What Can I Do? My Story with My Former Goddess (01-03)

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Chapter 1 Ever since I started working, I've had a strong aversion to bars and nightclubs. I dislike places filled with alcohol and tobacco, places rife with desire and extravagance. I reject alcohol and related terms like indulgence. I strictly adhere to self-discipline and enjoy the benefits it brings. I practically struggled to escape from the U-Se bar—I didn't understand why someone would choose such a place for a birthday celebration. Even without drinking, I felt incredibly dizzy, a consequence of the intense clash between my inner discipline and the bizarre surroundings. I forced myself to walk into the open-air parking lot, only to see a young woman vomiting violently behind my Portschecaenneturbos. From the glimpse of bright white skin peeking out from between her miniskirt and high-waisted tight top, I was certain she was a stunning beauty. In the dim light of the distance, I saw that the brand-new car was now covered in vomit from her. My earlier excitement instantly turned into anger: "Hey, what are you doing? Get away! Go away! If you're going to vomit, find somewhere else!"
"So what if I vomited?! I'll just let you sleep in for one night!" As she spoke, the woman swayed as she stood up. "He Ruoxi?!" Seeing her face clearly, I felt as if a sledgehammer had struck me hard on the head, making my vision blur and my head spin. I couldn't even believe that the woman in front of me, dressed so alluringly and heavily made up, was actually her! He Ruoxi from my childhood neighbor Old He's family was the "other people's child" in my life—talented, beautiful, and academically excellent. She was my first goddess, embodying my purest and most beautiful memories of the red courtyard, the deep sycamore trees, and the iron swing. Although I later heard many stories about her romantic affairs, I still stubbornly chose to believe that she was still the perfect, unattainable goddess He Ruoxi in my heart. But now, how I wish time could turn back! Then, I would quietly watch her leave, instead of hearing her utter those words! Leaning against the car, He Ruoxi scrutinized me for a long time before recognizing me: "You, you're Shi Sheng?" I had no idea whether my expression was one of crying or laughing: "Yes, it's me… Shi Xiaosheng!" He Ruoxi covered her face in anguish and squatted down: "I'm sorry, I… I didn't know it was you!…"
Didn't know it was me? If she had known, would she still have put on that saintly act? I felt a piece of my heart being ripped away, leaves scattered everywhere, leaving only a dark, ever-thickening expanse. And I, in this icy, bone-chilling pain, was completely swallowed up. "Raise your head, look at me," I trembled, trying my best to make my voice sound calmer. He Ruoxi looked up and met my gaze, then quickly lowered her head again, looking away. After a long while, she secretly exhaled, followed by a seductive scent, a mixture of perfume, alcohol, tobacco, and a kind of libertine allure. However, I utterly loathed this smell, especially on He Ruoxi!
"Where do you live? I'll take you home," I said, my voice dry and my throat sore. He Ruoxi hugged her shoulders, squatting on the ground, her pitiful appearance tugging at my heartstrings. "I have nowhere to go..." "What?" "I've been kicked out by Liu Dong for months, haha..." Liu Dong was the boyfriend I'd heard He Ruoxi's closest to marriage. "What happened?" As soon as the words left my mouth, I thought of the rumors about He Ruoxi: she was a red apricot, an apricot that couldn't be contained. "Then where have you been staying all this time?" Damn it, that was an even stupider question! Seeing that He Ruoxi didn't answer, I breathed a sigh of relief, opened my wallet, took out all the bills inside, and stuffed them into He Ruoxi's arms: "Take it, the weather's changed these past few days, it's quite cold! I have something to do, I'll be going now!" He Ruoxi was stunned for a moment, then stood up. After taking a few steps, she suddenly turned and ran back, grabbing my arm tightly, so tightly it hurt. "Shi Xiaosheng, take me to your place! Please!" He Ruoxi's expression was like that of a drowning person seeing a lifeline. I didn't look at her and said, "I'm sorry, I already have a family!" Yes, I lied. For some reason, even though I've become so used to not being able to distinguish between truth and falsehood, I still felt uneasy lying to He Ruoxi like this. "You're lying!" He Ruoxi chuckled. "Shi Xiaosheng, you're still the same as before, lying and not daring to look me in the eye!" Before? My heart ached. "So many years have passed, everyone has grown up, and everyone has changed. You're not the person I know, and I'm not the person you know. Please let go of me, I want to go home!" I forcefully shook off He Ruoxi's hand, opened the car door, and got into the seat. Outside the car, He Ruoxi's face was ashen. "Did you hear something about me? Did Aunt Zhou and the others say bad things about me?" I sighed and glanced back at He Ruoxi. "No, I haven't been back to the clothing factory in a long time. I know Yang Yong."
