The Tragedy of Indulgence: The Beginning and End of My First Girlfriend

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Every time I watch those pure and innocent TV dramas, I'm sometimes moved to tears by the beautiful love scenes. I know I cry because I've gained many women, but lost something beautiful in my heart—that pure, innocent feeling. Although I now casually tell my friends, "Women are just like that!" deep down I know that some things, once lost, can never be found again.

First love, first affection—these initial things are feelings born without any material factors. These feelings, accompanied by wildness, propel a man's maturity. A man changing women is actually a kind of walled city. A man who clings to one woman hopes to have more women, while a man who is tired of changing women envies those men who are perhaps forced into monogamous relationships. It's a cycle, an endless cycle.

Speaking of changing girlfriends, I always think of Xiao Yang, because she was my first girlfriend, the woman I was with for three years. Xiao Yang was a virgin, and she thought she could keep me with her sincere love, but she didn't know that when a man's wildness is unleashed, that kind of madness can erase all memories and conscience.

Every time I lie in bed lonely, I always think of Xiao Yang from time to time. The main reason I changed Xiao Yang was because I was too rough with my second girlfriend. Although I eventually changed her by the excuse that "my family didn't approve," I knew very well in my heart that I was young and infatuated with women. I was forced to make the choice to change because I knew that even if I didn't change her, she would have changed me after she found out the truth. The ending would have been the same.

Xiao Yang and I were classmates in college. At the beginning of college, I didn't think about finding a girlfriend because my family was struggling financially. Dating required money, and I didn't have any. I was also a little insecure, so I didn't think about dating. Unexpectedly, Xiao Yang took the initiative to express her love, which I couldn't refuse. I experienced the gentleness of a woman in college.

I'm 181 cm tall and like playing basketball, so I often appeared at school basketball games. Because I have a decent jumping ability, I can easily jump over the rim with one wrist. So, during the game, I would often block the opponent's layup. At that time, because of my insecurity, I liked to win applause from the sidelines.

I'm kind of handsome, and in a tracksuit, I look very sunny and popular with girls. However, while these girls in college liked me, they also knew my family wasn't well-off, so they only admired and cheered me on. No one ever actively tried to talk to me, and I was too lazy to bother them, so I remained single.

I remember one noon during my sophomore year, I was taking my lunchbox to the cafeteria when suddenly a sweet voice came over the school's loudspeaker: "Yang** from **Department**, Class ** is dedicating a song to Zhang** from *Department**, Class **—Waiting for You, and wishing him a happy birthday."

As the song started, my roommates all said to me, "You're lucky, this beauty is interested in you..." Listening to the song, I remembered that this Xiao Yang was a member of the cheerleading squad for our opponents—the Business Administration department—during an inter-departmental basketball game. That time, I scored 31 points, helping our department defeat the Business Administration department. After the basketball game, a girl from the Business Administration department's cheerleading squad walked up to me and said, "You're amazing! My name is Xiao Yang, from the Business Administration department, and I really admire you." Because I didn't want to date in college, I only said, "Thanks, your department played well today too," and then turned and left, leaving her standing there disappointed. I never contacted her again after that.

I was deeply moved by the song Xiao Yang requested for me. Although I don't celebrate my birthday (partly because my family is struggling financially and I can't afford a birthday party), having a beautiful girl wish me a happy birthday still satisfied my vanity. I thought to myself, since she wished me a happy birthday, I couldn't just leave without thanking her, right? What should I give this girl in return? I was also quite troubled because I was short of money.

Just as I was hesitating about what gift to give this girl in return, my phone suddenly received a text message. The message read, "I'm waiting for you downstairs at your dorm, Xiao Yang." Because I was worried that Xiao Yang would be waiting in the boys' dorm and I would become the subject of gossip, I quickly ran downstairs after receiving the message.

When I met Xiao Yang, I felt a little awkward because I had left her feeling aloof on the basketball court last time. I said, "Thank you so much for requesting a song for me today. I really didn't expect you to do it, I'm so touched."

Xiao Yang smiled and said, "Don't be so polite. I just knew it was your birthday today, so I quickly requested a song for you. Also, I bought you a suit based on your height. I'll go back and get it for you now. Come with me to try it on, and if it doesn't fit, you can exchange it."

I was very touched, but since we were just strangers, I felt embarrassed to accept things from a girl. I said, "That's not really appropriate... You shouldn't spend so much. I have the clothes, I appreciate your kindness."

