Xiaoqian's Self-Transformation Diary (4~6)

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Chapter Four: Video Brainwashing, Psychological Transformation. It was already four o'clock when I got home, far exceeding my expected time. However, I wasn't sleepy at all, only feeling a surge of satisfaction. I had successfully exceeded my task and experienced a spiritual uplift

. After realizing I really wanted to do it, everything felt like progress was happening much faster than before. I slept until the afternoon of the next day. I got up, washed, and ate, naturally still naked. My principle is to constantly reinforce what I can do, and to strive for the highest standard whenever possible.

Next was "reciting the transformation declaration naked." To be honest, I didn't think this was difficult, since it was just a psychological issue. In the end, I realized that one's mind really needs training.

Daily Plan Two: Recite the following text naked and record it as a video to watch every night: "My name is xxx. I am going to transform myself into a completely perverted body. I will undergo the following modifications: removal of shame, exhibitionism training, rope bondage training, electric shock training, wax dripping training, enema training, milk production training, vomiting training, sadomasochism training, semen adaptation, urine adaptation, golden ratio adaptation, oral sex training, anal sex training, sexual endurance training, orgasm training, group sex training, body hair removal, anal modification, labia modification, vaginal modification, nipple modification.

After the modification, I will become a qualified perverted body. The whole process is not forced by anyone else and is entirely of my own will.

[Date]" I set up my phone and started recording. I didn't expect this to be so much harder than I imagined. Just thinking about reciting this passage made me so ashamed that I couldn't speak clearly. And the thought of putting it on my phone to watch every day filled me with a deep sense of fear. What if my parents found out? What if my classmates found out? What if strangers found out? What if the neighbors heard?

I tried several times, but I couldn't finish reading the passage aloud. Instead, my face burned with embarrassment.

This wouldn't do. How could I not even get past this hurdle? I steeled myself, ignoring everything else, and just read it word by word.

I finished reading it completely. When I played it back on my phone, I collapsed onto the bed, my thighs numb and weak, feeling like I'd just recovered from a serious illness. I didn't understand why, but I'd done it.

Next, I started to think about what would happen if someone found out. After much thought, it seemed like nothing was safe.

Finally, I found a solution: read it aloud every day, record it, watch it, and then delete it. This way, I both exceeded my quota and avoided being discovered.

Chapter Five: Adapting to My Parents' Absence. During the week my parents weren't home, I stripped naked as soon as I got home and didn't put on clothes until the next day before school. I have to say, human adaptability is amazing. In just a few days, I completely adapted to this lifestyle. Not being able to strip naked at home when my parents came back made me feel uncomfortable. This made me realize that I definitely needed my own independent space in the future.

I also need to train when my parents are home. What should I do? I thought of a good idea. From that day on, under the pretext of not wanting to be disturbed while studying, I would lock my bedroom door as soon as I entered, so my parents couldn't come and go freely. Also, to quickly open the door when needed, I would use small clips to hold my clothes up to the collar, exposing my chest, and pull my pants down to my knees, exposing both areas.

For the next month, I didn't try anything new because I felt the next two steps would be quite difficult.

I recited the "Body Transformation Declaration" every day. A month passed, and I completely adapted to it, reciting it without any hesitation, even memorizing it.

Finally, my deadline arrived. Today, the weekend, I'm going to start urine adaptation training.

Daily Plan Three: Urinate normally the first time in the morning and at 6 PM; drink all other urine directly.

To achieve this goal, I plan to proceed gradually and have created a urine adaptation training plan.

Urine Adaptation Training Plan One: Use a cup to collect your urine and pour it over your head.

As soon as I finished breakfast, I started to carry out my plan. I didn't go to the toilet that morning; instead, I collected my urine in a glass. Since I'd never done this before, I initially had some difficulty urinating, but after a bit of effort, I finally managed to.

Because it had been accumulating overnight, the amount of urine was very large and very yellow.

I divided the urine into two glasses, carried them into the bathroom, and placed one glass on the bathroom shelf.

Looking at the bright yellow urine, feeling the warmth of my own body inside, I closed my eyes, lifted the glass, and slowly poured it over my head.

The urine seeped into my hair, flowed down my face, shoulders, chest, lower abdomen, back, genitals, and all the way to my heels.

The glass was quickly empty. I closed my eyes, feeling the warm urine. This was the first time I'd ever done this; I'd never imagined it could be done this way before.

I spread the urine evenly on the areas that weren't wet. The urine was slippery, slightly oily, and smelled incredibly foul—it had been accumulating overnight, so it must have been the strongest-smelling urine.

Soon, the urine dried up; after all, it was only a small glass.

Looking at the other glass, I picked it up.

Urine Adaptation Training Plan Two: Catch your urine in the glass and pour it into your mouth. Urine Adaptation Training Plan Three: Hold your urine in your mouth for ten minutes while masturbating. Yes, in Plan Two, you could spit it out after pouring it into your mouth, but I wanted to do it together with Plan Three—pour it into my mouth and hold it for ten minutes.

I closed my eyes, tilted my head back, opened my mouth wide, held my breath, and slowly poured the liquid into my mouth from the glass.

Sour, astringent—instantly, my mouth was filled with a sour and astringent sensation. I suppressed the urge to vomit and started a timer on my phone.

I closed my eyes, savoring the urine in my mouth while rubbing my clitoris.

This was a taste I had never experienced before, especially after a night of drinking urine; the taste was particularly strong. After more than ten seconds, the sour and astringent taste didn't lessen at all; instead, it assaulted my taste buds in waves, and the back of my tongue felt increasingly bitter.

Suppressing the discomfort, I took out my phone and masturbated while watching porn. In the porn, the actress was lying in a bathtub, surrounded by a group of men taking turns urinating on her. She caught the urine in her mouth and swallowed it in large gulps.

