3. Sexual awakening and ignorant sexual experiences

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As the body and mind grow, sexual awareness naturally awakens.
As a child, I loved reading from a very young age, my mind filled with imagination as I read. Unfortunately, living in a remote, impoverished area, I had no access to books and was always in a state of intellectual hunger, reading everything I could get my hands on. The most common were popular books, such as "Legends of the Past and Present," "The Generals of the Yang Family," "The Complete Biography of Yue Fei," and martial arts series. It seems I was primarily enlightened through reading these books. Occasionally, I would find some history or literature books, which I would treasure dearly. However, some of the books I read were bought by relatives and friends from street stalls while they were traveling, to pass the time. While these books also recounted some strange and interesting stories from the past and present, they mostly contained fabricated palace secrets and scandalous tales, often featuring covers with images of scantily clad women in revealing outfits. When I blushed and felt a thrill while reading these books, my sexual awareness officially began to emerge, and my sexual awakening was complete.
I dared not read such books openly; I could only read them secretly, alone. Sometimes I would curl up in bed at night, and sometimes I would take them out and flip through them when I was alone. When I secretly read these books, especially those with descriptions of romance, my penis would grow on its own, almost bursting out of my pants. My first reaction was naturally embarrassment, and I would always think of ways to hide it so that no one would see. But gradually, sometimes, when I saw that no one was around, I would simply take my penis out of my pants and play with it for a while, stroking it. I was secretly surprised that my usually limp little thing could swell up like this, swell up so big. I slowly, without being taught, also understood the penis's desire to be close to women. If I couldn't be close to women in real life, then I would be close to the people in pictures. Later, I would take magazines and let my penis be close to the faces, mouths, breasts, and bodies of the cover girls, imagining the feeling of real closeness, releasing some sexual desire.
These kinds of things, of course, are always done when no one's around. While doing them, I'm incredibly excited, my face flushed, but at the same time, I'm highly vigilant about any noise from my surroundings, because being caught would be incredibly embarrassing. One particularly vivid memory is of being caught once. I was home alone, secretly reading one of these books. A classmate came over to play, and I was engrossed in my book when I heard the knock. Startled, I asked in an unusually loud voice if it was him, then quickly dropped the book and went to open the door. My face was definitely still red when I opened it. He probably noticed my unusual behavior, and upon entering, he happened to see the cover of the book I had left lying there. I can still feel that intense embarrassment; my face must have been burning red. He didn't say anything, acting as if he hadn't seen anything, just stayed for a while and then left, whereas usually when he comes, he'll stay for a while. Even now, we're still good friends, but we've never discussed sex. We've both been quietly exploring and growing on our own.
Looking back on the innocent sexual experiences after sexual awakening, there are actually some details that leave a deep impression.
One of the details of my naive understanding of sex was my confusion about relationships between men and women, especially sleeping in the same bed. For a period of time, I lived with my uncle and aunt, and even slept in the same large room as them. I slept on a makeshift bed, while they slept in their large bed. Because I was young, I naturally just fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow, and I never witnessed my uncle and aunt's sexual activity. However, one question troubled me for a long time: how could a man and a woman be so comfortable sleeping together? My own answer was because of marriage. But does marriage make it easier to sleep together? It still feels awkward. As a child, I imagined my married life when I grew up, and I knew I would definitely be too embarrassed to take the initiative to sleep with a woman. Hmph, if I got married, I would definitely go to bed first and see if that woman would be too embarrassed to share a bed with me.
The second detail of my naive sexual encounters is that I once secretly fell in love with a young woman in the village. She had recently married into the village and opened a barbershop on the main street. Her clothes and appearance were quite fashionable and avant-garde for the rural area at that time, especially in the summer. I often saw her wearing a tight-fitting dress that accentuated her curves, exuding a fiery aura; you could even see the color of her underwear through the dress. As a naive boy, I naturally wouldn't go to her shop for a haircut. I would often pretend to pass by the barbershop and steal a glance at her. A fiery feeling would shoot from her body and my eyes straight into my heart, making my heart pound, and I would quickly and nervously leave.
The third detail of my naive sexual experiences was that I clearly felt attracted to women. It was probably the summer after I graduated from elementary school, when I went on a long trip. While waiting for my train at the station, I would wander around the waiting room or the square outside. It was very hot in the summer, and both men and women wore thin clothes. Perhaps I was indeed a country bumpkin in the city, but those scantily clad women with bare arms and legs constantly attracted my attention, and my penis couldn't help but quietly become erect.
I have indeed grown up.

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