Xiao Yang said, "It's all..." "I've already bought it, there's no point in refusing now, come with me!"

I looked at the clothes and realized I'd already bought them. Refusing now would be too hurtful to the girl, so I said, "I don't know what to say now."

Xiao Yang smiled slightly and said, "Then don't say anything, just come with me!"

Xiao Yang then led me to her dormitory building. As I was about to enter the girls' dormitory, the gatekeeper, seeing it was a boy, immediately said, "Who are you looking for? Male students aren't allowed in the girls' dormitory!" Xiao Yang smiled and said to the gatekeeper, "Aunt Li, this is my cousin. Come upstairs with me to move something, we'll be back in a bit!" Aunt Li, seeing it was Xiao Yang, waved me in.

There was no one else in Xiao Yang's dorm. I asked Xiao Yang, "Where are the others in the dorm?"

Xiao Yang said, "They went to see a movie. I'm all alone now."

When I heard this, my heart couldn't help but pound. When a girl tells a man, "It's just me today," it carries so much meaning. No matter when or what a man hears this, he will think of one thing—sex!

"Here, try this on and see if it fits." Xiao Yang took out the suit she bought for me and let me try it on. The suit fit me well overall, showing that Xiao Yang had put a lot of effort into it. She said, "Button up your suit jacket so I can take another look." So she started buttoning my suit jacket. As she buttoned it in front of me, scenes from many TV dramas flashed through my mind, where wives would straighten their husbands' clothes and help them tie their ties before they went to work. Especially her faint, feminine fragrance made me reach out and hug Xiao Yang without thinking.

After I hugged her, Xiao Yang trembled slightly in my arms, as if hesitating, but also determined. She also reached out and hugged me. Seeing this, I lowered my head and kissed her. Her small mouth was so pure, accompanied by the faint fragrance of her face and her soft tongue. I couldn't control my reaction.

Xiao Yang was wearing a black dress. When I was holding her, I had already touched her soft buttocks, which filled me with endless anticipation to caress her. So I put my hand inside her dress, wanting to touch her private parts. When I put my hand inside her panties, Xiao Yang involuntarily crossed her legs, blocking my hand. She felt that my hand was blocked by her crossed legs and could not move forward, so she slowly spread her legs apart a little to cooperate. I finally touched her vulva and pubic hair.

Wearing sportswear, I easily pulled out my penis. I lifted her skirt and put it directly into her panties. She trembled slightly but didn't make a sound. I was emboldened by lust at that moment, so I put Xiao Yang on the bed, took off her panties, and, breathing heavily, wanted to have sex with her. Because Xiao Yang's private parts were too tight, and I had no experience, I rubbed against her vaginal opening for a long time without being able to penetrate. Finally, I felt a small gap, and with a forceful thrust, Xiao Yang let out a soft moan, and I entered her body.

Because it was my first time entering a woman's body, I felt extremely excited. I had only thrust less than 10 times when I felt I was about to ejaculate. Because I was afraid that the girl would get pregnant, I suddenly pulled my penis out of Xiao Yang's body just before I ejaculated and ejaculated directly onto the floor of their dormitory. At the same time, I saw a little bit of blood on my penis. Xiao Yang had lost her virginity to me.

After I finished, Xiao Yang quickly put her underwear back on, nestled her head against my chest, and laughed, saying, "I'm yours now!" I hugged Xiao Yang tightly, feeling grateful to God for being so good to me, giving me such a wonderful girl.

Later, after graduating from university, I naturally stayed in S city with Xiao Yang. Life was tough for recent graduates; wages were low, but with Xiao Yang by my side every night and making love with her every day, I still felt life was enjoyable and happy, until Xiao Zhao appeared and disrupted my life… Xiao Zhao was my colleague. At that time, I had just been promoted to a junior manager, and Xiao Zhao was also a manager; we were on the same level. Because we were in charge of… The responsibilities differ, and sometimes there's work collaboration. Because I've always tried to maintain good interpersonal relationships, I always put my heart into helping Xiao Zhao's department and did a great job. Xiao Zhao once smiled and said to me, "You're so thoughtful. Any woman who gets you will be truly happy." When she said that, her eyes were a little misty. My wolfish nature told me that this girl liked me.

When a man admires a woman, he uses his imagination based on her feelings towards him. For example, if a woman is cold to you, it's difficult for you to fully imagine what it would feel like to have sex with her in bed. At most, you can look at the woman and imagine what her vagina might look like. That's the most you can imagine. A man's imagination is based on the possibilities between himself and a woman. So, since Xiao Zhao had feelings for me, I naturally thought of a question whenever I saw her: "Wouldn't it feel good to be on top of Xiao Zhao?"

