's the uncontrollable heartbeat and longing that arises after two people meet for the first time. He and Xu Hui hadn't experienced that collision. He simply liked her, but it seemed to go beyond mere liking. It was as if Xu Hui was a kinship to him.

He knew that Xu Hui had already accepted him as her boyfriend. Many of their classmates thought so too, or some were even certain they were dating.

However, their usual behavior still left many classmates uncertain. Nevertheless, in their classmates' hearts, they were considered a very well-matched couple. Sometimes, when Ouyang Yiming was tormented by this invisible pressure, he had an impulse to tell Xu Hui about himself and Liu Yan, but he ultimately restrained himself. He didn't want to see Xu Hui suffer.

The next evening, Jiang Yuqi, his face flushed, entered the dormitory from outside. He walked up to Ouyang Yiming, who was reading, and reeked of alcohol. He mysteriously pulled him aside and whispered in his ear, "Come out for a moment, I need to talk to you about something." Ouyang Yiming looked at him suspiciously, put down his book, and followed him out.

After going downstairs, Jiang Yuqi asked him, "You know about Zhu Haitao and Wu Yingying, right?" Ouyang Yiming said, "I've heard a little, is it true?" Jiang Yuqi said, "Absolutely true, of course it's true. They had an accident last night."

Ouyang Yiming was shocked, his heart pounding, and said, "No way, I saw her perfectly fine yesterday." Jiang Yuqi said, "It happened last night. Zhu Haitao just told me about it.

We were eating out. Zhu Haitao drank a bit too much and told me himself." Ouyang Yiming anxiously asked, "What happened to them? How come no one knows about what happened last night?" Suddenly, the incident involving Jin Ling and Liang Chao flashed through Ouyang Yiming's mind, and he couldn't help but feel nervous, his heart pounding.

Jiang Yuqi said, "This is between the two of them. If Zhu Haitao and Wu Yingying didn't tell, who would know? I was wondering why Zhu Haitao would take me out for drinks today. Turns out he's upset." Ouyang Yiming said, "Just tell us what happened between them. You seem a bit smug; you must have drunk quite a bit." Jiang Yuqi said, "I didn't actually drink that much today. Here's what happened. Last night, Zhu Haitao was on a date with a second-grade girl by Xuanwu Lake when Wu Yingying caught them red-handed. When Wu Yingying arrived, Zhu..." Hai Tao was kissing that female student. Turns out, this guy was two-timing. Didn't you see Wu Yingying didn't come to class today? "I didn't notice her today. What did Wu Yingying do?" Jiang Yuqi said, "Wu Yingying's pretty tough, isn't she? She grabbed Zhu Hai Tao's hair and slapped him twice across the face. Isn't Wu Yingying pretty something?!"

Ouyang Yiming's heart pounded. "Wu Yingying must be furious about what happened." His mind drifted to what he and Bai Xue had done. He thought to himself, what a terrible scene it would have been if Liu Yan had caught him and Bai Xue together. A wave of fear and unease washed over him.

Jiang Yuqi said, "Zhu Haitao and I are good friends, but I don't approve of this. Wu Yingying is such a pure and lovely girl. You're dating Wu Yingying, how can you have this kind of relationship with another girl? You're both in the same school, how can Wu Yingying not find out sooner or later?" Ouyang Yiming nodded and said, "Yes, if you keep taking turns dating like this, Wu Yingying will definitely find out."

Jiang Yuqi said, "Zhu Haitao is also feeling distressed right now. He just told me that the girl from the Chinese department also scolded him." She cried and wanted to break up with him. Wu Yingying didn't know if she could forgive him. I said then, "You deserve it. Wu Yingying is good to you, how can she forgive you after hurting her like this!" Zhu Haitao cried today, saying he was sincere towards Wu Yingying. I think he was sincere towards Wu Yingying too. "

Ouyang Yiming said, "Since he really wants to be with Wu Yingying, why is he dating and kissing another girl?" As he said this, he thought of Bai Xue again, thinking that this mysterious woman always popped up at this time, which made him a little annoyed. His face became hot.

Jiang Yuqi said, "I asked him the same thing, and he said he was just playing around with that girl, looking for excitement. He said he didn't have any feelings for her. He said he really liked Wu Yingying. But he said that the girl in the second grade was sincere towards him. Don't you think Zhu Haitao's actions are immoral!"

Ouyang Yiming nodded, thinking to himself, "It wasn't me who did that to Bai Xue, it was her who deliberately treated me like that." At this moment, he felt a little comforted.

Ouyang Yiming asked, "How did Wu Yingying find out?"

Jiang Yuqi said, "Zhu Haitao was also puzzled. He said he and that junior had just arrived at the lake when Wu Yingying suddenly appeared out of nowhere. Zhu Haitao guessed that Wu Yingying had been following him."

Ouyang Yiming felt a chill run down his spine, thinking, what if Xu Hui had followed him that day, and what would she do if she saw him with Liu Yan? Then he immediately thought, Xu Hui would never do such a thing. "How did Wu Yingying know they were by the lake? Did she already know about him and that girl?"

Jiang Yuqi said, "Who knows? Only Wu Yingying knows. Zhu Haitao wants to know too. You don't know, Zhu Haitao has a lot of other things going on. If Wu Yingying knew everything, she'd be furious. Zhu Haitao told me all this before, but I just took it as a joke and never told you. Zhu Haitao is good in every way, except in this area, that guy is a real scoundrel. Don't let his usual polite demeanor fool you, he does all sorts of despicable things. He's really something else. He's just average-looking, but he's got a lot of luck with women, a lifelong string of romantic encounters."

Ouyang Yiming said, "Stop lamenting, what else is going on?"

Jiang Yuqi said, "That guy has a lot of romantic escapades, he's a real womanizer." Women all like him. He dated two girls in middle school. Those two girls even fell out over him; one morning, they were calling each other shameless in the classroom. Zhu Haitao was always proud of his charm because of this. He still keeps in touch with both girls by letter. He's the kind of guy who'd do anything; you wouldn't believe he slept with both girls in middle school.”

Ouyang was shocked and asked, “Middle school?! Really? How old was he in middle school? He knew so much back then?”

Jiang Yuqi said, “What, you're not convinced? He told me this himself. You can imagine you didn't understand this stuff in middle school. I know more about these things than you do. Did you read the handwritten copy of *The Heart of a Young Girl* in middle school? I did, and Zhu Haitao did too. I bet you didn't.”

Ouyang Yiming shook his head and said, "I've heard Fan Xurui mention it, but I haven't read it. Fan Xurui said it's an obscene book." Jiang Yuqi laughed and shook his head, saying, "Damn it, the descriptions in it are unbearable. There's no story, just sex. It's about a woman talking about her sex life with her cousin. Anyone who reads it would feel aroused. You know, people are strange. On the surface, they act like upright gentlemen, saying how moral and righteous they are, but everyone wants to read it. Otherwise, how could it have spread so widely?"

Ouyang Yiming thought to himself, aren't humans strange animals? Their physiological needs are stronger than any other animal's. These needs can drive people crazy and make them lose their minds.

Jiang Yuqi said, "Don't let Zhu Haitao's age fool you; he knows far more about women than we do. He's very experienced in that kind of thing. We can't listen to him; it's unbearable to hear him talk about these things. At his age, he's already claimed to have had sex with three women, while we haven't even touched a woman yet. It's really embarrassing to talk about it in front of him."

