Obsessed with eroticism

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Obsessed with Erotica
I can't remember when I started being obsessed with erotic novels, but I was exposed to things between men and women very early, probably eight or nine years
old, or even younger, in a rural area of Northeast China. It seems like it was during the heyday of Shanghai, and some of us kids
were very enthusiastic about playing house. Led by a few girls who were probably teenagers, we played
games that now seem lewd.
The boys and girls would take off their pants and touch the girl's genitals with their penises. At that time
, we didn't know what to do; we just touched each other. There was no pleasure, just a lot of fun. In
the deep trenches of the Northeast countryside at that time, I vaguely remember it happening many times, but I definitely never penetrated.
The only thing I remember most vividly is that once, a girl much older than me led me to a very deep ditch
. She lay there and made me lie between her legs and touch the spot she told me to touch. I clearly remember
the look of her tender pink vulva, but now I think what she told me wasn't right; it was actually her genitals. That
girl apparently eloped with someone a few years later.
I remember a little boy next door whose mother was mentally ill. I remember it clearly: if you gave her
some treats, like melons or tomatoes, she would suck your penis. That was my first
experience with oral sex. I was very enthusiastic about it at the time, but unfortunately, my abilities were limited. She was quite materialistic; she wouldn't have it without good things
, which were a luxury in the countryside back then. Because of this, I once stole melons from the melon shed in the middle of the night,
but they were always unripe.
Perhaps because of this early exposure to sex, I became very interested in issues related to women and sex after starting school.
I read anything with text, any book I could find. I became a
well-known student, even more so than my teachers (many teachers at that time hadn't even graduated from elementary school). My essays
and letters could be circulated among several schools. Looking back, it was truly an unexpected success; who knew it was this motivation
? By junior high school, I already had a considerable literary foundation. I could basically explain 　　the plot, characters, and themes
of any book I could find from beginning to end .
It was around 1986. Pornographic magazines were flooding the market, and Hong Kong and Taiwanese literature was entering
mainland China. But I was broke then, so I often just wandered around magazine stands, occasionally glancing at the table of
contents and quickly flipping through the pages. Once I'd saved up some money, I'd buy a copy and hide it away from my parents
, collecting them from all over.
That's how I developed the ability to tell the quality of a magazine just by looking at the table of contents, whether it had exciting descriptions
. But it also honed my ability to make money by any means necessary . Even as a little kid,
I managed to sell eggs and vegetables for the highest price, pocketing a little extra.
Soon, I became dissatisfied with the veiled descriptions in magazines and novels. Sometimes I'd embellish some of the more enticing
scenes for myself. Back then, I rarely encountered truly erotic descriptions.
Even a few lines from the lewd monk in *The Sword Stained with Royal Blood*—like, "Your slipperiest spot there"—would make my heart flutter.
Occasionally, when I went out and saw some rather erotic descriptions in those so-called "yellow magazines," I didn't dare take them home. Instead,
I copied them down section by section in a notebook, adding my own imagination. That's probably how handwritten notebooks came about.
Back then, I watched a patriotic film called "The Bloodstained Evidence of the Massacre," which included a
scene where the male protagonist watched his girlfriend being gang-raped by Japanese soldiers. It made my blood boil; I couldn't control myself and immediately wrote a
description of that scene. At that time, I hadn't actually seen any pornographic videos, but the suggestive, almost suggestive,
feeling in mainland films gave you a lot of room for imagination, much more attractive than those that went straight to the point.
I had a very strong curiosity about women's bodies back then, and for a long time, I wondered if women actually had
pubic hair, because the swimsuit beauties on magazine covers always had very clean pubic areas. It wasn't until I spied on
my neighbor using the toilet a few times that I realized women's pubic hair can be quite thick.
I attended high school in a small town, where I first encountered truly beautiful girls. Perhaps because I was just
coming of age, and with my talent, outgoing personality, and well-read knowledge,
I became friends with many girls for a time. Plus, my older cousins were involved in gangs, and I knew some real
underworld figures, so I practically had a lot of influence at school.