Later, whenever I saw Xiao Zhao, I imagined the scene of having sex with her. Although I kept my mouth shut, having this thought made me unconsciously more attentive to helping her at work. Finally, one day, Xiao Zhao was working overtime, and my girlfriend Xiao Yang happened to be away on a business trip. I was emboldened and said to Xiao Zhao, "It's so late, let's have dinner together..." "Let's go back and work overtime together." Xiao Zhao agreed. During dinner, Xiao Zhao asked me, "Your girlfriend Xiao Yang is so good to you. I see your clothes are always so neat and tidy."

I pretended to be sad and said, "Others think we're good, but actually we're incompatible and it's almost over..." Attention, wolves! If a man wants to sleep with a woman, and you still have a girlfriend, you must tell this woman that you and your girlfriend are about to break up. Otherwise, don't expect to sleep with this girl. Because you need to give her hope; only then can you succeed.

Sure enough, Xiao Zhao was surprised that I would say such a thing. She said, "I think you two are quite a good match?"

I said, "What you see is all an illusion. We've been sleeping in separate beds for a long time now, almost half a year." (This sentence was mainly to tell her that I was very clean and hadn't slept with any other women recently, otherwise girls would think I was dirty because I'd been sleeping with other women.)

Xiao Zhao laughed and said, "Then you must be having a hard time!"

I said, "It's nothing, I don't feel anything anymore. Even if we were lying next to each other, I wouldn't think about that kind of thing."

After hearing this, Xiao Zhao didn't say anything, but looked at me and smiled obediently. I could read longing in her smile.

Back at the company, since she was the only one in her department working overtime, I sensed in her eyes that she wanted something between us. On the way back, I deliberately walked behind her, watching her shapely bottom and imagining myself being penetrated from behind. So, after dropping her off at the office, I lingered there, unwilling to leave.

Seeing that I didn't want to go, she smiled and said, "Aren't you going back to work overtime too?"

I said, "I feel very peaceful with you, so I don't want to leave. I want to stay a little longer."

Upon hearing this, she blushed slightly, and her eyes softened. I thought she would agree at this point, but instead, she said to me, "You already have a girlfriend. It's not good for others to see you here. You should go back right away."

I was so overcome by lust that I completely forgot about my girlfriend, Xiao Yang. I said, "I just don't want to leave."

Seeing me like this, Xiao Zhao could only laugh and say, "Then you stay here. I'll go find another office. You can stay here and just relax, haha."

Xiao Zhao stood up, picked up her laptop, and prepared to leave her department's office. How could I let her go at this point? So I just hugged her. She put her notebook back on the table and said, "Don't do this, you have a girlfriend..." I said, "For you, I can find someone else, really."

Hearing this, Xiao Zhao's resistance softened. I turned around and looked at their office. The curtains were drawn, and besides, it was just Xiao Zhao and me working overtime on this floor. So I let go of her, turned off the lights, and came back to hug her. She symbolically refused again, but then stopped resisting.

So I took off her skirt, touched her pussy with my hand, it was very wet, then took out my penis, put her on the desk, pulled Xiao Zhao's panties down to her knees, lifted her legs, and inserted it under her panties. Xiao Zhao sat on the desk, moaning softly as I fucked her, and I felt very excited too. When I felt I was about to ejaculate, I pulled out my penis and ejaculated directly on the floor.

Xiao Zhao is a bit of a slut, because when I ejaculated outside, when I held my penis, I felt that my penis and pubic hair were covered in sticky, wet fluid.

When Xiao Zhao saw me pull out my penis, she quickly pulled up her underwear. She scolded me playfully, "You're so naughty!"

Seeing that she didn't blame me, I felt relieved and laughed, "I can't help it, you're so attractive, I couldn't help myself."

Xiao Zhao wasn't a virgin, but because she was very wet, it was the first time I had experienced the beauty of a woman other than Xiao Yang. That night, I lay in bed, looking at Xiao Yang's familiar fluffy toy beside me, and my mind was filled with guilt towards Xiao Yang. I wished I could turn back time so I wouldn't have touched Xiao Zhao.