Ouyang Yiming asked, "Did he also have sex with Wu Yingying?" Jiang Yuqi said, "He and Wu Yingying have been together for a while. They started dating last summer. He said he slept with Wu Yingying on their second date."

Ouyang Yiming stared at him wide-eyed, shaking his head in disbelief, "The second time? How is that possible! Would Wu Yingying agree to a second date? He must be exaggerating." Ouyang Yiming thought of his own dates with Liu Yan. He figured the second time would at most be just kissing; how could they possibly have sex? Liu Yan wouldn't let him touch her breasts even after several dates. Could Wu Yingying have let him touch her on the first date?!

Jiang Yuqi said, “Absolutely true. He told me this a little earlier last year when we were drinking together. You know he can't drink much; a few drinks and he's a different person. That day he only had a little over two ounces, and then he started talking a lot. We started by chatting about girls, and then he told me about him and Wu Yingying. Before that, I didn't even know he was dating Wu Yingying. He got excited while talking, and after a couple more drinks, he couldn't control himself and started telling me all about what happened between him and Wu Yingying. Damn it, I couldn't listen to it, I couldn't stand it.”

Jiang Yuqi shook his head, a lewd smile on his face, swallowed, and continued, “He said he and Wu…” "Yingying's first time was forced by him. It was summer, and Wu Yingying was wearing a skirt. He started by touching her, and when he touched her breasts, Wu Yingying struggled and wouldn't let him, but Wu Yingying's head was no match for his. Later, she stopped struggling. This guy took advantage of the situation and touched Wu Yingying's genitals. This time, Wu Yingying panicked and struggled. Zhu Haitao said, 'Can you let her break free?' He then pulled down Wu Yingying's underwear, pressed her to the ground, and without taking off his own pants, pulled out his penis from his pants and started fucking her. Wu Yingying screamed in pain, but she didn't dare to scream loudly. That's how he had his first time with Wu Yingying."

Ouyang Yiming's heart pounded as he listened, and he thought of his first time with Liu Yan. He thought to himself, "Men can't control themselves at that point. But Zhu Haitao and Wu Yingying are too fast." His face began to burn, and his heart itched. His male instincts excited him.

Jiang Yuqi, now quite animated, continued, "Zhu Haitao said that Wu Yingying cried after it was over that day. This guy, you see, isn't much of a talker, but he's a master at coaxing women; he calmed her down in no time. Once you've had the first time, things get easier. According to Zhu Haitao, the first time with a girl is the opening, just like writing an essay; once the opening is good, the rest is easy. After that, every time we met, we inevitably did *that*."

Jiang Yuqi chuckled lewdly, licked his lips, and continued, "That day he was in high spirits, saying that his favorite thing..." Huan picked up Wu Yingying, made her straddle his waist, and had her arms around his neck while they stood there and did it. He said it felt amazing. Damn, I couldn't sleep that night after I got back; my thing wouldn't listen, it was constantly throbbing unbearably.

That day Zhu Haitao even said…”

Ouyang Yiming couldn't contain himself, feeling his own penis gradually swell. He interrupted him in a trembling voice, saying, “Okay, okay, stop talking.” Jiang Yuqi paused for a moment, then burst into laughter, saying, “How about it, you can't take it either, can you?” As he spoke, he glanced at Ouyang Yiming's crotch. Ouyang Yiming blushed and his heart pounded; he turned away embarrassedly. After her heartbeat calmed down a bit, she turned around and asked, "Aren't they afraid of getting pregnant?"

Jiang Yuqi said, "I asked him too, and he said it was fine, that he had a way, that he would press on a certain spot when he ejaculated, and that he could also not ejaculate inside, and that he could calculate the timing and stuff. I can't remember it, and I don't understand it."

Ouyang Yiming sighed, "That Zhu Haitao is really something. He can even talk about this kind of thing. If Wu Yingying finds out that Zhu Haitao told others about this, she'll be furious! You can't tell anyone else. I think you've had too much to drink today." Jiang Yuqi said, "I was just telling..." "Even if I drink a lot, I can't go around telling everyone about this. Do you think I lack self-control?" Ouyang Yiming said, "But you're telling me now, aren't you?!" Jiang Yuqi said, "What kind of relationship do we have? Don't I know you? You can't tell anyone else, can you?" He paused, chuckled twice, and said, "Unless you tell Xu Hui."

Ouyang Yiming's face changed instantly, glaring at Jiang Yuqi and saying irritably, "I think you've really had too much to drink today." Jiang Yuqi was stunned for a moment, then laughed awkwardly twice and said, "Look at you, I was just saying it casually. I can't even make a joke about Xu Hui in front of you." Ouyang Yiming glanced at him without saying a word. He was disgusted by anyone joking about Xu Hui. He didn't want Xu Hui to be associated with such things. It was involuntary. He got inexplicably angry without any thought when Jiang Yuqi mentioned Xu Hui.

Jiang Yuqi said, "Okay, okay, I understand. I won't joke about Xu Hui anymore. Actually, I've heard Zhu Haitao talk about these things for almost a year now, and I haven't told anyone. Even if I told you today, I wouldn't tell anyone else."

Ouyang Yiming also realized that his tone and expression had gone a bit too far. After catching his breath, Ouyang Yiming asked, "How long has he been with that girl in second grade?" Jiang Yuqi replied, "Zhu Haitao is usually quite tight-lipped, but I only heard him mention that second-grade girl today. He said it happened not long after the start of this semester."

Ouyang Yiming nodded, pondered for a moment, and said with emotion, "This must be a huge blow to Wu Yingying." Jiang Yuqi said, "Definitely. That Zhu Haitao is a real bastard. Wu Yingying is quite nice; although she's not exceptionally beautiful, she's still above average. She's very innocent and deserves Zhu Haitao. But that guy is such a womanizer."

Ouyang Yiming frowned and said, "I'm really worried something might happen to Wu Yingying." Jiang Yuqi said, "Yes, Wu Yingying is quite naive. She's always laughing and having a great time.

This might really hurt her." As she spoke, Jiang Yuqi stared wide-eyed at Ouyang Yiming's back, muttering, "Could it be such a coincidence?!" Ouyang Yiming turned around and was shocked. Not far away, Wu Yingying was walking towards them.

She was carrying a book and walking with her head down. She only noticed them when she got close, and startled, she stopped, smiled, and said, "You two are talking here." Jiang Yuqi greeted her with a smile:

“We’re just chatting. I heard you’re not feeling well?” Wu Yingying said, “I caught a cold, and my head hurts a bit. I took some medicine and lay in bed for a day, and I feel much better. I came out to get some fresh air.”

Ouyang Yiming looked at her under the lamplight and noticed that her eyes were a little red and swollen, probably because she had been crying. He said, “Take care. It’s easy to catch a cold this time of year.” Wu Yingying smiled and said , “Maybe I wasn’t dressed warmly enough the other

day. You two chat, I’m going back to my dorm.” Watching Wu Yingying leave, Ouyang Yiming felt a pang of sadness and said, “She looks so pitiful now. I don’t know what to say to her.” Jiang Yuqi said, “What can you say? She doesn’t want anyone else to know.” Ouyang Yiming said, “I wonder if she can forgive Zhu Haitao.” Jiang Yuqi said, “Zhu Haitao said he doesn’t want to chat with that second-year student anymore. He really likes Wu Yingying. I even told Zhu Haitao during dinner to apologize to Wu Yingying. Wu Yingying is also very stubborn. Who knows if she can forgive him.”