Urine is usually bitter, but watching porn and constantly masturbating gradually made my body accept the taste.

I thought it was like training a dog; once it's exposed to two stimuli in a short period, it can associate unrelated stimuli.

As long as I keep associating these normally unbearable stimuli with pleasure, I'll be able to experience pleasure whenever I encounter the same stimuli in the future.

Ten minutes passed, and my phone rang, but I didn't want to spit out the urine; I had finally gotten used to the taste.

Should I just drink it? But even though I had gotten used to the taste, my stomach was still uncomfortable, making it difficult to swallow. I thought, maybe this is the meaning of training; it's not time for that yet.

I spat some into my palm; the saliva and urine mixed together, the color lighter than before. I carefully smeared the liquid on my body, first my arms, then my neck, chest, lower abdomen, back, thighs, calves, and toes.

I used up the liquid in my mouth only on my lower abdomen, then applied the rest using the liquid I hadn't used in my mouth, paying special attention to my labia and anus, applying it three times.

Lying on the bathroom floor, my body covered in urine, I masturbated to orgasm.

Chapter Six: Results of the First Training Phase Today is my last summer vacation in junior high. When school starts again, I'll be a high school student. Two years have passed since I first slept naked. During these two years, I've constantly challenged my limits, completing all the training I could do independently in the transformation manual, and maintaining it daily. Let me introduce my results.

From Monday to Friday, upon waking, I put on my pajamas, go to the toilet, collect half a cup of urine in a wash cup, hold it in my mouth, and then defecate. The first time I defecate, I wipe

myself with toilet paper and smell it. After defecating, I spit the urine into the toilet and flush it away.

I eat breakfast without rinsing my mouth, brush my teeth, drink two large glasses of water, and go to school.

I take off my underwear in the alley near the school gate and put it in my backpack.

During the first break, I usually feel the urge to defecate, but I don't go to the toilet, holding it until the second break. Towards the end of the second break, my bladder feels like it's

being pricked with needles. At the second break, I go to the toilet, take out a small tube with a funnel at one end, plug it into my urethra, and suck the other end into my mouth to drink the urine. Because I drink a lot of water, this urine is almost transparent and has the mildest smell.

Before lunch, I go to the toilet again and drink the urine. This time, the color is a slightly darker yellow, and the smell is stronger.

Afterwards, I went to the cafeteria for lunch with my classmates.

The urine smell in my mouth lessened considerably after the meal, so I chewed a Wrigley's gum to remove the lingering taste.

After the second period in the afternoon, I went to the toilet. This time, my urine had turned a deep, dark yellow, unsuitable for drinking again, as it could damage my kidneys.

After dinner, since I was in my final year of junior high and preparing for the high school entrance exam, I attended evening self-study sessions as usual on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, but not on Tuesdays and Thursdays, supposedly to study at the library.

In reality, I went to the library, to a VIP booth, and watched two hours of hardcore movies. The rules were

: one movie would play on a loop for a week, no fast-forwarding, no masturbation, and headphones at high volume, as headphones were soundproof and I wasn't worried about being heard. The brainwashing effect of this looping and loud playback was that I unconsciously memorized various details from the movies, and my dreams at night were basically filled with these movies playing on repeat in my mind.

The movie genres were SM, semen drinking, urine drinking, smut, and penile enlargement, and I've roughly played about 50 related movies on a loop.

Back home at 10 PM, I first put on my underwear in the fire escape before entering the house, lock my bedroom door, read a pornographic novel for half an hour, write down my work plan, and make plans for the next time.

At 11 PM, I urinate normally, lie in bed naked, and use my phone to hide videos and files. Every day, I watch a pre-recorded "affidavit" and masturbation video before going to sleep.

Masturbation is not allowed from Monday to Friday. In principle, masturbation can only be done while holding super-concentrated urine in my mouth and smelling feces.

That is, masturbation is only allowed on Saturday and Sunday mornings, but I cannot reach orgasm.

Saturday and Sunday are different from school days. In the morning, I masturbate once while holding urine in my mouth until I ejaculate, and I don't flush the urine out; I spit it into my breakfast that day.

Then I eat the breakfast after thoroughly mixing the urine with the food.

After breakfast, I brush my teeth with the remaining urine, then drink 500 ml of water and keep the air conditioning at 26 degrees Celsius. I watch a graphic film while watching something intense, as the low temperature makes my hands and feet cold and causes frequent urination. Initially, after about 30 minutes, I drink the urine along with another 200 ml of water. The frequency of urination increases, and around 11:00 AM, I enter my favorite urination cycle. My stomach feels uncomfortably bloated, and as long as I don't control my sphincter, urine flows continuously into my mouth, lasting about an hour. At noon, I stop drinking urine and urinate into the bathtub.

I eat lunch at noon, and around 12:30 PM,

I pour hot water into the bathtub and take a urine bath.

Because the urine is actually quite diluted, aside from the psychological pleasure, there's no urine smell after the bath.

After cleaning up, I start studying, still urinating into my mouth when I need to use the toilet.

On the last weekend of each month, I also do a monthly training session.

First, I would take the subway to the edge of the city, then deliberately lift my skirt to let the men opposite me see my hairless genitals.

Afterwards, I would go to an arcade near the school. The sensor-operated toilet flushing system there was easily disrupted, so I would wait in the next stall for someone to defecate. Afterwards, they couldn't flush and had to leave, so I would sneak in, wipe myself with a tissue, and then masturbate while inhaling the smell. This was the only time a month I was allowed to orgasm; all the stimulation from the past month could only be released this time, usually resulting in a complete mental blank.

By the time I graduated from junior high, I had completed the first phase of training.

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