Two weeks later, with the Spring Festival approaching, the company was about to close for the holidays. My girlfriend, Xiao Yang, was still away on a business trip. Xiao Zhao said to me, "Brother Zhang, I'm going back to my hometown. Could you help me pack my things tonight?" I understood immediately. That night, after get off work, I went straight to Xiao Zhao's dorm room. She lived alone. That night, we made love wildly. I fucked her eight times that night, without a drop of blood. No, it happened eight times in total. Because Xiao Zhao's body was so fair, when I saw that fair body being pressed down by me and moaning, I wanted her. And every time she finished, I would get hard again soon after, and she would have to take off her underwear and thermal underwear again. That night, I repeatedly tormented her, but she cooperated the whole time without uttering a single word of protest. As long as I wanted it, she would completely cooperate with me.

When Xiao Zhao woke up in the morning, she picked up her things and prepared to go to the station to take the train home. Suddenly, she hugged me and cried, "Actually, I don't want to leave. I want to stay with you, but you have a girlfriend here. For your sake, I can only go back alone. Waaaaah..."

I hugged Xiao Zhao, feeling conflicted. I could only comfort her, saying, "This takes time. Don't rush. I'll call you later." Xiao Zhao could only agree and obediently went home.

After seeing Xiao Zhao off, I rushed back to the apartment Xiao Yang and I rented. I knew my penis was covered in the fluid from Xiao Zhao's performance last night, so I went to the bathroom to wash it. The cold water stung a little, and when I looked closely, I was shocked. I found my penis was injured; the foreskin around the glans was swollen, and there were some tears inside, with faint traces of blood. I quickly washed it with water. Just then, my phone rang. It was my girlfriend, Xiao Yang. She happily said on the phone, "Honey, I'm back from my business trip today. You suffered so much during this time..." "I'll treat you well tonight..."

When I received Xiao Yang's call, I was completely stunned because my penis was injured. Xiao Yang liked to suck my penis for a while before having sex, which made it impossible for me to avoid the fact that my penis was injured. Moreover, my penis hurt when touched, and I dared not have sex anymore, otherwise my gun might be useless. The panic and regret I felt at that moment were indescribable. I was thinking that if I had done it less with Xiao Zhao last night, I might be fine today. I really hate myself for indulging in Xiao Zhao's body last night, which has led to my current passive situation.

Xiao Yang returned from her business trip that afternoon. I quickly went to my workplace, making an excuse that I was busy. Later that night, at 10

PM, I called Xiao Yang from the office landline to confirm I was indeed at the company. Xiao Yang said with concern, "Honey, you've worked so hard. You go ahead and do your work; I'm going to sleep." I quickly agreed and didn't dare go home until 1 AM that night. When I got back, Xiao Yang was already fast asleep. I managed to avoid the hurdle of lulling her to sleep with sex at night. The next morning, I got up around 6 a.m., and Xiao Yang hugged me, saying, "Honey, I want it."

I said, "I was too tired last night, we can do it later. The company is pressuring me, I have to go..."

And so, I endured each day, hoping my penis would heal quickly, but the injury was too severe. Although my penis was recovering, It still hurt at the slightest touch. Finally, on the fourth day, Xiao Yang sensed something was wrong. She finally snapped and angrily said to me, "I feel like there's something wrong with you. Have you fallen for someone else?"

I quickly replied, "No, don't overthink it."

Xiao Yang stared at me and said, "Then why haven't you touched me for four days?"

I said, "I'm just too tired!"

She cried and said: "I don't think so. You used to want it every day, but now you're acting very strangely, you know? Don't lie to me. If you're so tough, just take it now..."

I was helpless because my penis couldn't have sex, and if Xiao Yang knew I had betrayed her, she would be heartbroken. I was terrified, and at the same time, I kept thinking about Xiao Zhao's pale body and her tears. It was a very contradictory dilemma.

I had no choice but to steel myself and tell Xiao Yang, "My family doesn't approve of our relationship, so let's break up!" Xiao Yang cried even harder, for half an hour. She wiped away her tears and told me that she agreed to break up. I could only remain silent at that moment because I really couldn't say anything.

Because Xiao Yang and I both wanted to leave our former love nest, Xiao Yang moved out first and left. Two months later, she married someone. When Xiao Yang moved out, I moved out too. When Xiao Zhao found out, she rushed over from her hometown that very night and insisted on living with me. And that's how my second relationship began.

Every time I've had sex with a woman a few times and feel like my penis is about to be injured, I think of my first girlfriend, Xiao Yang. While I was enjoying new women, I lost the opportunity I could have had to stay with my one and only woman in the city. The scenery outside the city walls is beautiful, but the chance to go inside is gone. It's a kind of gain, and also a kind of loss.