Love and Desire (28)

Chapter Twenty-Six

The next day, Ouyang Yiming saw Wu Yingying. She appeared sickly and listless, lacking her usual cheerfulness. Sometimes, when he looked at Wu Yingying, the scene Jiang Yuqi described of her making love with Zhu Haitao would flash through his mind, causing his heart to pound and his face to flush. He felt ashamed, as if his own affair with Bai Xue had been discovered. These scenes seemed imprinted in his mind, flashing back and forth, refusing to leave. After a while, he would secretly resent Jiang Yuqi for telling him about Wu Yingying.

Two days later, Ouyang Yiming suddenly noticed that Wu Yingying hadn't come to class again. For some reason, Ouyang Yiming found himself unconsciously glancing towards Wu Yingying's seat during these two days. When he looked towards Xu Hui's seat, he couldn't find her either. He couldn't help but feel suspicious, uneasy, and somewhat panicked. He seemed to have a premonition that something was about to happen, but he didn't dare ask anyone.

After dinner, Ouyang Yiming was reading in the library when Jiang Yuqi quietly approached him and whispered mysteriously, "Xu Hui is waiting for you at the memorial pavilion." Ouyang Yiming rolled his eyes at him and muttered, "Nonsense." Jiang Yuqi said seriously, "It's true, I'm not lying to you." His voice was slightly louder. Several classmates looked up at them.

Ouyang Yiming quickly returned his book and followed Jiang Yuqi out. As soon as he stepped outside, he said, "What do you want from me?" Jiang Yuqi laughed and said, "You really think I'm lying to you? When have I ever joked with you like this while you're reading? Don't I know you hate being disturbed when you're reading in the library?" Ouyang Yiming thought about it and agreed, then asked, "Where did you see her?"

Jiang Yuqi said, "I was taking a walk in the courtyard with Ge Guangcheng when we ran into Xu Hui. She called me over and whispered something. She asked if I'd seen you. I said I saw you at the library, and she told me to come and call you, saying she'd be waiting for you at the memorial pavilion. You see, it's not easy for me, your messenger, to come all this way to deliver this message, and I still get scolded by you."

Ouyang Yiming laughed and said, "When did I scold you? I was just asking." He lowered his head, thinking to himself, "What does she want from me?" Jiang Yuqi said, "Judging from Xu Hui's expression, it seems like something important is going on." Ouyang Yiming's heart sank. He thought, Xu Hui had never waited for him alone anywhere on campus at night before. He wouldn't have asked Jiang Yuqi to pass on a message unless it was something urgent. So he asked Jiang Yuqi, "Didn't Xu Hui say what it was about?" Jiang Yuqi laughed and said, "What could she possibly have to tell me? If she could tell me, she wouldn't have asked me to pass on the message and would have sent you herself.

She can only confide in you two." She pushed Ouyang Yiming and said, "Go quickly, don't keep her waiting."

Ouyang Yiming thought about it and realized that if Jiang Yuqi knew, Xu Hui wouldn't have sent him. Thinking that Xu Hui and Wu Yingying hadn't come to class that day, it was probably because of something with Wu Yingying. Could something have happened to Wu Yingying?

Ouyang Yiming hurried to the memorial pavilion and saw Xu Hui pacing under a street lamp by the steps, holding a book in her arms. Seeing Ouyang Yiming approaching, she slowly walked up the steps. Ouyang Yiming approached and whispered, "Don't go up there, there are definitely people there."

Xu Hui stopped, turned around to look at him, then walked down the few steps she had just climbed and stood with Ouyang Yiming under the streetlight. Xu Hui said urgently, "Wu Yingying is in trouble." Ouyang Yiming's heart skipped a beat, and he asked, "Is it about Zhu Haitao?" Xu Hui asked in surprise, "You know about it?" Ouyang Yiming said, "Jiang Yuqi told me the night before last. What were you two doing all day without coming to class?"

Xu Hui said angrily, "It's all Zhu Haitao's fault! He's been running around all day because of Wu Yingying." She paused and asked, "Zhu Haitao told Jiang Yuqi, right?" Ouyang Yiming said:

“Zhu Haitao and Jiang Yuqi told me. Jiang Yuqi was drunk last night before telling me. What did you and Wu Yingying do today?”

Xu Hui said, “Wu Yingying is pregnant.”

Ouyang Yiming was shocked and asked, “What did you say? Wu Yingying…she’s pregnant?” Xu Hui’s eyes widened as she said, “Yes, you didn’t know?” After thinking for a moment, she said, “Right, you shouldn’t know. Zhu Haitao probably doesn’t know either. I only found out this morning when I accompanied Wu Yingying to the checkup.” Ouyang Yiming’s heart pounded as he asked, “What are we going to do?” Xu Hui said:

"What else can we do but abort it? What did Jiang Yuqi tell you?"

Ouyang Yiming said, "The night before last, I was chatting with Jiang Yuqi, and he told me about Zhu Haitao's date with that second-grade girl, which Wu Yingying saw. Jiang Yuqi didn't mention Wu Yingying's pregnancy. You said you only found out this morning. Zhu Haitao couldn't possibly know, and Jiang Yuqi certainly wouldn't know about Wu Yingying's pregnancy."

Xu Hui nodded and said, "I only heard about Zhu Haitao and that second-grade girl from Wu Yingying last night." Ouyang Yiming asked, "How did Wu Yingying find out? Jiang Yuqi and I were wondering about it yesterday." Xu Hui said, "Wu Yingying said she found out Zhu Haitao..." Tao has been acting strangely lately. I saw him talking to that girl a few times on campus, and something felt off. I followed him that night and finally found out what was going on. Wu Yingying cried for a long time because of this. Ouyang Yiming nodded and said, "Zhu Haitao also suspected that Wu Yingying was following him." Xu Hui said, "Wu Yingying is only acting like this because she cares about Zhu Haitao a lot." She paused and said, "Later, Wu Yingying told me that she hadn't had her period for two months, so I asked if she was sick and told her to go to the hospital for a checkup.

Wu Yingying said she was worried that she was pregnant, and that she and Zhu Haitao had been having an affair for a while..."

Xu Hui blushed and secretly glanced at Ouyang Yiming.

Ouyang Yiming said, "You should also advise Wu Yingying. What good can come of dating someone like Zhu Haitao? He's just a scoundrel." Ouyang Yiming remembered what Jiang Yuqi had said about Zhu Haitao playing around with several girls. Bai Xue's image suddenly flashed in his mind, and he was startled, his face turning red with guilt.

Xu Hui looked at Ouyang Yiming and said, "It's not good to talk to Wu Yingying about this now, let's talk about it in a few days. Last night, I heard Wu Yingying say she was worried about being pregnant and scared, so I said she should go to the hospital to get checked out. Wu Yingying said that when her period was late the first month, she thought she was sick, but she didn't feel any discomfort. She said that if you're really pregnant, you should have symptoms, but she didn't feel anything, so she didn't pay much attention. A few days ago, her period was late, and she started to worry if she was really pregnant. She wanted to go to the hospital but was scared and didn't dare to go. I said it's not something to be afraid of, but if she is really pregnant, it will be even more difficult to handle after a while, and it will be very embarrassing, and she might not be able to go to school. Wu Yingying cried, and I felt really sad seeing her pitiful appearance. Later, she asked if she could go to the hospital with me for a check-up, and I said yes, and suggested we go this Sunday. She was anxious and said she wanted to go tomorrow, because of what we said last night..." That is, today. So I took the day off early this morning to accompany her to the Women and Children's Health Hospital, registering under a false name. The tests showed she was already over two months pregnant.”