Yang Yong was probably the longest-serving and most deeply loving of He Ruoxi's boyfriends. "You think I'm dirty too, don't you?" I didn't answer, but closed the car door and started the car. "That's it. Let's never see each other again. I don't know you, and you don't know me. This is for the best!" Shi Sheng! He Ruoxi jumped in front of the car, spreading her arms to try to block my way. Her expression was almost hysterical. "You just think I'm cheap, right? Yes, I, He Ruoxi, am cheap. I'm just a whore, a slut, that some people can play with if they have money!
Do you think I wanted to live such a promiscuous life? Do you know that my father has been imprisoned! Nineteen years, do you know that? His nineteen-year sentence was earned by me sleeping with those old beasts whose dicks weren't even as long as my fingers for many nights! Do you think I wanted this? Do you think I didn't want to find a good man and live a good life? But I'm a girl. I can't do anything, I can't do anything! Waaah..."
As she spoke, He Ruoxi knelt on the ground and cried uncontrollably. Hearing He Ruoxi's cries, I was momentarily transported back to the clothing factory compound, back to the days of playing house. Back then, He Ruoxi was always the princess, and I was always her knight. To spend more time with her, I often fought with other children, often ending up with bruises and swelling, enjoying her tenderly wiping my wounds with a handkerchief. Suddenly, it started raining. Seeing He Ruoxi soaked to the bone yet still refusing to leave, I couldn't bring myself to leave: "Get in the car!" After all, her name was He Ruoxi. Once in the car, He Ruoxi huddled in the passenger seat, shivering. I drove, the hoarse strains of Pu Shu's "Those Flowers" drifting through the air. "Shisheng, thank you for saving me!" "No need." "If it weren't for you, I might not be in this world tomorrow." "What are you saying!" "Really, I have nothing left. This morning I burned my ID card, household registration book, and everything else, and sold everything I could, just hoping to get drunk one last time tonight, so I can jump into the vast ocean without regrets tomorrow morning."
"You won't die," "Why?" "You can swim, you're a provincial third-level athlete," "That's rhythmic gymnastics!... Heh, okay, Shi Xiaosheng, you're making fun of me again!" "There's no need for that. You'd be begging me to let you live a few more days of decadent bliss." The atmosphere fell silent again. I didn't know what to say, and He Ruoxi didn't know where to begin. "Shisheng, I want to start a new life, is that okay?" "That's your own business," "Can you help me?" "Sorry, I can't!" "Please believe me, this time I'm determined!" "You've said the same thing to countless people countless times," "But this time is different!" "Same as above," "You!... Okay, Shi Xiaosheng, I know it hurts you to see me like this, but you really have to help me!" "Same as above." He Ruoxi stared blankly at me, tears falling silently. I didn't turn around, nor did I see them, but I could clearly feel it, just as I always had, empathizing with her emotions. While waiting at the red light, I turned to look at He Ruoxi: "He Ruoxi, I've already told you, everyone has changed. You've changed, and so have I. I know about your father's situation. Yan Zheng was the presiding judge, and my old man pulled some strings. I don't ask for your gratitude; we all came from the same clothing factory, and I was moved by your unwavering support for Uncle He. But your later choices… let's not dwell on that. You've probably heard about my past. I also had times when I was abandoned by everyone and had nothing. I was probably even worse off than you back then because I didn't have outstanding looks!… I just chose a completely different path from yours. I crawled my way up to where I am today. So, I believe that one's circumstances can be changed. The key lies here and here…"
I pointed to my head and heart, then turned and continued driving. Seemingly provoked by my undisguised contempt, He Ruoxi glared at me angrily, her neck thick with rage: "What do I have to do for you to believe I'm determined to be a good girl?" Remembering the glimpse of white skin I'd seen on He Ruoxi's chest earlier, an wicked thought slipped out uncontrollably: "There's a road in front of Lanting Huafu. Run naked from the intersection to Lanting Huafu, dare you?" "Okay, I'll run naked then!" Before the words were even finished, He Ruoxi swiftly removed her tight-fitting jacket, then her shirt, then her underwear. Parking the car on the side of the road, I suppressed my astonishment and calmly watched He Ruoxi gradually strip down to her miniskirt, stockings, and knee-high socks… When my hand touched the bra clasp, He Ruoxi hesitated slightly, but finally gritted her teeth and took it off, revealing her lace panties. After completely stripping herself naked, He Ruoxi looked at me defiantly: "Drive to the intersection, I'll run naked for you!"