Every time I watch those pure and innocent TV dramas, I'm sometimes moved to tears by the beautiful love scenes. I know I cry because I've gained many women, but lost something beautiful in my heart—that pure, innocent feeling. Although I now casually tell my friends, "Women are just like that!" deep down I know that some things, once lost, can never be found again.

First love, first affection—these initial things are feelings born without any material factors. These feelings, accompanied by wildness, propel a man's maturity. A man changing women is actually a kind of walled city. A man who clings to one woman hopes to have more women, while a man who is tired of changing women envies those men who are perhaps forced into monogamous relationships. It's a cycle, an endless cycle.

Speaking of changing girlfriends, I always think of Xiao Yang, because she was my first girlfriend, the woman I was with for three years. Xiao Yang was a virgin, and she thought she could keep me with her sincere love, but she didn't know that when a man's wildness is unleashed, that kind of madness can erase all memories and conscience.

Every time I lie in bed lonely, I always think of Xiao Yang from time to time. The main reason I changed Xiao Yang was because I was too rough with my second girlfriend. Although I eventually changed her by the excuse that "my family didn't approve," I knew very well in my heart that I was young and infatuated with women. I was forced to make the choice to change because I knew that even if I didn't change her, she would have changed me after she found out the truth. The ending would have been the same.

Xiao Yang and I were classmates in college. At the beginning of college, I didn't think about finding a girlfriend because my family was struggling financially. Dating required money, and I didn't have any. I was also a little insecure, so I didn't think about dating. Unexpectedly, Xiao Yang took the initiative to express her love, which I couldn't refuse. I experienced the gentleness of a woman in college.

I'm 181 cm tall and like playing basketball, so I often appeared at school basketball games. Because I have a decent jumping ability, I can easily jump over the rim with one wrist. So, during the game, I would often block the opponent's layup. At that time, because of my insecurity, I liked to win applause from the sidelines.

I'm kind of handsome, and in a tracksuit, I look very sunny and popular with girls. However, while these girls in college liked me, they also knew my family wasn't well-off, so they only admired and cheered me on. No one ever actively tried to talk to me, and I was too lazy to bother them, so I remained single.

I remember one noon during my sophomore year, I was taking my lunchbox to the cafeteria when suddenly a sweet voice came over the school's loudspeaker: "Yang** from **Department**, Class ** is dedicating a song to Zhang** from *Department**, Class **—Waiting for You, and wishing him a happy birthday."

As the song started, my roommates all said to me, "You're lucky, this beauty is interested in you..." Listening to the song, I remembered that this Xiao Yang was a member of the cheerleading squad for our opponents—the Business Administration department—during an inter-departmental basketball game. That time, I scored 31 points, helping our department defeat the Business Administration department. After the basketball game, a girl from the Business Administration department's cheerleading squad walked up to me and said, "You're amazing! My name is Xiao Yang, from the Business Administration department, and I really admire you." Because I didn't want to date in college, I only said, "Thanks, your department played well today too," and then turned and left, leaving her standing there disappointed. I never contacted her again after that.

I was deeply moved by the song Xiao Yang requested for me. Although I don't celebrate my birthday (partly because my family is struggling financially and I can't afford a birthday party), having a beautiful girl wish me a happy birthday still satisfied my vanity. I thought to myself, since she wished me a happy birthday, I couldn't just leave without thanking her, right? What should I give this girl in return? I was also quite troubled because I was short of money.

Just as I was hesitating about what gift to give this girl in return, my phone suddenly received a text message. The message read, "I'm waiting for you downstairs at your dorm, Xiao Yang." Because I was worried that Xiao Yang would be waiting in the boys' dorm and I would become the subject of gossip, I quickly ran downstairs after receiving the message.

When I met Xiao Yang, I felt a little awkward because I had left her feeling aloof on the basketball court last time. I said, "Thank you so much for requesting a song for me today. I really didn't expect you to do it, I'm so touched."

Xiao Yang smiled and said, "Don't be so polite. I just knew it was your birthday today, so I quickly requested a song for you. Also, I bought you a suit based on your height. I'll go back and get it for you now. Come with me to try it on, and if it doesn't fit, you can exchange it."

I was very touched, but since we were just strangers, I felt embarrassed to accept things from a girl. I said, "That's not really appropriate... You shouldn't spend so much. I have the clothes, I appreciate your kindness."