Xu Hui sighed and continued, “Wu Yingying was terrified. She kept asking me what to do, and I said what could we do but have an abortion. Later, we inquired and found out the hospital required a work unit certificate or marriage certificate. Where would she get a marriage certificate? And where would she get a work unit certificate? Then we thought of small hospitals, but I was really worried about them. I heard my mother say that a girl in her theater troupe got pregnant, and her boyfriend took her to a small hospital for an abortion, but she died from massive bleeding. What if Wu Yingying also had a massive hemorrhage? She wouldn't survive.”

Ouyang Yiming was startled and asked, “Abortion is that dangerous?” Xu Hui said, “That's exactly right. But such cases are rare.”

Looking at Ouyang Yiming, she continued, "I told Wu Yingying all this back then. Wu Yingying was also very scared, but she said that no matter how big the risk, we had to do it. If her belly got really big, how could she face anyone? What she said made sense, but I was even more scared. I went with her, and what would I do if something went wrong? I felt sorry for her, so I said let's find a small hospital first and see which one can do it. We'll decide after we find one. We inquired at a few small hospitals and went there, but neither of us dared to ask. We were too embarrassed. Later, I said that wouldn't work, we had to ask. It was almost noon by then. We just ate something on the street. After eating, we went to that small hospital we hadn't dared to ask about. It specialized in childbirth. I mustered up the courage to ask a female doctor, and she looked at us and asked if we had any proof. She said we couldn't do it without proof. Who would have thought that even a small hospital needed proof? I asked if we couldn't do it without proof? The doctor then showed me that kind of..." She looked at me like that and then said no. My god, her gaze was unbearable; I was so ashamed I almost died. Wu Yingying cried as soon as she left, saying, "This is it, I'm doomed! Where am I going to get the proof?" I could only comfort her, saying, "There must be places that don't require proof. But I'm really afraid to ask again."

Ouyang Yiming looked at her and said sarcastically, "You too, you should have let Wu Yingying ask herself. What will people think of you if you go and ask?"

Xu Hui said, "I did let Wu Yingying ask herself, but you don't know what happened to her. She was like an idiot when she got there. I was anxious too. We traveled so far, how could I not ask if she wouldn't say anything? Sigh, I'm really racking my brains over this Wu Yingying thing. I thought, since no one knows me anyway, I might as well lose face once. I had to bite the bullet and ask."

Ouyang Yiming was angry and said, "This Wu Yingying is really useless." Ouyang Yiming was angry at the humiliation Xu Hui had suffered. For some reason, even though he had no relationship with Xu Hui, he always felt protective of her in his heart.

Xu Hui understood Ouyang Yiming's thoughts and thought to herself that Ouyang Yiming might think she had embarrassed him, so she felt a little uneasy and said, "I didn't want to either, but there was nothing I could do. I went with her. What do you suggest we do?"

Ouyang Yiming looked at her but didn't say anything.

Xu Hui said, "Later, I thought it would be great if I had an acquaintance, so I asked Wu Yingying if she had any connections. Wu Yingying said she didn't know anyone at the hospital. After thinking for a while, she thought of you. Wu Yingying mentioned the hospital where you were hospitalized, saying that maybe you could find someone to help. At first, I thought that the people in that ward had been so kind to you, so maybe you could really find someone to help. But then I thought no. I can't ruin your reputation because of her. Even if you could find someone, what would people think if a grown man asked someone to help a girl get an abortion? And then I thought you might not be willing either. You're so concerned about your reputation, would you really go and ask them? So I told Wu Yingying that you were only hospitalized for a few days, how could you possibly know anyone there? Wu Yingying begged me to ask you, and I said let's try to find someone first. I don't want you to lose face."

Ouyang Yiming said, "I really don't have the ability to find anyone. Besides, such a big hospital, wouldn't they require more complete procedures?" Ouyang Yiming knew in his heart that if he really asked Liu Yan to handle this matter, it might actually work. But how could he ask Liu Yan for help? Xu Hui said, "If we really had connections, that would be fine. But I just can't let you embarrass yourself. Nobody knows me when we ask around, so it won't be that embarrassing. Anyway, it's not my business." Ouyang Yiming looked at her and sighed.

Xu Hui said, "It was almost 3 PM when we started talking. I went to the restroom and when I came out, I saw a very kind-hearted old lady. I had a sudden idea: maybe I could ask these elderly people which hospital could perform the procedure. So I went up to her and struck up a conversation. The old lady was coming home from her daughter's house. I told her that Wu Yingying was my cousin, that she had broken up with her boyfriend, but was pregnant.

I asked her if she knew where I could get an abortion without proof. The old lady was quite open-minded. She looked at Wu Yingying and said, 'Young girls these days just don't know how to protect themselves.' Then she said, 'You asked by chance. There's a small clinic near her house, run by a middle-aged woman. She said the doctors are quite skilled and often perform abortions. She also said that a relative of hers had their child done there last year, and the fees weren't high.' Wu Yingying and I were both very happy to hear this. Isn't it a coincidence? It's a good thing I asked so casually. So we went with the old lady."

"The small hospital wasn't big, just one doctor and one nurse. It was quite clean, and there were quite a few patients. After the female doctor examined me, she said I could have the procedure done soon. Wu Yingying secretly told me she wanted to do it right away and asked if I had brought any money. I thought about it and was still a little scared. What if something went wrong? I went with her; could I really get away with it? But I couldn't tell her that, so I said I didn't have any money. I said it was late, so let's do it tomorrow. That's how it went; it was already dark when we got back."

Ouyang Yiming asked: "Is there a high chance of massive bleeding during this surgery?" Xu Hui said, "I only heard it from my mother. The chance of massive bleeding is probably very low, and under normal circumstances there shouldn't be any problems.

But what if it happens to Wu Yingying? That would be terrible. I'm really scared. Please think it through and make a decision. See if it's appropriate for me to go with her for this surgery. Besides, I need to come back and discuss it with you, otherwise you'll blame me if something really happens!" Ouyang Yiming felt a tightness in his chest when he heard Xu Hui's words. He understood what kind of person Xu Hui regarded him as.

But he couldn't worry about that now, so he said, "It's not appropriate for you to go with her to get an abortion, there are risks involved. You should tell Wu Yingying to let Zhu Haitao go with her, it's their business, Zhu Haitao should go."

Xu Hui sighed and said, "When she came out of the hospital after the checkup, I told her, but Wu Yingying refused. She said she would rather die than let Zhu Haitao go with her. She said she never wanted to see him again, this time it was a complete break with Zhu Haitao. She also said that Zhu Haitao shouldn't know about the pregnancy. I said, how can you not see him when you're in the same class? She said she wished Zhu Haitao would die right now. How could Wu Yingying let him take her?" Ouyang Yiming shook his head and didn't say anything.