The road was called Willow Leaf Road, and the dense willow trees on both sides made the streetlights appear very dim. Giving me a deep look, He Ruoxi took off her knee-high boots, quickly opened the car door, and jumped into the chilly wind to steady herself. She started running, her steps a little difficult, but her strides were very determined. I turned off the headlights, leaving only the daytime running lights behind her. I must say, He Ruoxi's body was indeed perfect: fair and smooth skin, a figure that was neither too thin nor too plump, straight and long legs, a slender waist, a round and firm bottom, and a beautifully curvaceous figure… Admiring He Ruoxi from behind without any covering, I realized that she was indeed a natural beauty, possessing many assets that could make countless men fall at her feet. Unfortunately, beautiful women often have tragic fates… Reaching the last vestige of darkness before the gates of the Lanting Huafu residential complex, He Ruoxi stopped, turning back to look at me. She held her head high, desperately trying to hold back the tears welling in her eyes, letting her delicate body shiver in the cold wind. I stopped the car: “Sit in the back seat, wrap yourself in the blanket!” “Give me back my clothes!” “You want those clothes that prostitutes wear?!” Saying this, I picked up her clothes, got out of the car, and threw them all into the trash can. The Lanting Huafu residence was originally a client’s pre-marital home—due to some irreconcilable conflicts, he and his ex-wife changed their marriage certificate to a divorce certificate without even having a wedding ceremony, and the house was given to me at a discounted price. I always felt that this house carried a hint of bad luck, like a broken-up couple, so I usually brought girls who kicked tires here to spend the night. Chapter Two: I drove the car into the underground parking lot, opened the door, and looked at He Ruoxi, curled up in the seat like a kitten. "Get out." Perhaps it was the shyness after being naked, but He Ruoxi avoided my gaze. A few strands of hair fell, inadvertently revealing a hint of allure on her forehead. I have to admit, He Ruoxi truly has the beauty to captivate everyone. "I... I don't have any clothes to wear..." "You have a blanket," "But," He Ruoxi gestured, "the blanket is too small. It can cover the front but not the back." Hearing this, I immediately imagined He Ruoxi tightly covering her private parts with the blanket, her back and buttocks exposed to the strong fluorescent lights of the elevator. My heart suddenly warmed. "Are you afraid of being seen? Get out!" I could feel something I had always held onto melting away like snow under the sun. Humiliating He Ruoxi would just fill the void left by that lost beauty. Jumping out of the car, He Ruoxi nervously looked around, then tightly covered her chest with one hand using a blanket, while desperately pulling the blanket down with the other, trying to cover between her legs. Due to the force, two surprisingly round mounds of flesh were squeezed out of her chest, and between her legs, a hazy blackness would appear and disappear with each step she took. The distance from my parking space to the elevator was about forty meters. I believe this was the most panicked forty meters of He Ruoxi's life, especially after the sudden sound of a car starting nearby. Like a deer spotting a tiger, He Ruoxi cried out in alarm and rushed to the elevator, frantically pressing the buttons. I could even clearly see tears welling up in her eyes from shame and tension. Finally, the elevator doors opened, and He Ruoxi immediately slipped inside, only to see me slowly walking towards her. It was clear that He Ruoxi wanted to urge me to hurry, but she knew that the vast difference in our social status made it impossible for her to ask me for anything—besides, she now depended on me for survival. It feels so good to control someone's life and death! Seeing that frightened and helpless head by the elevator door, I felt a surge of satisfaction. As I stepped into the elevator, He Ruoxi slightly arched her body and looked up at me: "Shisheng, what floor do you live on?"