Xiao Yang said, "It's all..." "I've already bought it, there's no point in refusing now, come with me!"

I looked at the clothes and realized I'd already bought them. Refusing now would be too hurtful to the girl, so I said, "I don't know what to say now."

Xiao Yang smiled slightly and said, "Then don't say anything, just come with me!"

Xiao Yang then led me to her dormitory building. As I was about to enter the girls' dormitory, the gatekeeper, seeing it was a boy, immediately said, "Who are you looking for? Male students aren't allowed in the girls' dormitory!" Xiao Yang smiled and said to the gatekeeper, "Aunt Li, this is my cousin. Come upstairs with me to move something, we'll be back in a bit!" Aunt Li, seeing it was Xiao Yang, waved me in.

There was no one else in Xiao Yang's dorm. I asked Xiao Yang, "Where are the others in the dorm?"

Xiao Yang said, "They went to see a movie. I'm all alone now."

When I heard this, my heart couldn't help but pound. When a girl tells a man, "It's just me today," it carries so much meaning. No matter when or what a man hears this, he will think of one thing—sex!

"Here, try this on and see if it fits." Xiao Yang took out the suit she bought for me and let me try it on. The suit fit me well overall, showing that Xiao Yang had put a lot of effort into it. She said, "Button up your suit jacket so I can take another look." So she started buttoning my suit jacket. As she buttoned it in front of me, scenes from many TV dramas flashed through my mind, where wives would straighten their husbands' clothes and help them tie their ties before they went to work. Especially her faint, feminine fragrance made me reach out and hug Xiao Yang without thinking.

After I hugged her, Xiao Yang trembled slightly in my arms, as if hesitating, but also determined. She also reached out and hugged me. Seeing this, I lowered my head and kissed her. Her small mouth was so pure, accompanied by the faint fragrance of her face and her soft tongue. I couldn't control my reaction.

Xiao Yang was wearing a black dress. When I was holding her, I had already touched her soft buttocks, which filled me with endless anticipation to caress her. So I put my hand inside her dress, wanting to touch her private parts. When I put my hand inside her panties, Xiao Yang involuntarily crossed her legs, blocking my hand. She felt that my hand was blocked by her crossed legs and could not move forward, so she slowly spread her legs apart a little to cooperate. I finally touched her vulva and pubic hair.

Wearing sportswear, I easily pulled out my penis. I lifted her skirt and put it directly into her panties. She trembled slightly but didn't make a sound. I was emboldened by lust at that moment, so I put Xiao Yang on the bed, took off her panties, and, breathing heavily, wanted to have sex with her. Because Xiao Yang's private parts were too tight, and I had no experience, I rubbed against her vaginal opening for a long time without being able to penetrate. Finally, I felt a small gap, and with a forceful thrust, Xiao Yang let out a soft moan, and I entered her body.

Because it was my first time inside a woman's body, I felt incredibly excited. I had barely thrust ten times when I felt myself about to ejaculate. Because I was afraid of her getting pregnant, I pulled my penis out of Xiao Yang's body just before I came, ejaculating directly onto the floor of their dormitory. At the same time, I saw a faint trace of blood on my penis; Xiao Yang had lost her virginity.

After I finished, Xiao Yang quickly put her underwear back on, pressed her head against my chest, and smiled, saying, "I'm yours now!" I hugged Xiao Yang tightly, feeling grateful to God for being so good to me, giving me such a wonderful girl.

After graduating from university, I naturally stayed in S city with Xiao Yang. Life was tough for recent graduates; wages were low, but with Xiao Yang by my side every night and making love with her daily, I still felt life was enjoyable and happy. That is, until Xiao Zhao appeared and disrupted my life… Xiao Zhao was my colleague. At that time, I had just been promoted to a junior manager, and Xiao Zhao was also a manager; we were on the same level. Because we were in charge of… The responsibilities differ, and sometimes there's work collaboration. Because I've always tried to maintain good interpersonal relationships, I always put my heart into helping Xiao Zhao's department and did a great job. Xiao Zhao once smiled and said to me, "You're so thoughtful. Any woman who gets you will be truly happy." When she said that, her eyes were a little misty. My wolfish nature told me that this girl liked me.

When a man admires a woman, he uses his imagination based on her feelings towards him. For example, if a woman is cold to you, it's difficult for you to fully imagine what it would feel like to have sex with her in bed. At most, you can look at the woman and imagine what her vagina might look like. That's the most you can imagine. A man's imagination is based on the possibilities between himself and a woman. So, since Xiao Zhao had feelings for me, I naturally thought of a question whenever I saw her: "Wouldn't it feel good to be on top of Xiao Zhao?"