Xu Hui frowned and cried, "I'm so conflicted, you have to make a decision." Ouyang Yiming glanced at her and said, "I really can't make a decision. You said you'd take her if there's no risk, but what if something unexpected happens?" Xu Hui said, "Actually, I was thinking about this before you came. What good ideas could you possibly come up with? But seeing how pitiful Wu Yingying is, without any relatives here. She's afraid others will find out about this, so she has to do it secretly. If we don't help her, aren't we just pushing her to the brink?"

Ouyang Yiming thought for a moment, shook his head, sighed, and remained silent.

Xu Hui looked at Ouyang Yiming and said, "Sigh, it's really tough on people." She paused, then added angrily, "That Zhu Haitao is a real scoundrel. Not only did he do something like this to make Wu Yingying suffer like this, but we're all dragged into it, while he gets away scot-free." She paused again and then complained, "And Wu Yingying, how could she..."

Ouyang Yiming thought to himself, "Wu Yingying was forced by Zhu Haitao, wasn't she?" He guessed that Wu Yingying hadn't told Xu Hui about this, and it wasn't convenient to tell her now. He said, "Let's not talk about any of this anymore. It's too late to say anything now that it's happened. Wu Yingying doesn't want Zhu Haitao to go, and we can't talk to Zhu Haitao about it. We're not comfortable letting Wu Yingying go alone. I'm worried about you going with her; what if something happens? If something does happen, will the school let you off the hook? What will we do then?"

Xu Hui said, "But what should we do? Do you think we can let her go alone tomorrow? What if something bad happens?" Ouyang Yiming frowned and thought for a while, then said, "She definitely can't go alone; we can't trust her to go alone either."

Xu Hui said with a worried look, "That's right. I've thought about these things too. At the small hospital..." I also asked the doctor at the hospital. The doctor said the chance of massive bleeding was very low. But I'm still worried. I can't let Wu Yingying go alone. I can't put my mind at ease. Sigh, no matter what, I'll go with her, after all, the chance of massive bleeding is very low. I need to let you know about this, so I can feel more at ease.

May Buddha protect her."

Ouyang Yiming sighed and said, "That's all we can do, we can't just leave her like this." After thinking for a moment, he said, "Okay, I'll go with you tomorrow. Otherwise, I won't be able to put my mind at ease." Xu Hui glared at him and said, "What are you, a grown man, going for? When you get there, people will just think it's you..."

Ouyang Yiming blushed slightly, then thought about it and said, "Okay, I'll wait here for your news." He then asked, "Do you have the money for the surgery?" Xu Hui said, "Wu Yingying has some, and I have some too. Money isn't a problem, and it won't cost much." Ouyang Yiming nodded and said, "Tomorrow you must act according to the situation. If there's any danger, don't hesitate to call an ambulance immediately to take her to a major hospital. At that point, there won't be much time to worry about anything else." Xu Hui nodded and said, "I know, I think it'll be fine." She said this, but she was still uneasy.

After saying this, the two parted ways and returned to their respective dormitories.

The next morning, Ouyang Yiming was anxious all morning, secretly praying for Wu Yingying's abortion. During break, Jiang Yuqi came to Ouyang Yiming and quietly asked him why Xu Hui and Wu Yingying hadn't come to class for two days. Ouyang Yiming couldn't tell him about Wu Yingying's pregnancy. But he knew that Xu Hui had asked Jiang Yuqi to tell him to meet her the night before, and since Xu Hui and Wu Yingying hadn't come to class for two days, Jiang Yuqi must have some questions. So he told him that Wu Yingying had a gynecological problem, and Xu Hui accompanied her to see a doctor. Jiang Yuqi then asked with great interest what kind of gynecological problem it was.

Ouyang Yiming glared at him and said, "She didn't say exactly what kind of gynecological problem it was, and I was too embarrassed to ask in detail. Last night, Xu Hui asked me if I knew anyone at the hospital where I was hospitalized, saying that the hospital had excellent medical skills and she wanted to go there for a checkup. I don't know anyone there, but I stayed there for a few days and I know a few people."

Jiang Yuqi obviously didn't believe that Xu Hui hadn't told him what Wu Yingying's problem was, and laughed twice, then leaned close to his ear and asked, "Xu Hui really didn't tell you what Wu Yingying's problem was?" Ouyang Yiming rolled his eyes at him and said, "She really didn't say. Xu Hui is too embarrassed to tell me about girls' gynecological problems." Jiang Yuqi thought for a moment and whispered, "Could Wu Yingying be pregnant?" Ouyang... Yi Ming was startled and said to him with a serious face, "You can't just guess about this! If word gets out, will Wu Yingying still be able to stay at school?! What are you thinking about all day?!"

Jiang Yuqi was a little embarrassed and said, "I was just saying it casually. You know, when I know Wu Yingying and Zhu Haitao did that, how can I not think about it? Even if she really went to have an abortion or something, I wouldn't tell anyone. Don't you know me?"

Ouyang Yi Ming also realized that his tone had been a bit harsh, so he softened his tone and said, "It's really not about pregnancy. Xu Hui said that Wu Yingying has some kind of gynecological disease, but I didn't ask in detail. It's not appropriate for a grown man to ask too many questions." Jiang Yuqi nodded with some doubt and left.

Less than a minute later, Zhu Haitao came up to Ouyang Yi Ming with an unnatural smile. Ouyang Yi Ming glanced at him, feeling disgusted. Just like what Zhu Haitao had done, not only had Wu Yingying suffered, but now he was dragging Xu Hui into the danger as well. What if something really happens? What would happen if Xu Hui got dragged into this because of you guys? He was angry but couldn't show it on his face, so he remained silent.

Zhu Haitao quietly asked, "Where have Wu Yingying and Xu Hui been these past two days?" Ouyang Yiming said irritably, "That's a strange question. How would I know where they've been? I'm not their homeroom teacher; they wouldn't have asked for leave for me." Zhu Haitao noticed his tone was off, looked at him suspiciously, his face flushed, and gave an awkward, dry laugh, saying, "Yeah, yeah." Ouyang Yiming secretly regretted his lack of composure.

Zhu Haitao pushed up his glasses and said, "You haven't been to class for two days. What's wrong?" Ouyang Yiming thought for a moment, considering he might ask Jiang Yuqi later, and said, "Wu Yingying might not be feeling well." Zhu Haitao looked up at him, frowning, and asked nervously, "What's wrong with her?" Ouyang Yiming said, "I'm not really sure. Why don't you ask Wu Yingying when they get back?" Zhu Haitao looked embarrassed. But assuming Ouyang Yiming didn't know about his and Wu Yingying's situation the night before, he nodded and said, "That's true. Why didn't you tell me Wu Yingying wasn't feeling well? You made Xu Hui busy for two days too." Ouyang Yiming sneered inwardly but remained silent.

Zhu Haitao stood there for a while, and seeing that Ouyang Yiming didn't want to talk, he walked away boredly.