"Um, the 14th floor, I guess!" Actually, I live on the 18th floor. I just wanted He Ruoxi to continue in this state of naked shame, that's all. It seems I've fallen in love with the feeling of disciplining He Ruoxi like this. While the elevator was going up, I pulled He Ruoxi into my arms, and she obediently leaned against my chest. "Shisheng, I'm scared..." "Scared of what?" "Now I only have you. If you don't want me anymore, I'm afraid I really can't go on living." "It's simple." "What?" "To live by relying on me. My request is very simple." "Tell me, Shisheng, I can definitely do it!" Can definitely do it? I looked down at He Ruoxi, the goddess of yesteryear now fallen to the dust, appearing so weak and humble. "I want you dead, can you do it?" He Ruoxi was speechless. I snorted coldly, tightening my grip on her, and she leaned closer to me. "Ruoxi, I won't let you die, and I won't harm you. You know, I'm definitely not a pervert."
"Thank you," He Ruoxi grabbed my clothes tightly, and I could hear the relief in her voice in those two short words. "I'm very possessive, so I like obedient girls." "I will be obedient." "No, I mean, absolutely obedient." "No problem! I can do it!" He Ruoxi looked up at me directly. A little overwhelmed by her burning gaze, I glanced at the screen. "Then, give me the blanket!" He Ruoxi hesitated, looking at me timidly: "Are there security cameras in here?" I glanced at the upper right and nodded: "There aren't any outside. Give me the blanket!" Just then, the elevator dinged, and we arrived at the 14th floor. He Ruoxi was startled, then resignedly closed her eyes, handed me the blanket, and walked out, her body trembling slightly. I followed, took He Ruoxi's hand, and whispered, "If you're scared, close your eyes and come with me!"
"Mmm," He Ruoxi gripped my hand tightly, giving me no chance to break free. I led He Ruoxi into the fire escape, which was pitch black inside. However, a sudden muffled groan from He Ruoxi turned on the motion-activated lights in the stairwell. It turned out the cold touch under her feet was too much for her. "Shisheng, where is this?" "The stairs. I live on the 18th floor." Before He Ruoxi could speak, I walked behind her and lifted her up in a position similar to potty training a child. "Ouch, no!" Realizing she was now spread wide, her genitals exposed to the air, He Ruoxi hurriedly covered herself with her hands. Interestingly, she didn't try to cover her genitals, but rather to cover my eyes. He Ruoxi's pubic hair wasn't sparse, but it was thick and black, giving her a very wanton appearance. "Be good," I said. When I said those two words, He Ruoxi stiffened, then resignedly closed her eyes, letting me carry her step by step towards the 18th floor in this lewd position. On the way, I didn't verbally humiliate He Ruoxi at all. However, the sound of my footsteps echoing throughout the hallway felt like iron whips striking her heart. The moment I carried her into my apartment and closed the door, He Ruoxi knelt on the floor, covering her face and sobbing uncontrollably. I ignored her, went into the walk-in closet, found a brand-new bathrobe, and threw it on the sofa. I said to her, "I don't have any women's clothes here, so just wear this bathrobe. There's air conditioning, so you won't be cold. Go take a shower! You were caught in the rain and ran around naked earlier; don't catch a cold!" He Ruoxi slowly stopped crying, glanced at me with surprise, and a look of gratitude slowly appeared in her eyes. Picking up the bathrobe, she gave me a charming smile: "Thank you, Shisheng!" After saying that, she bowed to me and turned to go into the bathroom. While He Ruoxi was turning to go into the bathroom, I let out a long sigh. I suddenly felt a pang of sorrow, sorrow for He Ruoxi's fall from grace, sorrow for her submissive acceptance of all the humiliations I had inflicted upon her. I could sense the intense urge to live that He Ruoxi felt, like a drug addict seeing heroin. Therefore, I was even more unsure how to face her. Was she still my goddess, or was she just a pathetic creature who could only survive by relying on me? A beautiful woman emerging from a bath is always alluring. When He Ruoxi came out in her bathrobe, I felt my breath catch in my throat: at this moment, He Ruoxi, stripped of all artifice, was like a goddess descended from the clouds, breathtakingly beautiful. Suddenly, a dark thought surged through my heart and occupied my entire mind: to possess He Ruoxi, to tear apart her pride and dignity, to turn her into a plaything to satisfy my