Later, whenever I saw Xiao Zhao, I imagined the scene of having sex with her. Although I kept my mouth shut, having this thought made me unconsciously more attentive to helping her at work. Finally, one day, Xiao Zhao was working overtime, and my girlfriend Xiao Yang happened to be away on a business trip. I was emboldened and said to Xiao Zhao, "It's so late, let's have dinner together..." "Let's go back and work overtime together." Xiao Zhao agreed. During dinner, Xiao Zhao asked me, "Your girlfriend Xiao Yang is so good to you. I see your clothes are always so neat and tidy."

I pretended to be sad and said, "Others think we're good, but actually we're incompatible and it's almost over..." Attention, wolves! If a man wants to sleep with a woman, and you still have a girlfriend, you must tell this woman that you and your girlfriend are about to break up. Otherwise, don't expect to sleep with this girl. Because you need to give her hope; only then can you succeed.

Sure enough, Xiao Zhao was surprised that I would say such a thing. She said, "I think you two are quite a good match?"

I said, "What you see is all an illusion. We've been sleeping in separate beds for a long time now, almost half a year." (This sentence was mainly to tell her that I was very clean and hadn't slept with any other women recently, otherwise girls would think I was dirty because I'd been sleeping with other women.)

Xiao Zhao laughed and said, "Then you must be having a hard time!"

I said, "It's nothing, I don't feel anything anymore. Even if we were lying next to each other, I wouldn't think about that kind of thing."

After hearing this, Xiao Zhao didn't say anything, but looked at me and smiled obediently. I could read longing in her smile.

Back at the company, since she was the only one in her department working overtime, I sensed in her eyes that she wanted something between us. On the way back, I deliberately walked behind her, watching her shapely bottom and imagining myself being penetrated from behind. So, after dropping her off at the office, I lingered there, unwilling to leave.

Seeing that I didn't want to go, she smiled and said, "Aren't you going back to work overtime too?"

I said, "I feel very peaceful with you, so I don't want to leave. I want to stay a little longer."

Upon hearing this, she blushed slightly, and her eyes softened. I thought she would agree at this point, but instead, she said to me, "You already have a girlfriend. It's not good for others to see you here. You should go back right away."

I was so overcome by lust that I completely forgot about my girlfriend, Xiao Yang. I said, "I just don't want to leave."

Seeing me like this, Xiao Zhao could only laugh and say, "Then you stay here. I'll go find another office. You can stay here and just relax, haha."

Xiao Zhao stood up, picked up her laptop, and prepared to leave her department's office. How could I let her go at this point? So I just hugged her. She put her notebook back on the table and said, "Don't do this, you have a girlfriend..." I said, "For you, I can find someone else, really."

Hearing this, Xiao Zhao's resistance softened. I turned around and looked at their office. The curtains were drawn, and besides, it was just Xiao Zhao and me working overtime on this floor. So I let go of her, turned off the lights, and came back to hug her. She symbolically refused again, but then stopped resisting.

So I took off her skirt, touched her pussy with my hand, it was very wet, then took out my penis, put her on the desk, pulled Xiao Zhao's panties down to her knees, lifted her legs, and inserted it under her panties. Xiao Zhao sat on the desk, moaning softly as I fucked her, and I felt very excited too. When I felt I was about to ejaculate, I pulled out my penis and ejaculated directly on the floor.

Xiao Zhao is a bit of a slut, because when I ejaculated outside, when I held my penis, I felt that my penis and pubic hair were covered in sticky, wet fluid.

When Xiao Zhao saw me pull out my penis, she quickly pulled up her underwear. She scolded me playfully, "You're so naughty!"

Seeing that she didn't blame me, I felt relieved and laughed, saying, "I can't help it, you're too attractive to me, I can't help myself."

Xiao Zhao wasn't a virgin, but because she was very wet, it was the first time I experienced the beauty of a woman other than Xiao Yang. That night, lying in bed, looking at the familiar fluffy toy of Xiao Yang beside me, my mind was filled with guilt towards Xiao Yang. I wished time could turn back so I wouldn't touch Xiao Zhao.