At lunchtime, Ouyang Yiming saw Xu Hui in the dining hall. When their eyes met, Xu Hui smiled and nodded slightly. Ouyang Yiming understood her meaning and finally felt completely relieved. I didn't see Wu Yingying, and I thought she must be resting for a few days. Chapter 27 of

Love and Desire (29) : Ouyang Yiming was a little embarrassed when he met Liu Yan again. They both blushed and their hearts pounded, and they seemed very reserved. Liu Yan glanced at him and knew that he was thinking about what the two of them had done last time. She thought to herself: This man is still shy like me, but why is he like a wolf when we do that?! The two of them sat down side by side. Liu Yan looked at Ouyang Yiming again and saw him staring at her with a silly smile. She asked, "Why are you being so well-behaved today?" Ouyang Yiming chuckled twice and reached out to pull Liu Yan into his arms. Liu Yan struggled and chuckled, "I won't let you hug me. You'll do something bad later." Ouyang Yiming chuckled but didn't want to let go. Liu Yan then snuggled into his arms. Ouyang Yiming leaned in to kiss her, but Liu Yan didn't turn her head. Ouyang Yiming asked, "What's wrong?" Liu Yan replied shyly, "I won't let you kiss me." Ouyang Yiming leaned over to find her mouth. Liu Yan turned her face away, giggling. Ouyang Yiming then began to suckle on half of her face. Liu Yan let him kiss her without turning her face away. Ouyang Yiming then put his mouth on one of Liu Yan's earlobes. Liu Yan laughed, blushing and pulling away, saying, "It tickles so much!" Ouyang Yiming then turned her head and put the other earlobe in his mouth. Liu Yan pulled away and hit him, saying, "It tickles so much!" Ouyang Yiming chuckled and said, "It's fun, like sucking on a grape." Liu Yan rubbed her earlobe, wiping away the saliva, and said, "Then I'll try it too." She tilted her head back, hugged Ouyang Yiming's head, and put one of her earlobes in her mouth. Ouyang Yiming felt a slight tingling sensation, but also a bit of pleasure, and said, "Right? Isn't it fun?" Liu Yan chuckled through her nostrils, but didn't let go, instead holding it in her lips and mimicking Ouyang Yiming by sticking out her tongue to lick it. Ouyang Yiming said, "So comfortable." Liu Yan withdrew her tongue, biting it with her teeth, and said in a nasal voice, "Is it still comfortable now?" Ouyang Yiming didn't feel any pain, so he laughed and said, "You still want to eat it, huh?" Liu Yan used some force, and Ouyang Yiming felt pain, so he pulled away, crying out, "You really want to eat it? It hurts!" Liu Yan let go, covered her mouth, and laughed a few times, saying, "I just wanted to let you eat it. Didn't you say it looked like a grape?" Ouyang Yiming laughed too and reached out to rub it. Liu Yan said, "It's still comfortable. How come I didn't feel anything? It just felt itchy." Ouyang Yiming said, "I feel comfortable." After saying that, he turned Liu Yan's head and pressed his mouth against hers. Liu Yan rolled over, her hands clasped around Ouyang Yiming's neck, and they kissed passionately. A moment later, Liu Yan felt one of Ouyang Yiming's hands move to her breasts, kneading them, sending a shiver of pleasure through her body. Her hands, which had been wrapped around Ouyang Yiming's neck, unconsciously moved away, stroking his head instead. She sucked on Ouyang Yiming's tongue eagerly. A moment later, Ouyang Yiming slipped his hand inside Liu Yan's clothes, reaching under her bra to knead her soft breasts. Liu Yan felt a pleasurable tingling sensation, but also the pain of her bra being too tight, so she reached behind her back and unhooked it. At that moment, Ouyang Yiming felt his restraining hand loosen, and his hands roamed more freely over her breasts. While Liu Yan enjoyed this unparalleled pleasure, she also felt the hard object pressing against her crotch. She wanted to touch it, but was too embarrassed to reach out. Just then, she felt Ouyang Yiming's large hand cover her private parts. She grabbed his hand immediately, looked at him timidly, and said, "I'm scared." Ouyang Yiming's hand remained still, and he asked in a trembling voice, "Does it still hurt?" Liu Yan said, "After I went back last time, it hurt for a couple of days, but it got better in a couple of days." Ouyang Yiming asked, "Are you still afraid of pain now?" Liu Yan said shyly, "I don't know, I'm just scared." Ouyang Yiming asked, "Afraid of getting pregnant?" Liu Yan said, "Yes." Ouyang Yiming said, "Then I'll expel outside." Liu Yan said, "That's not safe either. I read a book when I went back last time, and it said that even expelling outside has a 30% chance of pregnancy. There are tens of thousands of sperm in one drop, and even a little bit going into the uterus can lead to pregnancy."

Ouyang Yiming felt a chill run down his spine, thinking of Wu Yingying's abortion. But at that moment, he was burning with desire, and it was difficult to control himself. He pleaded, "I really want to, I can't take it anymore." Liu Yan said, "You touched me for a while, and I couldn't control myself either. But I'm afraid, afraid of the pain."

Ouyang Yiming looked at her pitifully, one hand still pressed against Liu Yan's private parts, unable to move. Liu Yan blushed and looked at him, then stood up. Ouyang Yiming was somewhat surprised. He looked up at her and saw her reach into her pocket and pull something out. She then squatted down to face Ouyang Yiming and said, "A couple of days ago, I went out in casual clothes and bought a few boxes of contraceptive film. I don't know if it's effective."

Ouyang Yiming took it and saw a small booklet-like thing. He opened it and saw many pages, each covered with a thin layer of something. Liu Yan lowered her head and said, "I knew you'd want me after we met, and I couldn't win against you. I was worried, so I went to buy some birth control pills or condoms. The saleswoman recommended this one, saying it was convenient. I was worried about its safety, but she said it was safe, made by a legitimate pharmaceutical company. I went back and checked the information in the reading room, and sure enough, they had this kind of contraceptive, and the manufacturer and batch number matched the one on the label. But I'm still worried about its safety."

Actually, Liu Yan lied about what she said. She had heard about this product from Jin Ling that night. The day after she went back last time, she went out in plain clothes and bought it. She felt guilty entering the pharmacy, like a thief. After looking around for a while, she spotted the contraceptive film that Jin Ling had mentioned in the counter. She called over the saleswoman, bought two boxes, and fled the store like her life depended on it.

Looking at the box of contraceptive film, Ouyang Yiming excitedly said, "It's safe, definitely safe." Liu Yan playfully teased, "You're just hoping it's safe. If it's not safe, I'll suffer, but you'll be comfortable." Ouyang Yiming laughed and asked, "How do I use it?" Liu Yan took it and told him, "Turn your face away." Ouyang Yiming was puzzled. Liu Yan then pushed him again and said in a coquettish voice, "Turn your face away."

Ouyang Yiming turned his face away, and Liu Yan said, "Don't look back." Ouyang Yiming agreed, and then heard the sound of Liu Yan unbuckling her belt. He couldn't help but look back and saw Liu Yan tear a piece from the booklet, pull her pants down to her knees, squat down, crumple the contraceptive film into a ball, and reach down from the front, groping around for a while.

Ouyang Yiming knew she was inserting that ball into her body. Looking at her porcelain-white buttocks and imagining that ball she had inserted into her lower body, his whole body felt hot, and his penis swelled up. Liu Yan turned her head back, saw him staring at her, and blushed so much that she threw herself into his arms, pounding his chest and saying, "You're bad, you broke your promise, you said you wouldn't look!"

Ouyang Yiming chuckled, then grabbed Liu Yan's slightly cold buttocks and pressed his mouth against hers. A moment later, he felt Liu Yan's hand move towards his genitals.

Ouyang Yiming freed his hand, unbuckled his belt, bent down, and pulled down his pants, revealing his large member.