dark desires! My fingers trembled uncontrollably as I patted the sofa beside me: "Ruoxi, come, sit down." He Ruoxi sat down next to me, carefully, only half of her buttocks touching the ground. I smiled slightly, pulled her into my arms, and inhaled the familiar yet unfamiliar scent of her hair. "Ruoxi," "Hmm?" "From now on, you'll live here," "Okay," "Listen to me," "Yes, I'll listen to you," "No more cheating," He Ruoxi took a deep breath and nodded firmly, "Yes, from now on I'll only follow you." I nodded, "Then tell me honestly, how many men have slept with you?" He Ruoxi was stunned for a moment, "Do I have to answer?" "Yes," "About thirty, mostly recently, when I was really broke, so…" Thirty?! You really are a whore who sleeps with everyone! I took a deep breath to calm myself, then reached out and grabbed a handful of her breasts. "Take off your bathrobe, sit on the coffee table, spread your legs, I want to see your vulva." He Ruoxi abruptly sat up from my lap, staring at me with disbelief. "Shisheng, what are you doing?" "I already told you," "How could you be so..." "Be obedient," the word "obedient" had an irresistible power over He Ruoxi. Hearing those words, she took off her bathrobe, then sat down on the coffee table with her legs spread, turning her face away. The living room wasn't dimly lit. To increase He Ruoxi's sense of shame, I picked up my phone, turned on the flashlight, and shone it on her genitals, then leaned in to examine them closely. Surprisingly, although He Ruoxi had thick pubic hair, her pubic pigmentation was not severe; it wasn't quite dark, just a darker pigmentation compared to her fair skin. However, the length and width of He Ruoxi's labia were not small, indicating her rich sexual experience. With a gentle touch, the petals would automatically separate, revealing the shimmering pink flesh inside, the urethral opening, and the vaginal opening that kept contracting due to shyness and nervousness. Further down, I saw that He Ruoxi's anus was tightly closed, with only a small, textured round opening visible. The surrounding red flesh formed irregular folds. At this moment, He Ruoxi's anus, like her vagina, was tense and shyly contracting, looking even more alluring. Combined with the surrounding black pubic hair, it appeared even more lewd. "How many boyfriends have you had? I mean, those with whom you've been in a confirmed relationship and slept together," "Seven," "Three times?" I could see He Ruoxi's face was red to the roots of her neck. She nodded slightly: "Yes, but they weren't my boyfriends. None of them penetrated my anus. It was that old pervert from the Discipline Inspection Commission who did it!" "How many times?" "Two, twice," I inserted my finger into her vagina, feeling its tightness and warmth: "Besides a penis, what else has been inside?" "Fingers, a vibrator, a tongue, a dildo, and…" "And what?" "Cherry tomatoes," "Who put them in you?" "That old pervert from the Discipline Inspection Commission!" What a pervert, playing the egg-laying game! I couldn't tell if I felt sad or secretly pleased. I pinched one of her labia and pulled it long. "Ah, it hurts!" He Ruoxi couldn't help but frown and groan softly. I ignored her and pulled the other labia to the same length. "Hiss—" He Ruoxi gasped in pain, but dared not resist in the slightest. I glanced at He Ruoxi's expression and slowly put her labia back down, quite pleased with her submissive behavior. "Have you ever removed body hair?" "Yes, leg hair and underarm hair." "Hmm, I'll take you to get your pubic hair removed tomorrow too!" He Ruoxi turned her head, staring at me with wide eyes: "Why?" "It looks dirty." He Ruoxi lowered her head: "Can I shave it myself?" "No, I want it permanent." "Oh, okay." After thinking for a moment, I went into the bedroom and took out a hard drive, handing it to her: "There's a folder here called zoikhemlab. It contains videos, pictures, and documents. Take a good look at them. From now on, your main activity will be serving me. You need to learn this. I hope you can be like her, learning absolute obedience."
(To be continued) ********************************************************************** Author's Note: Writing isn't difficult, but formatting is. I've tried several times and even posted the wrong post. I'm truly sorry! This article is a record of my life, three parts fiction and seven parts truth. Thank you for reading. If there are any errors, please point them out, moderators and readers. Thank you! [Last edited by wj522]
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