Half a month later, near the Spring Festival, the company was about to close for the holidays. My girlfriend Xiao Yang was still on a business trip. Xiao Zhao said to me, "Brother Zhang, I'm going back to my hometown. Can you help me pack my things tonight?" I understood. That night, after work, I went straight to Xiao Zhao's bedroom. She lived alone. That night, we made love wildly. I fucked her eight times that night, without any pain. No, it happened eight times in total. Because Xiao Zhao's body was so fair, when I saw that fair body being pressed down by me and moaning, I wanted her. And every time she finished, I would get hard again soon after, and she would have to take off her underwear and thermal underwear again. That night, I repeatedly tormented her, but she cooperated the whole time without uttering a single word of protest. As long as I wanted it, she would completely cooperate with me.

When Xiao Zhao woke up in the morning, she picked up her things and prepared to go to the station to take the train home. Suddenly, she hugged me and cried, "Actually, I don't want to leave. I want to stay with you, but you have a girlfriend here. For your sake, I can only go back alone. Waaaaah..."

I hugged Xiao Zhao, feeling conflicted. I could only comfort her, saying, "This takes time. Don't rush. I'll call you later." Xiao Zhao could only agree and obediently went home.

After seeing Xiao Zhao off, I rushed back to the apartment Xiao Yang and I rented. I knew my penis was covered in the fluid from Xiao Zhao's performance last night, so I went to the bathroom to wash it. The cold water stung a little, and when I looked closely, I was shocked. I found my penis was injured; the foreskin around the glans was swollen, and there were some tears inside, with faint traces of blood. I quickly washed it with water. Just then, my phone rang. It was my girlfriend, Xiao Yang. She happily said on the phone, "Honey, I'm back from my business trip today. You suffered so much during this time..." "I'll treat you well tonight..."

When I received Xiao Yang's call, I was completely stunned because my penis was injured. Xiao Yang liked to suck my penis for a while before having sex, which made it impossible for me to avoid the fact that my penis was injured. Moreover, my penis hurt when touched, and I dared not have sex anymore, otherwise my gun might be useless. The panic and regret I felt at that moment were indescribable. I was thinking that if I had done it less with Xiao Zhao last night, I might be fine today. I really hate myself for indulging in Xiao Zhao's body last night, which has led to my current passive situation.

Xiao Yang returned from her business trip that afternoon. I quickly went to my workplace, making an excuse that I was busy. Later that night, at 10

PM, I called Xiao Yang from the office landline to confirm I was indeed at the company. Xiao Yang said with concern, "Honey, you've worked so hard. You go ahead and do your work; I'm going to sleep." I quickly agreed and didn't dare go home until 1 AM that night. When I got back, Xiao Yang was already fast asleep. I managed to avoid the hurdle of lulling her to sleep with sex at night. The next morning, I got up around 6 a.m., and Xiao Yang hugged me, saying, "Honey, I want it."

I said, "I was too tired last night, we can do it later. The company is pressuring me, I have to go..."

And so, I endured each day, hoping my penis would heal quickly, but the injury was too severe. Although my penis was recovering, It still hurt at the slightest touch. Finally, on the fourth day, Xiao Yang sensed something was wrong. She finally snapped and angrily said to me, "I feel like there's something wrong with you. Have you fallen for someone else?"

I quickly replied, "No, don't overthink it."

Xiao Yang stared at me and said, "Then why haven't you touched me for four days?"

I said, "I'm just too tired!"

She cried and said: "I don't think so. You used to want it every day, but now you're acting very strangely, you know? Don't lie to me. If you're so tough, just take it now..."

I was helpless because my penis couldn't have sex, and if Xiao Yang knew I had betrayed her, she would be heartbroken. I was terrified, and at the same time, I kept thinking about Xiao Zhao's pale body and her tears. It was a very contradictory dilemma.

I had no choice but to steel myself and tell Xiao Yang, "My family doesn't approve of our relationship, so let's break up!" Xiao Yang cried even harder, for half an hour. She wiped away her tears and told me that she agreed to break up. I could only remain silent at that moment because I really couldn't say anything.

Because Xiao Yang and I both wanted to leave our former love nest, Xiao Yang moved out first and left. Two months later, she married someone. When Xiao Yang moved out, I moved out too. When Xiao Zhao found out, she rushed over from her hometown that very night and insisted on living with me. And that's how my second relationship began.

Every time I've had sex with a woman a few times and feel like my penis is about to be injured, I think of my first girlfriend, Xiao Yang. While I was enjoying new women, I lost the opportunity I could have had to stay with my one and only woman in the city. The scenery outside the city walls is beautiful, but the chance to go inside is gone. It's a kind of gain, and also a kind of loss.

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