Liu Yan reached out and grabbed it, exclaiming, "It's so big!" Ouyang Yiming didn't speak, but his hand moved towards Liu Yan's private parts, touching a wet patch, his fingers probing towards the entrance. Liu Yan hurriedly said, "Wait a minute, you said it would only take five minutes, I don't know if it's dissolved yet."

It turned out that the contraceptive membrane dissolved upon contact with water, causing the medication to dissolve inside the body. Ouyang Yiming didn't move after hearing this. His hand remained there. After Liu Yan finished speaking, she kissed Ouyang Yiming, her hand sliding up and down his erect penis. Ouyang Yiming experienced exquisite pleasure as she grasped and slid it, and after a moment, he couldn't control himself. He picked Liu Yan up and placed her on the ground. Liu Yan gasped, "It's not time yet." Ouyang Yiming seemed not to hear her, panting heavily as he pressed down on her, his erect penis thrashing between Liu Yan's legs. Liu Yan felt uncomfortable from his thrusts and reached out to grab his penis, guiding it towards him. Ouyang Yiming inserted it with a little force.

At the moment of Ouyang Yiming's entry, Liu Yan still felt some pain, clinging tightly to him and saying, "It still hurts, be gentle." Ouyang Yiming responded, paused briefly, and then began to slowly thrust in and out. After Ouyang Yiming thrust a dozen times, Liu Yan felt the pain disappear, followed by a wave of pleasure that intoxicated her. She breathed heavily through her nose, her eyes slightly closed, her mouth slightly open, and gradually, she uttered alluring murmurs.

Ouyang Yiming's body convulsed, his eyes fixed on Liu Yan's slightly closed eyes, his flushed face burning hot. As he thrust, he couldn't help but lower his head to kiss Liu Yan's lips, licking her nose and cheeks with his tongue. He felt his erection inside Liu Yan's warm, moist body—so tingling, so pleasurable, so comfortable… He couldn't describe the feeling. Suddenly, he felt a throbbing inside Liu Yan's body; after it stopped, he could really feel it throbbing, slowly, with a tightening and loosening. Continuing to thrust, he felt as if the tip of his penis was being sucked by something inside Liu Yan, as if his entire penis was being pulled and tugged by something sticky.

Liu Yan's moans grew more frequent and louder. Her arms clung tightly to Ouyang Yiming's waist, her legs twisting involuntarily. She felt that with each thrust of Ouyang Yiming's penis, it touched her deepest part, a little painful, but even more pleasurable. She wanted Ouyang Yiming to thrust forcefully deep inside her, and she wanted him to speed up his movements. For a while, they enjoyed this divinely bestowed pleasure.

Liu Yan closed her eyes and felt it; suddenly, she felt as if something was about to burst forth from her body, and the pleasure intensified. Just then, she felt spasms all over her body, the spasms growing stronger and stronger, feeling somewhat uncomfortable, but this discomfort was pleasurable. She tried to control the spasms, but she couldn't control them as Ouyang Yiming thrust in. Suddenly, she felt a tingling, limp sensation throughout her body, from head to toe.

This feeling was unbearable; she felt a gush of something burst forth from her body. In that instant, she felt as if she were floating on clouds, as if all her nerves were about to collapse, as if her whole body was about to shatter. This feeling made her cry out, open her mouth, and bite Ouyang Yiming's shoulder, panting heavily through her nostrils. At that moment, Ouyang Yiming felt something gushing from Liu Yan's body, his erection shooting out. He felt Liu Yan's body contracting violently, and this intense contraction aroused him even more. He moved rapidly, not even noticing the pain of Liu Yan biting his shoulder. In a wave of intense tingling, his lower back gave way.

They lay there like two skeletons, limp and lifeless, only able to breathe heavily through their nostrils. They didn't even have the strength to open their eyes… After a while, Ouyang Yiming felt a pain in his shoulder and moved slightly. Only then did Liu Yan realize that her mouth was biting Ouyang Yiming's shoulder, and she quickly released her mouth. Slightly sobering up after the passion, she blushed instantly, burying her burning face in the crook of Ouyang Yiming's shoulder. Liu Yan calmed herself down and pushed Ouyang Yiming away.

Ouyang Yiming quickly stood up. After Liu Yan sat up, she reached into her pocket, took out some toilet paper, tore off a few pieces, and handed them to him, saying, "Wipe yourself." Ouyang Yiming took them. Liu Yan squatted down, moved a little distance away to urinate, then wiped herself with the paper, put her pants back on, straightened her clothes, and seeing that Ouyang Yiming was also dressed and standing there, she threw herself into his arms. The two embraced tightly, immersed in the pleasure after their passion.

Ouyang Yiming asked in her ear, "Was the ground cold just now?" Liu Yan shook her head. Ouyang Yiming asked, "Did I hurt you just now?" Liu Yan said, "No." Ouyang Yiming asked,

"Was I very rough just now?" Liu Yan said, "No." Just then, she remembered biting Ouyang Yiming's shoulder earlier, broke free, and asked, "I don't know how I bit you just now, does it hurt?" Ouyang Yiming felt some pain when she asked, but still shook his head and said, "It doesn't hurt anymore." Liu Yan wanted to see, but Ouyang Yiming said, "It's okay."

Liu Yan insisted on seeing, so she unbuttoned his collar and looked down. Sure enough, she saw a mark, and Liu Yan knew that the bite was quite deep, so she touched it with her hand. Ouyang Yiming moved slightly in pain when her hand touched him. Liu Yan felt guilty and blushed, saying, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to." Ouyang Yiming said, "It's okay." Liu Yan looked at him intently, and after a moment, she laughed and said, "I left you a mark too. I gave you one yesterday too, so we're even." Ouyang Yiming laughed.

The two sat down, Ouyang Yiming still holding Liu Yan on his lap. Liu Yan rested her head on his chest and asked, "Aren't you feeling really comfortable?" Ouyang Yiming said, "This feeling is indescribable." Liu Yan said, "Me too. No wonder so many men and women throughout history have been willing to risk their lives for this kind of thing; so this is what it feels like." Ouyang Yiming said, "Yes." Liu Yan smiled and said, "Don't say anymore, or you might not be able to handle it." Liu Yan felt Ouyang Yiming's penis getting hard again. Ouyang Yiming said, "Then let's do it again." Liu Yan said, "No, in a place like this, I'm worried you'll catch a cold, and I can't keep lying on that cold ground. It's not good for you to ejaculate too much either. I'm a medical student; you have to listen to me."

After saying that, Liu Yan stood up and said, "Let's go for a walk and talk." Ouyang Yiming nodded in agreement, and the two went out.

Liu Yan linked arms with Ouyang Yiming as they walked, saying, "I wanted to tell you something when I first arrived, but I didn't have a chance to say it earlier." Ouyang Yiming turned to look at her and asked, "What is it?"

Liu Yan said, "My mother sent a letter a couple of days ago. She asked if I wanted to go back to them, saying I'm almost at the age to find a partner and get married, and it would be better to be together in the future. She said I can't always be away from my parents and wandering around. She asked what my plans are."

Ouyang Yiming was a little nervous after hearing this and asked, "So what will you say?" Liu Yan said, "I haven't replied yet, so I wanted to discuss it with you. Do you think it's better for us to stay here or go back to my parents?" Ouyang Yiming shook his head and said, "I don't want to live with your parents in the future. I'd be suffocated if we were together every day." Liu Yan said, "Are you really that naive or just pretending? Going there means living with them anyway. It's just that we'll be in the same city, so it'll be easier to take care of each other." “I don’t want to either,” Ouyang Yiming said.