Unfortunately, I didn't reciprocate the girls' feelings, and my first love ended before it even began.
Thankfully, eight years later, we rekindled our romance – a miracle!
By my second year of high school, I hadn't even kissed anyone. And because of my failed first love, my personality changed drastically; I became depressed
and often hung out with my friends in video arcades, pool halls, and dance halls. I developed
a strong interest in erotic literature again, encountering my first truly erotic novel, *The Dragon Girl of the Four Seas*, and soon after,
the classic *The Heart of a Young Girl*. There were also many martial arts novels with erotic descriptions.
During my senior year of high school, I became obsessed with the works of Haruhiko Ooki and Shouko Nishimura, with "The Female Star's Revenge" leaving the
deepest impression—it's a classic. Many of Shermillin's series contained considerable erotic descriptions, and I
rented and read almost all of them. But I still yearned for those fantasies.
In Gu Long's "The Sentimental Swordsman and the Ruthless Sword," Lin Xian'er's betrayal of A-Fei by going out to find other men, that state of being able to sleep with anyone but being a virgin only in front of A-Fei, is
a classic.
In college, I became obsessed with martial arts, and besides, such erotic books were extremely rare on campus. Even an experienced reader like me
couldn't find many in rental kiosks or libraries. Few books left a deep impression on me, but
I reached a certain level of expertise in watching pornographic videos. At this point, I started thinking that I must write a book that would make people ejaculate
. Sex is an important part of life, so why can't it be described?
After graduation, money was no longer an issue for me, and I actually bought more pornographic DVDs than rental shops combined.
I could basically tell what was on a DVD just by looking at the description. Damn, thinking about it now, I'm a real pervert.
I began creating erotic literature in its true sense in 1997, but I hadn't yet used computers or the internet, and I didn't know
there were any places to publish it. I was just writing for myself. Because I had a strong connection to the name Bai Jie,
I started using her as the protagonist in my works. Writing by hand in my diary actually honed my handwriting to a considerable degree.
The penmanship is quite skillful, haha.
Bai Jie's profession and initial concept came from a novel called *Green Blood*. The novel's
depiction of the psychological conflict of a woman's submission after being seduced and raped is excellent; you could say I used it as a blueprint for my creation.
Initially, Bai Jie was raped by the principal because her husband lost school money, and she was blackmailed after filming it
. Her husband worked at the same school, and another principal raped Bai Jie in his office;
the scene where her husband knocked on the door was also included. The design included Gao Yi and Bai Jie agreeing to have sex ten times and then stopping, after which Bai Jie became increasingly promiscuous.
Interspersed throughout were scenes of Bai Jie's husband's extramarital affairs. In the initial concept, Bai Jie had a cousin, Xiao Qing, who worked as a secretary.
Her virginity was taken by her boss for 20,000 yuan. On her wedding
day, she was wearing a wedding dress and had sex with her boss in the bridal chamber before her husband returned. This was later changed to having sex in a car while wearing a wedding dress,
but in the final stages of creation, neither felt realistic enough. How to make the plot more logical and realistic
will be revealed in the second part of *The Promiscuous Young Woman*, *Dream*.
In the first part, "Sinking," there's an important character whose story hasn't been fully developed yet: Leng Xiaoyu. Her sinking will
take place in a different life scenario and environment.
The core idea of the entire story revolves around the five campus beauties of the Normal University: Bai Jie, Zhang Min, and
Leng Xiaoyu, who have appeared so far. There are also Fang Fang and Li Liping. Originally, I wanted to dedicate Li Liping's story as a separate chapter to the Mid-
Autumn Festival celebration on the coast, but unfortunately, I didn't have time. I apologize again to the leaders of the coast.
Writing is very hard work
. It's hard not to get excited while imagining extremely lewd scenes, and then you have to type it all out—it's exhausting!
Time is also very precious; it usually takes me three to four hours to write half a chapter, and I often have to give up halfway through.
Also, if any brothers are interested, I can create themed works for the website and collaborate.
This is just a messy piece, written off the cuff. I don't know where to post it; please give me some pointers.

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