Liu Yan looked at him without speaking for a while, then said, “Let’s discuss this seriously. Think about it, our city is quite big, and my parents have many connections there. Getting anything done won’t be difficult. These days, what can’t you do without connections? If we plan to settle there, there won’t be any problem with you being assigned there after graduation. My parents will definitely arrange everything perfectly, and we won’t have to trouble my aunt. After all, parents are closer. They’ll definitely help you find a good job. Besides, after we get married and have children, my parents can help take care of them. No matter what problems arise in our work or life, my parents and their former subordinates can help us. It’s always good to have family around.

Don’t you think that makes sense?”

Ouyang Yiming thought it made sense, but deep down he didn’t want to live near Liu Yan’s parents. He asked, "Have you thought it all through?" Liu Yan rolled her eyes at him and said, "I have my own thoughts, but I'm just discussing this with you. I'm just explaining the reasons. If you don't agree, then we'll try to stay here." Ouyang Yiming asked, "Have your parents told you when you're going to be transferred back?" Liu Yan shook her head and said, "No, that's their idea too. They're asking for my opinion. You know, I left home so young, and my parents are quite worried about me. I've also thought about it. Even if we decide to settle down there, it will be when you're about to graduate. Then I can go for a few months to settle myself down and let my parents find you a job.

I don't want to go back now. I'm afraid of leaving you here alone, afraid you'll stray."

She paused, laughed, and said, "Now you know how good it is to do that kind of thing. If I leave, won't you go find someone else? I'm not stupid." Ouyang Yiming chuckled and said, "You're so cunning." Suddenly, he thought of Bai Xue again, his heart sank, and his face fell.

Liu Yan, oblivious, said, "How many men in the world don't have affairs? I don't trust you either." Ouyang Yiming, still preoccupied with Bai Xue, changed the subject, asking, "You can't reveal our relationship to your parents right now." At this moment, Ouyang Yiming thought of Liu Yan's family again; the difference in their social standing made him feel very guilty. Liu Yan said, "I've thought about it too. If I don't tell them now, I'll wait until you graduate and I'm transferred back before telling them. I can talk to them face-to-face then; some things are hard to explain in letters or over the phone." Ouyang Yiming said worriedly, "That's true. I'm still worried about whether your parents will approve of us."

Liu Yan glanced at him and said, "You actually hope they won't approve? I wouldn't be doing this! I've given you everything now; if I don't stick with you, I'll be at a disadvantage! You just want my parents to disapprove, right? If they don't approve, you can go find Xu Hui again. You're dreaming; don't even think about it."

Hearing Xu Hui's name, Ouyang Yiming's heart sank again. He said strangely, "Why are you bringing her up again? What's going on in your head?" Liu Yan said, "What's wrong with me mentioning her once in a while?

Let me tell you now... " "It's not like before. Back then, this hadn't happened between us. Now it's different. You're inside me. Before, if you had dumped me, I wouldn't have said anything. Now, it's not so easy."

Ouyang Yiming heard her teasing words, but this half-joking tone was also a warning to himself, and he couldn't help but feel a little unhappy. He said, "I'm just worried about whether your parents will agree. I didn't mean anything else. Look at how much you've said. Now I understand, even if you gave me the guts, I wouldn't dare to be fickle with you again."

Liu Yan looked at him and covered her mouth with a smile, saying, "It's good that you understand. I'll remind you all the time. You don't need to worry about my parents. You can rest assured, I've got your back. Just wait to marry their daughter. But I'm telling you, you must marry their darling willingly and happily." "Daughter, I wouldn't dare force you."

Ouyang Yiming smiled and said, "This matter will take some time. Let's seriously consider whether you should go back to your parents' side or stay here, okay?" Liu Yan nodded, thought for a while, and said, "This matter still needs serious consideration. I've thought about it too. I still have a lot of feelings for this city. I came to this city when I was fifteen. Almost all my classmates, comrades-in-arms, and friends are here. I haven't contacted my classmates back home for a long time. I should say I have more feelings for this city than for my hometown. I really can't bear to leave."

Ouyang Yiming said, "That's true." Liu Yan said, "On the other hand, there are many advantages to transferring back, at least you'll be with your family. So I'm really conflicted now. Let's put this matter aside for now, and you should think about it more. But if I'm thinking about you, going back is still better than..." "That's good. With your education and your parents' connections, I'm sure they'll arrange a very good job for you. If you plan to continue your studies for a master's degree, then finding a job will be even easier; a higher degree will make it easier to get employment. My parents won't retire for several more years. Anyway, there's no rush right now, let's think about it slowly. I wanted to talk to you about it in the next few days before writing back. When I write back tomorrow, I'll tell Mom to wait a bit." Ouyang Yiming nodded and then instructed, "Don't mention our relationship in your reply." Liu Yan said, "I know, didn't I just say that?"

After walking for a while, Liu Yan thought about their sexual encounter earlier, blushed, and glanced at him, saying, "Aren't you afraid I'll get pregnant and people will laugh at me?" Ouyang Yiming thought about Wu Yingying's abortion and wanted to tell Liu Yan, but he held back. This matter involved Xu Hui. "We used that contraceptive membrane, didn't we?" Liu Yan asked. "What if something goes wrong?"

Ouyang Yiming said, "There's no such thing as 'what if'." Liu Yan said, "There's always something wrong. You're clearly avoiding the question."

Ouyang Yiming scratched his head, saying awkwardly, "I really don't know what to do. Maybe I should have an abortion." Liu Yan raised her hand and slapped him, saying, "You're quite resentful. Do you know how painful an abortion is? I worked in the obstetrics and gynecology department during my internship, and it was really painful. I'm still scared just thinking about it. I don't want to suffer like that."

Ouyang Yiming wondered what it would be like for Wu Yingying to have an abortion. Xu Hui hadn't mentioned any of this to him; he guessed Xu Hui was embarrassed. He said, "With this contraceptive membrane, it'll definitely be fine." Liu Yan said, "What if something happens? In my opinion, today is the last time before our wedding." Ouyang Yiming knew she was doing it on purpose, so he deliberately made a bitter face and said, "That's like asking me to die! You're really willing to do that?" Liu Yan smiled and said, "I am a little reluctant."

Ouyang Yiming pretended to be surprised and said, "Just a little? Is my life so worthless to you?" Liu Yan smiled and said, "Anyway, I don't want to suffer that pain, so I'll just have to endure it."

Ouyang Yiming said, "Don't you want to?" Liu Yan shook her head and said, "No." Then they both laughed.

Liu Yan said, "I really have thought about it. If something really happens, I plan to go home and have my mother help me find someone to get rid of it, which would officially make our relationship public." Ouyang Yiming said, "Then your mother won't blame you?" Liu Yan said, "What will I care about then? I'm her own daughter. Even if she blames me, it's still because she loves me. Besides, I only got pregnant from the man I'm going to marry. I didn't do anything reckless."

Ouyang Yiming nodded and said, "Hopefully nothing will happen. I don't think there will be any problems." Liu Yan said, "We've never used it before, so it would be a lie to say I'm not worried at all. Let's see after a while. Hopefully, nothing will happen."

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